When I grow up I want to be provocative.
Year 848- October.
Elizabeth was awakened by the sun's rays illuminating her face, disturbing her sleep.
She turned away, her back to the window but noticing that there was something missing next to her. Or rather, someone.
Last night she had fallen asleep wrapped in Levi's embrace, but now his warmth was absent.
A faint noise from the closet door reached her hearing, making her guess that she was alone in the bed but not in the room. She opened one eye, immediately identifying the source of the noise so faint that she certainly would not have heard if she were still asleep.
He was surely playing as quietly as possible not to wake her up.
That day they had the day off, given to the whole team by the Commander himself. And Elizabeth wanted to take the opportunity to spend time with Levi as a couple rather than as a soldier with her captain.
When she fully focused on the figure of the man, who had his back to her, she suddenly felt completely awake, sleep had completely passed.
"Humanity's finest ass." she murmured, lifting her torso just enough to rest her head on her hand and bend her elbow on the pillow.
Levi smiled as he heard her voice. He had got up to use the bathroom but hadn't bothered to get dressed, knowing that she had already seen everything there was to see anyway. And not just seen it...
"Are you serious?" he asked turning and finding her with the blankets on to protect herself from the autumn cold but damn inviting to his senses.
"Yes ..." she murmured looking him up and down and taking her time to enjoy the sight of his body. That man was a living temptation for her and whenever she could she took advantage of it; her eyes scrutinized him intently, noticing every scar that marked his body, every muscle swollen just right despite his height and the details of his face.
There was no part of him that she didn't find handsome.
"Good morning." she added then just licking her lips and immediately noticing the effect that single gesture had on him.
"Good morning." he replied, approaching her slowly, like a hunter with his own prey, and she didn't mind at all being his prey.
"Like what you see?"
"You have no idea." she replied with her eyes shining.
"Maybe there's something else here worth the view."
Levi joined her, pulling the blanket off her with one hand so as to uncover her body and show it to his own sight. "Yes, definitely worth it."
"If I'm not mistaken, today is your birthday." he murmured, lying on top of her but putting pressure on his elbows so as not to burden her.
Elizabeth smiled; he remembered.
"Yes. Last year I couldn't celebrate with you." she whispered slightly raising her head to bring their lips together. Levi was tempted, those lips called him like mermaids with sailors.
Their breaths merged but it still didn't fill that distance.
"We can always celebrate now for last year too."
Elizabeth smirked at Levi's words, running her hands over his arms, until it reached his shoulders and then his neck. He closed his eyes for a moment, enjoying the feel of her hands on his skin.
"And how do you intend to celebrate?"
"I have some ideas in mind." he concluded, lowering his head just enough to close the distance between them and take her lips between his. Their tongues intertwined instantly and he moved on to caress her face with one hand as his left came down her leg.
Levi quickly found his place between Elizabeth's legs, his erection already pointing towards her in search of her warmth.
The tip of his member touched her, making the kiss moan and break. He took advantage of it, taking her lower lip between his teeth with light pressure.
She reversed the position, climbing on his body as seductive as a cat. She backed away just enough to just brush against him, making him groan. His erection quivered with desire.
She moved on to kiss his neck, she liked seeing him move when she found a sensitive spot and the way his head moved, following her movements. Each touch was something magical.
But this morning she had no desire to play.
She ran her hand a couple of times along his length before leading him inside her, lowering herself until their pelvises were completely adjacent.
He filled her immediately, even deeper thanks to the position. She straightened her back, beginning to move up and down and accepting every movement of him that supported her.
She was in charge and she found it damn exciting.
She towered over the Captain's body, holding him firmly on the mattress and dictating the rhythm according to her wishes.
Levi was delighted by that sight. He had never stopped himself to look at a person's appearance too much, nor had he ever bothered to judge her as beautiful or ugly but she was what he considered most beautiful in the world.
She was beautiful.
Every time she smiled, she lit him up. Her face was delicate and proud, innocent only in appearance, with those dark blond locks that surrounded her face as if they were a frame. Her body was lean and trained but not overly muscular, maintaining all her femininity despite the hard training.
And every time she took a step, men fell at her feet.
