~Wavering Destiny~
by Strawberry Moon Rose

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Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon or any of the characters. They belong to Naoko Takeuchi.

Chapter 13: Poison

Usagi stepped into Seiya's bedroom. It was dark except for the faint moonlight.

Seiya pushed the door shut behind her. Click. They were alone.

"I...didn't wake you, did I?" Usagi whispered. She fiddled with the edge of her pajama shirt. She knew Seiya couldn't see her very well, but it only made her even more nervous to be standing in the dark with her. Alone.

"I was still up. Besides, I told you if it kept storming you could sleep with me, remember?"

"Yeah.."

Boom! The sky lit up. Usagi saw Seiya standing right in front of her for a split second.

Usagi wrapped her arms around her stomach restlessly. The storm raged on.

"Come on, you're probably tired, aren't you?" Seiya reached into the blackness, taking her hand and intertwining their fingers. She felt the smaller girl's grip tighten.

"Yeah." Usagi could barely speak now they were touching. Makoto's words kept swarming her head like a hive of bees. 'That's just proof that you are in love with them.' Ah, what if she's right? What if I really do love Seiya? What am I going to do?

Seiya led her across the large room. She could barely see, but she managed to make it to her king-sized bed without tripping on anything. "Here we are," she whispered softly.

"Okay..." She felt like this could easily be mistaken for something else. What would Mamo think if he saw me right now? But I guess it's not like that. I just don't want to be alone... It's only for tonight.

"Um, what side is yours?" Usagi asked.

Seiya shrugged. "It doesn't matter. Just make yourself comfortable."

Usagi nodded and crawled into the bed. It was the soft kind that seemed to swallow her up. She felt around for the cool pillows and positioned herself on the very edge, as far away from Seiya as she could get.

Seiya slid in on the opposite side. "I don't bite," she joked.

Usagi got comfortable. "J-just don't try anything funny."

"Define 'funny'..."

"You know what I mean," she huffed.

Seiya chuckled and pulled the blanket to her chin. Her back was to Usagi. "Goodnight, Bun Head," she whispered.

"'Night, Seiya,". She wrapped herself into a cocoon of cashmere blankets. "Um...thanks for letting me sleep in here with you."

"No problem." Seiya knew she'd have trouble falling asleep when the girl she loved was lying a few feet away from her. She wanted so badly to roll over and sleep right up next to her. But she couldn't do that.

Usagi closed her eyes and breathed slow. The room was dead silent except for the steady gushing of rain outside.

Kaboom! The thunder taunted her.

Usagi whimpered. She squeezed her eyes shut. Even though she wasn't alone anymore, she was still scared out of her mind.

"Bun Head?" Seiya rolled over to face her. Her eyes had adjusted to the darkness and she could make out the back of Usagi's head. "Are you okay?" she whispered.

BOOM! The blaring explosion was the loudest of them yet, making their ears ring and hearts leap to their throats. The world seemed to shake and Usagi was sure the palace was going to collapse. "Make it stop!" she cried.

Before Seiya had even reached out to comfort her, Usagi rolled over and flung herself at the Starlight. She buried her face in her bosom and wrapped her arms around her muscular body.

"Shh, it's okay. I'm right here..." Seiya ran her fingers though her hair. It was even longer when it was undone from her updo.

The storm was close, if not right above the palace. It sounded like someone was bowling inside their room. The sky lit up over and over, flashing forks of lightning like wicked fingers clawing towards the ground.

"Seiya..." Usagi mumbled into her chest. She tightened her grip around her broad shoulders. She pulled herself even closer to her. Their bodies curved against each other in ways Seiya had only previously dreamed of.

It was Seiya's turn to feel flustered. She could feel her touch; her smooth, bare legs against hers, soft like flower petals... Her arms clinging to her, pressing her chest against Usagi's. Her petite frame, quivering in fear. She rested her forehead against Usagi's.

"I'll protect you," Seiya murmured. Even her voice wavered uneasily from nerves.

Usagi was too scared to notice or care how close they were. All she knew was that Seiya's touch made the horror go away.

"Why are you so afraid of storms?" she whispered.

"I...don't really know. I just hate thunder... I always have."

"Well don't worry, it's not going to hurt you."

Usagi closed her eyes and inhaled...then exhaled. Seiya's smelled of a fruity, rose scent. The fragrance reminded her of something important.

"I...I lost the rozamoku you gave me. I think it fell out in the rain earlier. I'm sorry."

"I didn't notice," she lied. "But it's okay."

"Yeah, but it's important to me..."

"Why? It's just a flower, after all."

"Yeah, but you gave it to me..."

