Title - Sunshine Follows Thunder
Chapter title - Finally
Author - OblivionsGarden
Genre - Romance/Drama
Disclaimer - I do not own My Mad Fat Diary or My Fat Mad Teenage Diary, in anyway shape or form. I only own my original characters and the plot for this fic. For this chapter I own, Teddy.

A/n - Please read and review, I'd greatly appreciate it. Hope you enjoy, xx (:

Mum subjected me to a very long rant about my running away from the hospital. My excuses of not wanting to be in another hospital bed didn't seem to go down well. She asked if I jumped. At which point Rae's eyes were on me. I said no, insisting I was clearing my head but fell. Mum bought it, Rae smiled but I could tell she didn't believe me. Mum called Kester and promised to take me back to the hospital in the morning, saying I just wanted to sleep tonight.
Rae dragged me into her bedroom, stopping me from changing out of the hospital gown I was still wearing. We sat on opposite ends of the bed, just watching each other.
"You didn't fall did you?"
"I did actually. But...I wanted to." I sighed. "I was working up the courage to jump and then Finn said my name. I didn't hear him come up and he made me jump. I turned around to face him but missed my footing and fell."
"Why though?"
"You know how Kester is always saying it can just be one little thing that can cause a relapse?"
"What was it?"
"Remember I told you about Lucy? I saw her this morning. She just made me feel so crap. Exactly how I used to feel at school." I sighed once more. "Just sometimes people say things and I believe them."
"And what about now? Do you wish you were still at the bottom of the river?"
"No. I realized when I was unconscious just how lucky I was with the friends I have."

Eventually at quarter to eleven I was back in my own room. I found out my headphones, plugging them into my CD player and hitting play. I skipped past Morning Glory and listened. There were a few good songs we'd both talked about before. Some Pulp, some Stone Roses, etc. Then the song I least expected started to play.
"You with the sad eyes. Don't be discouraged. Oh I realize. It's hard to take courage, in a world full of people. You can lose sight of it all. And the darkness inside you, can make you feel so small."
Finn was not the type of person I thought of when listening to Cyndi Lauper. I personally thought Cyndi Lauper was great but not so many music lovers around me agreed. *Cough*Rae*Cough*. True Colours was a song I knew of but, again had never paid attention to the message in the lyrics. That first verse said alot alone.
"But I see your true colors shining through. I see your true colors and that's why I love you. So don't be afraid to let them show. Your true colors, true colors are beautiful. Like a rainbow."
Did he mean for me to get a message from this song? A message more than being myself and being happy. It said, 'and that's why I love you'. Is that something he knows is there and wants me to hear or just a coincidence?
"Show me a smile then, don't be unhappy. Can't remember when I last saw you laughing. If this world makes you crazy and you've taken all you can bear. You call me up. Because you know I'll be there."

I made sure mum and Karim were in bed before sneaking downstairs. I lifted the house phone from the receiver and dialed in Finn's number. His dad answered on the third ring.
"Hello?"
"Hi. Sorry about the time but I really need to talk to Finn, it's urgent."
"I'll see if he's awake." His dad sounded annoyed but reluctant to be rude over the phone.

A few minutes later and a sleepy voice drifted through the receiver.
"Yeah?"
"It's Teddy."
"Ted? What's up, has something happened?" His voice was now so alert and I couldn't help but feel a sense of smugness that it was me who caused it.
"No. Well, yes. I finished listening to the CD."
"Oh..."
"The last song...Cyndi Lauper."
"Yeah."
"Not what I was expecting from you."
"Did you get what I wanted to say though." He even sounded awkward on the phone.
"That's why I'm calling. I'm kind of dense." A chuckle straight into my ear. "I got the 'be yourself' message."
"Good."
"But...There are some other lyrics I was confused about."
"Which?" I could practically hear the smirk in his voice now.
"I see your true colours and that's why I love you..." I sung in a soft low voice, so as not to wake anyone up.
"You have a really beautiful voice, y'know." I blushed, thankful he couldn't see me. "And the lyrics are self explanatory."
"Really?"
"Mm hmm."
"Right." I struggled to keep my voice calm. "You going to the pub tomorrow?"
"Uh...Yeah." I could tell that wasn't what he was expecting me to say.
"Right. I'll see you there. I have a surprise."
"What kind of surprise?"
"The secret kind. I have to see Kester in the morning but I'll make sure I'll be at the pub in the evening...See you, Finn."
"See you Teddy."

I made one more call that evening to Archie, who was luckily still wide awake. After that I went back to bed with a huge smile and my heart practically overflowing.

"Rae are you going to see the gang?" I asked as I dressed.
"Yeah, why?"
"Can you do me a favour and tell Finn that if anyone asks, I fell by accident. I don't want people thinking I'm sick again." I pulled on my black converse and left my bedroom, meeting Rae on the landing.
"Sure. But just so you know, they'd all be there for you."
"I know. I just don't want them to think they need to be." I smiled. "I've got you and I've got Finn. If I need anyone else, I'll ask for their help."
"Will you though? You seem to have this thing where you don't want people thinking you're weak."
"I'm not weak. But honestly, if I need help, I'll ask. I promise."

