Underneath We're the Same

by JimberlyShipper

Blaine has lived on the reservation his whole life, and he's never had a boyfriend, let alone sex. Then he is set up with Kurt Hummel and it changes his life. Has mature themes, and is probably going to be a little angsty. Could be a trigger for anyone who has had cancer, or is a sexual abuse survivor. Has Klaine, Finchel, Puck/OC, endgames are Blam, Kadam, Faberry, and Niff.

8. Burn With You

Chapter Eight: Burn With You

We are broken, we can't fix it
There's no cure for our condition
Desperate eyes are staring at me
should be hopeless but we're happy

It's not perfect here between us
Even angels have their demons
Trapped inside this twisted circle
It ain't right but it's eternal

There's a white light
and it's calling me
And it's promising ecstasy

But I don't want to go to heaven
If you're going to hell
I will burn with you
I will burn with you

Christmas was rapidly approaching. There was a lot of shopping going on. Puck was just getting to the diner, he was meeting Olivia. Puck was already finished with his Christmas shopping. He had to admit, he was still concerned about Blaine being with Kurt. But he knew that Blaine had a choice and he had made it. Puck slid onto a stool at the counter.

Olivia's stepfather approached him. Puck liked the man. He cared about Olivia, and that went a long way with Puck. He actually couldn't wait for Christmas. It was a favorite time of year for Liv and her mother. Puck liked that they cared so much about it. He wasn't ever going to tire of that. Holidays hadn't been as big of a deal in his family. Puck didn't need to open the menu, but he did anyway. Puck brushed his hand over his head. "Liv's going to join me." He told Luke. Puck had gotten here early, Olivia was dropping Aimee off at Blaine's so he could babysit. Puck knew that they had to get a babysitter on the regular and not lean on Blaine so much. Even if Blaine didn't mind. Puck was also concerned about how it would effect Blaine and Kurt's relationship. Why he wasn't sure, because he was still concerned about Blaine getting hurt. But he didn't want this to effect them negatively and hurt him that way either. Puck was probably overprotective, but with Blaine, it was understandable. Blaine had already been through enough. Puck decided on a soda to drink. "I'll have a Coke to start off with. I'm early. Livvy's dropping off Aimee at Blaine's."

A lot had gone on the past year. Luke tended to keep out of it as much as possible. Except the stuff that applied to his family. That included Puck and his brother. They were important to his daughter. Luke gave him a nod. "How is Blaine doing?" Luke asked, and he hoped that the answer was positive. Luke was really concerned about him dating this Kurt kid. Luke was trying to be open minded. It was hard when it came to this Kurt kid. In a small town, stuff like that wasn't easily forgotten. It would take years in some cases. He really didn't want that in Blaine's situation because it would hurt Blaine. Blaine had had enough of that. There was only so much he could take.

"He's actually doing okay right now. Arguing with Quinn about Beth's custody but otherwise okay. They can't agree on anything right now." Puck really thought that Quinn should give in a little. She worked as a nurse, she couldn't be around as often with her as often as Blaine could be. He just hoped that they could settle out of court. No one needed that. Least of all Beth. Puck cared about Beth and didn't want to see her go through that. Although it wasn't going to be easy either way you looked at it. "I'm not sure how he and Kurt are doing, they've been keeping to themselves a lot. I think they're juset enjoying their time together while they can."

Olivia stepped into the diner and grinned when she saw her fiancé. Olivia was glad to get to spend some time with him, just the two of them. Christmas was so close. She was excited about that, too. Christmas was such a magical time of year. Olivia headed up to the counter. "Hey, Daddy." She said to Luke, and wrapped her arms around Puck. "I hope you weren't waiting long." Olivia said, kissing him on the cheek. She knew that Luke could be uncomfortable with PDA. "Get me a chocolate milkshake, please, Daddy." Olivia told him, and he went to do so. Olivia sat down on the stool next to Puck. "I missed you baby." Olivia told him. It was true. She had. Olivia tossed some of her long black hair behind her shoulder. She had had to deal with Kurt when she had dropped Aimee off, and she had had to grin and bear it. She still wasn't sure what Blaine was still doing with him. But she supposed that that was Blaine's choice. He just was going to have to deal with the consequences if this went wrong. Olivia of course didn't want that to happen to Blaine. Olivia laced her fingers with her fiancé's.