She didn't realize it, or maybe she didn't care, but every time she walked into a room everyone felt the need to look at her. Several times he had heard other women murmuring jealous or men wanting her, and he had it.
He could play in bed with her as much as he wanted and satisfy all their perversions, he could kiss her and know her taste, he could enjoy her company and comfort each other during the sad days.
She was a goddess who came down to earth to tempt him.
And he had given in.
With a sharp movement he sat up, hugging her and kissing her passionately. He held the back of her neck with one hand while his pelvis pushed up, towards her, pushing her over the edge.
And he hugged her to him as they climaxed together, their lips still seeking each other eagerly.
Levi adjusted his shirt along his abdomen, feeling particularly observed by Elizabeth who, in fact, was eating him with her eyes as they dressed.
"Are you going to stare at me like that all day?"
Elizabeth smiled slyly, reaching down to grab her boots and put them on.
"Only all day? You underestimate me Captain."
The Captain gave her a smile, one he allowed himself to do only when they were alone.
As honest as she was.
"I have something for you." he exclaimed then approaching his desk to open the drawer. Despite all the time she spent in there, she had never allowed herself to touch his personal things or change them places. She knew perfectly well what she could take and what not; the drawers of the desk where he worked were something she had always left alone.
"I got it from you last year but I couldn't give it to you until you got back. And in the end it just didn't feel right." he explained, grabbing a small, thin rectangular velvet casket and handing it to her.
It was the finest thing she had ever seen, and she still hadn't opened it. When she did, inside she found a small bracelet, simple, with a small round pendant to decorate it.
"Levi... it's beautiful."
Elizabeth was speechless. She had never wanted jewelry or ephemeral things, but that was amazing. Somehow he had managed to fully hit her probable tastes in jewelry.
"It really is the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me."
Levi watched her in fascination; that smile was worth everything, he would always repeat it, and seeing her that way, moved to the point of tears, warmed his heart.
"Having given you a gift?" he asked making her laugh a little.
"No. I mean yes..." Elizabeth had tears in her eyes and he raised a hand to caress her cheek. "You believed in me and waited for my return."
"And I would do it again."
That honest look no longer made her hold back. She didn't feel the need to repeat it over and over but there were times when it just felt like the right thing to say. And that was one of those moments.
"I love you."
And the heat he felt at chest level extended throughout his body.
"I love you too."
He smiled just moving his tongue on his lower lip, a gesture that she did not escape.
Levi loved to see her happy, when she was in a good mood he too felt happier.
She jumped into his arms, aware that, with his reflexes always ready, he would take her right away. And in fact his hands immediately rose to grab her thighs, holding her firmly in his arms while she tied her legs around his hips.
"You don't have the slightest intention of getting me out of here today, do you?"
"Do not tempt me." she concluded in a hoarse voice as she took his face in her hands and kissed him.
He replied immediately, unable to resist her and in any case without the slightest will to do so.
Thinking about it again, they could stay a little longer in the room that morning.
Elizabeth was so absorbed in her own thoughts that she didn't notice the rest of the team joining her for lunch. She had been nowhere to be found all morning, and Petra had kindly offered, without her knowing it, to cover her with the others.
In the end, no one had asked too many questions, taking the opportunity to organize something for her.
Erwin had already joined the table, getting ready to eat in the company not only of the Captain and the Squad Leader but also of the blonde who managed to make him smile. It was nice to have her on the team, she was one of those people you would never expect to be a soldier.
Her mind wandered in the words that Hange had addressed to her shortly before, after having taken care to wish her birthday along with the Commander, about her desire to capture a living titan, of how it would be useful for her research if they succeeded and what privileges it might bring to their cause.
Erwin stopped listening to her, now almost resigned to the stubbornness of that woman while Levi, well... for him he was no different than usual, he usually never paid attention to anyone.
Elizabeth, on the other hand, was strangely intrigued by those words; her mind was already showing her a way to help her, not as a subordinate but as a friend.
It was an idea that she should have perfected, also considering some variables, but perhaps it could really give a change to Hange's work.
Obviously she would need some help ...
The rest of the Levi squad took their seats with their food in their hands, placing it on the table and immediately smiling at the blonde, who was the undisputed star of that day.
