Hey guys, quick update I know but I just couldn't stop myself from writing! Ugh I got too excited.

Anyway I just wanna thank some people who reviewed on the story so far and I thought it would be nice to give you feed back on your reviews.

So..

Warm-Amber92- Yeah I know Kikyo is going to be that kind of person during this story. Not all the time though because that wouldn't be realistic of course.

Kagsyasha- Thank you for the grammar advice, I don't have Microsoft word and sometimes open office doesn't recognize those kind of mistakes so I get caught off guard. Especially my hands are flying away at the keyboard because I have the idea for this chapter planned out. So bare with me. And yeah the last line to chapter one is my favorite, it shows a strong sense of character for Kagome.

Christopher and a guest- thank you I like this story too. Whisk Me Away is personally one of my faves but this one is getting up there.

Alright so now that that is out of the way let's continue shall we?

Chapter 4: Who I Use to Be

"Awe come on Kagome don't be so down about it." Rin said as she scooted closer to Kagome. When Kagome came into the room with that sad look in her eyes almost half an hour ago Rin knew everything was not alright, and when Sango came in talking about how Kikyo was demanding things from her again Rin knew why.

"Yeah Kagome, Kikyo has always been like that." Sango said as she put a warm arm around the tired girl.

"I guess it was stupid to think he might like me. I am his servant after all, and I've only known him a few hours. I guess I just wanted someone to like me." Kagome said with a shrug of the shoulders.

"Truth be told this is the most I've ever heard you say." Sango said with a grin, Kagome smiled and nudged the girl with her arm. "Ah, there is the smile." She said before plucking her hands through Kagome's hair. "Mr. Taisho has always been a lost puppy for Kikyo to manipulate, don't take it too hard."

"It's just he ordered us lunch and wanted me to call him Inuyasha. It felt like there was something there." Kagome sighed.

"You sound just like Rin did when-"

"Don't say it Sango!" Rin said through gritted teeth before giving Sango a deadly glare.

"What? You and Sesshomaru have something and you know it!" Sango exclaimed.

"We do not! He is Mr. Taisho's brother and that is it!" Rin said stomping her foot onto the floor.

"What about Inuyasha's brother?" Kagome asked looking back and forth between the two girls.

"When Rin first came here Sesshomaru took a big liking to her." Sango said.

"He did not!" Rin exclaimed.

"He did too! That's why he forced Mr. Taisho to put you on kitchen duty so you wouldn't have to clean the rooms!" Sango shouted.

"He did that because we're friends!" Rin retorted.

"He did that so he could see more of you!" Sango said with a wide grin as Rin started to blush. "Because he is the big strong muscular accountant. And with his office right next to the kitchen he can always see you." Sango stated.

"Really Rin? That is so sweet." Kagome said giving Rin a soft smile.

"Yeah well it was a friendly kindness and that is it. Now come on we are here to comfort Kagome." Rin said trying to rub away the red from her cheeks.

"There's nothing to comfort. I should have known Inu...Mr. Taisho would not like me. He merely took me from the camp to be a servant and that is it.." Kagome said with a slight shudder. Every single word that left her lips left a faint taste of vinegar on her tongue, and every breathe she took stung at her heart, throat and lungs. She wanted to crawl up in a hole and be forgotten, merely because she felt so stupid for believing Inuyasha would ever like her.

"Men, they never know what they want. And when they finally do it is too late. My ex-boyfriend left the moment he found out I was pregnant, and I never looked back. It was me and my baby boy against the world, and he would never be a coward like his father." Ganet once said to Kagome.

"What was his name?" Kagome asked.

"His name isn't worth my breathe hun. Don't ever call someone by there name if they aren't worth yours."

When they had free time Kagome liked to envision Ganet as a therapist or guidance counselor. She always had the greatest advice, and she knew how to survive pretty well.

"She's zoning out." Rin said before flicking Kagome's shoulder.

