Hello everyone!
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Having said that, I must warn you that in this chapter the temperature will start to rise a bit and if this can disturb you in any way I suggest you to skip the first scene.
I don't consider it particularly heavy but, if you prefer, you can go on, it will not change the narrative sense of the chapter anyway.
Hope you like it, I leave you to the chapter.
When I grow up I want to be patient.
"Hi Captain"
Levi looked up at the woman who, apparently, entered his office without permission.
She was dressed in only a long shirt; her creamy-skin legs moved silently in his direction making him immediately hard.
He swallowed a bit, her tone was low and provocative, and her gaze was more than the usually flirting she always did. This was the sexiest thing he'd ever saw.
"What are you doing?" asked Levi, trying to hide his desire towards her.
That damn woman.
He felt weird, he didn't know how to explain it but it felt too good.
She walked painfully slowly, without talking.
He would normally be pissed but at that time every good intention had gone to hell, he couldn't think straight anymore.
The only thing his brain could record was her, before him, almost naked but too much dressed at the same time, with a feline look on her face, so inviting.
She approached him, smiling so proud of herself, ignoring every word he told her, and sat on his lap.
He felt her wetness, naked on his own trousers, and locked his hands on her hips, pulling her nearer to him, completely blocked-out.
The only thing he could understand were her lips moving against his, asking for entrance.
She was wearing only that fucking shirt, and he wanted to rip it off her.
Their kiss was hot, almost eating her and pushing her against him, sinking his hands into her blonde hair.
He had no idea who encouraged her to do that but he began to mentally thank whoever it was.
He felt everything so deep: the soft of her hair, the smoothness of her legs and her core pressed so firmly against his lap, and his hardness twitching against her.
He wanted her.
When she, then, rubbed on him, he completely lost control.
With a sharp wave of his arm he pushed everything he had on his desk to the ground, regardless of where it fell or the ink that was staining the sheets, and pulled her up with his free arm, holding her by her thighs and taking her to lie down on the wooden surface.
He violently tore off her shirt, blowing off all the buttons and finally being able to admire her naked body in all its beauty.
"God, you're beautiful" he murmured, unable to look away.
She lifted her back sitting up to help him open his pants, letting them go down his legs while their lips were engaged in another breathless kiss.
"Take me." were Elizabeth's words, before he, with a decisive movement, filled her completely, then began to push quickly, hearing her moan.
That was the best sound he had ever heard and he wanted more.
She was tight but so wet for him, every moan she made was like music to his ears. A music he didn't want to stop listening to.
In the room it was possible to hear only the sound of their skins rubbing against each other and their disconnected moans.
Levi was short of breath; he was panting in Elizabeth's ear as she hugged him as tightly as possible, almost as if to literally become one.
The captain felt her legs tighten more and more, then tremble as she let out a louder moan, a sign that she had reached her orgasm.
That sharp verse, that way of pronouncing his name was the final blow for Levi, who came shortly after, emptying himself completely inside her.
He pulled away slowly, feeling her delicate hands stroking his hair and the grip around his hips loosen just enough to let him out.
Then he saw nothing more.
The sensation of Elizabeth's skin was soon replaced by that of his mattress under his back and the sheets covering his body.
Sleep left his body making him aware of what had happened: he had had an erotic dream about her. Again.
He ran his hands over his face.
"Shit."
The sun wasn't high yet but it would allow him to perform all his duties calmly and tidy up before going out.
He pulled the sheets off him, standing up with a yawn as he headed for the shower to wash himself.
He had to get Elizabeth out of his head.
Of course, admitting that to Erwin didn't help, for the simple fact that he hadn't admitted him only to the Commander but also to himself.
Elizabeth woke up in a good mood that morning. Levi's voice did not leave her mind even for a moment.
Sometimes she felt almost stupid at the thought of feeling such a thing, she was a soldier not a girl in her first crush, even though despite her young age he was really the first man who she cared about like that.
She was always interested only in surviving and keeping her pride intact, the only thing that no one could take away from her.
Even during the training they had not succeeded; the more her male companions tried to challenge and beat her, the more she proved her worth, beating them to the best of her abilities and always encouraging herself to give the best.
Then Levi arrived and his entire house of cards collapsed.
Since joining the Survey Corps she had drastically improved in combat and the ability to face titans thrilled her.
Then there was him: whenever he cast that gray gaze on her she felt good. She felt invincible.
"You are hiding something from me." Petra murmured as the two left their room to join the others for breakfast. "Tell me everything."