Seiya felt her heart swell with pleasure. "Bun Head..." She wanted to cry. How does she do it? Make me feel this torn up... She caressed Usagi's hair and brushed her bangs back.

Usagi flinched. She remembered the way Seiya brushed back Minako's bangs and looked dreamily into her eyes at lunch earlier. She suddenly didn't feel so good anymore.

"Bun Head?"

"I don't like...how you do that to girls..." Usagi mumbled.

"What are you talking about?"

"Flirting with everyone. You know the saying, 'A friend to all is a friend to none.'"

"I'm...lost."

"I'm talking about Minako," Usagi blurted. She felt the sting the moment the words left her lips.

So she did notice... Seiya thought. "I don't like Minako that way. My heart belongs to someone else."

"Really?"

"Yes."

"Your Princess?"

"Well, in a way. But that's not who I'm talking about. Regardless, I'm not that big of a flirt you're making me out to be."

Usagi scoffed. "Remember that joint concert you guys had with Michiru? What exactly were you going to do if Haruka and I hadn't walked into the dressing room?"

Seiya's face warmed at the memory. "Th-that's not even fair, Bun Head." She couldn't believe she brought that up! She really had no other response. Usagi had a point - she did hit on girls occasionally. Maybe more often than she was aware of.

"Oh really? Minako, Michiru, me, I'm sure it doesn't matter who, right? Any girl would do?" Usagi couldn't believe the words coming out of her mouth. Why did it upset her so much? Seiya could do what she wanted. I'm jealous, aren't I?

"That's just my personality, I never meant anything by it," Seiya explained. "But there's one girl I am serious about."

Usagi couldn't hide the red glow that came over her face. Part of her suspected she knew who that was, but at the same time she was curious to hear a definite answer. "And who might that be?" she whispered, slightly sarcastic.

"Guess."

Usagi fidgeted in her arms. "I don't know... Is she from Kinmoku? Do I know her?"

"You know her."

"Give me another hint."

"Blonde hair. Blue eyes."

Usagi sighed when she imagined the mystery girl. "It's Minako, isn't it?" She knew it. Even though Seiya hit on her all the time, she had a thing for her friend. She remembered taking pictures of them practically kissing at school last year.

"Wrong."

Usagi hid her relief. "I give up."

"Do you really want to know?

"Probably not..." she lied.

"Okay, then I won't tell you," Seiya teased.

Usagi pouted. "Whatever. I'm just glad that you're serious about one person, though. That's all that really matters."

Seiya hugged the girl tighter. I want you to know, Bun Head. I want you to think of me that way too. What can I do to show you how I feel? I thought I've always made it obvious... How can she really not catch on? Or...is she just testing me?

The storm bellowed on, but neither one of them were very aware of it any longer.

Usagi breathed quietly. It felt so natural being held in her arms like this. She didn't ever want to let go. Thump. Thump. Her heart was preparing to take off. Here it is again, this weird feeling. I don't understand it, but...I kind of like it. Usagi pulled herself even closer to the Starlight, waiting to see how her body would react. Sure enough, her heartbeat sped up and stomach jumped. I can't ignore this anymore, I'm lying to myself...

"Bun Head, I..." Seiya's voice broke off. Every part of her thrived off of Usagi's touch. Why was she doing this to her? Showing her what she wanted so badly, but could never have. It hurt so bad but felt so good. But she knew she wasn't doing it to hurt her. Still, the way she was pressed up against her body sent her mind down a reckless path.

Seiya lifted her head from Usagi's. She inched lower until their gaze met. Even in the darkness, Usagi's blue eyes sparkled like gemstones. Seiya could feel her cheeks burning hotly. Their faces were just inches away. She smiled when their eyes met.

"What is it?" Usagi whispered to her. She tried to read the girl's expression in the darkness. Her short black bangs fell into her eyes. Usagi couldn't see very well, but she swore Seiya's cheeks were flushed.

"It's you."

"Huh?"

Seiya chuckled. "You're not going to make this easy on me, are you?" She gently ran her fingers over Usagi's cheek. Her skin was warm and silky.

"It's you, silly," she said again. "You're the one my heart belongs to."

Usagi's eyes widened. Relief washed over her. Then her heart started sputtering in double time. It was me... All this time... Of course...

"I...I've always wanted to do something," Seiya whispered.

Usagi flitted her gaze but didn't say a word. The side of her face tingled under her touch. "What?" she murmured nervously.

Seiya inched closer. "This..."

Usagi's heart skipped a beat. Her uneven breathing cut off. She's...going to kiss me, isn't she? Oh my god. Her insides twisted up and her entire body felt paralyzed. She could feel Seiya getting closer. And closer.