"I wasn't and I missed you too." Puck told her. She was obviously the most beautiful girl that he had ever seen. Puck couldn't imagine being with anyone else. He stroked the back of her hand with his thumb. Her skin was gorgeous. That was his favorite thing about her. Her gorgeous mocha skin. Puck wondered if he should tell her what he had heard about Rachel Berry and Quinn. Supposedly they were sleeping together. Someone had seen Quinn leaving school property the other day. He was almost hoping that was true. Only because she'd given Blaine such a hard time. Puck thought Livvy might appreciate the irony. Puck watched as Olivia flipped through the menu, even though she didn't need to look at it, either. He had decided on a burger and fries. He loved Luke's burgers. They were really good. "You hear the rumor?" Puck asked finally, his tone curious. He was sure that she had, it was going around the town and the rez. Salacious rumors always got around. He was wondering if there was any truth to it. Puck thought she'd been extremely bitchy to Blaine about his choices, even if Puck got why she'd been so pissy about it. It couldn't have been easy to hear that Blaine was gay. Although wasn't it better that he'd hurt her now as opposed to ten years down the road? Puck thought it was better this way.

Sam Evans stepped into Luke's. He had just moved there from Tennessee. Nashville, to be exact. Sam had a bit of a stubble going on, and his long blonde hair was pulled back into a ponytail. He was wearing a pair of tight Wranglers, a red flannel shirt, and a heavy wool coat. He had bought a farm just outside Raleigh, he had just lost his parents. He had custody of his younger siblings Stacie and Stevie. They were only eight. They were twins. Sam wasn't sure how to raise them. He was only 21 years old, he was just getting his life back on track. He was sure that he was going to mess their lives up. He headed across the diner to grab a small table, his cowboy boots, which were old and scuffed, sounding across the floor. Sam settled into a seat, opening the menu. His siblings were with their new nanny. Sam was going to need help with them, as much as possible. Sam opened the menu, and looked up, everyone in the diner was staring at him. Sam wasn't going to get used to that anytime soon. He'd just been living in Nashville. Sam played and wrote songs on the guitar, but he'd failed at being a country singer. He was almost glad he'd had to move out here. Back home, people were talking about his failure openly, and that had hurt a lot.

When the newcomer walked in, Luke had to admit it was a complete shock. They had of course heard that a farm had been purchased, but they hadn't heard much about the buyer. Luke had seen this guy before on the news. He had been a country singer. Luke knew because Olivia was a country fan and she'd mentioned him before. Sam Evans, he thought he was. Luke headed over to take his order. Luke looked at him, he looked impossibly young, and Luke knew that there were two kids that were with the buyer of the farm. Luke wondered if the town of Raleigh would accept this newcomer and his family. Luke adjusted his blue ballcap and pulled out his pad and pencil for taking orders. "What'll you have?" Luke asked, deciding it was best not to mention that he'd recognized him. Just on the sure thing that it was a sore subject. Luke said, "Today's special is a blt and fries. We don't tend to be too fancy here." Luke didn't know if he could even introduce some of the more complicated dishes that he knew how to make. He had gotten into cooking in high school, and had tried lots of different things. If he'd wanted to leave Raleigh, he'd have gone to culinary school. Luke hadn't ever left Raleigh, except to go a town over. Luke waited, his pencil poised, looking at Sam. The kid looked exhausted. Luke got a lot of rest, surprisingly, despite his wife's annoying habit of watching a lot of tv.

