When Arizona had made the decision to distance herself from her parents in the move, she hadn't considered that they'd take it as an invitation to hunt her down. For some reason she thought they'd just give her the space she clearly wanted. But, The Robbins' weren't the type who just let their child disappear. It had been five days since Christian had broken the news to her and it was now the weekend before they were due.

After working a long shift at the hospital, Arizona had come home to an empty bed. Rather than frown like a normal wife, she smiled, thankful that her husbands schedule had him on an opposite shift. Her eyes were closed; her body relaxing before she'd even hit the pillow. Despite not needing to be at work until 8 o'clock the following night, the blonde was awake just as the sun broke through the horizon. She climbed out of bed and headed for the bathroom to wash up. Fifteen minutes later she sat on her living room couch, bent over tying the laces of her black and pink Nike Frees. Today she needed to run. She needed to clear her mind, to try and forget the plethora of problems she'd gotten herself into over the last few years. Things were reaching their climax that much she knew, but predicting the fallout was something she wasn't able to do. So, she needed to run. The sound of her phone chiming from its spot on the table jarred her from her thoughts. She smiled at the name in the little box that popped up on the screen, alerting her that she had a text message. Charming. Callie. She'd given her that nickname shortly after their first playful fight over disclosing their names. The brunette had surrendered, insisting that if she'd had to name her, she'd call her Sunshine. Arizona had thought hard, and replied she'd call her Charming. Grabbing her phone and pushing her headphones into her ears, she opened the message.

Did I leave my ID badge in your office?

Arizona frowned, but replied that she had. She added in instructions on where to find a spare key to the office. Putting her iPhone on shuffle, she grabbed her house key and stuck it in the inside pocket of her black spandex running shorts before leaving the apartment. She strapped the iPhone into the armband around her bicep and headed down the stairs of the building. Once outside she immediately changed her focus, tuning out the world around her and pushing off into a steady pace.

By the time she'd finished running, sweat was dripped from every inch of her skin. The tank top covering her chest was stuck to her body, drenched from the 4-mile run she'd just completed. Just over 35 minutes had past, she'd definitely beaten her personal record. Standing in front of her apartment building, she regained her breath as best as she could before heading back upstairs. By the time she'd stepped back into her apartment she was shivering. The drastic change in body temperature had finally hit her and she scrambled for the shower.

Running her fingers through her hair, she closed her eyes, massaging shampoo into her scalp. Things were about to change drastically in her life. She intended on telling Christian everything. After all, he really did deserve to know the whole truth. Explaining herself to him was going to be the hardest part of their conversation, but it was the most essential. Christian needed to know that he'd done nothing wrong. She'd decided against telling him whom she'd been seeing, but didn't plan on hiding the affair either. The fact that her parents were coming into town was making things all the more complicated. How was she supposed to drop this bombshell on him with them around? Letting go of her innocent husband was one thing, but proclaiming her sexuality to her parents was a whole different story.

Her shower lasted longer than usual, and by the time she was dressed and ready for the day it was almost 10 o'clock.

Can you talk?

Arizona typed out the message three times, deleting it each consecutive time before finally sending the three little words to Callie. It was an agonizing 15-minute wait before Callie finally responded.

Kinda. I've got maybe 20 minutes. Are you okay?

Arizona paused for a minute before answering, debating whether to answer the text truthfully or not. Opting on ignoring the question, she finally replied simply:

When do you get off?

Once again there was a short pause before Callie's reply came beeping through her phone.

5, but I've got a date tonight. You can come over after?

And there it was again, that dull ache in her heart that she hadn't felt in years. She'd known all along that this relationship was just about sex, hell she herself had been the one to demand that it be nothing more. But, she hadn't really prepared herself for the day that Callie found someone she wanted to actually date, or perhaps she just hadn't prepared herself for that person being anyone but her. She couldn't even force herself to acknowledge the fact that Callie had said anything about a date; for fear that tears would start to fall. So, after telling Callie to call her later, she quickly sent a text to her best friend, requesting that they meet for lunch. She needed to talk to someone, all the bottling up of emotions she'd been doing for the last few months was beginning to get to her.

