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Come Back to Me
Chapter 11
April in Lima
"Tell me again."
"Lucy I…"
"I need to hear it."
The girls are naked lying in bed after two hours of sex. Mercedes is spent, but Quinn has gained this new found energy for sex and is more than ready to go a few more rounds with the girl that she loves. This has been going on for over a month. Quinn hasn't been able to keep her hands off of Mercedes and seduces her wherever and whenever. When this behavior first started Mercedes embraced it. She loves her girlfriend and having sex in the choir room, a semi secluded movie theatre, the back seat of her car, and the girls locker room were all great experiences, but it's the fact that Quinn wants to constantly hear these words and the way she wants to hear them is what has her worried.
Now Mercedes is lying flat on her back, Quinn is leaning on her elbow looking down on Mercedes, one leg in between both of hers, tracing Mercedes' lips with her index finger. "Lucy I wish you would talk to me." The smile on Quinn's face, her hand movements, and the hope in her eyes disappear at that statement. Her eyes go somewhere into the distance and she takes a deep breath "Mercedes I already told you I'm fine, I just like hearing you say it that's all."
"I can see it in your eyes and the way you act, you're not okay. You just told me that you need to hear me say it, want and need are two very different things. I wish you would just open up to me." Quinn makes her way to get out of the bed, Mercedes grabs her wrist to stop her but she shakes it off and continues to get up. "I don't want to talk about this; I don't understand why you can't just say it for me." She storms into the bathroom and Mercedes can here the shower starting. She brings a pillow to her face to muffle the sound of her frustrated screams. Mercedes doesn't have a problem saying what Quinn wants to hear. In fact she would say it every second of the day if that would make her girl happy, but that's just it, Quinn doesn't want her to say those words just because they make her happy. It's something else. Her desire to hear those words come from fear. Mercedes knows that, that is the reason and she also knows why Quinn is afraid, but she wishes Quinn would tell her herself.
After coming out of her thoughts Mercedes looks at the clock and notices that Quinn has been in the shower for almost forty-five minutes. She makes her way to the bathroom and knocks on the door, "Lucy baby are you okay?" Mercedes doesn't hear an answer, so she opens the door. Steam burst out of the bathroom and the mirrors are all foggy. Standing next to the shower curtain Mercedes says, "Lucy talk to me." Again she hears nothing, so she pulls back the curtain a little and pokes her head in.
Quinn standing under the shower head, her head tilted back, eyes closed, as the hot water runs down her body. This makes Mercedes sad, clearly Quinn is trying to keep it together and she knows it would be so much easier to deal whatever it is that she is dealing with if she would just talk to her. Mercedes enters the shower, turns Quinn around, and pulls her forward a little to move her from directly under the water. Quinn opens her eyes and makes eye contact with Mercedes, she doesn't move, just stares, and her green eyes are full of sadness. Mercedes takes Quinn's arms and wraps them around her waist. She wraps her own arms around Quinn's neck and proceeds to kiss her gently on the lips. Quinn tightens her hold on Mercedes, but doesn't kiss back. Mercedes looks directly into Quinn's eyes. The last thing she wanted was for Quinn to feel this way, "I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean to make you feel like this. I love you. I love you with everything that I have, and that will never change." Quinn's eyes start to water and her voice is cracked when she asks, "And?"
"And I am all yours. I belong to you, with you, forever."
"Forever?"
"Forever baby." Quinn smashes her lips into Mercedes' and it turns hot fast. They invade each other's mouths with their tongues as Quinn pushes Mercedes against the shower wall. She slips a leg in-between Mercedes' legs and pushes her knee into her center. Mercedes moans as she begins to ride Quinn's leg. Quinn takes Mercedes' arms and pins them to the wall as her mouth makes its way from her lips to her neck repeating, "I love you" over and over along the way. Her grip is tight on Mercedes' wrist as she bites and sucks her neck, and pushes her knee into her lover's center. Mercedes moans, "Lucy" and Quinn takes over Mercedes' mouth before kissing a trail down to her center. Mercedes has to bite her bottom lip to keep from screaming, both of her parents are home and she really doesn't want to wake them up with her sex screams. They would embarrass her by giving her and Quinn a sex talk with diagrams and examples just to add to the embarrassment. It happen to R.J. when he was caught doing sleeping with a girl in his room. Even though the Jones kids have been well educated on the subject of sex from a young age her parents would give both her and Quinn a talk to humor themselves and to teach the girls a lesson. The rule is they can have sex as long as they're safe but they have to remember that they are in their parents' house and need to show them respect. Waking her parents up with her screams of pleasure is no sign of respect.
