Author Note: Smut in this chapter (M)
'In the land of gods and monsters, I was an angel, living in the garden of evil, screwed up, scared, doing anything that I needed, Shining like a fiery beacon. You got that medicine I need, Fame, liquor, love, give it to me slowly. Put your hands on my waist, do it softly, Me and God we don't get along, so now I sing...'
Lin had arrived at city hall early to give in her synopsis of how things are at headquarters. Lin already knew what would happen, she was hoping not to see Tenzin. There was a pang in her chest. She missed him but had this grudge against him. Climbing up the steps brought too much to mind. Lin forced all those memories deep down. She made her way to where all the council members were assembling themselves. She had hoped Tenzin wouldn't have been there and gone off on his honeymoon. No, the man had to come. Lin grumbled to herself. "Great... That means I'm seeing him tonight."
As the meeting finished, Lin darted out of city hall. She didn't want to confront Tenzin. She'd rather ignore him but ignoring him was hard when in the papers they would bring up his stupid wedding. "Save your breath Lin, you're only causing more torture plots in your head." Lin exasperated."Lin felt the weight of her armor more than usual. She was stressing herself out more then she needed to; she should take a year vacation. It might do her good to go to the earth kingdom. 'Hmm, maybe I should. Leave Saikhan in charge. Disappear silently, nobody would know, no one needs to know why. It's my life. With out realizing it, she arrived back to headquarters. She needed to assemble a group for tonight's event. She placed Saikhan in charge of this group. He accepted rather too quickly. Lin didn't pay mind to it. She made herself clear to her men. Whatever they saw that night would be that night only. They all gulped in fear. Lin was trying her hardest not to suppress a smile; she needed to keep it calm. After she ran through things with everyone and signed more paperwork, she made her way to her apartment. It was time to get herself ready. Lin pouted at the thought of herself in a dress. 'Let's just get this over with.'
'No one's gonna take my soul away, I'm living like Jim Morrison. Headed towards a fucked up holiday. Motel, sprees, sprees, and I'm singing: "Fuck yeah give it to me, this is? Heaven, what I truly want."It's innocence lost. Innocence lost..."
The dress Lin wore was very elegant, it was black of course it had lace sleeves, there was a slit at the legs, and it hugged her curves very well. Also, it shimmered in the light, causing her to look even more beautiful than it already did. It didn't scream out that she was a nun, nor did it scream that she was a floozy. Lin's hair was in a messy bun. She wore very little make up. She didn't want too much. She didn't need it for the matter. She was pleased with herself. She didn't feel like herself, yet, it felt exciting to her. She wanted to be looked at. Not just from Tenzin, from anyone else who wanted a piece of her. She would have to evaluate who wants her first though in order to proceed, she couldn't linger herself towards Tenzin, he was married for spirits sake. Lin sighed. She hated events like these. She was going just to kill time, to kill Tenzin for the most part. Lin's lips formed into a straight line.
Once this is over, I'll start making plans for my vacation... I need a different atmosphere for once." She said aloud.
Lin grabbed whatever else she needed and headed out. Upon arriving, Lin was the center of attention. She received compliment after compliment. Many of the people there were conversing with Tenzin. Lin avoided him and his wife as much as possible. The first few glances he had produced towards her caused her to callously grab a drink and chug it down. Lin was making it into a game. She only chugged three drinks, yet she wasn't flustered or drunk yet. Perhaps she had flushed cheeks but nonetheless her senses were fine. Through the night Lin avoided Tenzin but somehow, he was able to get to her. She thanked the spirits that his wife was with him. 'Good, now he won't try anything' she said in her head with a tint of joy, knowing that he would have to bite back at so many things.
She greeted them as nicely as possible and excused herself. Lin retreated into a deserted hallway. She moved to the farthest part of the hall. The noise of people conversing and glasses clinging faded slightly. Lin let out a puff of air. Right behind her was a room. "Hmm, I guess I can cut and run in here." She whispered.
'In the land of gods and monsters, I was an angel, Lookin' to get fucked hard. Like a groupie, incognito, posing as a real singer, Life imitates art. You got that medicine I need, Dope, shoot it up, straight to the heart, please...'
Lin had gotten into the room. It was peaceful. "Finally, I needed peace and quiet." She said aloud. She made her way towards a window. The moon was shining bright. The way it hit made her whole-body twinkle, as if she belonged in the sky. The reincarnation had been found not too long ago. The new Avatar needed to be kept at the South Pole; the young girl was excelling in three elements. Lin sighed. Looking out through the window. She was deep in thought. Suddenly a hand was placed on her shoulder, causing her to jump. As she turned around to face the person.