Seiya closed her eyes and parted her lips.

Usagi felt dizzy and her thoughts became cloudy. What's happening? I've got...I've got to do something before it's too late. But...oh no, I'm being swept away again...ah - I can't move. I don't know if I can go against this much longer. But...maybe it'd just be easier if I... Usagi felt her eyes slowly drift shut. ...give in.

Softly. Lovingly. Romantically. Their lips met.

It was better than Seiya had ever imagined. Usagi's lips were soft and moist. She tilted her head and tangled her fingers in blonde hair. She squeezed her eyes shut harder and pressed her lips against Usagi's gently, but with more force. She was in heaven, soaring through the clouds higher and higher.

Usagi let the electrifying feeling shoot through her body down to her toes, which curled instantly. Her lips were on fire under Seiya's. The hot feeling of pleasure was like nothing she had ever felt before. Blood flowed to her cheeks. She was so on edge so could barely think straight. This is really happening, isn't it?

Seiya let the feeling engulf her. She was kissing her so passionately she saw stars. Usagi's lips were delicious and sweet like cotton candy, she didn't want to pull away. But after a few passing seconds, she needed to come back for air. Reluctantly, she pulled away. Their lips detached with the soft sound of a kiss. She lingered by her mouth, trying to catch her breath. Her head was spinning. It was everything she ever wanted and more.

Usagi breathed silently. She didn't know what to do. As many kisses as she had shared with Mamoru, none of them felt like this. Her heart was going crazy, ready to jump straight through her pajama shirt. Her face was ablaze and her whole body felt shaky under Seiya's. The spine-tingling sensation sent her over the edge; she wanted more of it.

Usagi closed her eyes and instinctively leaned in again. She pressed her lips up against Seiya's impulsively, without realizing what she was doing.

Seiya's eyes shot open. Her mind was still lagging a few seconds behind. She immediately closed her eyes once again and let the tingly feeling wash through her. It was even better this time. Seiya stroked her hand down Usagi's cheek, the other still entwined in her hair.

Usagi felt the hairs on the back of neck stand up. She pressed their bodies together trying to extinguish the firey feeling of desiring burning deep within her. Her lips danced in excitement against Seiya's. The voice in the back of her head that told her to stop sizzled out long ago, like water to a flame. The hypnotic desire took over her senses. And she liked it.

Seiya finally broke away. She kept her face by Usagi's, waiting to catch her breath.

Usagi opened her eyes. "W-what?" she whispered. She looked up at the woman laying next to her.

"Nothing..." she said. Her words burned against the side of her face. "I just can't believe that just happened." Her cheeks were stained pink too. She seemed really flustered, which was unlike her usual cool and confident attitude.

Their faces remained close to each other, and neither of them moved away. I can't believe it - Seiya and I just kissed. Seiya Kou, as in my friend. Seiya as in Sailor Star Fighter, the arrogant, funny person I met so long ago at that movie shoot in the park. The same person I passed in the airport that day. And we just kissed for the first time. Oh my god.

"I'm sorry, I just couldn't help myself," Seiya whispered sheepishly.

Usagi bit her lip. "I didn't mind..."

"I noticed."

Usagi couldn't reply. Instead, she just hid her face in the Starlight's chest so she couldn't see her bashful expression. It was awkward for a few seconds. Both of them weren't sure what to say. Finally, Usagi lifted her head. "Hey, the thunder stopped...

Seiya strained her ears. All she could hear was the trickling rain outside. "It did. I guess that means you can go back to your room now, right?" She winked.

Usagi gave her a look. She was sure if she tried to go back to her room she'd run into something, she was in such a daze. "It may come back..."

Seiya tightened her embrace. "If it does, I'm right here."

Usagi smiled and closed her eyes. She felt limp in Seiya's protective hug.

It was silent for a while. Usagi's thoughts were a million miles away. She was sure Seiya had fallen asleep, holding her in her arms. Usagi rested her head comfortably against her chest, listening to the rain fall. She couldn't believe what had just happened. She wasn't surprised by Seiya's actions, she'd come in for a kiss before. What baffled her was the fact that she kissed her back. And quite enjoyed it.

Such a simple action that set off such complex feelings.

That kiss...was like nothing I've ever felt before. How can I just ignore that feeling once I've discovered it? Is it bad that I want more of it? And let's just say, (hypothetically of course) that I truly do love Seiya...in that way... What could I do about it? I'm destined to end up with...

Oh my god, what would Mamo think if he found out? He'd be really upset that I just kissed Seiya, wouldn't he? I feel really bad...

...But I wouldn't take it back.