Quinn lifts one of Mercedes' legs on her shoulder and digs her tongue deep into her center right away, no teasing. She hums in pleasure because Mercedes taste is amazing, she can't get enough. She moans, and creates every shape with her tongue that comes to mind, sucking and licking, surging her tongue in and out of Mercedes' juicy pussy. Mercedes taste is like a drug and she wants as much of it as she can get. Mercedes tries to hold on to the wall for balance and digs her teeth harder into her bottom lip as she cums hard into Quinn's mouth. Quinn laps up everything that Mercedes releases, then proceeds to suck on Mercedes clit like a sour candy. She wants more of her, so she doesn't stop. Mercedes can barely stand and is forced to scream into her arm this time as she cums again. Both Quinn and Mercedes pant as Mercedes slides down the wall to meet Quinn on the shower floor, water splashes on both of them. Quinn slides on to Mercedes and straddles her lap; she wraps her arms around her neck, and starts to kiss her on the lips. They are both still out of breath, but Quinn does not want to stop. Mercedes reciprocates the kiss as she moves her hand to Quinn's center. She kisses Quinn harder when she feels how wet she is then plunges two fingers into her, no warning, and no teasing. Quinn bites Mercedes' bottom lip from the surprise, and her nails dig into Mercedes' neck. As Quinn begins to ride Mercedes' fingers she rests her head into the crook of Mercedes' neck, panting hard. The heat from her breaths hit Mercedes' neck and that combined with the heat from the shower, and the heat from her pussy spurs her on. She enters another finger as she begins pounding into Quinn harder, trying to send her girl way over the edge. With one last thrust, Quinn bites Mercedes neck as she reaches her peak.
As she begins to come down from her high Mercedes pulls out of her. She wraps her arms around Quinn, holds her tight, and kisses the top of her head. Quinn lifts her head to look at Mercedes. She holds on to Mercedes face with both of her hands and both girls look each other over. They can tell that the other is both physically and emotionally exhausted. Mercedes kisses Quinn on the lips soft and slow it last for a while, both girls wanting just a little bit more of each other. When it is finished they connect their foreheads, and Mercedes asks, "Are you okay baby?" Quinn shuts her eyes tight, they both know that she is not really okay and Quinn does not want to lie to her girl, so as always she avoids the question, "I love you Mercedes." Mercedes takes a deep breath because she has to keep it together for Quinn's sake. "I know you do baby. Come on, let's go to bed." They get cleaned up and then make their way to bed.
The girls have put some pajamas on and are lying in bed. Mercedes is lying on her back as Quinn lies with her entire body on top of Mercedes, and her head rests on her chest. She is holding her down like a paper weight as Mercedes keeps a strong hold on her, arms wrapped around Quinn's body. The room is pitch-black and they can tell that the other is still awake by their breathing. Mercedes knows that Quinn will not talk but she also knows that she needs to let something out, so she begins to sing for her.
"I just want you close/ Where we can stay forever/ You can be sure/ That it will only get better/ You and me together/ Through the days and nights/ I don't worry cause/ Everything's going to be alright/ People keep talking they can say what they like/ But all I know is everything's going to be alright." Quinn holds on to Mercedes tighter and begins to cry. This has been happening for weeks now, Quinn crying in the night, Mercedes expects it, so she continues to hold onto her tight and she doesn't stop singing. "No one, no one, no one/ Can get in the way of what I'm feeling… When the rain is pouring down/ And my heart is hurting/ You will always be around/ This I know for certain/ You and me together/ Through the days and nights/ I don't worry cause/ Everything's going to be all right." Quinn is still crying and Mercedes continues to hold onto her as she starts stroking Quinn's hair to try and help sooth her. "I know some people search the world/ To find something like what we have/ I know people will try, try to divide, something so real/ So till the end of time I'm telling you there ain't no one… No one, no one, no one/ Can get in the way of what I feel for you…"
Quinn tries to speak, she really wants to, but her breathing is erratic and the tears are still streaming. All she can get out is tear filled, "Mercedes." Mercedes continues to stroke her hair and does her best to keep it together, "I know baby, everything is going to be okay. I know…"
Over a Month Ago in Lima
R.J. is in town visiting and he is happy to see his family. He always knew there was a good explanation for Quinn's disappearance and he was glad to see his sister so happy and so in love again. The girls are happy to see him too. He came at the perfect time because the girls planned on sneaking into Quinn's house to get her belongings, but now that they have R.J. here to help the stealth mission might not seem as scary. He can also help with the heavy lifting. Quinn's cast has just been removed but Mercedes has banned her from doing any heavy lifting.