It was just after noon when Arizona had been directed to a table near the back of her favorite Italian restaurant. Being late was a rarity for Arizona, but the fact that she was about to tell her best friend everything had set her back, almost to the point of not showing up at all. She thanked the hostess briefly and turned to face the woman already sitting at the table. Smiling nervously, Arizona took her seat opposite her.

"Hey Ted," Arizona started gently, nerves easily getting the best of her at the moment. Earlier, when she'd all but begged the woman to cancel her previous plans and meet her for an impromptu lunch, she'd disclosed that she had life altering news to share. Knowing Teddy, it wouldn't be long before she'd start asking questions.

"Don't 'hey Ted' me. You got me all worried and then you show up late," the woman began, her voice void of emotion. Arizona winced, knowing that she'd gotten Teddy worked up.

"I'm sorry," Arizona replied, reaching out for the water the woman had obviously ordered for her. She took a few long sips before setting it back down on the table. "I didn't mean to worry you. It's nothing you should be worried about, but I'm nearly positive you will be angry."

The darker-blonde shook her head, "Hey, cut me some slack. I'm a very understanding woman. Besides, what could you possibly have to tell me that would make me angry with you? You're not dying and refusing treatment are you?"

Arizona shook her head, a small chuckle escaping her lips, "No, I'm not dying… and just for future reference, if I was dying, I'd never refuse treatment. I'm a doctor; I see miracles happen all the time. Any other ludicrous ideas about what could be wrong?" Teddy never failed to concoct the craziest of scenarios whenever she'd refuse to tell her something right off the bat.

"Nope, nothing in particular. Care to tell me what has you so spaced out lately?" Teddy asked, putting down the menu she had been holding and looking up to meet her friends baby blues. "I knew something was up, you've been acting less… perky."

Arizona rolled her eyes and sighed, "So I guess I should start from the beginning then?" She paused, taking in a deep breath. Where was the beginning? Should she just outright say the words? What was the best way to tell your best friend that you have been lying to her about a lot of things since you'd met her during your undergrad at UCLA? The awkward silence sure wasn't helping, so finally, she blurted, "Teddy… I'm gay."

Teddy, who was mid-sip-of-water when Arizona finally spoke again, nearly choked on the liquid as it slid down her throat. Coughing lightly as she set the glass down, she looked Arizona directly in the eyes, a small smile playing at her lips.

"This isn't funny," Arizona cut in quickly, catching sight of the woman's playful grin. "I'm serious!"

"I'm not laughing," Teddy spoke finally, "I'm smiling because you've finally admitted it." She reached across the table, grabbing her friend's hand and squeezing it. "I've known since the moment I met you that you were batting for the other team. Please, no straight girl in her right mind would have turned down Connor McFallon."

Arizona's jaw dropped at the revelation. She'd met Teddy at a frat party one night during her junior year of college. The thin blonde had pretty much rescued her from one of the most well respected boys in the fraternity. Not that Connor had been doing anything wrong, because he wasn't, but Arizona had been way too shy to tell him she wasn't interested. But, that was besides the point; Arizona furrowed her brow, "Teddy, this is serious!"

"I know. Okay, I'm sorry. Honestly, this isn't a shock to me. The only time anything you've ever done has shocked me, was 3 years ago when you married Christian. I honestly had started to think I was wrong, and had really misjudged you, but then I saw something… and I knew for sure," Teddy answered, finally lowering her voice to get serious with Arizona.

Arizona didn't respond, silently signaling for Teddy to continue. She wanted her to explain. If Teddy had seen something, who else had? If Teddy already knew, did that mean Christian had already known too?

