Note: Best I could do with an info less filler episode. Enjoy anyways.
Date: Early December. I had another dream of my dead partner again last night. So I've been feeling sad all day because of that because I miss him.
I feel like I'm getting nowhere with this lead in whoever is after my team. I havn't had any news in weeks!
And not to mention, I was overhearing chatter of putting up Christmas decorations. And now I'm no doubt going to feel homesick because I'm once again forced to spend Christmas apart from my family.
Basically, I'm just really depressed right now. I don't want to be here. I would rather be on an intense phone call with a bitchy politician in my office right now then be here.
That kind soldier who's been talking to me since I got here noticed my depression, and came over to talk.
I asked him if he's ever had dreams that just left him really depressed for the rest of the day because he dreamed of someone that he really missed.
And he said 'A lot'. I then asked him how he dealt with it, and he said: 'Keeping busy, remembering why I was where I was, and drinking.'
Well, I tell myself every day that I'm here to protect my team. I try to keep busy as much as I can outside of investigating with workouts and weapons training.
I think I'm going to find some cheap (for here anyways) whiskey now. Goodbye.