Sam looked up, a lock of his hair falling out of his ponytail. He was glad that this guy didn't seem to recognize him. Sam hoped that that would continue to be true. He handed the menu to Luke. "Grilled cheese and tomato soup with sweet tea." Sam requested. He was heading to the Mom and Pop grocery store when he was finished eating, and then to the bookstore. He had just finished a book, so he was in the market for a new one. Sam had dyslexia, so it was something he was proud of that he could read. Sam liked fantasy novels the most. He cast his gaze up at Luke, wondering if this was the Luke that owned the diner. Sam folded his hands on the table, watching Luke write that down and head off to the counter. Sam brushed back the lock of hair, and cast his glance around. The diner was really kind of nice. Sam had gone to a place like this in Nashville. Sam reached into his back pocket and pulled out a comic book, Iron Man. Sam liked comic books and super heroes. Sam opened it to read while he was waiting. Sam hoped that the food here would be good. He hadn't eaten at a diner in at least a year. He'd been too busy falling short of the music goal he'd set for himself. Small towns sucked.

Puck and Olivia shared a Look. They couldn't believe the new guy was in Luke's. The rumor about Rachel was forgotten. Puck wondered if he should try and engage him in conversation. The dude looked familiar, too, and he wasn't sure why. Puck ordered a burger and fries, and a strawberry shake. Olivia got a plate of chili fries. Puck wondered what he was going to say if he did go over. He was hoping to make the guy feel welcome. It could be hard being new. He watched the guy reading a comic, he was looking like he was trying to blend in. Unfortunately, in a place like Raleigh it was next to impossible. He touched Olivia's shoulder. "You heard from Blaine in the last few days?" He asked, they tended to worry when they hadn't seen him. By product of him being abducted all those years ago. They might one day stop suspecting the worst, but it didn't seem likely. Puck was hoping that he wasn't with Kurt. Otherwise he was sure that Blaine was fine. Things had been going better since Thanksgiving, he had to admit. Even if he didn't really want to. That would mean that he was admitting that Kurt was doing Blaine good. And he didn't want to do that. Puck still didn't trust Kurt with Blaine. He thought that he would just end up hurting Blaine again. And when that happened Puck would beat the fuck out of him. Once was enough.

Before Olivia could answer, Blaine stepped in the diner and did a double take when he saw Sam. "Oh my God, you're Sam Evans! I love your music." Blaine exclaimed. He couldn't believe that he was here in Raleigh. Blaine had thought that if Sam had been given the chance he could really have been something. Blaine sat down at Sam's table, hoping that he didn't mind. Blaine couldn't help himself. He brushed curls out of his eyes. He didn't want to be a total fan or anything, and he hoped that he could reign in his enthusiasm. But he really did like his music. It was good. And Sam was gorgeous.

Great, a fan. Sam normally would have been glad to come across one. But now that he had given up that part of his life, he didn't want to deal with it anymore. Sam had to admit, though, this guy was really hot. That was a fringe benefit. Sam blushed a little, he couldn't help himself. He had never seen curls like those. He hoped to reach out and touch them. Sam shook himself, who was even assuming that this guy was even into guys? Sam brushed a lock of his hair back. "You know my music? I didn't think that anyone was paying attention." That was a diplomatic way to put it.

"Oh, yeah, I have all of your songs memorized. I was so sad to hear you were leaving the music business." Blaine's fingers itched to reach out and take his hand, as if he could. Kurt would kill him, and there were eyes everywhere. Yet, there was something about Sam. There was an innocence that he really liked. They were both blushing, and Blaine really found himself wanting to kiss Sam. And it wasn't just because he loved Sam's music. There was just something he liked. Blaine was going to get himself in trouble, he just knew it. He ran a hand through his unruly curls. Crazily wishing it was Sam who was touching them. Blaine tried to reign himself in. "I heard you randomly on the radio one day and I was hooked. You just…. there's this yearning in your voice. I just…. I really respond to it." Blaine had listened to it a lot after he'd first gotten back from his abduction. He wasn't sure what it was about Sam's music that spoke to him. There was just something about Sam that he was drawn to. His hand reached out of its own accord, lacing his fingers through Sam's before he could stop himself. Sam was blushing deeply but he stroked the back of Blaine's hand. That felt really good. Plus, he and Kurt were fighting about Beth again. If Kurt didn't want a boyfriend with a child that could be arranged. Blaine was sick of fighting.