"It was maybe a month ago the first time I caught it, but you'd been talking to that resident, I think her names Torres… the hot gay one. Anyway, when she walked away, you literally leaned against the wall and ogled the hell out of her ass as she left. I gotta admit, even my eyes drifted, but you were drooling," Teddy continued. A blush crept up the platinum blonde's neck, embarrassed for having gotten caught checking the brunette out at work. "Okay, so you're gay… and married. What's the next step?"

"Slow down. There's so much I need to say to you Teddy…" Arizona paused, searching for the words to begin. "When I got to college, I was a sheltered military brat. My father had moved bases so much I never really had any friends; heading out on my own to attend UCLA had been the biggest shell-shock of my life."

Just as Teddy went to interrupt her, their waitress approached the table to take their orders. They'd each ordered a Caesar salad to start, and Italian Panini's for their lunch. Once the waitress left them alone again, Teddy quickly cut in, "How long have you been holding this in?"

"During my undergrad I just wasn't interested in anything but school. I'd finally made friends and was doing something consistent. I fell in love with science and medicine, and never really had time for anything else, you remember," Arizona began. Teddy nodded, indeed remembering the driven, 'teacher's pet' attitude of young-adult Arizona Robbins. "It wasn't until about two weeks into medical school when things started to change. I'd met this girl on the campus bus. She affected me more in that twenty-minute ride than anyone ever had. There was something about her charm," Arizona smiled at the use of her nickname, "it honestly captivated me… Teddy… I lost my virginity to that girl before I even knew her name."

Teddy's jaw dropped in shock before she practically shouted, "On the bus?!"

Arizona laughed, quickly shushing the woman as people around them started to stare. "No, not on the bus you moron! If you'd stop interrupting me, you'd know the whole story."

"Sorry, continue," Teddy said as the waitress returned with their side salads. The two women thanked the waitress and once again they were alone.

"She gave me her phone number and I texted her after class," Arizona started again, "She was an out, loud and proud lesbian. We texted and we flirted, a lot, to say the least. We'd given one another cute nicknames and after two weeks we agreed to meet up. She blew my mind up against the wall of her dorm rooms kitchen."

Teddy's shocked expression didn't surprise Arizona. She'd told the woman early on in their friendship that she had never had sex and didn't intend to do so until the time and person were right. Hearing that she'd actually lost it like this, and not to Christian during her intern year like Teddy had thought, was slightly shocking.

"Surprisingly, I didn't regret it. I felt… alive for the first time in my life. She had me on such a high that I can't even explain it to you. Of course I went into hiding for a while right after it had happened, freaking out, but we'd forged a secret 'friends with benefits' relationship. It lasted almost a year before things got complicated. I tried everything to stop myself, Teddy, everything. I was raised better than this, to be better than this. I found myself surprising her after classes with a cup of coffee, calling her in the morning because I needed to hear her voice, begging her to come over at night because I just couldn't fall asleep without her. I was falling in love with a woman and it was tearing me apart," Arizona said, her voice growing shallow and tears welling up in her eyes as she spoke. She'd promised herself before walking into the restaurant that she wouldn't cry. That was the majority of the reason why she'd chosen to meet with Teddy in public, that, and she was hungry. "I was lying to everyone around me, to myself. But I couldn't stop… She called me one night and had me come over. Her roommate was out of town and she'd set up her dorm with a pile of blankets and pillows and all of my favorite snacks, right on the floor in front of the TV. We watched like 3 movies before she told me she wanted more than this… that she wanted to take me out on a date. My mind had screamed at me to say no, to tell her that this wasn't what this was… but instead I agreed, and for the first time, she made love to me," A single tear slipped from the corner of Arizona's eye as she finished, wiping it away with the back of her hand.

Teddy didn't say anything for a minute, trying to piece this new information into the rest of the details she had on her best friends life. She knew about this girl, Arizona had spent so much time with her over her first year of med school that she'd definitely been mentioned before. But, she also remembered that Arizona never spoke about her again after that year. "So, what happened?"

