A/N: I'm sorry for the lack of updates school has swallowed me whole. Since I will probably be writing short chapters the major climax shall be after the next chapter most likely. The next chapter will be New Orleans and you will finally find out something about the pregnancy:) Oh! The title came from the song The Wilhelm Scream by James Blake.

Chapter 7: The Wilhelm Scream

Point of View: Tiara Somerhalder June 11, 2016

I walk into the living room and see Caitlyn sitting on the couch flipping channels. "Thanks for coming over."

"No problem I wasn't doing anything anyway."

I lower down on the couch with a huff, "I can't believe I agreed to let Christian go off on a summer trip with his friends."

"Why not? He needs that right now especially with all the crap going on. I think going away for a little bit will be good for him and you and Ian as well."

"That's what Ian told me but I can't help but worry."

"I promise you it will all be fine. What did Dr. Graham say?"

"Everything is progressing as it should we are both healthy I just need to keep my iron level elevated and my stress level down. I feel like something is wrong though I'm huge I was not this big with Christian at twenty weeks."

"Well you did say you have been eating a lot more so maybe it's just extra weight from that."

"I don't know I mean c'mon the baby can only be so big."

"You should've told Dr. Graham to tell you more than the basics like the gender!"

"No I don't want to know yet and Dr. Graham kept reassuring me that everything is perfectly fine I guess I'm really paranoid."

"Your husband being gone all the time doesn't help either."

"He needs his time and I understand that. Seeing me brings up pain and sadly I understand that feeling because I experienced it as well."

"But you would meet with him when he asked you to but if you ask for a damn pickle he has a hissy fit."

"Caitlyn! I might be pregnant with another man's baby and that man is the one that practically ruined our lives so sorry if I'm cutting Ian some slack for even staying with me this long!" I start wiping away the tears that happened to escape, "I need a break I need to relax. I'm so tired of all of this."

Right when she is about to say something we hear the door open, "Hello ladies. Am I interrupting?"

I shake my head as Caitlyn eyes my husband with disgust. "Did you need something?"

"Um yeah can I take you out?"

"That's the least you could do. I'll leave you two with the rest of your evening." Caitlyn hugs me then leaves the house.

"Where are you trying to take me?" I manage to get up on my own but regret standing up to face Ian when his eyes instantly glue to my stomach.

"New Orleans. I figured an hour drive wouldn't be too demanding on you but if it is it's okay we can sit at home."

"No I'd love to go just let me go pack some stuff."

I begin to walk pass him but he grabs my arm, "You should know by now that I always plan for you to say yes and that you never have to pack."

I shake my head and walk out to the waiting car.

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I stare out the window listening to pure silence within the car. I feel the tension surrounding us but less heavy it's as if something has changed but I don't know what. This whole trip is out of the blue especially since Ian didn't even bother to come home. That's become regular behavior along with moving around me as if I don't exist. In normal circumstances I would consider that cruel but our relationship has grown further and further away from normal ever since we met.

"What's wrong?"

I turn towards Ian, "Nothing."

"You're crying."

I wipe away my unnoticed tears, "Uh no reason."

"I really want this to be a good thing, to be a way for you to relax. For that to happen we need to clear the air sort of."

"And how do you suggest that since the elephant in the room is growing inside me?"

"We need to stop acting like we can bottle everything up to make this predicament better when we know it won't. We need to just say what's on our minds right in the moment and stop tip toeing around each other."

"Why do you ignore my existence?"

Ian glances at me then back at the road, "I don't mean to. I try to push everything aside so that I can't talk to you and deal with my feelings but it turns into me ignoring you. I look at you and I want to yell and scream and even cry on your shoulder but that's not fair and won't change anything."

"Who have you been staying with when you don't come home?"

"Hotels most of the time. Going to another house drives me insane because I see you everywhere I look and memories flood back. Having to sleep in any bed without you is torture but sleeping in one that we shared… it crushes me." I look at Ian for another moment then back out the window unsure of what to say. "I miss you. You have no idea how much I miss you."

"I think I do. Every part misses you and every second that I'm not with you my heart breaks a little more. There's been nights where I've dreamt that you were with me and everything was okay and I'm so happy until I wake up and realize I'm all alone. I've sat in bed plenty of days crying before I found the strength to get up and go on about my day."

"Yes I'll admit that I talked to other women about what I was feeling and the pain but that was only because I couldn't get to you. I'm drained, I'm tired, I'm fed up with everything. I want my wife I want to be able to touch you and feel you I miss holding you in my arms. When I look at you I feel hurt but also jealous because I don't get to share this time with you... again because of my stupidity. I need you I'll always need you no matter how hard I try to live without you I simply can't do it."

I look down unsure of what to say and place my hand on my stomach as I go back to the window. Out of nowhere I feel Ian's hand on top of mine making me cry all over again because he hasn't touched me at all since the day he found out.

I turn back to him and his eyes meet mine before going back to the road, "I'm trying baby… I'm trying."

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