"What? Oh sorry.." Kagome said looking at both Sango and Rin's worried expression.

"Anything you wanna talk about?" Sango said scooting closer to Kagome.

"Not now.." Kagome said bringing her gaze down to her hands.

"Well, if were done talking about Sesshomaru and Mr. Taisho, maybe we can talk about Miroku." Rin said in a flirtatious tone as she looked at Sango.

"What?" Sango said glaring back at Rin.

"How was the date last night?" Rin asked.

"You have a boyfriend too?" Kagome asked looking Sango.

"Yes she does." Rin squealed.

"Oh please he is not a boyfriend. He is Mr. Taisho's best friend and that is it." Sango stated as she got up and went over to the dresser. "And the date was fine thank you very much."

"Oh I knew it! Where did you go?!" Rin asked as she jumped up from the bed and ran over to Sango.

"We went to a movie. He was just as much of a lecher as usual but he wasn't too bad with compliments." Sango said.

"Tell Kagome how you met. Oh Kagome it is so romantic you have to hear it!" Rin said giggling as she sat back down next to Kagome.

"Well?" Kagome asked looking up at Sango.

"Well.." Sango said grabbing the wooden chair from the corner and bringing it to rest in front of the two girls. "I came to work for Mr. Taisho around a year ago. When Rin came Mr. Taisho was too tired to pick her up so he sent Miroku to get her. She had cut her hand on the way out of the camp and since I am the medic or well I have a medical history I was called to meet her and Miroku. I guess you can say it was a like-at-first sight ordeal because when I got outside he wouldn't stop looking at me."

"And you couldn't stop looking at him!" Rin exclaimed.

"Oh shush this is my story and I will tell it as it saw it." Sango said as bright red color shined onto her cheeks. "Moving on, as I was patching up Rin he was interested in hearing my story, so I told him and then after that he said the most sweetest thing to me." Rin began to giggle uncontrollably as Kagome waited to hear it "He said I've met a lot of woman in my life, but none that have made my heart sing like you do."

"Awe that is so sweet.." Kagome said feeling her heart melt.

"Psh. It was definitely something he read in a book, but the way he said it was breathe taking and it made me feel amazing." Sango said with a happy sigh.

"That is really sweet." Kagome said with a smile. After a few moments of silence Kagome looked up at Sango and raised one eyebrow "What did you mean by my story?"

"Oh..you know. Just about how I got to the camp and..ya know.." Sango said running her hand up arms.

"Can..i tell you guys..my story?" Rin asked looking at both of the girls. Sango was taken back by this, Rin was always cheerful and willing to talk, unless it was about her past. She and Kagome exchanged glances and then nodded towards Rin who sighed. "One day I was bringing my little brother to the ice cream parlor. He had just got money from the tooth fairy and wanted a chocolate and vanilla swirl and I promised him if he brought home a 100 on his math test he could get one."

"When we got there he was waiting for him ice cream so I decided to go outside and buy a newspaper. I told him to wait inside for me to come back, but when I got to the newspaper stand the man asked if I could go around the back and bring a new stack to the front. Being the goody two shoes I am I did it, but when I walked behind it two men grabbed me and dragged me into an alley."

Rin brought a hand up to her eyes to wipe away a tear before continuing "I thought they were going to rape me. But instead they threw me into a van and took me to one of the under ground slave trades. I was told I got the easy life, because I got three full meals a day, new clothes every month, and a warm shower. But it still didn't help that I was being held against my will. After 5 months Miroku came and said I was being transferred, and I've bee here ever since. 10 months and happy as can be...but I still miss my family.."

"Rin..oh my god I am so sorry.." Sango said as she hugged the crying girl.

"Me too.." Kagome said joining in on the hug.

"Thanks guys..i use to be a bit of a chubby girl..and I was dyeing my hair red but since then I kept my hair brown. I wouldn't dare ask Mr. Taisho if I could dye it." Rin said with a sigh before giving a soft chuckle.