"You're adamant you fell, then?" Kester didn't believe me but there wasn't much he could do about it.
"I did. I know you don't believe me. I don't care."
"Teddy...You said you were up there clearing your head. Why?"
"I felt crap."
"Elaborate. Please."
I sighed, shifting uncomfortably in my seat. "I bumped into a dick from school and she made me feel like I used to. Then she made me think I was on my own so I went up there to get her out of my head. OK?"
"I can't help you unless you are completely honest with me."
I stood from my seat, moving to sit on the window sill. "Alright. I believed everything she said and yes I went up there with the intention of throwing myself off. I had second thoughts and then Finn showed up and scared me. I missed my footing and fell and if I have to explain that to one more person I'm going to tear my hair out."
"And how do you feel now? Do you still believe things she said?"
"No...When I was unconscious I remembered all the fun I've had since I came to Stamford. I have a fantastic sister and a mum who, does her best. Even Karim is pretty cool. I've got closer to Finn than I ever have with any other person before. Chop is such a laugh and a great friend, Izzy's fantastic, Chloe is brilliant and Archie is wicked. He didn't even shout at me when I called him at quarter past twelve this morning."
"Why the early phone call?"
"I needed to ask him a favour."
"Oh?"
"I'm gonna perform at the pub." I grinned. Yeah, I actually smiled at the thought of getting on stage in front of a pub full of people.
"Are you ready for that?"
"I think so. Everyone will be there to support me if I'm not."

I had to quickly go back home to pick up my guitar before heading to the pub. Archie met me outside, smiling and embracing me in a hug when he saw me.
"How are you?"
"I'm good. Nervous but, good."
"You'll be fine. C'mon, we'll go around the back."

Archie lead me around to the back door of the pub and inside behind the stage.
"Do you want to go now or would you like a drink first?"
"I'll go now before I throw up." From my position, I could see the gang sat in our usual spot. Finn was on the sofa style seat against the wall beside Chop. He kept looking at the door and then at the clock on the wall as though he were waiting for someone. I hoped it was me he was waiting for.

Archie stepped up onto the stage receiving a brief applause. I noticed the gang frown, not expecting a performance from their spectacled friend.
"Uh, I'm not performing tonight. But a good friend of mine is. She's a bit shy so be nice. Teddy..."
I climbed up onto the stage kissing Archie on the cheek and pulling the small wooden stool closer to the mic.
"I'm Teddy and I'm going to do a song that came out last year. It's for some friends of mine..." I trailed off as I clutched the neck of my guitar tightly, unable to look anyone in the eye. I strummed the first chord of the song, looking down at my hands before beginning to sing.

"Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you. By now you should've somehow realized what you gotta do. I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now." I could see a few people I didn't recognize singing along to the popular song. "Back beat the word was on the street that the fire in your heart is out. I'm sure you've heard it all before but you never really had a doubt. I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now."
I glanced up at Rae, who was beaming, as I sung the next part. "And all the roads we have to walk are winding. And all the lights that lead us there are blinding." She nodded in understanding.
I turned my focus for the first time to Finn. His dark eyes were trained on me, never flicking away."There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how." The corners of his mouth turned upwards a little. "Because maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me. And after all, you're my wonderwall." His mouth spread into a fully fledged smile now, obviously seeing I truly meant the words even though I didn't write them.
"Today was gonna be the day but they'll never throw it back to you. By now you should've somehow realized what you're not to do. I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do, about you now."

I finished the song, amazed when the pub erupted into a round of applause for my performance. I thanked everyone and dissapeared off the side of the stage. I told Archie to tell everyone I'd be back soon and that I was just dropping my guitar off at home. I so wanted to just run over to Finn and kiss him but I managed to stay calm and do what needed to be done.

I only got two streets away from the pub when I heard a familiar voice call my name. Hiding a smile I stopped walking and turned to see Finn running over. He smiled when he came to a stop.
"Did you mean that?" He gestured behind him, to the pub.
"Yeah." I smiled, looking down to my feet.
"Good."

He stepped closer pressing the palm of one hand to my cheek. He leant forward until his soft lips met mine in a long awaited kiss. My stomach flipped but in the most pleasant of ways as he pulled away with a small smirk.
"I'll walk with you." He said in a low voice.

We walked together in a comfortable silence before Finn spoke.
"How was your session this morning?"
"Good. I told Kester the truth abut why I was at the docks. But I also told him some stuff about when I was unconscious and he doesn't think I need to be back in hospital."
Finn breath a sigh of relief. "Thank god. I though he was going to put you in hospital."
"Thank god?"
"Well...You know..."
"No?"
"I just managed to sort of tell you how I felt about you and I didn't want you to be taken away from me."

I stopped walking when I heard his words. That was the most Finn had ever actually said out loud about how he felt.
"Sorry." He looked away, scratching the back of his neck in embarrassment.
"Don't be. You don't talk much but when you do it's nice."
"Guess I'll save whatever needs saying for you then."