"Regina..." Emma stared into the sad brunette's eyes and let out a large sigh. Did she really just say that.
"I..I'm sure. I mean-" she choked a sob back and wiped frantically at her tears giving her best I'm fine smile. She kept picturing him behind her again, a fist stuck tightly in her hair as she was shoved forcefully against the couch with every thrust of Robin's powerful hips.
"Reg I don't think-"
"Please." Her voice sounded so pleading. She bowed her head down and let out a shaky breath, "this was...a lot for me and I just need even a little time to..not be me." Emma stared at her for a long moment, contemplating what she was hearing. "Does that make sense Emma?" She really did feel like she would fall apart if Emma denied her this. It was so hard to stay sane in this moment. The man who forced himself into her home and then inside of her was getting off with five years! Five fucking years, and she couldn't stand how she felt in her own skin right this moment.
"It does...I hear you. I can't commit to this long term until I know you're ready but for the weekend..I will be Miss. Swan for you." Regina let out a sigh of relief and nodded profusely.
"But no sex." Regina almost got whiplash from how fast she looked up, "wha-"
"I will pamper you. You're my baby girl this weekend and you'll want for nothing but I won't touch you. Not like that. When you're in your sub space...sex means something to you, and even more to me. So no. Not this weekend." Regina looked disappointed but also like she understood those terms and Emma's need to set that limit. Regina had just gone through a traumatic event and this need to be rid of control made sense but the reason for it didn't go unnoticed by Emma.
"Okay baby girl...let's get you home." Emma laced her fingers through the brunette and sighed, reaching around her. "Safety first." She clipped her buckle and drove off toward the mansion.
"Five fucking years..." Regina whimpered and shook her head, still not believing that's all the time he got.
"I know it's unfair. He should rot..but then again the justice system is fucked." Regina just nodded her head and stared out the window with her arms crossed tightly over her stomach. She felt physically ill, so she only had five years of feeling completely safe before that monster was back on the streets, as if Emma could read her mind and see the gears turning she spoke up, squeezing the brunettes hand once. "I won't let him hurt you ever again. You will be safe. I swear it." Regina smiled weakly and nodded, allowing herself to take some slow deep breaths.
They entered the house quickly, Emma locking the door behind them. She clutched Regina's purse in her hand with one hand, her phone pressed tightly against her ear with the other. "Yeah...yeah five years." Emma sighed and gave Regina a reassuring smile before pointing at the couch sternly. Regina immediately obeyed, sitting towards the edge of the couch patiently. "Yes Graham she's okay..but I would ask you hold onto Henry for me just for this weekend if possible?" She smiled into the phone, nodding her head. "God I feel so bad..this past month he's been with you more than us." Emma laughed sadly, setting Regina's purse down on the entry way table. "Mhm..yes a tough month for sure. Thanks for all your help. Will do. Bye."
Emma took off her jacket slowly, hanging it on a hook before approaching the brunette. "Graham sends his love and will keep Henry for the weekend." Regina just nodded and kept her eyes cast down to the floor in true submission, making Emma's heart swell and bleed all at once. "Hey..." Emma lifted her chin, staring into beautifully sparkly eyes. "I'd like for you to take a bath now. Come along."
The water felt warm against the brunettes skin, completely relaxing her muscles as the smell of lavender filled her nose. "Head back." Emma slowly began rinsing Regina's hair, running her shampoo and conditioner through it. "How are you feeling?"
Regina stayed silent for a moment, contemplating what to say to that. What would be the appropriate response. On one hand she felt relieved that he was at least put away. Some form of justice was done. On the other hand...she was horrified he got such a short sentence and on good behavior he could probably get out in as little as three years.
"Regina. I asked you a question." Regina immediately sat up more straight, running her fingers through her now clean hair. "Sorry Miss...I was just thinking how to properly answer that question."
"There is no right or wrong answer mine. Just a truthful one please."
"Well...I think I feel relieved."
"Hmm..care to elaborate."