"I don't know what you're talking about"
Petra arched an eyebrow, pausing at the door with her arms folded.
"Yeah and that smile you have from eye to eye doesn't mean anything, does it?"
Elizabeth hesitated a little. It was true that she wanted to talk to her about it but she didn't want to hurt her. She still feared that Petra might be suffering from the closeness between her and the Captain and felt torn with the desire to tell her everything as if they were two simple friends and not soldiers who should defend humanity.
There were times when even the two of them just wanted to feel like two normal girls. Then the pervasiveness of Petra convinced her, forcing her to tell her what she had heard from outside Erwin's office the night before. And the particular event on the roof.
"So he's giving in. The Captain is quite cold but is evident that something in him has changed. Be proud of yourself."
And Elizabeth felt really happy. It was the first time she had felt such a strong sense of belonging with someone other than her brother. In the end, the training camp didn't just take but it also gave her something.
Elizabeth was fighting with Gunther, honing some hand-to-hand combat techniques, when Levi joined them. Evidently returning from a meeting, recognizable by the expression more bored than usual and somewhat annoyed, he began to observe them one by one.
That technique was new, it required more effort and a better grip than the others but, if done correctly, -Elizabeth was sure-, it could be of great help. It had taken her months but in the end she had succeeded and she was now starting to show it to others too, after having had the consent of her superiors, and they worked on every training to integrate it in their schemes.
If the cadets thought that the Survey Corps was just cutting off some titan's nape, they were very wrong; Elizabeth was learning this at her expense.
The Captain's eyes studied all of them carefully, every single gesture was recorded by those gray and intense irises, but the one who had the most effect was certainly the blonde who still could not get that event out of her head.
She was even more determined to prove her worth and she couldn't wait to finish that session so she could stop him and talk to him.
What she did not expect was to see almost total disinterest in her and him to focus more on Eld and Oluo working alongside them. It was as if he hadn't noticed her either, glancing past her to focus on her companions. His gesture hurt her but she didn't know what he was hiding instead.
Levi, on the other hand, couldn't stop thinking about that damned dream and the guilt made its way into his stomach, twisting it around itself just hearing the sound of her voice.
He was completely fucked up, he was sure now, but it wasn't normal for a woman to have that effect on him. He was a soldier, he could not succumb to mere instinctive desires, however intense they were.
He saw Elizabeth lean forward to dodge a blow from Gunther, turning on her back and then hitting his partner's face with her elbow and then again with a kick, but that first gesture made him disconnect from reality for a few moments.
It had become something of an obsession by now.
His brain instantly remembered one of the dreams about her, bent forward like that but with him behind her, and it wasn't quite the kind of fight they were having.
Levi shook his head. He couldn't disrespect her like that. He wasn't just her captain, he was also a person she trusted, - trust fully reciprocated-, and he certainly couldn't treat her that way. She wasn't just an object to satisfy a man's cravings, she was so much more. But he feared that 'more'.
He feared the implications a relationship would have, especially if he later died. He would have made her suffer a lot. At the same time, he no longer wanted to suffer the death of another person dear to him, but his heart had decided to give him another chance, obviously, going to become attached to her.
He had no idea how to do it .
When Levi declared the end of the training for that morning, thus leaving them to go to lunch, Petra approached Elizabeth, silently urging her to go and talk to the captain, with a single nod of the head pointing right in the direction of the man.
Elizabeth drank some water to hydrate herself and waited for Hange to finish talking to Levi, leaving him alone for a few moments.
"Captain can I have a word with you, please?"
Shit.
Elizabeth's figure appeared in front of him with a look so sweet that he felt his stomach twist again, but he decided not to give it to it and he appealed to all his self-control to keep his face rigid.
Emotionless.
It wasn't easy at all, not when she was in front of him and he knew perfectly well what she wanted to talk about.
But he couldn't do it.
However, at the same time she remained a subordinate that wanted to talk to him and he could not deny it if not for serious reasons. Excuses that didn't occur to him at the time.
Or maybe, after all, he didn't want to look for that excuse.
"Yes."
"I'd like to talk to you about a thing, can I-"
"Levi, I need you here."
To save the Captain was the Commander, who arrived just at that precise moment and draw the attention of Levi, with his head lowered on some sheets to notice that he was talking to Elizabeth.
"Next time."Levi said, grateful to Erwin that came to get him out of this situation.
"Yes, sir."