When Blaine held his hand, Sam was overjoyed. He stroked the back of Blaine's hand, marveling at the mocha skin. It was gorgeous. Sam had never seen skin that gorgeous before. He was mesmerized by it. It was possibly the most beautiful skin that he had ever seen. It had been a long time since he had dated someone. Someone that was better than his ex Damascus. They had hit it off and then Damascus had turned into a really bad choice. Sam was glad to have a new chance, to move on. Maybe it would be with Blaine. "You know me, but I don't know you. You are?" He asked, with a flirtatious grin. Sam really wasn't going to be able to flirt effectively, he was sure. It had been far too long since he'd had to. Not that he was assuming that that was happening. He wasn't going to assume anything. Sam watched as Blaine thought about his question. What would he say? It had been a very long time since Sam had flirted with anyone. But he didn't see a ring so at least he wasn't married. That was something. The last guy that Sam had flirted with had been married. Not that Sam had known at first. He hadn't. It was something that he tried to avoid. Mostly because Damascus had cheated on him. He didn't want to be that guy.

His cheeks were fire engine red under his mocha skin. Blaine gave him a smile back though. "I'm Blaine. Blaine Anderson." He said, butterflies in his stomach. He ignored the looks from the other dining customers, he didn't care what they thought, it's not like he was doing anything wrong. Blaine supposed it was borderline, but he really didn't care at the moment. Blaine knew that he should tell him about Kurt, but he couldn't bring himself to. He couldn't get himself upset right now. Thinking about Kurt would do that. Blaine looked at Luke when he came over, and ordered a burger, chili cheese fries, and a Coke, his look just daring Luke to speak up. He didn't want to hear any judgment, although Luke should be on his side anyway. They were family. Blaine watched as Sam dug into his tomato soup. Blaine liked that he was drinking sweet tea, too. But with Sam's accent, he was a Southern boy, so that was a given. Blaine looked at him eagerly. "You've got that farm outside town, right?" He asked, he hoped that Sam wouldn't be too upset that the town was gossiping. That was bound to happen in a town like this. It was always a risk when you did choose a small town to live in. But he had grown up here, so he wasn't used to anything but that. Blaine didn't know what it was like to live anywhere else. He didn't really want ot move though, he loved it here.

Sam really felt like this was a date. Even though he knew that was stupid to think. All Blaine had done was join him. Sam was so fluttery and nervous though. He couldn't help it. Blaine was gorgeous and so nice, at least it seemed so. "Yeah, I brought my family here from Nashville. I am in charge of my siblings now." Sam said, he hope that that wasn't going to scare Blaine off. It would some guys. Some women, too, although Sam hadn't dated a girl in a really long time. Sam wasn't sure that he wanted one, the last one he'd dated had used him as a punching bag. Sam was tired of that happening. Sam took a sip of his sweet tea, watching Blaine's face. He was truly adorable. Sam could hardly think when he looked into those hazel eyes. They were truly gorgeous and Sam would have nothing to compare them to. Okay. He was getting way ahead of himself. There was no guarantee that that's what was going on here. Sam might just be indulging in wishful thinking. "I'm going to rework the farm, raise animals." Sam said, he could become a real cowboy instead of just pretending to be one, and that was exciting to him. Sam brushed back a lock of his hair out of his eyes. It had fallen from his ponytail.

"Really? Oh my God, I have a daughter, Beth." He said, grinning widely. Blaine couldn't believe how lucky that was that in a way, Sam had kids. Blaine had to admit that made him even more attractive to him. Blaine was going to have to talk to Kurt before he went any further. Blaine didn't want to give Kurt a reason to be the one in the right. They were still arguing about whom had broken up with whom. When they fought it always came up. Blaine was tired of fighting about that. Because he was the one who had been hurt when Kurt had dumped him. Blaine never wanted to be in that position again. Even though Blaine did feel sorry for what he had done to Quinn. Although if what he had heard was true, she was banging Rachel Hudson. He had no idea if that was true or not. Blaine had heard about it from more than one person, though, and it had some validity to it. Blaine really thought it was a bit hilarious, since she had been so angry about him coming out. He supposed that he got why she'd been so upset, but it was kind of ironic that she was now sleeping with a woman. He pulled out his cell phone to show Sam pictures. He would show them to anyone who would look at them. He grinned widely and proudly. "She is getting so big, and she's so smart. I had this…. well, period where I was confused…. I was engaged to a woman. It didn't work out because I was hiding who I really was."