The three of them are parked outside of Quinn's house in a minivan they rented. They have been parked there for a few minutes because Quinn isn't sure about entering the house. Mercedes takes her hand, "Come on L, we are going to be with you the whole way." Quinn looks at Mercedes letting her words sink in, but she doesn't move. R.J. chimes in, "Also there is no one home right now, and we don't know how long your parents will be out of the house. If we are going to make moves, we need to make them now." The Jones kids look at Quinn waiting for her to make up her mind. She nods her head, "Okay, okay, let's do it."
When they are in the house the girls head right up to Quinn's room while R.J. waits at the bottom of the stairs, to keep a look out for Quinn's parents. Before Mercedes enters Quinn's room she pauses at the doorway, taking in the room that belongs to her girl friend. Quinn's sent of vanilla and jasmine fills her nose as she looks around. Mercedes didn't really know what to expect from Quinn's room, but she expected more than this. Quinn's room was almost bare no pictures, no posters, apart from the jewelry boxes on her dresser there was really nothing. When Quinn realizes Mercedes is still at the door she turns to her and can tell what she is thinking right away. "When my parents brought me home after… I went ballistic and tore my room apart. My mother fought with me to make it look nicer, give it a personality, but I felt lost without you and I didn't see the point in redecorating a room I didn't want to be in." Mercedes takes a deep breath in and makes her way to her way over to Quinn. She cups her face in both of her hands and smashes her lips hard in the Quinn's, when it is over her eyes scan Quinn's face, "Come on then, lets hurry so we can get out of here."
Both Quinn and Mercedes pack suitcases as fast as they can with all of Quinn's belongings. When all is packed Mercedes calls R.J so that he can help bring the bags to the car. After the car is packed Mercedes enters the Fabray house one last time to get Quinn. She finders her sitting on her bead holding on to the stuffed frog that she won for her. Mercedes sits next to Quinn and puts an arm around her waist, Quinn rests her head on Mercedes' shoulder. "I can't believe you kept that." Quinn chuckles, "You were so cute after you won it for me, I couldn't part with it. Besides I'm glad I kept it because it was one of the only things from the hospital room that I was able to keep." They both knew that the other things were the pictures of Mercedes and new born baby Faith. They sit there for a minute, not saying anything.
"Are you ready to go baby?" Quinn turns her head to kiss Mercedes on the cheek, "I am more than ready, thank you baby." This causes Mercedes to smile and squeeze Quinn, "You know there is nothing I wouldn't do for you right?" There is a little twinkle in Quinn's eye when she responds, "I know. I love you." And they share a beautiful soft kiss before leaving the house.
Before the girls can enter the car, another car parks behind theirs and before the people in the car can get out Mercedes nudges Quinn, "Lucy get in the car, now," but Quinn hesitates and Mercedes shouts, "Now!" Quinn jumps and makes her way inside of the car. She squeezes into the little space that is left in the back seat and Mercedes hops into the front passenger seat. R.J. locks the doors but before he can pull off Quinn's father places himself in front of the car blocking them from pulling off. He begins to bang on the hood of the car. "You are a disgrace to this family. I tried to make it right, but you insist on shaming this family. You're poison." Quinn doesn't say anything, she wants to fight back but her eyes are locked on her mother who is standing near the house watching the scene unfold, thinking why won't she fight, so Mercedes speaks for her. She rolls down her window to shout, "You are a sorry excuse for a father and a man. You should love your daughter no matter what, not hate her for being who she is." Quinn is drawn back to the situation at the sound of Mercedes' voice. It is louder than she has ever heard it and angrier too. She touches Mercedes shoulder, "Mercedes." But Mercedes is heated, Mr. Fabray shouts back, "Screw you, this is your fault too." Quinn is taken back her father's response, but all Mercedes can see is red, and it's R.J.'s turn to speak up. "Excuse me Sir, I do not appreciate the way you are speaking to my sister and her girlfriend, I also am not pleased with the way you have chosen to treat my car, so I suggest you get out of our way now, and I mean right now because I have no problems running you over." Mr. Fabray calls his bluff and stands his ground, "Okay have it your way." R.J. starts the car and proceeds to press the gas. Quinn's father holds out his hands to touch the car and walks backwards with it as it moves forward. Realizing that the car will not stop Mr. Fabray lets go and moves to the side. Before they speed off they all hear him shout, "Don't come back."