"I guess it's my turn isn't it.." Sango said before scooting back into her seat.

"You don't have too Sango.." Kagome said.

"No..I want to..." Sango took a deep breathe and then looked at both of the curious girls. "I was at school, I had just finished a test and got let out early so I decided to go and pick up my prom dress from the tailor. I didn't even make it four steps off the high school grounds before I was shoved into a van by a big guys, drugged, and then forced into a stupid camp." She brushed her hair back from her neck and showed them the burn in her neck "Model 35. I heard I got put in the 'nicest' camp because we got good food and didn't have to do hard labor, but no matter what camp your in being taken away from your family and friends is never easy..."

"So I spent four horrific weeks in that place. I slept in a bed with three other woman, I showered every day and then went to work. I was one of the lucky ones, I heard about woman who got dragged away and tortured. One of the guards kept making jokes about doing it to me, but before he got the chance Mr. Taisho came and took me away. I guess I owe him a lifetime." Sango said bringing her eyes to rest on her hands.

"Oh wow Sango.." Rin said looking at her branded number "You must be one of the first people taken.."

"That's what I thought, but it turns out they've been doing this for years.." Sango said.

"I was wondering.." Kagome said looking at the girls "How is Inuyasha able to take the girls from the camps.. is he involved?"

"Hmm...that's actually a good questions. He is a great boss so I can't see how, but it is something I am curious about." Sango said.

Rin brought her hand over her neck and touched her numbers. "I can't see him being involved..." She brushed her hair behind her ear and showed her marking "196.."

Kagome sighed and then brushed her hand behind her ears "227...does that mean it's time for me to share my story?" Kagome asked.

"Only if you want to.." Rin said running a hand over Kagome's shoulder.

Kagome nodded and then sighed "It was a Saturday morning and my mom forgot to pick up my little brother Souta's favorite cereal and I didn't want her going alone so I went with her. When we got close to the supermarket a van pulled up near us and I pushed my mom out of the way when two men tried to grab her." Kagome shuddered at when she remembered the look on her mother's face as she turned back to look at Kagome. "The two men grabbed me and pulled me into the van, drugged me and then took me to the camp. I could faintly hear my mother screaming my name as we drove away, but now I can barely remember how it sounded. I stayed there for two months, lost twenty pounds and befriended a girl named Ganet.

"She helped me out a lot, told me what to do and helped me avoid guards. She gave me tips on how to keep my clothes on my body since we only got one pair. Sometimes she snuck me some extra food, and constantly gave me advice to keep me strong. She saved my life..the week before I left she was killed by the guards and everyday after that I wish I could have returned the favor. I was a coward."

"No Kagome..you weren't. You were just scared." Sango said sitting next to the crying girl.

"I could have done something through...anything. She may still be alive." Kagome said rubbing her eyes. "She was like a mother to me..."

"Please don't cry Kagome." Rin said hugging her. "I know how hard it must be..I can't even remember my mom and dads voices anymore."

"I can't remember what my little brother Kohaku's voice sounded like. My dad how ever I can, but my mom died when I was young.." Sango said resting her chin on her hands.

"I wish we could see them.." Kagome said.

"Me too.." Sango added.

"Me three.." Rin added.

"Well..now we have each other right?" Kagome asked looking at both of the girls.

"Yeah your right.." Sango said with a shy smile. She looked over at the clock on the dresser and smiled "Well, 5:05 you know what that means!"

"Dinner!" Rin shouted as she jumped up from the bed and out of the room. Sango got up to follow her but stopped to turn and look at Kagome.

"You coming?" She asked.

"I'm not hungry..i think I'm gonna go to sleep." Kagome said.

Sango sighed "You sure?"

"Yes." Kagome said grabbing the blanket from her bed and pulling it over her body.

"If you change your mind the kitchen is the first door by the stairs okay?" Sango added before leaving the room. Kagome snuggled herself deeper under the blanket and sighed. She was desperately hungry but the thought of seeing Inuyasha made her kind of nauseous.

