I apologize a thousand times for neglecting the story to this extent-...

It's just-...

I'm not happy with it... :C

What I'm saying is that I want to rewrite it, but I have kind of lost- well, the initial goal, the point of the story. I've forgotten what road I wanted it to take. Yeah, I know about the possessive-sadistic Hichigo actually doing more than possessing Ichigo during a fight that I had going, I don't know if you liked it, I just-... I'm not happy with the story... It was a few years I uploaded this for the first time and I am SO UNHAPPY WITH IT!

I need advice from those who are actually reading this fic:

How would you want this to turn out? I need a bit of inspiration. I still want the Hichigo being possessive and sadistic thing, but I've lost the goal of the story. If you have any suggestions, I implore you; give me your theories and I can maybe peace something together from that

Should I rewrite this story (simply updating the chapters or deleting it all) or should I leave it as it is?

I think I have evolved as a writer throughout the time I've been away, though it still takes a lot of time which I am not proud of admitting. I have ADHD and need something to keep me invested ALL. THE. TIME. otherwise my head will spin and focus on other things to entertain itself, so much time goes away when I think hard and lose focus. It's shit, I know, but it's shittier for me... It's like I'm trapped inside my own mind, it's hard so don't judge me... All I am asking right now is that those who do read this fic, have good patience and leave feedback more frequently. I'd love to make the story the best that it can be and you who do give feedback could contribute to the story becoming better!

I'm basing this story on the philosophy of "many worlds". The "many worlds theory" is best explained; For every desision you make, there is a different reality for another decision. Let's say you wake up next morning and you're presented with many alternatives to start it of: You have cereal for breakfast in the 1st universe, in the 2nd you have sandwiches for breakfast, in the 3rd you go right back to sleep after going to the toilet leading to you coming late to an appointment and/or work. In the 4th you decide to go out for a run before you do anything else. MANY other storytellers probably don't know of this theory, but I've seen MANY of them doing the same. Writing about a universe where everything worked out a bit differently. For example: There is a universe where Ichigo doesn't manage to save Rukia. There is a universe where he dies when Ichigo fights against Rukia's brother Byakuya. There is a universe where Rukia and Ichigo never meet- there's an UNCOUNTABLE AMOUNT of universes out there for possible outcomes of other decisions you could have made. Now, my point with this is-... is there really any point to write about an alternative universe THIS FAR BACK into the series when Bleach ended not too long ago? :C It feels unoriginal to go back to the beginning, but it'll be hard for me to start at the end with everything that has happened and Ichigo's upgrades and- all of that. I can barely remember it all. I feel like I need to start at the beginning because I remember most of it, but at the same time it feels so unoriginal for taking it so far back... I just need an answer to this because I am VERY conflicted... Should I delete this fic altogether because of it being told from the beginning?

Those who do read this fic, I would love for your feedback.

I'm in a bit of emotional crisis, help me. QnQ