"I told my mother," Arizona answered simply. Barbara Robbins was a kind woman, gentle, with a huge heart. She'd been the kind of mother most children wished they had. She was supportive and there for her children when they needed her. But she was loyal to her husband. "I told my mother everything I could… I was confused and lost… I needed her to support me, and she told me I needed to make a choice: my family, or that life. That summer my little brother moved out to New York to 'watch me'. My parents got me in therapy and my father had instructed Timmy to text my 'friend' and let her know that I had met a boy in my class and that things were through between us. I was a wreck over it, they had her number blocked so that I couldn't speak to her at all. They had me so convinced that my choices were wrong that I'd literally…" Arizona stopped again, trying to regain herself. Crying was not an option, she'd already cried too many tears over this. "I made myself sick over it. They didn't even let me say goodbye. Not knowing if she was okay, or if she hated me for what had happened was hurting worse than me trying to talk the gay away. No matter how wrong everyone kept telling me these feelings were, I couldn't stop thinking about her. I'd see her in the distance on campus and literally have to stop and walk the other way. I'd even had Timmy go up and snoop on her once just to see how she was. After he finally left and school picked back up again in Fall, he'd tried to convince me to go talk to her. My parents were off my back, and he'd already told me countless times that he'd never thought the same way our parents did. By the time I'd gone and found her, she was with another girl. She looked good, really good… and it broke my heart."

"Damn," Teddy began softly, putting down her fork. Her heart broke for Arizona. "I can't even imagine being subjected to that. Did you love her?"

"Back then? I was falling in love, but I'm more confident now than I've ever been about the fact that yes, I do love her," Arizona explained, not hesitating for a second, "I love her more than I love my family and that's the part that scares me."

"How will you even find her again? It's been what, nearly 11 years now?" Teddy asked, shocked.

"Her name is Dr. Callie Torres, and I've already found her," Arizona revealed softly. Instantly, Teddy's jaw dropped again. The fork she'd been holding fell from her hand, crashing into the plate with a loud 'clang' There was the look of utter shock Arizona had been expecting from the start of their conversation. A few long moments passed before Arizona finally spoke again. "I thought I'd moved on, I thought I'd truly gotten over her. Christian and I were happy… and then we moved here… and there she was again, in the flesh. I had to have her, something just took control of me."

"No… Arizona…." Teddy started, cutting the blonde across from her off. She shook her head rapidly from side to side, "No. Don't you dare. Please don't tell me you cheated on Christian."

Arizona lowered her head, glancing down at her lap for a moment before meeting Teddy's eyes. "I'm not proud of what I did, but I honestly can't say I'm ashamed either. Christian didn't deserve this, any of this… but I need to be happy, too. I know I did things the wrong way, but I couldn't stop myself, Teddy. The moment I saw her again, everything just came rushing at me like a ton of bricks. But, I didn't want this to be about her, because at the end of the day, it's not. I'm not leaving Christian for her; I'm leaving him for me, for him."

"Did you ever love him?" Teddy asked curiously, not an ounce of judgment in her features.

"Yes. I do love him. I'm just… not in love with him," Arizona answered as she finished off her glass of water. "I resigned myself to believing that the love we had was all I was ever going to have. He's treated me like royalty since the moment we met, and I truly did find happiness with him. But, I can't hold this in any longer. I can't hide from who I am. I can't keep stringing Christian along like some day I'm going to wake up and feel all the things a wife should feel for her husband…"

"What does Callie think?" Teddy asked just as their waitress returned with their sandwiches.

"She knows that I'm leaving him, and she's happy for me that I'm coming to terms with this," Arizona answered simply, "but as far as I know, she's content with what we have being nothing more than mutually satisfying sex."

"You haven't told her how you feel? How long has this been going on?"

"Six months," Arizona answered picking up her food to eat.

"She's only been here six months! What did you do, jump her bones the minute you saw her?" Teddy asked with a gentle laugh.

When Arizona didn't respond, Teddy's smile faded, "You're joking." Arizona shook her head. "So you're serious about her then? You love her?"