Meanwhile, Kurt and Adam were making out in an on call room. He wasn't sure how that had happened. Kurt had thought that he had ruined any chance he'd had with Adam. They were kissing very heatedly, and Kurt had to admit that he was enjoying making out without the possibility of a baby crying. Kurt was so tired of that. He did want kids one day, but not anytime soon, and Blaine having Beth was causing a huge problem. Kurt couldn't do it anymore. He hated to hurt Blaine, because he really did love him, but they were better off apart. Somehow things with Adam had started up again. Kurt wasn't going to let that get in the way of them being together. Yes, Blaine had been in Kurt's heart, but now he wasn't. That's all that could be said. They weren't meant to be. Even if he did feel like scum for thinking so. That was when Adam was called off on an emergency, and Kurt was set to getting put back together. When he opened the door, he found Blaine looking very upset. Kurt was very nervous. So very very nervous. He cleared his throat. "Hey, Blaine." He managed. He knew what was coming, and that was fine with him. Kurt didn't want to fight but he sensed one was coming. "It's…. it is what you think it is." Kurt finally said. He knew that would give Blaine pause.

Well, it was a shock. And it had been a long time coming. They didn't work together. Never really had. Blaine folded his arms tightly. Kurt couldn't believe that Kurt had admitted it. He also knew that he had no room to talk, since something was in the works with Sam, but at least he had the sense to tell Kurt before something happened. Blaine was more hurt that Kurt hadn't spoken up than that he had done it. Blaine gritted his teeth before he spoke. "You could have spoken up if you wanted out. You didn't have to cheat on me." Blaine snapped. He couldn't imagine being more hurt by Kurt. They had hurt each other enough. Blaine gritted his teeth more and geared up for a fight. "You and I both know that the end has been coming. We're fooling ourselves. But we could have ended this with us being friends, Kurt. I don't know that this will ever happen now. We've hurt each other enough. I don't want to put myself through anymore. I can't do this, Kurt. If you want Adam, go and get him. I'm not going to stand in your way. You and I just weren't meant to last, Kurt. Sometimes love just isn't enough." Blaine willed himself not to cry. Blaine didn't want to cry anymore in front of Kurt. He didn't want to let Kurt hurt him anymore. He didn't regret being with him though, it had gotten him prepared for the world of dating. It was worth it.

Kurt didn't try and stop Blaine from walking away. Kurt didn't have anything to say that would help make up for what he did. He sighed and leaned against the door. He wished that he could take back hurting Blaine, but he was really glad that it was over with Blaine. He would go over later and take Blaine his things. Kurt sighed more, not at all surprised that Blaine didn't want to be friends. They had done a lot to each other and being friends just seemed impossible. Kurt moved to go down the hall, he had to get into his rounds. Blaine would hopefully move on. Kurt brushed his hand over his brown waves, really wishing that he hadn't been so awful to Blaine. Never once had he thought that he would be the one to hurt someone like Trip had hurt him. Not that he had hurt Blaine like Trip had hurt him. No one had ever hurt anyone like Trip had hurt him. He moved down the hall, he had to get these done before Dr. Schuester found out. Kurt didn't need to get chewed out for that. Kurt was tired, he was looking forward to going home and falling into bed. Kurt didn't have much time to go before his shift was over. He had been up for nearly two days and he was ready to drop to the floor.

A week later, Kurt and Jeff were at Wal-Mart, looking for some baby things. The boys had decided not to find out the sex of the baby, so they were going through gender neutral things. Kurt had told him all about what was going on. He felt like a great weight had been lifted off his shoulders. Kurt was really enjoying himself with Adam. Adam was amazing, and there was no way that Kurt was going to let him get away again. Right now he and Jeff were looking at baby clothes. "Are you sure that you don't want to know the gender?" Kurt asked, as he fingered a pink baby onesie. It was really adorable, and why was he torturing himself by picturing Beth in it? Kurt moved through some more things. They were better off looking for furniture or something, it was too hard to shop for clothes hen you didn't know the sex. Kurt just hoped that Jeff wouldn't press him to talk. He was in a fairly good mood at the moment and didn't want it ruined. He brushed his hand over his chin. "You know, it would be much easier to baby shop if you did." Kurt teased him gently. Kurt didn't know what he would do without Jeff and Nick right now. They were his lifeline. Rachel was too busy banging Quinn to be much of a help at the moment. Kurt wasn't really sure that that was going to last. Rachel wasn't the type to be a lesbian. She was just grieving.