…
The car ride back to the Jones' is silent. While they unpack the car Quinn insists that she is okay and will not let R.J. or Mercedes comfort her. They spend the rest of the day unpacking and avoiding the subject of Quinn and her feelings. While the girls are getting ready for bed Mercedes tries again, "Lucy you can talk to me." Quinn takes a deep breath, "Mercedes I am fine, my father is an ass, I know that, but he can't do anything to me anymore, I'm okay." As they snuggle into each other, Quinn's back is pressed to Mercedes' front the conversation continues, "But he said a lot of things that…" She is cut off, "Mercedes I am really tired, I'm fine baby, I just want to go to sleep." Quinn takes Mercedes' hand that is wrapped around her and kisses it, "Please baby." Mercedes gives in for now, "Okay, okay, goodnight." Quinn can hear the hint of frustration in Mercedes voices, but she does not have the energy or the want to discuss what Mercedes wants to discuss.
It's the middle of the night when Mercedes is awakened by Quinn. She is sobbing and holding on tight to the hand that is wrapped around her. "Lucy come on, turn around." Quinn turns in her girlfriend's arms and they both hold each other tight. "Will you please talk to me baby?" Instead of responding with words Quinn wiggles free of Mercedes' hold, wipes her tears, and proceeds to kiss her on the lips over and over before moving to her cheek then her neck. "Lucy what are you doing?" Quinn kisses Mercedes on the lips again except this time it's deep and sensual, she holds on to Mercedes face and because their eyes have adjusted to the dark they are able to make each other out. "Tell me you love me." Mercedes scrunches up her face that is still held between Quinn's hands, "Lucy what…" Her tone is more demanding now, "Tell me you love me." Mercedes looks over Quinn's face and takes it in. Her girl looks distraught, in need of something, so she does what she is told. "I love you baby."Quinn nods her head and says "okay" to herself, "How much?"
"Lucy I…"
"How much Mercedes?" She takes a deep breath in before responding, "I love you with everything that I have." Again Lucy says "okay" to herself. "Tell me your all mine." Mercedes is now hip to what is happening, so she does not hesitate or try to say something else, "I am all yours."
"Who do you belong to?"
"I belong to you."
"Forever?"
"Forever baby."
Quinn kisses Mercedes deep, the kiss is full of longing, fear, hurt, love, confusion, need, want, all of Quinn's emotions are in that kiss. Mercedes deepens the kiss by caressing Quinn's tongue with hers, she flips them over so that she is on top now, straddling her girlfriend and caressing her body. Between kisses Quinn breaths, "Make love to me Mercedes, make love to me." And she does. They make love to each other, and when they are finished they fall asleep naked in each other's arms.
…
Mercedes is in the choir room alone playing the piano. She finished a test early in her last period class and asked if she could come here instead of having to wait for everyone to finish. She is a star student, so her teacher was quick to allow it. As she plays the keys she lets the music wash over her. She doesn't sing, just plays as she closes her eyes and is absorbed by the tune. That's why she jumps when she feels someone place a kiss on her cheek. "Please don't stop, it sounds beautiful." Mercedes smiles and continues to play. "I'm guessing you finished your test early too?"
"Well I did have a great study partner." Mercedes is taken by surprise again when she feels a tongue on her neck. "L. how… how can I play if… when you… when you do things like… like this." Quinn smiles as she kisses her way up to Mercedes' ear. "I was thinking that we worked so hard studying that maybe we could play a little game. But we have to be fast because we only have a few minutes before the rest of the club gets here." She makes her way back to Mercedes neck and proceeds to suck and lick with the intent on leaving her mark. Mercedes hands move to Quinn's head, but the high pony prevents her from getting a good grip, so she pulls it loose. Quinn's blonde hair falls down her back and Mercedes latches on to a chunk of it, keeping Quinn's head in place. "Okay… what… what game?" Quinn's hand makes its way down the center of Mercedes' body and stops at the waist line of her leggings. Quinn kisses, bites, and licks her way around Mercedes' neck as she explains, "It's called 'If You Stop, I Stop'… and that means if your hands stop, then my hands stop." Quinn's hand has made it past the band on Mercedes' leggings, and her underwear, and is cupping Mercedes' center. She keeps her hand still as she says, "You see how it works?"