"Relieved that it's over. The lawyers..the court hearings...him being free. It's just over and now the real healing can begin." Emma gently kissed her shoulder with a soft smile on her face. "I'll take that as a win today. Come on. Up."
Emma held out her hand and lifted Regina out of the tub and guided her into the bedroom, pulling a night dress out of the closet for her to wear. "Emma-" she caught herself and a flush went up her neck at Emma immediately stopping her task, the dress held forcefully in her hand as she gave Regina a stern look. "M-miss...it's barely six o'clock. Isn't it a little early for night clothes?"
"Not if I say it's not isn't that right?"
Regina just bowed her head and nodded, accepting the dress from Emma's soft hand. "Now..I expect you to put that on and meet me in the kitchen for dinner please. Take your time." She laid a gentle kiss on her cheek before disappearing into the hallway, closing the door behind her.
Once Regina came downstairs Emma handed her two plates and some silverware and asked her to set the table and sit down once she was done. When Regina needed to be submissive which...was a feeling she was feeling far more lately, she always liked being given small tasks and told exactly how to do them: Being told exactly where to be and what to say...how to dress, how she should behave. She needed control stripped away and Emma knew this about her.
Emma smiled fondly at the brunette every once in a while as she cut up onions and garlic, throwing them in a pan along with two salmon fillets. Couscous cooking in a pot beside it all. Ever since their divorce Emma had forced herself to learn to cook well! Especially being that they had a growing boy who needed plenty of nutrients to grow big and strong, so she watched a lot of cooking shows and read some books..now she was able to make most things with relative ease.
"What would you like to drink for dinner?"
"Oh um...a glass of red wine please." Emma nodded and slowly got two glasses down, pouring them each a generous amount. She carried them over to the table and set them down in front of each of their spots before bringing over dinner. "Wow Emma...this looks really good. Thank you for cooking." She wasn't used to it to be honest. When they were married Regina usually did all the cooking, minus a few breakfasts here and there that consisted of eggs and bacon only usually. This was a nice change of pace.
Emma took a slow sip of her wine before digging in, taking a small bite of salmon that pulled off just perfectly. "Not a problem. I should've done this more." The room went silent as they ate, both stuck in their heads with different things on their mind.
Regina swished her nearly empty glass of wine around in her hand, sitting calmly on the couch as Emma put a record on for the two of them. The brunette reached out for the almost empty bottle of wine and gasped when she felt Emma's hand cover her own, effectively stopping any movement. "You've had quite enough." Regina's cheeks were flushed red and not from embarrassment. She was on her third glass of wine and going in for a fourth, feeling very tipsy. Wine will sneak up on you.
"Please Miss...I've had a hard day." Her beautiful honey comb eyes were filled with such sadness and it almost made Emma give in. Almost. "You have..this is true, but I won't let you drink yourself into the ground." Dramatic. Regina fought off the eye roll, knowing how much her Miss hated when she was a bratty sub. "You have a nice buzz going...I don't want my Regina slipping away." Slowly Emma removed her hand from Regina's around the bottle and cupped her cheek lovingly.
It truly has been one of the worst days ever...and that was why she even allowed Regina to drink! Typically the second she was deep in sub space Emma wouldn't allow her to drink any further, she refused to impair the brunettes judgment in anyway. This weekend definitely constituted as deep in sub space. "Mhm I like this song..." Regina whispered when Emma pulled away and sat down on the sofa beside her.
"I was born..by the river! In a little old tent." Emma started singing, wiggling an eyebrow at the brunette when she giggled.
"Are you laughing at me?"
Regina shrugged, "I haven't heard you sing in forever...you're terrible."
Emma feigned offense, throwing her hand over her heart. "I guess I won't quit my day job after all then!" Regina laughed again and gently nudged the blondes shoulder before sinking further into her side.