"Spirits Tenzin! You scared the living soul out of me." Lin said breathing heavily.
"I apologize, might I add you're looking as radiant as ever." Tenzin replied calmly.
Lin looked at him long and hard.
"You're not looking bad yourself." She stated stoically. Lin turned herself to face out the window. She could still here the people, it wasn't loud, and it was a faded ire sound. She also heard music but it was coming from somewhere else. She couldn't tell from where. Tenzin was still in the room.
"Shouldn't you be outside? Accepting the congratulations from everyone." She asked Tenzin. He looked at her. Taking in her beauty taking in the words that she had just said.
"I suppose so, however, I feel the need to be around you." He replied to her.
'I don't really wanna know what's good for me. God's dead, I said, "Baby that's all right with me." No one's gonna take my soul away, I'm living like Jim Morrison. Headed towards a fucked up holiday. Motel, sprees, sprees, and I'm singing:"Fuck yeah give it to me, this is? Heaven, what I truly want."It's innocence lost, Innocence lost...'
If it weren't for the fact that her cheeks were flushed from three drinks, it would have looked like she was blushing.
"Well, you have seen me. Now go back." She retorted as anger started to build up inside of her.
"Tell me, why I should? "He asked calmly.
Lin hated the fact that he was fighting back. She turned and inched a bit closer to him. "Because your dear, "wife" is waiting," Lin hissed. Hoping that he would leave. "She can perfectly take care of herself." He retorted.
"So, you're implying that I can't take care of myself?" Lin said scoffing at what he is trying to imply.
"That's not what it is. I came after you for a different reason. I saw how you drank those drinks; you only did because I was looking but you stopped yourself at three." He said a little too authoritatively.
"Hmm, Let's see, I'm a grown woman, I live by myself, umm, hmm, I don't know, does being the Chief of police ring a bell?" Lin announced to him.
"T-that isn't an excuse for you to do so." He nervously said.
"Why are you really here, Tenzin?" Lin asked softly.
Tenzin looked at her. Her beauty mesmerized him. Guilt was churning his insides. He had turned Lin around. Forcing her to stare at him. They both were looking into each other's eyes. Their love was still in them. Lin's heart was beating faster than usual, so was Tenzin's. The rise and fall of their chests gave away their emotions. They inched each other more and more. Until they touched. Tenzin was admiring her. While Lin, watched him intently. They both could smell each other. To both, their scents were intoxicating. What happened next was from both. Their lips met in a chaste kiss. Tender to the touch.
'When you talk, it's like a movie and you're makin' me crazy, 'Cause life imitates art. If I get a little prettier, can I be your baby? You tell me, "Life isn't that hard."...
Lin's hands clamped around Tenzin's neck. While his hands were at her waist, pulling her in tightly not wanting to let her go. Their kiss was getting heated, to the point they were both fighting for dominance. Tenzin had won. He had lifted Lin pushing her up against the wall. Lin's legs were wrapped around his waist.
I shouldn't be doing this...
No matter how, Lin didn't want it to stop and it didn't. Tenzin's hand trailed along her bare leg. While he placed kisses on Lin's exposed skin. Trailing and lingering, waiting to hear what he wanted. Lin had let out soft moans. Lin was heavily breathing. Tenzin knew where to push her buttons. Pushed did he do. He was waiting for her approval. Lin gripped his robes tightly. Pushing him slightly from what he was doing to force him to look at her. They made eye contact. Lin pressed her lips against his. Their tongues, meeting once again. Fighting for dominance. Lin had won this time. She even bit tenderly on his bottom lip. He had suppressed a smile causing him to lean in more and kiss back more fiercely. She knew Tenzin was getting impatient. Normally it was she, but she wanted it to linger long enough, even if she knew it was wrong. Tenzin started to undo her dress as he did, so his lips went lower and lower. Cupping her breasts. Lin hung on tightly to Tenzin. She could feel the heat that she was producing. She also felt his. He had already slipped her undergarments off; she wanted to get in a better position than being plastered against the wall. Tenzin seemed to realize what she wanted so he moved them to the floor. The cool touch of the floor sent shivers through Lin's spine. Lin's lips were around Tenzin's neck. Whenever he did something a moan would leave her lips. She would lightly bite around his neck. Lin was getting impatient. She switched positions with Tenzin. Tenzin was staring at her. His hands trailed down the side of her face leaving it there. Letting his thumbs trail her lips. Causing him to bring her down and into another kiss. Their kiss was heated. Lin's hips moved on their own against him causing him to grunt. He felt a smile while they kissed. Lin tugged at his robes. Slipping her hand around his waistband. Lightly pulling them down without disturbing their kiss. His hands were on her back. She would arch herself inward causing her to rub against him more. She had managed to remove his bottom half of clothing. He moved one hand towards her hair while the other went to her woman hood. As his fingers teased her wet slit. She separated their lips; she collapsed on top of him. As he progressed, he let a finger go inside. As it went in Lin's body shook erratically. She dispersed sighs of pleasure. He pulled his finger out. Lin's chest was heaving. She seemed displeased at him for stopping.