"From the moment I met her, something inside me changed. It was like I'd been in darkness for so long and she brought light into my life. The first time she directed one of those smiles at me, I was hooked. What my parents did absolutely killed me. The only thing that kept me in medical school was the fact that every day on my way to my pharmacology course, if I got there early enough, which I did, every day, I'd get five solid minutes of uninterrupted starring time."

Teddy shook her head in response, "So, what are you going to do now?"

Arizona shrugged, "I don't know! My parents are coming, Christian thinks he's in a committed marriage and all I can think about is the fact that Callie texted me today about a date she's got tonight. My world is crashing down around me, but all I'm concerned about is whether or not I'm going to lose Callie again." The tears started to well up in Arizona's eyes, threatening to come cascading down her cheeks, "Teddy, I'm going to lose my whole family, everything I've known. But I can't stop myself from loving her. It's been so long, and I just can't hide this anymore. I'm a lesbian. I'm a fucking lesbian and I'm in love with that woman."

A knock at the door wasn't enough to wake up a sleeping Calliope Torres; Arizona had known her long enough to know that. But, for the last five minutes, the clearly inebriated blond had her fist banging roughly against the bright blue door of her lovers apartment.

"Callie!" Arizona shouted against the door, banging her head against it in mock defeat. Her fist slammed against the door in aggravation, "Callie! Callie, wake up!" The hospital had been unusually slow for a weekend night. No major emergencies had busted through the ER doors, and, surprisingly, all of her patients had remained stable through the night. After getting off at nearly 4 AM, she'd downed almost half a bottle of tequila in her office before finding herself at Callie's door.

The opening of a door from the other side of the hallway soon interrupted Arizona's banging. "What the fuck are you doing?" A gruff voice asked as Arizona quickly turned around.

Light eyes met briefly before the man closed his robe around himself at the realization of who the woman was, "It's almost 5 AM. What the fuck are you doing banging on Callie's door at this time? Don't you know people are trying to sleep?"

Arizona shook her head vigorously, "I need to talk to her Mark." Her words were slurred and her movements were awkward as she spun back around and began banging on the Latina's door once more. "CALLIE! Open the door! CAL-" her shouting and banging were interrupted again, but this time by the opening of her lover's door.

"Arizona?" the brunette asked groggily as she pulled the door open, "What are you doing? What are you doing here?"

Arizona stumbled forward, grasping Callie's face between her hands, palms open against her tan cheeks. She pulled the woman closer to her, close enough so that their bodies were almost touching. "Callie," Arizona started softly, voice barely above a whisper. Her eyes softened as she leaned her body against Callie's, the alcohol induced haze making it nearly impossible to stand up straight. Her eyes scanned the darker woman's face, memorizing each and every crevice of her skin as if she'd never seen it before.

"Arizona," Callie started, glancing between the intoxicated blonde and her male best friend. This was not the time or the place for him to find out about their affair, especially since she didn't need to yield any more questions from the peanut gallery. She'd had enough time giving Addison half the story, giving it to Mark would NOT be as simple. Mark could read her like a book. "Arizona, you're drunk. What happened? Let's go inside, okay?"

Mark shot her a questioning look, and Callie simply returned the glance with a smile, "Come on, let's get you inside and call up Christian, okay?" Callie continued, looking down at the woman leaning against her, cheeks still between pale hands.

"No. I don't want him," Arizona finally slurred out again, moving so she was face to face with Callie again, "I want... I want you." She moved one of her hands and pushed her index finger roughly into Callie's chest, "YOU. I want YOU. I love you." The blonde smiled at the words slipping from her lips. Suddenly, Arizona leaned upwards to even their height and crashed her lips against Callie's plump ones in a kiss she'd never forget.

AN: So it's rude for me to leave it here, but I've had all of this written since the last update…. And I figured a cut-short update is better than no update at all, especially after these last two episodes of Grey's! Anyway, I hope you liked this one! And I hope it gave you more perspective. I love you guys' reviews, and suggestions! You guys rock, don't ever change! Thank you all so much for everything!

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