Hello faithful readers and happy autumn! It's my favorite time of year. Summer is over and I'm back to writing at last. This was a prompt given to me by LemonLattes. She came up with the plot of Chuck and Blair's first time after Henry's birth and she was kind enough to let me steal her idea. This is my take on it. Hopefully this is the first of many things I'll be posting in the coming months. Enjoy and please feel free to review or say hello via Tumblr or Twitter. Nothing belongs to me.
Blair Waldorf Bass could hear the ringing of her cellphone as she slid into the back seat of the limo that had been waiting for her on Fifth Avenue. She reached into her handbag pulling it out thanking Arthur as he closed the door for her.
She glanced at the phone seeing her husband's name on the screen. Taking a deep breath she answered it.
"Hello, Chuck." She straightened her skirt as Arthur got into the front seat and started the car.
"Hey sweetheart. How did everything go?"
Blair looked out the window as the limo pulled from the curb and headed uptown towards home. "She said everything was good." Blair had just left her OB/GYN's office. She had given birth to their son Henry exactly six weeks and two days prior and this was her "all clear" appointment. Chuck had been counting down the days.
"And she said you could resume all activity?" Chuck was trying to be tactful even as he stressed the word "all".
Blair smiled softly to herself. She decided to make him work a bit harder. "Yes. Thank goodness. I need a good workout."
"Why don't I pick you up for lunch and we can have a cardio session together?"
Blair suddenly felt very self-conscious as her hand went to rest on her still slightly there stomach. "Actually Lily and Serena are coming over for lunch. As a matter of fact they're probably already there gushing over Henry. Sorry."
Chuck sighed softly. Lily had literally just entered his office. He raised a hand letting his stepmother know that he'd be right with her. He then turned his chair around lowering his voice. "I'll take a rain check then. Give Henry a kiss from me. I love you."
"I love you, too."
She ended the call and Chuck stared out the huge glass window which took up nearly the whole wall of his office. He knew his wife better than anyone and he knew something was bothering her. It was confirmed this morning when he had offered to accompany her to her appointment.
She had waved him off saying that it was a standard gynecological appointment and there was no need for him to miss work for that. He teased her about it being worth it to see her in stirrups and leaned in kissing her. He reached up to run a hand along her side when she pulled away suddenly saying something about having to feed Henry.
Now she was lying about having lunch plans. He ran a hand over his face and turned to face Lily.
"Sorry about that." He stood up walking around his desk crossing to kiss Lily on the cheek. "What brings you by?"
"I have a luncheon next door for the Historical Society and thought I would drop off those forms you needed me to sign while I was in the area." She held out a manila envelope.
Chuck took it from her reaching back and laying it on his desk. "Thank you."
Lily crossed her arms in front of herself. "Was that Blair on the phone? I need to get over to see Henry it's been three days he's probably changed already."
Chuck gave a soft smile reaching into his pocket and pulling out his phone he opened the photos turning it to her. There on the screen was his six week old baby boy's beautiful face. "That was this morning."
Lily smiled brightly. "He gets more handsome every day." She stared at Chuck as he slid the phone back into his pocket after looking at the picture one last time himself. "Is everything okay?"
"Yes." She raised her eyebrows at him. Chuck sighed. "No. Blair has been a bit distant and I'm not sure what's going on."
"Charles, she's just had a baby. This is a huge adjustment for her. And I'm not just talking about caring for Henry. I'm talking about the emotional and physical changes she's going through. I'm sure her hormones are crazy and her body is still not her own. Give her time. She loves you. You have to be patient."
He nodded. "And I am. I just miss her."
She reached out squeezing his arm. "I give it two more weeks and the two of you will be right as rain."
He gave her a hug. "Thank you."
He put a hand on the small of her back and escorted her to the door seeing her out. He then went back to his desk and called Dorota. He needed to make sure tonight was extra special. He wanted her to know that he loved and appreciated her.
So far the night had been perfect. Chuck had gotten home early, peonies in hand, which meant being able to have some time with Blair and Henry before dinner. Chuck had hired Jean Georges to make dinner for them. The chef was all too happy to oblige the Basses.
The meal was fantastic and Blair had polished off every last bite of her favorite molten chocolate cake.
Chuck smiled softly, staring at her as she pushed her dessert plate back sighing.
She wrinkled her forehead at him. "What?"