This was nice. The calming sound of music playing beside them and Emma's hand wrapped gently around her shoulder keeping her close. Slowly Emma began to move her hand gripping the brunettes shoulder and rubbing it in a circular like motion. A small moan of content left Regina's mouth as Emma's hands dug a little deeper, giving her shoulder some much needed relief. The blonde gently pushed Regina forward in the chair, sneaking behind her so Regina was now sitting between Emma's legs. She set her wine glass down on the table in front of them and began using both her hands to massage the woman's back and shoulders.
"Mhm that feels nice..." Regina's eyes closing slowly.
Emma smirked and slowly slid the straps of Regina's night gown of her shoulders. The brunettes eyes opened as every nerve ending in her body stood at attention. "You are marvelous." Emma mumbled, wrapping one hand around Regina's throat from behind. Not tight at all, but just enough to guide her backward so her head was now resting against Emma's left shoulder. Regina felt her whole body get warm as Emma's hands moved about her body in a calming yet seductive manor. I thought no sex. Regina's mind was on fire as Emma's magic hands moved back to her shoulders, rubbing slowly. Oh shit.
Regina audibly gasped when Emma's lips moved to her pulse point, leaving hot open mouthed kisses up and down her neck. "M-Miss...?" Regina whimpered, pushing herself further into the blonde. Emma smirked and pushed Regina's hair out of the way before sucking gently on the brunettes pulse point. Fuck fuck. She needed this. This is what she missed. In this moment her mind was only on Emma and the magic things she was doing to her body! She completely had forgotten how awful her day had been.
The alcohol and arousal was making her head spin with lust as she stayed there at her Miss's disposal. "What is it?" Emma finally mumbled, tickling up and down the brunette's arms. Regina could feel herself growing wet with ever passing second. "Please..." her voice was so small and pleading it made Emma want to give her exactly what she needed. Almost.
"You have to be more specific..please what?"
"Touch me...please.."
Emma laughed softly and pulled away, shaking her head no. "I told you. This weekend would be about pampering you and loving on you, but absolutely no sex." Regina growled low in her throat and wanted to cuss Emma out so bad. So you're just going to tease me and make me want you...and then not touch me!?
"Excuse me?" Emma's voice was so stern. "Did you just growl at me?"
"I-I'm sorry Miss! I just...I don't understand."
"Don't understand what love?" Emma mumbled, pushing Regina's hair back once more and laying feather light kisses to her shoulder.
"Y-you got me all..."
"All what?"
Regina groaned and pouted her lip, a blush covering her features as she felt herself growing embarrassed. This was Emma's favorite way to see Regina! Outside of her sub space she was all regal and tough as nails which was hot as hell in its own way, but getting to see Regina vulnerable and..even blush did things to Emma she couldn't understand.
"You got me all..wet.." the last word came out just above a whisper and all though Emma heard her loud and clear, she wanted to make Regina speak up. Force her to admit what was happening to her body.
"I'm sorry I didn't quite hear you." Regina groaned and rolled her eyes. I'm sitting in front of her, she didn't see that right?
"Don't roll your eyes at me. Last chance. Speak." God she had eyes everywhere! How did she know.
"You made me wet..." there it is. Regina blushed and squeezed her thighs together, letting out a small sigh. "I mean that was the desired effect."
"What!" Regina squealed and Emma had to fight so hard to hold back a laugh. Dom. She swatted the brunettes thigh and gave her a stern look. Regina gasped as soon as impact was made and shook her head, "sorry for raising my voice Miss."
"Very good girl." Oh great more wetness.
"May I ask a question please?"
"If you must." Emma mindlessly played with the brunette hair in front of her, twirling it in her fingers.
"Why would you purposely make me wet...to just leave me that way?"
"Well my sweet..." Emma grabbed Regina's chin to make her look over her shoulder at the blonde. "I need to find out where your head is, as well as your body of course...and by doing this it helped me realize exactly what you need. And that you do want this." Regina looked at her confused and she began to elaborate.
"Two things happened to you tonight. You got wet which...of course is a bodily reaction to the proper stimuli to turn someone on but more than that you begged for it. And not just once asking on a whim because it's what you craved in the moment." Emma paused for a moment, kissing Regina's cheek. "I made you ask me again and...tell me how your body was reacting. Even though I did hear you the first time." She winked and Regina could've melted there.