"Ugh, I hope this doesn't become on of those crappy romance stories.." Kagome sighed as she closed her eyes and hugged her pillow tightly.

"Hey Sango hey Rin." Miroku said as he stepped into the kitchen. He smiled at Sango before grabbing a chair and bringing it over next to her. "How is my love?" He asked.

"She is fine thank you." Sango said before stabbing one of the spinach raviolis on her plate with her fork. She promptly shoved it into her mouth and chewed away at it violently before looking at Miroku. "What are you staring at?"

"You my love." He said with a flirtatious smile.

"Well stop it before I hit you." She said. He got up and gave a light nudge to her shoulder before going to the buffet table.

"My dear you need to be more willing for this relationship." He said as he loaded up his plate.

"Why? So you can continue to assault my ass with your lecherous hand?" She said.

"My dear it is not assault." He remarked.

"Then what is it?" She asked.

"Grooming." He said with a small chuckle as he sat back down next to her. Out in the hallway there was a slam of a door and then the noise of two people have a low argument.

"I don't care Inuyasha." Kikyo mumbled under her breathe as she made her way to the kitchen. "I have to go out on this business trip and you can't stop me."

"I don't like you hanging around this Naraku guy so much." Inuyasha stated.

"Well I do...he..is a good employer and I need this promotion so stop fighting me." She said as she pushed her way into the kitchen. She gave a crooked smile and then looked at Miroku. "Oh lecher, lovely to see you."

"Oh bitch, nice to see you crawled out of your cave." Miroku said as he ate away at his food. "So how'r you rewening mmy bwest fends life tuday?" He asked with a mouth full of food.

"Chew your food hunny, or you'll have to go live in the gave." She snorted as she grabbed a plate and went to the buffet table.

"Where's Kagome?" Inuyasha asked as he followed Kikyo's lead.

"She wasn't hungry." Rin said.

Inuyasha mumbled something under his breathe as he piled food onto his place. "Why do you care hunny? She's just another servant." Kikyo said as she took her seat on the opposite end of the table.

Inuyasha shook his head and sat down next to Kikyo, not wasting a breathe on answering the rudely asked question. After a few seconds of silent eating Sesshomaru came to join the party, filling his plate and then taking his seat next to Rin.

Sango giggled, and Rin elbowed her bringing the attention of all around them to rest upon their silly actions.

"Rin how was your day off?" Sesshomaru asked trying to keep his eyes on his food.

"It was good how was yours?" Rin asked.

"Hardly a day off since baby brother gave me a new account to handle." Sesshomaru said glaring at Inuyasha.

"Sorry but work is work, if you wanted the day off to take Rin out you should have asked." Inuyasha said as he took a bite of his special prepared ramen.

Kikyo's phone began to rang and in an instance she was up and excusing herself from the table. Inuyasha sighed as she left and then looked at the crowd of stares he was getting. "What?"

Everyone's face fell back onto their food as they silently ate, anxiously awaiting Kikyo's return. When she finally did come back all that happened was completely expected, She told everyone she was being called out on a "special meeting", fought Inuyasha a bit and then left.

Inuyasha finished eating his food in silence until he remembered something. A specific someone wasn't at the table and he needed to go pester her. He got up and grabbed a plate and started to prepare it for her.

"Still hungry Inuyasha?" Miroku asked as he watched his friend.

"No this is for Kagome." He said as he finished loading the plate.

"She's sleeping Mr. Taisho." Sango said as she took another bite of her ravioli.

"Well she has to eat." Inuyasha said walking to the door.

"I really don't think you should do this.." Rin said a soft tone.

"Why not?" Inuyasha said looking back at her.

"Because you confused her." Sango said swallowing her ravioli.

Inuyasha rolled his eyes and turned to face Sango completely "And how did I do that Mrs. Know it all?"