"You know we want to wait, Hummel." Jeff told him. He moved to look at toys. "We can't wait to be dads though." Jeff had mostly asked Kurt to help him because they were worried about him. They were trying to get him out and about. Jeff had seen Blaine out with this blonde guy a few times in the last week, too. He wasn't sure if Kurt knew about that, and he wasn't the one who wanted to tell him. Jeff wasn't sure if they should leave it up to chance either though. Then he might see them together or something. That wouldn't help matters. Jeff fingered a toy xylophone. They were hoping that their baby would be musical. Jeff himself played guitar and Nick played piano. He thought that was so hot, actually. Jeff knew that they couldn't force their child to be musical. But they were hoping that they could get him or her into it. "It's too convenient to just find out what the baby's gender is. I am glad that we're doing it this way." Jeff didn't want to have that surprise taken from him. Jeff was old fashioned that way. Nick would have been fine to know. He wanted what Jeff wanted. Jeff thought that was so cute that he loved him that much. "So…. what's going on with you and Blaine? You two breakup? I've seen him around without you." He covered.

Heaving a world weary sigh, Kurt resigned himself to talking about it. He hoped that they could just rehash this once and that was it. "We're both seeing other people. We didn't work out. Something just wasn't working with us. Love wasn't enough. We just weren't compatible. Sometimes it's okay to not want the same things." Kurt knew how incredibly lame that sounded. He didn't really care. The important thing was he and Blaine were both happy. That was how things were supposed to be. They both deserved it. Kurt honestly was tired of having to defend his relationship every five minutes. This small town thing wasn't at all helpful. Kurt picked up a soft teddy bear and held it, looking it over. He really wanted the matter to drop completely. He was done trying to defend himself and his relationship issues. Kurt deserved to have his life work out the way he wanted it. Kurt was happy for Blaine if he had moved on. Kurt had heard the big rumors about Blaine and the Evans guy. He had seen them together. They weren't exactly hiding anything. But Kurt hadn't exactly been secretive about him and Adam fooling around. There was a part of him that thought he might have done it on purpose to get Blaine to break up with him. He wouldn't put it past himself. Kurt really was starting to feel for Adam. He was incredibly amazing. He really was very enraptured by him.

That's when they bumped into a tall blonde guy in a cowboy hat. Oh…. Shit. It was Blaine's new boyfriend. Kurt wasn't sure that he was ready for this. Ready to see him up close. Have to be faced with this tall, blonde Adonis that clearly didn't mind that Blaine had Beth. That was actually killing him. Reminding him of why he and Blaine hadn't been right for each other. Kurt froze, wondering if Sam knew who he was. He might not, he was new here. He shared a look with Jeff. Neither one of them was sure what to say. Kurt met those striking green eyes, and they shared a look. Kurt really didn't know what to do. "Aren't you Sam Evans? I think I've seen you around." Kurt finally said, thankfully no tremors in his voice. He'd known that this would happen eventually. That they would run into each other. This was awkward, but at least Blaine and Adam weren't here. That would have been a million times worse. They all stood there for a few seconds, and Kurt felt like he was going to fall through the floor to the Earth's core. Kurt didn't think that he could speak anymore till Sam spoke back. Why was it taking so bloody long? Well, that came from listening to Adam talk so much. But it was super cute when Adam did it.

