Note: I was thinking about Hetty, and then I got this idea for a nice bonus chapter! Enjoy.

Date: Thanksgiving Day. Is Thanksgiving typically a big holiday for me? Well, other then inviting people over (if they're doing nothing) and trying to cook a big feast. Some years it's actually kind of quiet.

Of course, I havn't been around much these past 3 years. 3 years ago, I was in forced captivity. 2 years ago, I was who knows where. Last year, I actually WAS home, but the only one who wanted to come over was my top agent! (also, I wasn't really in the mood to spend all day cooking).

And this year: I'm in a war zone, with no idea when I'm going home. There are 2 soldiers here who are trying to cook for everyone, but I'm not really in the mood for a feast. (Not to mention, one of them is a terrible cook).

I've reached a bit of a dead in with that lead I've been tracking down. Sigh.

I wonder how my team is celebrating today? Are they thinking of me? Or have I been gone for so long, they're just used to me not being around at all?

I didn't mean for me disappearing on secret missions to go this far! But when it comes to protecting my team…

Oh who am I kidding? Everything that I've gone through these past 3 years has me struggling to be happy even when I AM at the office. They probably think I just want to leave one day without saying goodbye.

It's not true, I swear. I want to be happy, really! I'm just, going through a lot of emotional issues, alone. With a shrink.

I better go before I start crying.

Later that night

After I finished that entry, that kind soldier heard me crying in my room, and tried to make me feel better.

I told him how I was feeling, and he understood. (In fact, he said that he's felt like that sometimes). In fact, he even gave me a secure phone to call someone! (Technically, it belonged to someone else. So he would have to give it back later.).

I thanked him, and called my top agent.

Here's part of our conversation:

'Does, anyone miss me? I don't mean to always disappear like this. I really wish I could be home right now, making you all a big feast right now!'

'Hetty, it's okay. Everyone misses you. Believe me, seeing Nell in your chair is really weird! And while we wish you wouldn't disappear like this, you, probably have a good reason, right?'

'Yes. It's a very important reason. And, I didn't see anyone else who could temporally fill in for me, so, that's why I told Nell to. It's not permanent, mind you! It's, just until I can come home.'

'Which will be?'

'I don't know. Could be next week, or next month.'

'Well, just take care of yourself, and, we all want you back someday. And Hetty…'

'Yes?'

'We all love you, very much.'

I started shedding tears again after he said that. It was exactly what I needed to hear.

The feast itself, actually wasn't that bad. It was actually kind of good.

What am I thankful for? Being alive, knowing that my people back home love me and want me to come home, and other things.

Good night.

Endnote: Yes, Hetty was talking to Callen on that phone.