'I was a heavy heart to carry, my beloved was weighed down, my arms around his neck, my fingers laced a crow... "
Lin awoke feeling very hollow. Today, is the day. He's married. Lin felt very sick. She wanted to puke. 'At least I have work today.' She said in her head. Lin got out of bed. Her eyes were puffy from the crying she had done the other night. She couldn't believe Tenzin had the nerve of kissing her. Lin was disappointed in herself as well. She had responded to the kiss. Grumbling out the night's events, she readied a bath. Scowling at the thought that she'd be pitied today, tomorrow, for the rest of her life.
She unpinned the clips in her hair letting it fall, for her to be in her mid-thirties, she looked gorgeous. She removed her clothing and relinquished herself in the tub. The water felt good against her skin. She slowly let her body sink. Her hair floated around, her porcelain skin, glittered in the water. She submerged herself in the quiet entities of the water. She wouldn't have mind drowning in it. No one would have missed her. She already imagined the stupid headline in the papers. "Chief of police drowned in her own tears" or "Chief found naked in home, wanting to leave the world the way she came in."
Lin popped her head out of the water. 'The second headline is too comical for my taste. I can literally imagine Tenzin infuriated at the thought that they'd be seeing me naked.' Lin let out a chuckle at her dark humour.
'I was a heavy heart to carry, my feet dragged across the ground, and he took me to the river, where he slowly let me drown...'
Lin got out of the tub. She needed to get to work to distract her from doing something heinous about that wedding. She dried herself. Her bindings and garments were on, a tank and black pants would do to go under her metal bending uniform. Pinning her hair back into place was easy enough. Her hair was black but there were tints of grey, it was the price of her job. That and the fact she was stressing herself with all the criminal rates that kept rising every day. She let out a heavy sigh and made her way out with the paperwork from yesterday.
'My love has concrete feet, My love's an iron ball, Wrapped around your ankles, Over the waterfall, I'm so heavy, heavy, Heavy in your arms, I'm so heavy, heavy, Heavy in your arms, And is it worth the wait, All this killing time? Are you strong enough to stand? Protecting both your heart and mine?'
Lin had been right, from departing and arriving to headquarters she was being stared at. Being "pitied" by the citizens. At least her officers weren't that subdued into just staring they had to work, and if Lin snapped it would have been gruesome, they wanted a calm Chief for the day. As she reached the reception, she left the paperwork she had done to the receptionist to take care of and made her way into her office. She closed the door behind her. She exhaled deeply
"Well, I guess the worst part is over." Lin said aloud. Settling herself in her office. 'More paperwork... When will there be something exciting happen.' She exclaimed in her thoughts only to be interrupted by Saikhan. Chief, there's a group of Agni Kai member's causing havoc, apparently it's getting heated." Saikhan stated. Assemble a group of skilled officers, I'll be going out on this." Lin announced. Saikhan nodded and headed out, whilst Lin followed. 'At least one thing exciting will happen.'
'Who is the betrayer? Who's the killer in the crowd? The one who sneaks in corridors and doesn't make a sound. My love has concrete feet, My love's an iron ball, Wrapped around your ankles, Over the waterfall...'
The members from the Agni Kai were a bunch of amateurs; Lin and her officers rounded them up in flash. Lin was hoping for something else to happen, but nothing did. She groaned at the thought of more paperwork. Her hand was sore from... "What can't kill you won't hurt. "She said to herself.
There was a stack of papers for her to review and sign. Thank the spirits she made Saikhan do today's report. After another intense night of paperwork Lin noticed an envelope. An envelope that had been sitting there for quite some time. Lin scowled at it. Lin had to go to a meeting, and she can't send any other person in her place. On the plus side, Tenzin wouldn't be there... Unless... No, he wouldn't do that to his wife. Not take her on a honeymoon. Lin scoffed. She was finding this amusing. She opened the envelope. It was a meeting but there also was an event in the evening. Lin inwardly groaned. She hated dressing up, most of the times she'd go in her uniform just to use it as an excuse for her, safety precautions. Lin looked at the clock. Looks like she had to go do some last-minute shopping. Lin pushed herself away and stood up. At least this way I can get back at Tenzin. Go head, show off your wife, and see if I care, everyone's going to be staring at me anyway." Lin said aloud to herself. She sighed. She was doing it again. Bringing him up. Bringing his happiness up, bringing up her soon to be lonely years. Lin bit her lip hard. Forcing the sensations of crying, away. Her temptation to go over there and steal him. To smother him in a passionate kiss, in front of that floozy. She punched her desk. Sending papers to slide into the dent. Lin puffed out air. Her breathing was heavy. Her anger had risen to the point where she'd snap at someone's incompetence of doing things. Lin calmed herself. Breathing in and out before she left. She arrived home with her merchandise. She was only wearing it once and from this day forth, only her uniform, no matter what. She felt sore. As she walked towards her window, she saw the lights at air Temple Island.
Oh Tenzin... You're tied down. Yet, my heart doesn't want to accept this loss. Why? Why are you causing me this heartache? Is it because of my undying love for you? Am I always going to hate you for this, yes, yes, I am. I won't be your "friend" again. You and I will have no contact whatsoever except for meetings... And events but that's it," Lin rambled pointing a finger at Air temple island. Lin blew at a loose strand of hair. Her arms crossed around her chest. Here she was, wallowing over him, again. I'm lying to myself. You're... I... I'll love you till the day I die. I'll love you in the next life. I'll always love you, even if you did break my heart. I'll love you forever and always.
'This will be my last confession, I love you never felt like any blessing, whispering like it's secret, only to condemn the one who hears it with a heavy heart...'