Sizing Kurt up, Sam wasn't sure what to say. He was here to get things for Beth. He hadn't expected to run into Blaine's crazy ex. This was very unexpected. Sam wasn't sure what to tell him because he wasn't sure if it was any of Kurt's business. He knew who Kurt was, even if Kurt didn't know him. "Let's not play games, Hummel. You are Blaine's ex, and I am his current boyfriend. But you don't get to act like the wounded party. You don't get to be the put out one who is being that way with me. I didn't do that to B to make him available to me." Sam said all of this with his slow Nashville drawl. He picked up a soft stuffed dog for Beth. He knew that Kurt had been trying to back off because of Beth. Sam really thought that he was lucking out in this situation. He was really starting to feel for Blaine. He knew it had only been a week, but sometimes you just knew. Sam brushed his hand over his arm in frustration. He was wearing his typical cowboy outfit, cowboy hat and all. He ran his fingers over his scruffy cheek. "You have moved on, let Blaine do the same. That's what he deserves. Hasn't enough happened to him in his life without you causing more strife?" Sam demanded to know, even if it was none of his business.

Jeff was seething with anger at this guy's audacity. But Jeff was biased since Kurt was his friend. "You have no right to judge Kurt and his choices. You may be Blaine's new boyfriend, but that's it. Blaine and Kurt had to deal with this on their own. You just be there for Blaine. That is all you can do. I get why you're so pissed. Kurt did mess up. But that hasn't any bearing on what you and Blaine have." Jeff said, hoping that Kurt wouldn't get upset that he'd just jumped in to defend him. He just couldn't stand by and let some failed country singer get in Kurt's face like that.

Sam folded his tight arms, not sure what to retort. He also didn't know who this guy was. Must be a friend of Kurt's. Sam didn't care, if it was none of his business either. "Look, dude, I don't know who you are, but if it's none of my business, it's certainly none of yours." Sam was so angry. "Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to get back to shopping for my boyfriend's baby." This was said with a snap, and Kurt's heart fell to the floor. Sam moved to get another toy, his hands shaking with anger. But he told himself that he was the one who had Blaine, so he got to win. Sam took a few calming breaths, he was into yoga.

After Sam had walked away, Kurt had to use all of his strength not to break down in the aisle. He didn't want to give Sam the satisfaction. Kurt brushed his hand through his hair. He couldn't believe that that had just happened. "Oh, Jeff….. I really messed up. I never thought that I would be the one to hurt someone like Trip hurt me." Kurt knew that he was different than Trip, though, because he actually felt bad about what he'd done. Kurt didn't blame Blaine for moving on. He thought that maybe he and Blaine were too toxic together. They didn't need to hurt each other anymore. Kurt brushed his hand over a stuffed bear, it was adorable.

Jeff touched his arm. "You're different than Trip, though, honey. You feel bad about what you did. You know that Trip doesn't. You will eventually stop feeling guilty. Blaine will eventually get over it. You just be happy with Adam." Jeff really felt bad for Kurt, it had to be hard to deal with when you hurt someone. Jeff hadn't ever broken up with someone, he'd been the one that had been broken up with. Until Nick had finally realized that he was gay and in love with him. It had taken him awhile to figure that out. Jeff had been the first one to come out. He had felt so much better when he had come out. He'd dated a couple of guys before Nick, but not seriously. He had sort of been waiting for Nick to come around.

Rachel was just getting ready to leave work for the Christmas break. She had just finished getting the song selections ready for the first lesson the next semester. Rachel didn't know how she was going to make it through this Christmas. It wasn't her first without Finn, but Christmas had always been his favorite time of year. So it was going to be hard for her to deal with. Plus, there was the fact that she couldn't stop having sex with Quinn. Rachel wasn't exactly sure why. She wondered if she was becoming a lesbian now. Rachel supposed that that wasn't a bad thing. She had been raised by two dads. Rachel moved to get out of the classroom, and then she saw the most gorgeous hazel eyes. Quinn was back. Rachel didn't know what to say or do. Quinn did that to her. Rachel stood there for a second, watching her, she wasn't sure what was going to happen. Rachel moved past her, she was going to go home. She couldn't do this right now. It was too much for her to handle. She just wished that she could go back in time and not sleep with Quinn. It had taken a lot out of her. Rachel didn't know that she could turn her down if she kept standing there. It was all that she could think about at the current point and time. She shook her head at Quinn.