"So...you will touch me at some point this weekend?" Her voice sounded so hopeful and it made Emma's heart crack a little. "I still don't think it's a great idea, but I'll uh...see where it goes. Understood?"
"Yes Miss." with that Emma slowly stood the brunette up and guided her to her bedroom door.
They had both decided together that Regina would try and sleep on her own for tonight, just to claim some independence and allow herself a moment on her own to regroup and think some more on this arrangement between the pair. Emma was taking it very seriously.
"I'll be just down the hall should you need me. Sleep tight baby girl." Emma kissed her cheek and walked off down the hall way.
Slowly Regina pushed her bedroom door open and walked inside closing the door behind herself. She felt a sudden chill cover her body and gasped when she realized her bedroom window was wide open. "When did I do that.." she mumbled and rushed over closing it, goosebumps covering her skin.
"Hello Regina..." Regina gasped and turned around, pressing herself into the wall paralyzed. "H-how did..how did you get in here?"
"The window idiot." Robin smirked and sauntered toward her with a vicious smirk on his face.
"Y-you're supposed to be in-!"
"Jail. Yeah. I had some..uh buddies help me figure that one out."
"W-what?"
Before Regina could say anything else a hand came slapping over her mouth and her eyes practically bulged out of her head. She squirmed and squirmed trying to break free from his grip, one hand over her mouth forcing her to stay against the wall with pressure and the other hand going down her body.
A sob wrecked her body and she clenched her legs closed tightly. "Fucking bitch!" Robin threw her down against the bed, coming up behind her and straddling her from behind. He grabbed her arms behind her back and pinned them there.
"EM-!" He slammed her face into the mattress and muffled her cries for the blonde as his other hand slid down her body and between her legs. "Move your hands away from your back and I'll suffocate you..." he growled only applying light pressure at the moment to her head so she still could breath. Her tears stained the sheets as his fingers found her warm wet flesh. "Wow all for me?" She squirmed again, begging this to just be over. Please just go.
His fingers slowly rubbed up and down her slit and he let out grunts of approval, letting go of her head so he could continue his search more. "Like I said...when I'm done with you..you'll never want Emma again."
"Emma!" Regina cried.
"Regina..."
"Emma!"
"Reg! Reg! Baby girl!" Emma gasped, shaking the brunette and turning on the lamp quickly beside the bed. Regina gasped and her eyes sprang open and she jumped into sitting position, grabbing her chest and rubbing her wrists. Her eyes searched around the room in fear until she looked over at Emma, "h-he was here!" She sobbed tears running down her face. "No no baby girl...you had a nightmare. A terrible terrible nightmare."
Emma gently rubbed her back which was drenched with sweat, "h-he did it again! He...he raped me again..." she cradled her knees and just rocked back and forth. "Hey.." Emma slowly crawled behind the brunette and pulled her into her arms, Regina's head laying gently against her chest.
"He's not here...you're safe you're safe..." Emma kissed her head and slowly swayed their bodies until Regina calmed down and her crying stopped. "I..I think I drank to much maybe? And it made me have bad dreams."
Emma sighed and nodded, "that and also the fact...the trial was just yesterday baby. You had to come face to face with the man who hurt you so bad and you were so brave. I'm sorry I didn't see how this day effected you more. I should've insisted I stayed with you tonight."
"No no E- Miss...you couldn't have know because I didn't say. I'll work on that I promise."
"A true dom knows all their subs cues and I should've definitely known yours. Whether you think so or not I still am partially to blame." Emma mumbled, kissing the top of Regina's head again. "Well you're here now..."
"I absolutely am. Go to sleep my love. I am here and I'm not going anywhere." Emma looked over at the alarm clock and sighed, three am. She shut off the nightlight and heard Regina gasp. "What baby?"
"Can we please leave that on?"