Mercedes lifts Quinn's head and turns her own so that the girls are now eye to eye. They stare each other down for a good thirty seconds before Mercedes kisses Quinn hard and fast. "How much time do we have?" Quinn looks at the clock on the wall with a sly smirk, "Six minutes."
"Oh my God Lucy!"
"GO."Mercedes adjusts her body and begins playing the tune again. Quinn attacks Mercedes' neck again and her hand begins to play with Mercedes' center. Mercedes misses a note and stops playing when Quinn's fingers enter her. Shouting, "Fuck!" When Quinn's hand stops moving, "You stop, I stop." Quinn continues devour Mercedes' neck as she gets it together quickly and starts again.
The faster Quinn moves her fingers inside of Mercedes, the faster Mercedes moves her fingers on the keys. Mercedes is almost there when Quinn says something that makes the game even more challenging. "I forgot one thing." Mercedes only response is a whimper because she can't stop playing and it would take a lot of will power for her to use actual words in this moment, "You have to tell me."
"Lucy!" She found that will power!
"If you don't tell me my fingers will slow down and I don't know if you will be able to cum in the next two minutes at such a slow pace." Mercedes manages to say another word "Evil." And Quinn's pace slows, "Okay, oaky, don't stop, don't st… stop." Mercedes has been playing the wrong notes since Quinn changed the game and neither of them seem to care, "I love you. I love you with everything that I have." Quinn quickens her pace "And" Mercedes is just slamming on the keys now, eyes locked shut, "I'm all yours, I belong to you."
"Forever?"
"Forever baby…ahh" Mercedes last note consists of all ten of her fingers slamming into the piano keys at once as she traps Quinn's hand between her legs, enjoying the great feeling that has come over her. She is out of breath and has less than a minute to get it together. Quinn pulls her hand from between her girl's thighs and Mercedes is about to protest but stops when Quinn begins to lick her fingers clean. "I am so mad at you" She is breathing a little heavy, "But that is so sexy."
Quinn winks and places a quick peck on Mercedes' lips, "I know you want to tell me off right now but the bell is about ring, so we need to pull ourselves together fast." And just as she finishes talking the bell rings. Mercedes' panties and leggings are ruined and she has found a new appreciation for shirts that pass her booty. She runs to grab a napkin and wipes down the seat. She figures she must be running on adrenaline from the fear of getting caught because she does not understand how she is moving so quickly. Quinn ties her hair back up and takes a seat in the aisle and watches as Mercedes takes her seat back at the piano and begins to play and sing a little something.
The Glee kids file in and whisper to each other about how cute Quinn and Mercedes are. Mercedes takes her seat between Kurt and Quinn when Brad comes to claim his spot at the piano. Kurt leans over tell Mercedes, "You two are precious." This makes her smile, "Thanks Kurt."
Quinn interlocks Mercedes fingers with her own, squeezes her hand, and leans in to kiss her on the cheek, and tells her, "I love you too."
…
Quinn sends a text to Mercedes telling her to meet her in the locker room during study hall. When she enters there is no one in the locker room that she can see so she calls for her, "Lucy."
"I'm over here baby." Mercedes makes her way to where she heard Quinn's voice. "Hey where is every bo…" She stops talking when she turns into an aisle and Quinn is staring at her topless. She has her Cheerios skirt on, hair tied up in a high pony as normal, and a devious smile on her face. "Um, um" Mercedes has to clear her throat before she can speak. "Um heyyy L. … what's up?" She can't take her eyes away from Quinn's chest. Quinn smiles because her girlfriend is cute and easy! She holds out her hands for Mercedes to take. "I missed you." Mercedes chuckles as she takes Quinn's hands. She places a quick kiss on her lips and then rests her forehead against hers, "Oh yeah, you missed me L?" Quinn pouts, and her voice is sexy when she says, "Now you sound like you don't believe me." Mercedes smirks, "Well we did just see each other three hours ago, and we do have last period together…" At this time Mercedes is massaging both of Quinn's breasts and her lips almost touch Quinn's as she continues to speak, "So it's just interesting that you would miss me so badly." Mercedes licks Quinn's lips before capturing them with her own. Quinn's hands move to the back of Mercedes' head as she takes control of the kiss. "See, you missed me too."
Mercedes moves a hand and slips it under Quinn's skirt and is surprised when she reaches her destination, "No underwear!" Quinn moves her lips to Mercedes' neck, planting kissed between her words, "I really. Really. Missed you."
