Chapter 1
Paul's POV
Well, here I am again and yet again another woman has decided to dump me and all because I don't want to make love before I tie the knot. I mean what the fuck, I don't want to sleep with every woman I meet just because I can. My last girlfriend Paulette just told me that it was over, saying that she couldn't be with a man who didn't have sex because usually those kind of men were usually "in the closet". It is really sad too because I was falling head over heels in love with her and after my divorce from Stephanie became final, I thought that I would never find love again. So now I'm just sitting here alone in my kitchen eating a pint of my favorite Hagen Daz ice cream wallowing in self pity. I mean I'm the cerebral assassin, "The Game" but yet as I sit here, my vision becomes blurry with tears because my heart has been broken yet again. Now the tears that have filled my eyes, have started to run down my face like a waterfall. Just then there's a knock at the door and when I open it, there is my co-worker and close friend, Steve.
"Hey man," Steve says, " how 'bout we grab a few….Steve stops as he notices my reddened eyes, quivering lips and the tears that continue to run down my face causing my beard to be damp.
"What the hell is wrong with you man?" Steve asks, looking concerned.
"Oh nothing except I just found out that Paulette is an insensitive, selfish cunt" I sobbed.
"Well hell man what did she do?" Steve asks as he sits down at my kitchen table clasping his hands together. Steve is staring at me with real concern because in all the years Steve has known me, he has never seen this side of me before and I think it's scaring the hell out of him.
"She..she dumped me, Steve" I say, another sob threatening to tear from my throat.
"But why?"
Just then my sadness has become anger, my reddened eyes have narrowed into slits and my teeth are clenching furiously as I remember how Paulette cruelly ended our relationship…..
*Flashback
"I don't understand, Paulette" I ask completely confused. "I love you…why are you doing this to me?"
"Oh please, Paul" Paulette says as she tosses her blonde hair over her shoulder, her crystal blue eyes rolling in the top of her head. "Who saves themselves for marriage especially men?" using air quotes to emphasize her point.
"I do". I say to her
Just then Paulette lets out a giggle that turns into full scale hysterical laughter.
"Why don't you just say it?" she says.
"Say what?" I ask confused.
"That you are really a closeted homosexual, that's what" she laughs. "You know what? Whatever you're gay and I can't be with a man who refuses to accept who he is, so goodbye sissy boy".
End of Flashback
"YOU KNOW WHY?!" I roared, my anger on full boil. "BECAUSE THE TWO BIT TRAMP COULDN'T ACCEPT THAT I WAS NOT GONNA FUCK HER WITHOUT BEING MARRIED AND THEN THE BITCH CALLED ME A CLOSETED HOMOSEXUAL, I SWEAR IT TOOK EVERYTHING IN ME NOT TO BEAT HER FUCKING ASS!"
"Wait a minute", Steve says looking at me in utter surprise, "you mean to tell me that you ain't getting laid until you get married?"
"You're damn right, you wanna make somethin' outta of it too?" I snapped.
"Hey man don't get your underwear in a bunch. I'm just really surprised that you've decided to become celibate. I thought after Stephanie you would bang anything in a skirt". Steve says holding his hands up defensively. "But you know something, I think it's great and I'm actually relieved…"
"Why?" I ask.
"Because.." Steve says softly holding his head down, "I'm saving myself for bride to be too".