"Yes of course. Sleep now, you're safe."
Emma held Regina while she fell asleep and found herself unable to go back to bed. To frightened Regina would wake up again in fear and Emma wouldn't wake up or couldn't help her. She needed to stay alert.
In the morning Regina slowly peeled her eyes open and looked over at her alarm clock. Ten o'clock!? She really slept in. Slowly she sat up and rubbed at her eyes, whimpering when she realized Emma wasn't there. She was supposed to stay all night until I woke up! What if I had another nightmare. "E-Emma..?" Regina called weakly, dom name thrown out the window at this moment. She was just sad and needed to make sure Emma was at least still in the house.
Suddenly the bathroom door opened quickly and there Emma stood, completely naked except for the white towel wrapped around herself. She hair was wet and weighed down, as water droplets fell down her chest. She smirked at the brunette and continued rubbing facial moisturizer into her skin, "I'm sorry mine, I didn't mean to wake you. I just wanted to freshen up." You made me extremely...excited last night as well.
"N-no you didn't wake me...I just woke and you weren't here." Emma nodded at that and walked up to Regina, cupping her face softly. "Good morning."
"G-good morning..." Regina felt the whole world sink away in that moment, just her and Emma sitting there as if everything was totally fine. Regina felt her mouth go dry at the blondes proximity and the sheer idea that she was stark naked under that loosely rapped towel. "Kiss me?" She found herself blurting out and her cheeks turned a pale pink color.
"Mhm well since you asked so nice..." Emma leaned in and ghosted her lips against the brunettes, teasing her as she always did and testing Regina's limits. A cocky smirk took over Emma's lips when Regina stayed put waiting patiently. Good girl. Slowly Emma closed the gap between them and Regina let out a soft groan.
Emma's lips were soft as pillow cushions and she kissed with such gentleness but authority as well. Completely in control of the pace. Slowly Emma tongue ghosted across Regina's lips demanding entry that was immediately granted. No permission even needed. Regina gasped and immediately wrapped her arms around the blondes neck, pulling her closer as Emma gently wrapped her lips around the brunette beauty's tongue giving it a hard suck before releasing her all together.
"Now that's how you say good morning..." Regina panted. Emma looked different this morning. Not literally but there was some extra swagger added to her step, like she was truly allowing herself to fall into this dominating role with Regina. Emma smirked and fixed her towel, gently wiping at the corner of her lip. "Regina..."
"Yes Miss?"
"If I were to reach between your legs right now...what would I find?" Regina gasped at that question and squeezed her legs together tightly, her arousal growing with ever sexy word the blonde uttered.
"Wet." Is all Regina could muster causing Emma to let out a soft chuckle. "I thought as much. Shower and meet me downstairs in thirty...I'll order us breakfast this morning and then I thought you may want to go to the park? Graham is going to bring Henry and I know he'd lo-"
"One hundred percent yes." Regina panted and sprang up, rushing into the bathroom.
Emma just smiled and watched the mother of her child go, sighing happily. This woman will be the absolute death of me.
Regina quickly hopped in the shower and began exfoliating her face, letting her thoughts begin to run amuck. Regina missed Henry with every passing minute but since the whole "tragedy" she had felt unable to even care for herself let alone her son and that made her feel like a shit mom. She vowed now to begin healing and get her shit together. Her son always came first in her life and she felt bad for feeling so down all the time...
"Mommy! Mama!" Henry squealed happily and jumped off the swing he was currently on, losing his footing as he ran toward Regina and Emma.
"Henry!" Regina gasped, scared he might fall. Emma gently rubbed her back effectively soothing the mother of her child and a smile formed back on the brunettes face. "Hey baby!" She giggled happily and picked him up, spinning him around and around. "Oh how I've missed you."
"Me too mommy!" He hugged tighter, giving a small peck to his moms cheek before opening his arm for Emma to join the hug. "Hi mama!" Emma smiled happily and kissed his forehead, "hey kid...I've missed you." Being apart from him was so impossible for Emma, she felt like she was letting him go every single time he walked away. Being in foster care all of her life really made her cling on to family and she wouldn't ever allow Henry to feel that way.
