Chapter 12

Subaru opened his eyes and nearly had a panic attack when he realized he wasn't in his room. Furthermore, there was someone in bed with him. He knew this from the arms around his tiny body. Taking a deep breath he tried to remember last night and as his brain became awake memories of last night came flooding back.

He was in Seishirou's room, he had come over to spend the night for New Year's Eve and the two of them had… A faint blush dusted Subaru's cheeks. Their kisses, them touching each other and his boyfriend inside of him. He didn't regret what he had done in the least, and he knew then he truly was in love. Kamui had tried to wave it off as a teenage crush and that he'd get over it.

He turned over so he could face Seishirou. Subaru had never seen the older teen sleep before. He looked like a lost child while he was sleeping. He looked so much younger than eighteen while he slept soundly on his pillow. Through the dim morning light he swore he saw tear stains on his partner's face. That was another thing, in the four years that he had known Seishirou now, he had never seen the older male cry at all.

In his sleep he tightened his grip on Subaru and shook slightly. A single word uttered out of his lips."…Kotori…"

Subaru wrapped his own arms around his boyfriend in an attempt to calm him. The touch must've been enough to wake Seishirou up. Amber met emerald and both of them cracked smiles. "Morning Subaru."

"Good morning, are you alright?"

A tender kiss was pressed to the younger boy's forehead. "I should be asking you that, I'm fine."

"You were shaking and crying in your sleep."

"Just bad memories, that's all."

Subaru wanted to ask who Kotori was, but thought better of it, Seishirou was stubborn and wouldn't cave in so easily. Plus he didn't want to ruin such an amazing night by killing the mood in the morning. He chose to snuggle instead. "Seishirou?"

"What is it?"

"Am I your first relationship?"

A moment's hesitation. "Yes and no." Subaru looked up at him confused. "You're my first boyfriend, but you're not my first relationship, although you're the first person I've ever really loved." That eased Subaru's mind a bit and he allowed himself to be cradled in Seishirou's strong arms.

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Subaru's nerves were in full gear again as they walked up to King's Cross Station. For one, Hokuto had demanded details on what happened and Subaru refused going red. Kamui wasn't much better, he kept looking between the two males as their trunks were loaded onto the train. Subaru was actually relieved for once that he had prefect duty. He hated it back in September because he had to do it alone without his friends.

This time he had an excuse to want to patrol the train. He kissed Seishirou briefly before walking up and down the corridor of the train. Finally he found the compartment he wanted. He opened it and nearly made Fuuma drop his pack of Exploding Snap. He was showing off to a few of his Quidditch buddies. Kamui wasn't present.

"If you're looking for Kamui, your sister dragged him off to the snack cart and then she said she may drag him to see Tomoyo because everything that needed to be said couldn't be said in the letters." Fuuma paused to push up his glasses.

"I need to talk to you and it can't wait until we get into the common room."

"Fine by me. Sorry guys. Muffliato." Stashing his wand back in his robes he turned to Subaru taking off his glasses and wiping them on his robes. "What is it?"

Subaru looked up at his lover's brother. "I feel horrible asking this but I need to know, who's Kotori?" Subaru needed to know if she was Seishirou's ex-girlfriend or not.

There was a soft crack noise. Fuuma had dropped his glasses. "H-how'd you hear that name?"

"Seishirou was muttering it in his sleep early this morning."

Fuuma had bent down to pick up his glasses and stashed them in his pocket. "Oh boy, I suppose I could tell you, I just hope he doesn't kill me. You see Subaru, Kotori was our little sister." His voice wasn't confident like it usually was, it was cracking.

Instantly that sentence made Subaru feel horrible. Their sister?! She was their sister?! He had been jealous of his boyfriend dreaming about his little sister.

Fuuma had finally composed himself. "Yes, Kotori was our little sister, sweet girl overall, innocent, trusting, sort of like you Subaru." Another pause. "She was the baby and apparently the magic gene skipped her or she was a slow developer. She was three years younger than me, and five year younger than Seishirou." He paused again and Subaru felt bad for asking him to bring up such dark memories. "It happened in Seishirou's first year of Hogwarts. He was home for Christmas break and me and Kotori were so happy to see him. We wanted to hear all about Hogwarts. I knew I'd be heading there in two years and I'm pretty sure Kotori herself; even at age six; knew she wasn't going. That didn't stop her though, she wanted to hear about her big brother's three months away from home. Anyways," Another crack in his voice. "My mother didn't see it fit for a filthy, disgusting, Muggle to hear about Hogwarts so she all but yanked Kotori away, there was a lot of struggling and my mother decided to punish her."

Subaru didn't need to hear the rest, their mother had killed her own daughter. "That same night dad grabbed me and left. He never said why he left my brother behind with that…woman. That's the same year I happened to meet Kamui." The tears were streaming down Subaru's face full force.

"Kidnapping my Subaru again, Fuuma?"

Subaru turned around and embraced Seishirou tightly. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry for what you went through, I'm sorry for being jealous! I'm sorry you have to always save me! I'm sorry!" Placing a hand on Subaru's head he locked eyes with his brother.

Fuuma sighed. "He knows about Kotori, you said her name in your sleep."

For a second Seishirou's eyes turned cold, but looking down at Subaru's body shaking with sobs, he couldn't stay mad.

"If it's any consolation Subaru, when he met you in his third year, it was the first time I remember seeing him smile."

Subaru looked up tears still falling. "Really?"

"Really, and I refuse to let anyone take you away from me, even idiot baby brothers that don't know how to be quiet." Seishirou had withdrawn one hand from Subaru and had a hold of Fuuma's ear.

"OW! LET GO! Subaru! give him detention! Abuse on a fellow student!"

Subaru started to laugh softly and Seishirou let go of his brother's ear. "Let's go Subaru, we should be there soon."

A/N: OOOOWWW RIGHT IN THE FEELS