Petra was the first, embracing her in a friendly way, followed closely by Eld who not only hugged her but also lifted her in the air, taking advantage of his immense stature compared to hers. Gunther imitated Petra, hugging her affectionately, and Oluo lastly just ruffled her hair.
Erwin just chuckled to see that close-knit group; surely he would never have imagined becoming Commander of a division with such a team but he was happy about it.
"Elizabeth was telling me that maybe she has some good ideas." exclaimed Hange, then biting some bread.
"About?" Gunther asked trying to make conversation, but the Captain's eyes did not seem of the same opinion.
"Confidential stuff." Levi answered. "You should stop waving everything on your mind to the rooftops."
"It was just an idea." Hange defended himself still smiling, a warning from him would certainly not have been enough to put her in a bad mood. Elizabeth supported her and it was enough for her, she thought she was very helpful and, even if she failed in the end, she still knew she could count on her.
"Anyway, Commander, do we have permission for tonight?" Eld asked hopefully, turning his gaze towards the head of the table.
Erwin just hesitated, he seemed to be thinking about it but he had already made up his mind.
"Yes, you do."
Petra was thrilled. It was the first time they had done such a thing and had organized it since the moment she returned from her mission.
Elizabeth had been through a lot and deserved a day all to herself. Not to mention that in past years she had always remembered their birthdays, preparing a little thought for them, a dessert or even just a special attention to make them feel better.
This time it was their turn.
As they all rose from the table, Hange grabbed Elizabeth by the hand.
"I'd like to know more about that. And then I'd also like to talk to you." she said halfway between curious and serious. And it was the serious part that worried the blonde.
Hange agreed with everyone else and took it upon herself to keep her busy while the others prepared the necessary to celebrate with her, at least with a cake and a good dinner that evening.
"Sure."
Elizabeth was swept away, just after respectfully greeting everyone.
Hange's workshop was always tidy but it wasn't the best of cleanliness, at least by Levi's standards. But she always managed to find everything and then she had never been someone who judged people and she certainly wouldn't have started at that moment.
"Liz, before that discussion, there's something I should tell you."
Hange immediately became serious, making the blonde who was sitting on a table, now worried.
"Tell me."
"Would you like to have children one day?"
That question completely baffled Elizabeth. The girl swallowed empty without knowing what to think.
She had never asked herself the problem. As long as she had lived in the underground she was firmly convinced that she did not want to have children in that place, but since she had come away from there she had never thought about it even once. Not even after she started sleeping with Levi.
Panic began to make its way inside her, was it possible that she knew something?
She wasn't pregnant, was she?
Hange must have guessed everything from her shocked look because he hastened to add: "You're not pregnant, don't worry. And I don't think you will be in the future."
All Elizabeth's thoughts gave way to a particular sensation that not even she could describe.
She was happy she wasn't pregnant, sure, or it would have been a big problem but she didn't know how to feel about the second part of that sentence.
What did it mean that she wouldn't be in the future either?
"What do you mean?" in fact she asked, too curious to restrain herself.
"That substance that was injected into you as a baby... well, it made you infertile."
Elizabeth's eyes widened. It seemed all done on purpose, she almost laughed. She had chosen a military career without ever wanting a child and fate had wanted her not to have one regardless.
There was something ironic about it for her.
"I'm really sorry honey." said Hange, taking her hand in hers and finding it particularly cold.
Elizabeth was shocked. But the thing that upset her most was that, despite everything, she still didn't know how she should feel about it.
She was neither happy nor sad, but she couldn't even say with certainty that she didn't care. It was simply a fact she would have to live with.
"Don't be. It's certainly not your fault." Elizabeth exclaimed, slightly swinging her legs. She couldn't find the courage to look into her eyes, perhaps to prevent her from seeing that mix of emotions.
She didn't want anyone to see them when even she didn't know what she was feeling.
"Anyway..." the blonde started again before Hange could continue on that subject. "I was talking to you about a little idea that came to me. I just want an opinion to see if it's feasible or not."
Hange looked at her for a moment. It was a strong news and she was taking it strangely well. Sure, she had always been a strong, determined woman, and everything that happened to her in the end had left indelible scars, but that was something else entirely. She certainly needed time to process it all and Hange didn't want to pressure her. She shook her head, smiling sincerely at her. "Sure, tell me everything. I'm very curious."