He shook his head as he lifted his coffee cup to his lips taking a sip. "Nothing." He set his cup back onto its saucer. "Do you know how beautiful you are?"
She rolled her eyes. "I think you're a bit bias."
He reached out across the table and took the hand that was still resting beside her plate. He squeezed it gently. "It's the truth." He leaned forward kissing her lips. He could taste the chocolate she had just finished consuming.
As he intensified the kiss she pulled back. "I should check on Henry." She attempted to pull her hand free from his grasp.
Chuck wouldn't let go. "Henry's fine. Lillian would come find us if she needed you." He stared at her intently for another minute. Her free hand was twisting the napkin in her lap. "Blair, talk to me. I know something's bothering you." When she didn't respond immediately he reached out grasping her chin lifting her face to meet his gaze. "I love you and I feel you pulling away and I have no idea why. Is it something I've done?"
Blair felt tears begin to well in her eyes as she shook her head. "It's not you." She leaned back in her chair as he released his hold on her. She stared down at the twisted cloth napkin in her lap. "You've been fantastic." She reluctantly raised her eyes to his. "It's me. I feel as if I'm completely out of sorts. I'm exhausted and I'm hormonal. I don't feel like myself. I really thought this whole mother thing would be a breeze. But it's not. It's really hard. There are some days I look at Henry and I literally don't know what to do. He's crying and I don't know why and I can't stop it. I feel like a complete failure." She wiped a tear from her cheek. "And that mommy brain thing is true. I always thought it was a myth but it's not. I forget everything. Yesterday when I left the house I remembered something I needed and by the time I walked back into the foyer I had already forgotten what I had come back for."
She sighed and rested a hand on her stomach. "And this is disgusting. I cannot lose these last fifteen pounds. It's clinging to my middle and I hate it."
Chuck reached out taking her hand in his once again. "Blair, the weight will come off."
She rolled her eyes. "Maybe it won't. It happens to women all the time. They get bigger with each pregnancy until they're huge."
Chuck squeezed her hand. He wanted to tell her she was being ridiculous but he knew her and he knew this was a real fear of hers. A lifelong love/hate relationship with her body wasn't going to go away because he tells her she's beautiful. "It wouldn't matter to me and you know it. You could gain a hundred pounds and I'm still going to love you."
She looked at him. "I know that but it's hard for me to like myself at the moment so how can I expect you to. I'm a mess."
"Hey, stop it. You're talking about the woman I love and I won't allow that. And to be completely honest I actually find you more attractive than ever, Blair," she started to protest and he held up his hand stopping her, "it's true. You gave me my son and a real family. Nothing is more attractive to me than that." He leaned forward staring at her intently making sure she was listening to him. "There's never been a time that I haven't wanted you, Blair. Now is no different." He squeezed her hand one more time before releasing it. "When you're ready I'll be here. I'm willing to wait as long as you need."
She released a breath she was holding. "Thank you. I love you and I want to be intimate again with you. I just…"
She stopped as she heard Lillian, the baby nurse, coming down the hall. She could hear Henry whimpering. Instantly she felt the pull in her chest. She glanced at her watch; right on schedule. "Can we finish talking about this after I feed him?" She picked up her napkin wiping her damp cheeks.
Chuck stood up helping her pull her chair out so she could get up. He kissed the back of her neck which was exposed since her hair was piled into a messy bun. "Of course." He put an arm around her waist as Lillian entered the room.
"Sorry to interrupt but someone is in need of a little topper before bed." Lillian passed Henry, who was now beginning to really howl, to Blair.
Blair pulled him close kissing the top of his head. "I'll feed him in the library."
Lillian nodded. "I'll come check on the two of you in a bit."
"Thank you." She raised her voice as Henry continued to cry.
Chuck leaned over kissing his son's cheek and then Blair's. "I'll meet you upstairs when you're finished. I love you."
She nodded as she patted her son's back. "I love you, too." She gave him a soft smile before heading out of the dining room.
A half hour later when Blair entered the master bedroom she found her husband in bed reading over some work papers. He looked up at her and smiled.
"Is he down?"
She nodded crossing the room and sat on the edge of the bed next to him. "Yes for the moment."
Chuck reached out pushing a curl behind her ear. "Why don't you let Lillian do the next feeding and you can get some sleep?"
She shook her head. "I want to do it. He's only going to be this tiny once. I'll nap tomorrow when he does." She turned to glance at him. "I'm sorry about earlier." She rolled her eyes. "It's the hormones, you know."