"Oh come on? You ordered lunch for you both and then you let Kikyo kick her out?" Sango said.

"Inuyasha really?" Miroku said leaning forward onto the table.

"It was Kikyo what was I suppose to do? Let her become irrational?" Inuyasha asked.

"If you know she would become irrational why are you dating her?" Miroku asked pointing his fork at Inuyasha.

"Because..uh. Stop it and let me bring this to Kagome!" Inuyasha exclaimed as he quickly left the room.

"He likes her." Sesshomaru said as he crossed his arms over his chest and leaned back.

The group of three turned to gawk at Sesshomaru. "What?" He asked. Instead of answering the three turned back to their food to eat, still amazed at how Sesshomaru had something outspoken.

"What?...what did I say?"

Kagome turned onto her back and groaned when she heard the hard knocks coming at her door. She threw her legs out of the bed and tossed off the blanket. "Coming" She said as she stood up and went to the door. She tiredly grabbed the door knob and opened it to find a smiling Inuyasha with a plate of food.

"Oh..uh hi.." She said looking at him. "What..do you want?"

"You didn't come down to eat, and you said you would eat at dinner. Since you broke your word I am going to force feed you." He flashed another smile and Kagome sighed opening the door to let him in.

He went over to the bed and sat down, he patted the spot next to him and waited for her to sit. "I heard you are upset about what happened earlier with Kikyo."

"How did you..Sango." Kagome said with a sigh. She opened her mouth when Inuyasha brought a small ravioli up to her mouth and rolled her eyes when he flicked it in.

"You shouldn't be upset." He said as he pecked another ravioli with the fork and waited for her to swallow.

"Eawy fer you to sway." She said as she chewed and then swallowed the ravioli. "You weren't rushed out of room after your boss just ordered you food."

"Sorry about that." He mumbled as he put another ravioli in her mouth. "It's just..Kikyo gets what Kikyo wants."

She chewed and swallowed the ravioli "What about what Mr. Taisho wants?"

"Inuyasha and he doesn't know what he wants anymore. Well no not true he does but he has a lot of responsibility that stops him, plus Kikyo doesn't like certain things." He sighed.

"What certain things does he like?" She said before taking another ravioli into her mouth. The whole situation sent off a romantic vibe that Kagome desperately tried to avoid.

"Bowling, football, late night swimming, eating fast food. Kikyo isn't a sport person, always has a meeting to go to, and doesn't like eating fatty foods. I'm surprised she even ate the ravioli tonight." He said maneuvering the fork around the food in the plate.

"Well I don't see why she wouldn't like those sports. And burgers are the world. Well my world at least." Kagome said as she opened her mouth one more time for a ravioli.

"Well maybe I'll take you out to a fast food restaurant and let you pig out." Inuyasha said as he forked the ravioli and plopped it into Kagome's mouth.

She chewed the ravioli and then shook her head showing she was full "Thanks Mr. Tai-"

"Inuyasha, please Kagome." He pestered.

"Inuyasha. Thank you." She said walking over to the door.

"No problem. How about tomorrow after your done working with Maddie I take you to dinner at the fattiest most greasy burger joint in the whole city?" Inuyasha asked.

"Sounds great, but what about Kikyo?" Kagome asked.

"She is going on an "emergency" work related vacation with her manager Naraku." Inuyasha said.

"Oh okay. Then fine I'll go. What time?" Kagome asked.

"How about 6?" Inuyasha asked.

"Sounds good. But now if you please Inuyasha I do have to go to sleep." She said walking over to the door.

"Haha, well then." Inuyasha smiled as he got up and went to Kagome. "I'm really am sorry about earlier. I should have said something I know, I promise it wont happen again."

"Don't worry about it, see you tomorrow." She said opening the door.

He smiled and gave her a quick kiss on the forehead and then nudged her shoulder "Sleep tight Kagome." And then he was gone. Kagome closed the door and leaned her back against it letting out a deep sigh.

"Good night...Inuyasha..."