"I can tell." Mercedes hikes Quinn's leg up with her other hand as she slips one finger inside Quinn. The girls get lost in each other so when Quinn says, "Tell me." Mercedes does not hesitate to say, "I love you. I love you with everything that I have." She enters another finger and Quinn's hold on Mercedes tightens. Mercedes lips are now on Quinn's neck sucking and licking. Quinn leans her head back against the locker trying to keep it together for a little longer, but like she said, she really, really missed her girlfriend. Quinn is breathing really fast when she asks, "And?" Mercedes moves her mouth to Quinn's ear which almost sends her over the edge, "I'm all yours, I belong to you." She begins to suck on Quinn's earlobe so when she asks, "Forever?" the words barely make it out of her mouth. With one final thrust and the magic two words, "Forever baby." Quinn hits her peak.
After her breathing has calmed a little Mercedes signals for Quinn to lift her other leg, she wraps both of her legs around Mercedes' waist and is carried to the nearby bench. Her head is resting in Mercedes' neck as she continues to catch her breath.
After a few minutes, "Mercy" Mercedes is resting her head on Quinn's shoulder with her eyes closed, enjoying the feeling of having Quinn wrapped around her "Hmm?"
"I love you too." The girls stay in that position until one of them remembers that they are still in school and need to be gone by the time the next class rolls in.
Present Day Lima
Mercedes, Kurt, and Rachel are getting their toes done during a girl's day out while Quinn is with Santana and Brittany at Saturday Cheerios practice. The three of them are getting caught up on each other's love lives. Blain and Kurt are as happy as they can be given the little time they have left to spend together, and Rachel and Finn are a little rocky. "So he is still angry that you want to wait to tie the knot?" Mercedes asks.
"He doesn't understand that I want him to find himself first. I love him I do but I think he is just following me to New York because he doesn't know what he wants to do and I don't want him to blame me later in life when he feels unfulfilled."
The two friends nod their head at Rachel, "Yeah he still isn't motivated to do anything yet. My dad and Carol have been pushing him to apply to college but he doesn't want anything to do with that. I think our parents are going to ask Mr. Shu to talk to him." Mercedes adds, "I hope he helps. I would hate to see him sell himself short."
"I do too Mercedes. I don't know what else I can do."
"He will come around, he loves you." Kurt says.
When it comes time to talk about Mercedes and Quinn, Rachel and Kurt can't help but gush about the two. "Oh gosh Mercedes you two are precious together, she is so in love with you. AH! I love it." Kurt almost kicks the woman who is painting his toes in the face because he keeps moving them in excitement.
"You guys really are amazing together, how has she been since moving in?"
Mercedes doesn't want to let on about Quinn's behavior so she doesn't tell them everything. "Well you know that her dad made a big thing about her moving out?" Kurt and Rachel nod their heads so Mercedes continues "She doesn't say, but she is really sad about it. I'm going to give her something tonight that I hope will cheer her up."
Kurt and Rachel wanted more details from her but Mercedes kept her lips tight. Truthfully she would love to tell her friends exactly what is going on between herself and Quinn, especially the episode that happened the night before, but she knows she will get emotional and there are not in the place for that.
…
As Mercedes drove home all she could think about was her girl. Quinn didn't want to talk to Mercedes about what really was going on with her, but Mercedes wasn't sure if she could handle avoiding the situation any more. Seeing Quinn hurt and not being able to do anything about it is hurting Mercedes. She needed to talk but who could she talk to? Both of her parents are swamped with work, and R.J. is too busy trying to find himself. As she pulls into her driveway she has a thought, she remembers somebody that she might be able to talk to, she puts her car in reverse and is on her way. Quinn is going to be out all day with Santana anyway so this is actually a perfect time for her to be going.
A little over an hour later Mercedes is standing outside of the motel. She takes a deep breath before she enters and when she does she is relieved to see Ella's face. "Well isn't this a nice surprise! Get over here you, come on, and come around here." Mercedes makes her way around the counter to hug the woman who was so helpful to Quinn in her absence. She hugs Ella tight and it makes her feel really good. "Hi Ella."
When the hug is finished Ella can see the hurt in Mercedes' eyes "Awe what's the matter sweetie?"
Mercedes gives a little chuckle, "Is it that obvious?"
"I have been around for a long time and I've talked to a lot of people, I know when something is up, come on now spill it."