"Tenzin... Stop...making me wait..." She said exasperated.
"With pleasure," He said. Bringing her in a tight kiss and hold. Switching positions again. He slid himself inside with ease. Starting at a very slow pace but going off in a fast pace as they both got a good feel of each other. Lin was holding Tenzin tightly; she wanted to avoid him seeing her tears. Their sweat clung to them. They both were about to climax when Tenzin squirmed himself near her.
"I love you, Lin." He told her in her ear as she let a moan of satisfaction. "She held onto him, breathing heavily.
"I love you, too." She replied. He pulled back giving her another passionate kiss. She didn't want him to see her tears. She allowed the kiss. She allowed all of this to happen. She pulled back avoiding eye contact. Pushing herself away. Gathering her articles of clothing that were tossed around.
Lin..."He began.
She straightened herself out. They'll be wondering where the two of us have gone off too. This..." Lin said while pointing around. "Never happened, it was a mistake, a mistake that I should have not reciprocated." Lin flustered. "She had fixed herself to look as how she had arrived. Tenzin was taken aback.
"How do you expect me to take back what I feel?" He asked. Lin could hear the tone of pain and confusion in them.
"You're married..." She said heading out of the room as quickly as possible. She wanted out.
Lin nearly ran out, but she needed to keep herself in check. She could hear Tenzin's footsteps behind her. They were getting closer until she pushed him farther back with her earth bending. She walked quietly back into the crowd. Pema had noticed her. "Lin, have you seen my husband?" Pema asked emphasizing on husband too much.
"Why don't you check in that direction, oh and keep your man on a leash?" Lin spat, stalking off.
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
Why? Why did I just give myself into him? You knew it was wrong. Yet here you are leaving the scene of the crime. Lin bit her lower lip. She could feel the empty void in her. Did she regret what she had done? No. He belonged to her more then he belonged to Pema. Yet, she felt guilt that she had slept with a 'just married man' I was so stupid, why did I let it go so far.
"You caved in Lin; you knew it was the last time. ARGH, SPIRITS!" Lin yelled.
She had gathered attention from on lookers. Lin composed herself. She needed to leave Republic City. A year would do but her sense of duty for this city was great. She couldn't abandon it. Lin needed to terminate the criminal activity. Once that's done, she'll just silently disappear. Well, not so silently, she needed permission from the council. The thought of going back to city hall killed her. It was nipping at the back of her mind. You need a vacation. You need to go as far away from Tenzin. He's married and you're single. You can be a freelancer. He has no right over you. Lin let out a deep sigh, pinching the bridge of her nose. She was flustered, used, and downright tired. She still felt the kisses. She felt everything. It was killing her; she wanted to get over him. Yet he kept coming after her, for what? For a pointless friendship that would destroy them. A friendship that would cause more grief then needed. Lin pouted. She was being a pessimist about this, but she knew it was wrong. Lin needed to cut ties with him. They both clearly chose their legacies rather than their immense love that boiled in their blood for each other. This night will be forgotten. It'll be their final goodbye and Lin meant it.
That was our final goodbye, my love." Lin said softly reaching the apartment complex. Not looking back, she entered her home silently. Lin gathered all the photos, anything he had given her. Dumped them in her kitchen sink. She stood over it, gripping the edge of the sink tightly before letting out a breath. She opened a cupboard, looking for her matches. Once she found them, she lit a match. Tossing it in the sink. She stood back. Watching the flames engulf the things that were precious to her, the memories, watching them all burn. The pang in her chest was there. Lin closed her eyes, biting her lower lip. Lin collapsed to the floor. Upon opening her eyes, she let the hollowness take over her. She watched the last remnants of the flame die down. She slumped over the sink. Looking at the ashes. Lin's hands picked up the ashes, letting them slip through her fingers.
'No one's gonna take my soul away, I'm living like Jim Morrison. Headed towards a fucked-up holiday. Motel sprees, sprees, and I'm singing: "Fuck yeah, give it to me, this is? Heaven, what I truly want." Its innocence lost, Innocence lost...'