"Hey you two." Graham smiled softly and wrapped his arms around the two woman effectively pulling them into a hug. "Reg you look beautiful. Relaxed." Hmm letting go of control will do that. "Yes it's been...a relaxing weekend so far. Minus..you know." Graham just nodded and rubbed her back, smirking when Henry fought to get down. "Okay baby..hold on." The second Regina set him down he ran off to play with his friends again.
"Hey I see the worry in your faces." Graham took each of their hands. "Kids bounce back. This is nothing. He's happy to see you guys and then he's off to play because...to him nothings wrong! He's just chilling with his absolutely amazing uncle Graham a lot more."
Regina and Emma shared a happy laugh, "you are more than amazing Graham. You've always been like a brother to me and I am so grateful for you." Emma felt her throat constricting and cleared it to stop the tears from forming.
"I will always be there for you two." Regina smiled and gave the man a big hug, burying her face in his chest. "Thank you thank you."
Graham looked up at Emma and they both shared a concerned gaze before he rested his hand on Regina's head, rocking her gently. "Y-you okay Reg?"
"I uh..." oh please no. Tears fell against her will and she nodded her head. Emma being protective as a motherfucker wasn't having any of it so she gently pulled Regina away from Graham and cupped her cheeks, "hey hey talk to me." Graham watched the interaction with a proud smile, staying quiet. Wow...even if these two don't understand what's happening...they are totally in love.
"I feel like such a bad mother." Regina growled and squeezed her eyes closed.
"Mine.." Emma whispered for only herself to hear and moved her lips towards Regina's ear, "you have been through so much in such a short time...you need to cut yourself some slack. You are incredible. Henry loves you." I love you. "And he just lights up when he sees you."
Regina just nodded and let Emma pull her close, rocking her gently. Graham made brief eye contact with Emma and gave her a proud nod that she received loud and clear rolling her eyes at her brother.
After what seemed like forever Regina calmed down and the three of them sat on their old favorite bench together watching Henry play. "Oh Graham?"
"Yes Regina?"
"As you know...Henry's birthday is next week. I want to do a big thing for him at our home. Please say you'll come!"
"And bring as much of the squad along as you can." Emma added.
"I wouldn't miss it for anything, and if the chief says I must...I must."
"Yeah.." Emma mumbled, letting out a long sigh. "Sorry I haven't been there very often this past month."
"Emma please...family comes first." Emma just looked at Regina and gently took her hand, nodding her head. "You're absolutely right."
"Plus...you always keep your phone on ya. We call when we need you." Graham sighed and shrugged his shoulders like it was no big thing.
"Mommy!" Henry smiled happily and ran over to the three of them, squeezing his way between Emma and Regina. He gently laid his head against Regina's shoulder and sighed. "Hey my prince.." Regina giggled and bent down, kissing his forehead. "Are you done playing?"
"Yeah...I popped!"
The three of them laughed at the small boy and Emma and Regina took turns kissing his entire face before handing him back to Graham. "We will come back him up tomorrow at four." Regina reassured him.
"Yeah no biggie." Regina kissed grahams cheek and walked off toward the car.
"You're incredible." Emma sighed and hugged him kinda awkwardly considering in his other arm their son was fast asleep and she didn't want to risk waking the small resting boy. "As are you..oh and Em?" He mumbled as she began walking toward the car.
"Hmm?" Emma turned to face him still walking backward to the car. "She loves you." Emma felt her heart pounding in her ears when he said that. She felt it and...knew it in her heart of hearts but seeing someone else noticing their affections and love was more reassuring than anything.
"And I her..." she mumbled, giving him one last wave before getting in the drivers seat beside Regina.
"Home?"
"Home."
A/N- I hope you enjoyed this chapter! Sorry it took a little longer. Crazy couple weeks for me. Vote and comment as it always encourages me! Thank you for sticking along.