When Erwin raised his head and saw him with the blonde, he almost thought of giving up and telling him that he could join him later but the Captain was already on his way to him.
Elizabeth clicked her tongue on her palate, mentally, and sympathetically, cursing her Commander, who looked at her for a moment as if to apologize.
That day for Elizabeth was busier than usual.
The Captain managed to avoid talking to her three more times; every time she got his attention somebody bothered them, something fell off or he was urgently called for a meeting.
In the end she decided, at least for that day, to give up. Maybe it wasn't the right time, she just had to be patient and wait to find the Captain at a quieter time. Yet she didn't understand why it seemed that, right now, he was even busier than usual. Was it possible that the man never stopped?
The afternoon was set free for them so that they could review some tactics and regain strength for the next expedition they were starting to organize.
Hange spent a couple of hours with the two-colored eyes blonde, making her forget the fact that Levi was blatantly ignoring her.
She hadn't escaped his relieved looks every time he had to leave, even though he did everything he could not to show it.
In the evening, after her usual chat with Petra, she decided to spend some time on the roof, this time looking for some solitude because, she would put her hand on the fire, he would not show up.
She sat in her usual place, right next to the one she used to leave to the Captain, as if it were now a sacred and untouchable thing, but always there beside her.
The stars were particularly visible that day and she lost herself in looking at them, recognizing some thanks to the teachings of her brother from some stolen books.
How much she missed him! Who knows what he would have said to her when he knew what situation she had gotten herself into.
He always had a word of comfort whenever she got into trouble, but this trouble was something completely new to her. And she would have lied if she had said she wasn't afraid of it.
She had a very strong sensation in her chest, a warmth that she liked, but it terrified her.
She still remembered very well the pain she had felt at finding her brother's lifeless body.
And that pain still hammered in her heart.
She feared that Levi might not have the same feelings about her as she did, even though he had admitted that he liked her, and she didn't want to leave heartbroken again.
So absorbed in her thoughts, she did not notice that behind her there was a person, leaning against the door jamb with his shoulder, watching her in silence.
The moonlight illuminated her gaze, making the green eye even brighter, and Levi couldn't help but get lost in that vision.
He had to see her.
But when he arrived he had found her so focused that he didn't feel like bothering her.
Funny, he had been avoiding her all day and now he was looking for her...
He decided to let it go and, silent as he had arrived, he went back to his office.
When Elizabeth felt a strange sensation pervade her, she turned towards the door, but there was no one there.
As soon as he returned to his desk, ready to do some paperwork, Hange rushed into his office, with a serious look on her face, without knocking and with her arms crossed.
Levi raised an eyebrow, annoyed.
"What did you do to Elizabeth?"
"What the fuck do you want shitty glasses?"
Hange leaned against the desk with both hands, pressing to emphasize how bothered she was by Levi's attitude. Because even though Elizabeth hadn't told her anything, she knew he had something to do with it. Or that he knew something.
"Elizabeth was weird this morning. Her mind was somewhere else and I know for sure it is your fault."
Levi didn't have the slightest desire to play, much less with her. She was, perhaps, the only person who, in a sense, he could respect of what was his old team. And he decided to give her at least that.
"I almost kissed her."
"You... what?!"
Hange's eyes widened, straightening herself unable to formulate a meaningful sentence. She would have expected everything but not this!
"You heard me. I almost fucking kissed her."
"You love her." Hange's gaze softened as she gave the captain a sweet smile.
"I don't love anyone."
"No. You think you can't love anyone. It's different."
"Why do you even care?"
Hange folded his arms again. Levi's emotionless facade didn't reveal much but a closer eye, and a little experience of knowing him, was enough to understand that there was much more behind it. And Levi, at this case, had to be encouraged to act.
"You're the strongest soldier alive, but you're also a friend. You have to chose wisely not with your head but with your heart, for once. Love her or let her go. But if you let her go you will break her, and then I will break you."
"Do you really think I'm scared by your threat?" Levi raise again his eyebrow but then he leaned better with his back against the back of his chair, closing his eyes for a moment. "I can't lose someone else for the titans' fault. The further away she is from me, the better it is, at least she will survive."
"She's a soldier, she's going to fight against titans anyway. She likes you, don't push her away. You're going to hurt yourself too. You're stronger with her, you know."
"I'm her captain I need to control her fighting ability, not to fuck her."
Hange smiled again, he was so brave, so strong, he fared nothing... but emotion.
"You are in control of everything, Levi, but you can't control love."