That pained Quinn deep within. It really did. She hadn't expected Rachel to turn her down from anything. All she wanted right now was to talk to her. Quinn hurried after her, hating that she even had to do this. She had never been that whiny girl who chased whomever she was dating. Or rather, in this case, fucking. Quinn didn't know what to do, she had been thinking about Rachel a lot. It was insane. She had to get this off her chest. "Wait, Rachel!" She called out, hurrying after her. Quinn tucked some of her blonde locks out of her way as she approached Rachel's car. She put her hand on Rachel's car door, so Rachel couldn't open it. "Please don't go. We have to talk. I'm not here to try and sleep with you. Actually, I don't want to do anything more until we define this." Quinn said, wishing that she hadn't said that even if she meant it. Quinn didn't know what was going to happen now and she didn't like that. Her life was never this spontaneous. Everything was always planned out. She never just did things like this. That was one of the reasons that she hadn't been prepared for Beth when she'd come along. Quinn kept her hand on Rachel's car door. "If you don't want to be serious, that's fine. But you have to tell me. We have to decide if this is just sex." Quinn didn't know how she had even gotten up the courage to say all of this to Rachel. It meant really admitting that she might be a lesbian.

Rachel folded her arms tightly, looking back at Quinn. This had to be hard for Quinn to bring up. She didn't want to hurt her. But she was definitely sure that she didn't want it to be serious. Rachel wasn't ready for a commitment to anyone anyway. She wasn't ready to make such a big step when Finn was still on her mind all the time. She didn't want to put anyone through that if she could help it. Especially Quinn, she had been through enough already. Rachel brushed some of her hair out of her eyes. "Quinn, I am not going to discuss anything with you. And if you want to end the sex, fine." Rachel didn't really want to hurt Quinn, and she knew that if they continued this that she would. Rachel opened the back door to put her things on the back seat. Rachel couldn't imagine someone hurting like she did. Rachel wasn't going to be the cause of anyone's pain. She sighed as Quinn looked at her, her hazel eyes lit up with tears. Rachel had already hurt her too much. Rachel really hated herself for being that person. She totally empathized with Kurt now, she got why he felt so guilty for hurting Blaine. Rachel had to stop all of this before it got farther. Rachel hated the look on Quinn's face. It was so sad and forlorn.

She had to be kidding, right? Quinn didn't want to argue with her. But she couldn't really let her get away with stopping the sex, could she? Quinn really couldn't let her do that. She wanted to fuck Rachel's brains out as often as she could. If Rachel didn't want to be serious, then they didn't have to be. Quinn wasn't sure that she was ready to call herself a lesbian anyway. Quinn didn't know that she would ever be ready for that. She also felt like a hypocrite because she'd gotten into a same sex relationship after she'd given Blaine such a hard time. "You can't be serious, Rachel. We don't have to have it be serious. But don't stop us having sex. Because I know you don't." Despite the fact that they were outside, she slid her hand along Rachel's arm. She watched Rachel's face, she was trying to show that she wasn't into it. But she was. Quinn moved her hand down and slid it along Rachel's hip, moving along her pelvis. Rachel's breath was shallow. Quinn was wondering how far Rachel would let her go. Quinn slowly moved to step closer, and pressed her hip against Rachel's, rubbing their pussies together through their skirts. Rachel's eyes closed, and Quinn let a sly grin play at the corners of her mouth. That was where it ended, though, Rachel stepped back from Quinn, letting her know that that was the end of it. Quinn stepped back and watched her leave. Quinn just hoped that it wouldn't really be the end of their fucking. Quinn lived and breathed Rachel Hudson.

Christmas Eve dawned bright and early. No snow, but there wasn't really any in Raleigh. Blaine was spending it with his brother and family and of course, Sam. They were getting really close already. Sam was also bringing his younger siblings. Blaine was a nervous wreck about meeting them. Kids could make or break your relationship. All that Blaine wanted was for them to get along like Sam did with Beth. They could do that, right?

TBC

Author's note: Sorry about the Blam and Kadam endgame switch. Okay, no, I'm not. Klaine is totes not right for each other. From here on out, there will be no more Klaine things that are romantic. XD. Review if you like!