He knew she was trying to convince herself more than him. He nodded. "I know. Do you want me to run you a bath?"
"I'm too tired but thank you." She leaned into him kissing him gently. "I promise I'll pull myself together."
He set his papers aside and cupped her cheeks. "There's no hurry."
She kissed him once again and got up heading into the bathroom to prepare for bed.
Ten minutes later when she crawled into bed next to him, he switched off the lamp and pulled her back flush against him as he wrapped his arms around her. He held her tightly letting her know that this was enough for now and it was. Within two minutes she was drifting off to sleep.
Chuck was in the solarium sitting on the couch with his son in his arms. It was a gorgeous morning and he had absolutely nowhere else that he wanted to be than right there. The sun was streaming through the windows as Henry eagerly consumed his bottle.
When Lillian had knocked gently on their bedroom door this morning it was Chuck who had gotten up tying his bathrobe around his waist as he opened the door. He had glanced over his shoulder at his still sleeping wife before following the baby nurse out into the sitting room.
He took his son from her and asked her to warm up a bottle of breast milk for him so he could feed Henry. He was so relieved that Blair had slept through the wakeup call. They had gone out last night for the first time since Henry's birth and he knew she was exhausted.
Chuck stared down at his son in complete awe of this tiny piece of himself and Blair. Pulling the bottle away he carefully arranged Henry upright so he could burp him. After a couple of rubs along his back his son expelled a soft push of air and Chuck settled him back into the crook of his arm returning the bottle to his mouth.
Henry rooted for a second before latching on and continuing his breakfast. Chuck felt such an overwhelming sense of love that it almost hurt. He never could've imagined how powerful this feeling would be.
He leaned over and placed a soft kiss to Henry's forehead. "I love you, Henry." He then smiled at his son.
Blair had been taking the scene in from the open doorway. Her breath hitched as she fought back tears.
The sound caught Chuck's attention and he looked up at her. "Good morning. I was hoping you would sleep in."
She crossed the carpet and took a seat next to them. She kissed him and then leaning over kissed the top of Henry's head. She ran a finger over his dark brown hair. It was soft as silk. "I'm a bit uncomfortable."
He knew she needed to feed Henry or pump. He removed the bottle much to his son's dismay. Henry let out a squawk letting his father know he was none too happy.
Blair opened her robe and exposed her breast before taking him from Chuck. Within seconds Henry was happy again. Blair smiled down at the baby. "He's so easily pleased."
Chuck put an arm around her shoulders. "Like father, like son."
Blair glanced over at him. "Oh really? All it takes is a flash of my breast. I remember you being a bit more particular."
He kissed her shoulder. "At this point I'd take a flash of your elbow and be content."
She rested her head against his arm and stared up at him. "Wow, you have become easy." Her voice trailed off at the end. Seeing Chuck being so tender with their son had stirred something in her.
He stared at her lips which were parted slightly. "You have no idea." He closed the distance between them and started to kiss her.
Blair didn't pull away this time. She allowed him to kiss her thoroughly. When they parted they were both a bit breathless.
She opened her eyes slowly. He was smirking at her. "You're pretty easy yourself, Mrs. Bass."
Dorota entered the room. "Good morning, everyone."
Chuck straightened his robe as he sat back from Blair. "Good morning, Dorota."
The faithful housekeeper came over reaching out a finger to touch Henry's arm. "How is our little one today?"
Blair settled him in her lap as she covered herself and then lifting him burped him. "He's doing very well. He nearly went four hours last night."
Dorota clucked her tongue. "He is good, strong boy." She handed the New York Times she was carrying to Chuck.
He thanked her as he opened it glancing at the headlines. She turned her attention back to Blair. "What is on agenda today?"
Blair opened the other side of her robe and settled Henry at her other breast. "I was thinking after I feed him Lillian can get him washed and dressed and then maybe you two could take him for a stroll in the park. It's such a beautiful day. Some fresh air would do you all good."
Chuck lowered the paper looking at his wife, his brow wrinkled. She had yet to let anyone take Henry out of the house without her. Dorota looking just as shocked nodded.
"Come back in fifteen minutes to get him." Blair only had eyes for her son.
Dorota still surprised nodded. "Of course, Miss Blair." She left the room.
