Come Back To Me
Chapter 3
December in Lima
Mercedes was on top of the world, well as on top as she could be. She and Santana are official. About a week ago Santana asked if Mercedes would be her girlfriend and she agreed. Mercedes wanted to be the one to ask Santana first because Santana had initiated all of their other firsts; first hang out session, first phone call, first date… Not that she didn't love Santana taking the lead, Mercedes just wanted to be first for once. But something kept her from asking Santana to be official and that something was fear. Mercedes had been the one to take the lead in her last relationship and that did not turn out good for her. She wasn't sure about taking the lead again.
About a Week Ago
They were all dressed up and lying on Santana's bed. Mercedes had taken Santana to her favorite restaurant and they spent the night laughing and eating. Santana held Mercedes' hand the entire time she drove Santana back to her house. Not wanting to let her go Santana invited Mercedes in, just to be close to her, nothing else.
Santa still in her red strapless dress was cuddled into Mercedes who was still in her black halter dress. They had been lying in a comfortable silence for almost 20 minutes, Mercedes on her back with her eyes closed holding Santana close, Santana's head on Mercedes chest while stroking Mercedes' hair. It was nice. It made them both feel good.
Santana stopping her stroking, but not lifting her head says, "Mercedes?" "Hmm?" "Mercedes, I know you don't like to talk about your last girlfriend, and I know that you said she just up and left without saying why, and I know that even though you say you're okay, you're really not, not completely anyway" At that Mercedes' heart starts to beat faster, Santana feels it and places her left hand on Mercedes' heart. "Shhh" Santana moves her hand to place a kiss on Mercedes' heart, "Shhh its okay, it's okay, I know it takes time, but what I want you to know is … I would never do that to you. I like you a lot Mercedes and I want to be with you. I know your heart is still mending, but I want to help fix it. I want to be the one who puts it back together."
Santana lifts head to look at Mercedes. Her eyes are still closed but now there are tears streaming down her face. Santana wipes Mercedes' tears and plants a kiss on her cheek. "Mercedes pleas look at me…please." Mercedes slowly opens her eyes to look into Santana's, "Hey there beautiful." Mercedes lightly laughs and replies, "Hi gorgeous" Santana plants another kiss on Mercedes cheek, "Do you believe me when I say I won't hurt you?" Not even a beat passes before Mercedes replies, "Yes"
"So what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Mercedes closes her eyes again and takes a deep breath before she opens them, another tear leaving her eyes, "Santana I'm scared." Santana wipes Mercedes' tear and before she can put her hand back down Mercedes clasps it in her own. "I'm scared because you are the first person that I have fallen for since my last girlfriend and I don't want to hurt you."
"Why would you hurt me?"
Mercedes moves to sit upright and pulls Santana up to do the same in the process. "You were right when you said that I'm not completely okay. In the back of my mind I am constantly thinking about my ex. I loved her with all of my heart and if she asks to be back into my life tomorrow I can't say that I would tell her no." It was Santana's turn to shed a few tears. She is glad that Mercedes was being honest with her, but it still hurt.
"Hey, no crying remember?" Mercedes says after wiping Santana's tears.
"Ha, then why are you crying too?"
They both let out a laugh and Mercedes leans in to give Santana a kiss. She leans back but only just enough to rest her forehead on Santana's. "Santana… I really, really like you, but I don't trust myself. I don't know what to do."
"Well" Santana says with a sniffle, "I might have an idea." Clearing her throat "I really, really, really like you" they both laugh a little and Santana sniffles again before continuing, "and you really, really, really like me too right?" Mercedes nods causing both of their foreheads to move, "mmm, yes"
"So why don't you and I promise to be honest with each other. I know you're scared Mercedes and to be honest your fear scares me too. Once I have you I don't know if I'd be able to let you go, but I want you so badly and you want me too. If your ex comes back into the picture, we can face her together. You don't have to do it alone, I don't want you too, but you have to be honest with me. I don't know why anyone would let you go, but if I were your ex and I had a chance to get you back I would fight my hardest. So I know that if she appears again there will be some trouble on our hands, but we can't spend our days worrying about that. I want to spend my days wrapped up in you Mercedes." Santana leans in and kisses Mercedes deep and hard. Her hands moved to hold Mercedes' face on either side before she slips her tongue into Mercedes' mouth and begins to caress her tongue with her own. The kiss is sweet, not too fast and not to slow. It's passionate. This kiss is Santana's way of proving how in like she is with Mercedes.
The kiss ends and Santana gives Mercedes another peck for good measure. Nothing is said for almost a minute while they try to catch their breaths. It was Mercedes' turn to talk, "Santana, I want to be with you too, I really do, and… if you're willing to be with me even with my doubts, the least I can do is be honest with you about my feelings."
Santana squeals and then quickly composes herself, "So Mercedes Jones, will you be my girlfriend?" Mercedes gives Santana a quick kiss, "Santana Lopez, I would really like it if I were your girlfriend." With that it was official. Santana smiles and says, "Well then, I think I'd like to spend the rest of the night making out with my girlfriend."
"You won't hear any complaints from me." Santana gently guides Mercedes to lie back down on her bed; she leans down and gives Mercedes another breathtaking kiss to start a series of breathtaking kisses to last the night.
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Yup, Mercedes was on top; at least that was the case before she opened her locker to collect her things at the end of the day. A slip of paper falls from her locker when she opens the door. She picks it up to read it, and when she does, she really wishes that she hadn't. There is no name on it but she is familiar with the hand writing, and there is only one person in the world that would leave a note like the one in her hand.
"Hey baby, you ready?" Santana asks while planting a kiss on Mercedes' cheek. Mercedes makes a decision; she crumples the note and hides it in her pocket. She has a good thing with Santana, and it will take more than a little note to jeopardize that. Smiling at Santana she replies, "Hi, and yes. Let's go, I'm ready to get out of here." They walk hand in hand while they exit the school.
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Crumpled in Mercedes' front right pocket was a note that said, "I never stopped loving you…"
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Sophomore Year Boarding School in Seattle, WA
Knock, knock, knock, Mercedes opens the door to her dorm room and is blown away by the beautiful blonde girl who was in front of her, "Hi, you're beautiful, oh my god, I mean hi, I'm Mercedes. How can I help you?" Giving Mercedes a half-smile the girl replies "Hi, I'm Lucy, your new roommate."
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