Mercedes nods her head, "There is something going on with Lucy and she won't let me help her."
"Okay, something like what?"
Mercedes tells Ella everything that happened with Quinn and her accident, and when the girls and R.J. went to get Quinn's things. She tells her about Quinn's new found sex drive (sparing exact details) and the fact that she is disconnected at times from what is happening between them. She tells her everything. "And every time I try to talk to her about what happened at her house, or the way she is with me, she changes the subject, or gets angry. There is something wrong and she won't let me help her." By this time there are tears streaming down Mercedes' face. Ella hands her a tissue. "Mercedes, Lucy is in love with you, you know that right?"
"Yes, I don't doubt that."
"Have you thought about telling her how you feel about all of this? I don't mean trying to talk to her about her issues, but about how her behavior is affecting you?"
"No, but I…"
"No no, You told me that you have tried to talk to her about how she is feeling. She may not be ready for that, and that is okay to an extent. But she is obviously hurting you and she needs to know that."
Mercedes is still crying, "But I don't want to upset her, she is hurting so much."
"I hear what you're saying Mercedes I do." She stands to take hold of Mercedes face in both of her hands. "But do you think that it is okay for you to be feeling the way that you do?"
It comes out in a whisper but she responds, "No." Ella embraces Mercedes and rocks her from side to side. "It's okay to be scared of how she will react, but maybe hearing how you feel will help her talk about how she is feeling."
Mercedes looks up at Ella, "I just don't want to push her. I don't want to push her … away from me." Before Ella can respond they hear, "Mercedes" from behind them. They both turn to see Quinn standing there in her Cheerios uniform, hair loose from its uniform pony tail. Mercedes pulls away from Ella and wipes her face with her hands real quick. "Lucy, what are you doing here?" Ella steps back so that she is no longer in between the two girls. "I don't understand, I thought you were with Santana." Quinn begins to walk closer to Mercedes as she talks, "I was but practice ended early because Couch Sylvester tripped and ripped her track suit, she went crazy and told all of us to go home, and after what happened with us last night I needed to talk to Ella so I asked Santana to bring me here. I went up stairs to use the restroom and to call you but I realized…" at this time she is standing right in from of Mercedes, she reaches her arm out and Mercedes thinks that she is going to touch her, but she reaches past her, "I forgot my phone." Before anything else can happen the front door swings open and everybody turns their head to see someone entering the motel. Ella pats the girls on the shoulders, "Why don't you two go upstairs." Quinn grabs Mercedes' hand and quickly leads her to their room.
No one says anything after the door shuts. Merced takes a seat on the bed while Quinn stays at the door. "How much did you hear?" Neither of them is looking at the other. "Enough." Mercedes nods her head. She really doesn't know what she wants to say, so she doesn't say anything. It is quite for minutes before Quinn finally looks at Mercedes and says, "I'm sorry."
Mercedes continues to look off into the distance, "Okay… for what?"
"I'm sorry for making you feel like you couldn't talk to me."
Mercedes nods her head and finally looks over at Quinn. "Do you want to talk now?" Quinn walks over to Mercedes sits next to her and rests her head on her shoulder. Mercedes wraps her arm around Quinn's back and pulls her closer. "I really wanted to talk about all of this but I just couldn't, and after what happened last night I knew that I needed to talk to somebody."
"Did it help?" Quinn nods head. "Are you ready to talk to me?"
"I'm ready to listen."
"Okay."
The two girls shift their bodies so that they are facing each other. Mercedes takes Quinn's hands in her own, "I worried about you. Ever since that day at your house there has been something different about you and even though we have been closer than ever, we have also been so very far apart. Watching you hurt and not being able to help breaks my heart. How can I protect you or help get you through things if I can't even talk to you? But I think I know why you are feeling the way that you do." Quinn inter locks their fingers and tightens her grip on Mercedes' hands. She doesn't say anything and with her head signals for Mercedes to continue. "I think that what your father said really hurt you, and you have started to believe that what he said could be true. I think that somewhere inside you believe that you are poison and it's your fault that the people who are meant to love you, watch as you suffer and leave you without a second thought." Quinn has started to cry and stairs at hers and Mercedes' locked fingers. "And now you're afraid that I will leave you and our intimacy is the only way you know how to keep us connected." Mercedes tilts her head to try and get a look at Quinn's face, "Am I on the right track?"