Blair continued to watch her son as Chuck stared at his wife. Neither of them said a word for a minute until Blair broke the silence. "What?" She glanced up at him finally meeting his gaze. "Can't a wife want to spend some time alone with her husband?"
Chuck leaned forward kissing her soundly. "Are you sure you're ready?"
She nodded. "Yes. Are you?"
"You have no fucking idea how ready I am."
She reached out with her free hand running it up along the inside of his thigh squeezing at the top. "Oh I have a pretty good idea." Her fingers grazed his semi erect cock.
By the time Dorota returned to take Henry, Chuck was beyond aroused.
They two of them linked hands and rushed up the stairs. They were inside their bedroom with the door closed within minutes.
Chuck wrapped his arms around her as he started to kiss her. Blair was already untying his robe and trying to remove it. Now that she was ready she was finding herself extremely impatient. She shoved the offending silk to the floor and her hands wrapped around his waist and slid under the shirt of his pajamas. Her fingers ran along his spine.
She moaned softly as he deepened the kiss leading her back towards the still unmade bed. Her fingers found their way to the buttons on the front of his shirt and she frantically began unbuttoning them.
Chuck had removed her robe as well and was now cupping her breast in his hand. He fingered her nipple which was straining against the silk. He kissed a trail from her lips to her neck and along her collarbone before lowering his mouth to her opposite breast pulling the silk covered nipple into his mouth.
Blair bit her bottom lip as she gasped. Her breasts were more sensitive than usual at the moment.
Chuck released the tight bud raising his head to look at her. "Did that hurt?"
Blair opened her eyes to see his concerned face. Her hands reached up from the last button she was opening to cup his face. "It's fine." She leaned forward kissing him. A few seconds more and Chuck was relaxing again.
She pushed his shirt to the floor and slowly lowered herself onto the rumpled sheets. She laid back and stared up at him as she slowly lowered the thin straps of her nightgown.
Chuck watched her as she pulled the silk down her body exposing her ivory skin to his gaze inch by inch.
When it was gathered at her waist she stopped. She slowly lifted her legs up and spread them wide. Reaching up with her right hand she beckoned him to join her.
He didn't need to be asked twice. He stood at the edge of the bed and reached for the lace panties she was wearing. She brought her legs together long enough for him to remove them and her nightgown before spreading herself wide again. She had a sense of relief that she and Chuck had agreed not to let him see anything from the waist down during delivery otherwise she would be very self-conscious at the moment.
Chuck took a deep breath as he stared down at her. She looked absolutely beautiful in her arousal. He continued to watch her as he removed his pajama bottoms.
He settled himself next to her covering her mouth with his once again. His hands roved over her body. She felt like heaven against his fingertips. His lips returned to the side of her neck where he could feel her pulse fluttering frantically against her skin. He could hear her soft moans as his fingers slipped between her thighs.
He was shocked to find her barely wet and he lifted his head from her throat and looked down at her. He couldn't remember a time that her body hadn't instantly responded to him. His brow was wrinkled in confusion.
She opened her eyes realizing that he had stopped his ministrations. "What's wrong?" She was slightly out of breath.
"You're dry. Are you not…?" His words trailed off.
She shook her head. "Oh God, no; believe me I am, thoroughly. The doctor mentioned it may happen. Its hormones and breastfeeding; it's most definitely not you. Grab the K-Y and a condom. I can't wait another minute."
He went to the bedside table and grabbed the items she asked for. He handed the condom to her which she opened as he applied the lubricant to her.
She slowly placed the condom on him and smiled coyly up at him. "I feel like we're back in high school."
He smirked at her as he tossed the tube of lubricant aside. "It's so much better than high school."
He leaned down covering her mouth in a searing kiss as he positioned himself between her thighs.
Blair was beyond ready and when he didn't enter her immediately she separated from him looking up at him in confusion. "Chuck?"
"I don't want to hurt you."
She shook her head wrapping her arms around his neck pulling him back down. "You won't." She started to kiss him again as she ran her right leg along his and up around his waist.
When he still didn't enter her she moaned in frustration. "Chuck, we've waited almost seven weeks for this. I'm fine; the doctor said so."
"I'm just worried it'll be too much." He was being completely serious.
Blair wanted to laugh but refrained. "Sweetheart, you saw the size of our son's head right? I think I can handle you." He continued to stare down at her completely motionless. She pulled on the hair at the back of his head. "Please, it'll be fine I promise," she begged.