Quinn is still avoiding eye contact, "Mercedes look at what's happened to me, to us. I am poison, one bad decision and now I'm being punished, but I can't lose you. You are the only thing that I have." These words pang Mercedes' heart because Quinn needs to know that she cannot be blamed for all of the bad things that have happened in her life.
"Baby, look at me. Look at me." Quinn doesn't move, so Mercedes takes her hand to lift Quinn's face so they are face to face. "Listen to me, okay. Really listen. You are not poison, or toxic, or bad luck, or any other negative word that is floating around in your head okay. You are one of the most beautiful, caring, thoughtful, considerate people I know. From the first moment I laid my eyes on you I knew that I wanted you to be mine and I wanted to be yours. Now I could never feel that way towards poison now could I?" Quinn isn't put to ease so Mercedes continues, "You made a bad judgment, so what. That does not make you a bad person. If you think about it the way I do that judgment may not have been so bad after all, I mean it lead you to me right. That decision you made brought us together and I have never loved anyone the way that I love you, and I never will." Quinn is having a hard time believing that she is not the cause of all of their problems, "What about Faith? If I didn't keep her she wouldn't have been stolen from us."
Mercedes is trying her very best to keep it together, but talk of their daughter has cause her to start tearing up. "Stop it Lucy, just stop. You can't blame that on yourself, you have to know that. Besides I'm the one who asked you to keep the baby, and your parents are the ones who have a warped sense of who is entitled to be a part of the Fabray family. Faith being taken away from us is not your fault; none of this is your fault. We have just been dealt a bad hand. What did you call it? Come on what did you say in the hospital?"
"A series of unfortunate events."
"Exactly, it is out of our control. Your parents aren't what you hoped they would be and I am sorry for that, I really am, but they do not define you. You define you…Also for the record I am not all that you have you have Mama and Papa Jones, you have R.J. you have Rachel, Santana, Brittany, Mr. Shu, Finn, Kurt, Artie, Tina, Mike, Sugar, these are all the people who love you, not just me."
Quinn cuts in quick, "But Mercedes I can't lose you too. I can't."
Mercedes takes both of Quinn's hands again, "I'm not going anywhere L. I'm right here. I will always be here with you. No matter what we go through, and we are going to go through so much, look at what has happened so far, but no matter what I will always love you. I am never going to leave you.
"But what…"
"Do you trust me?"
"With my life."
"So believe me when I say that you're it. In fact the only thing you have actually ruined is me for anyone else!" At this Quinn cracks a smile. Mercedes leans in and plants a passionate kiss on Quinn's lips.
After the kiss ends the stair at each other for a few seconds before Mercedes pushes some of Quinn's hair behind her ear and asks, "Are you okay?" With a smile she responds "I love you."
"Did coming here and talking to Ella help?"
"Yes it did. She is the reason why I was ready to listen."
"Good because I think you should see a therapist."
"Actually…"
"No just hear me out. When I lost you and Faith I couldn't do anything, the only thing that helped was talking through my problems. And if you can't talk to me or one of our family members or friends, then you need to talk to somebody." Quinn kisses Mercedes off guard, but it is quickly welcomed.
"Mercedes I was going to say that Ella is a therapist! She retired and bought this Motel. She says that she has helped more people who have walked through these Motel doors than in her practice. Remember she helped me while we were apart."
"Then why didn't you come before?" Quinn frowns slightly, "Because I didn't realize until last night that I had a real problem. I am so sorry for treating you like I have been. You mean so much more to me than that, I just…having you that way reassured me that you weren't going anywhere. Having you that way and hearing you say those words made me feel safe." Mercedes gives her a half smile before saying, "I will say those words every minute of every day if those words were the real cure to helping you."
"Every minute of every day? Quinn raises an eyebrow and both girls share a sweet smile. Mercedes breaks it by saying, "I want to give you something." She stretches across the bed without getting up and retrieves a small box from her inside jacket pocket. Quinn straightens up at the sight of the box and her heart stops for a few seconds and she holds her breath and asks, "What is that?"
Her girl smiles, "Relax baby it's not what you think." Mercedes opens the box to reveal a silver infinity promise ring, "Besides I know you want to propose to me. I won't take that away from you, but this…" She takes Quinn's right ring finger and slips on the ring, "This is a promise ring. Every time you look at it I want you to remember that there is no need to doubt us because it is you and me forever babe, no matter what."
Quinn examines the ring on her finger with a huge smile on her face, "Me and you…Forever."
The song Mercedes sings is "No One" by Alicia Keys
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