He took a deep breath deciding to trust that she knew her own body best. Besides he was beyond ready. He returned to kissing her as he very gently started to enter her; going slow even though every fiber of his being wanted to do the complete opposite.
Her breath hitched against his mouth and he pulled away from her suddenly, stopping all movement. "Are you okay?"
She nodded biting her bottom lip. "Yes, it's just a bit of pressure. Please, don't stop." Her hands were linked around his middle and she pushed against his lower back to encourage him to continue.
Chuck watched her face as he slowly continued to enter her. Finally he was completely inside and he realized she was okay. She released a deep sigh and he took this as his cue to keep going. He started to move extremely slow at first and then a bit quicker as she raised her hips signaling him to pick up the pace.
After a few minutes he began to relax completely as he realized that she was all right and obviously not in any pain. He was also aware of the fact that she was probably going to need a bit of help to achieve orgasm so in one smooth motion he rolled onto his back bringing her with him.
She knew exactly what he was doing and why he was doing it. She felt a burst of love for this man who was always so attentive to her every need. She bent forward kissing him.
"I love you," she whispered against his lips before lowering her hips to take him fully inside her. She gasped as she raised herself again. She began to set a pace that was good for her.
Chuck explored her body with his hands. He was trying to distract himself so he wouldn't come too soon. Nearly seven weeks of nothing but blow jobs and hand jobs made it very hard to restrain himself and he did well for the next five minutes after which he came after pulling her down for a kiss.
He whispered, "I'm sorry. I couldn't wait." He knew she hadn't reached her peak.
She slowly removed herself from his body. "It's okay." She laid down next to him as he removed the condom, tying it off and tossing it to the floor.
He turned to face her. "No it's not." He started to kiss her pushing his tongue into her mouth. Next thing Blair knew she was being pushed back against the pillows as her husband started to worship her body with his mouth.
"Oh Chuck," she panted as he made his way down her body. Her hands entwined in his hair as she lost herself in him.
Ten minutes later she was completely satisfied. She was lying partially atop him with her head resting on his chest. Nothing existed beyond the two of them and that room at the moment. She placed her lips against his damp skin kissing where she could feel his heart thumping away.
"Thank you for being patient with me. I know it wasn't easy." She glanced up at him.
His eyes were hooded as he played with the hair falling down her back. "I'd wait a hundred years for you, Blair. You're worth waiting for. I learned that the hard way."
She smiled softly at him. "We both had our learning curves but now we have our perfect life with our beautiful baby boy. It's nothing but smooth sailing from here."
He took a deep breath. "It's surreal sometimes when I think about how happy I am."
She nodded. "For me too. Even though I'm exhausted and I feel as if my body has been possessed by a hormonal alien; I wouldn't trade it for anything. It's perfect."
He pulled her up for another kiss. "I love you."
"I love you, too." She gave him one last kiss before separating her legs from his and sitting up running a hand through her tangled hair.
"Hey, where are you going? I was thinking another round." He was actually pouting.
"I think we should shower before our son gets back and demands to be fed." She got up grabbing her robe from the floor slipping it on. "Then I was thinking we could take him over to Lily's for lunch. She's been missing him terribly." She was heading into the bathroom.
"Yeah I know she told me the other day in my office when she was supposedly having lunch with you. Amazing how she could be in two places at once." He raised his eyebrows in her direction.
Blair stopped just short of the bathroom door and turned to face him. "Sorry about that." She shrugged her shoulders. "I knew if we met for lunch you'd cajole and prod until you got your way and I wasn't in the mood. The wait was worth it though, right?"
He sighed. "Yes. Next time just be honest and tell me exactly how you feel and what you want."
She nodded. "I promise." She started to turn her back on him before stopping and turning to face him again. "Don't forget the condom. I'd be mortified if Dorota found it." She headed into the bathroom.
Chuck rolled his eyes. "She knows we came up here to have sex. The woman isn't stupid."
Her only response was the starting of the shower. Sighing dramatically he forced himself out of bed bending over to pick up the used condom. He realized in that moment exactly how whipped he was but he was also surprisingly okay with that fact.
It wasn't even five minutes after Chuck and Blair's arrival and Lily could tell that her prediction had been right even if her timing had been wrong. Chuck and Blair were relaxed and unable to keep their hands to themselves; right as rain just as she knew they would be.