Underneath We're the Same

by JimberlyShipper

Blaine has lived on the reservation his whole life, and he's never had a boyfriend, let alone sex. Then he is set up with Kurt Hummel and it changes his life. Has mature themes, and is probably going to be a little angsty. Could be a trigger for anyone who has had cancer, or is a sexual abuse survivor. Has Klaine, Finchel, Puck/OC, endgames are Blam, Kadam, Faberry, and Niff.

11. I Won't Let Go

Chapter Eleven: I Won't Let Go

The day of the double wedding dawned very beautifully. Not a cloud in the sky. Blaine had insisted that Olivia spend the night with him and Sam the night before. Some traditions had to be upheld. Blaine got up a little early, and went down to start breakfast. He wasn't going to fix anything too complicated. He just wanted to fix some eggs and toast. He was surprised when he found Olivia and her mother Lorelai in the kitchen. Blaine gave them both a smile. "Hey, Lorelai. It's so good to see you. You must be so excited that Olivia's finally getting married." Blaine moved to the fridge to get some eggs out. Lorelai wasn't really a chef. She was more of an open frozen food and dump kind of girl. Blaine hummed happily as he started cracking eggs in a bowl. He knew Sam would want cheese, but no one else would. Blaine wasn't sure why, cheese in eggs was great. Curls fell over his forehead, and he didn't bother to move them. Sam loved his curls, and Blaine loved that Sam loved them that much. Blaine turned to look back at Olivia and Lorelai. "You guys want some eggs? I'm making enough for all of us." Blaine hoped that Puck was eating too, it wasn't good to get married on an empty stomach. Blaine hummed some more.

Lorelai watched him cook and took a sip of her coffee. "First of all, excellent coffee maker, Blaine. This coffee is really good. Passes the Gilmore test." Lorelai reached for some Poptarts sitting on a plate in the middle of the table. "Eggs would be great. And actually I'm glad that Olivia's finally getting married. I want to hate your brother but I can't. He's actually a good person. I know he's not going to hurt her." Lorelai had hated Puck at first, because of his bad reputation. Lorelai had had to give in eventually, he really did treat Olivia well. Luke had been the one to take awhile to come around. He'd always been very protective of Olivia. "Actually, I have some news." They both turned to look at her, a bit surprised. "If I tell you though you can't say anything to anyone. Luke will kill me for telling you while he's not here." She waited until they had both nodded their assent, and taking a deep breath and said, "I just found out I'm pregnant." This was greeted with gasps. She wasn't sure what Luke thought yet, he hadn't said much about it yet. She knew he was just in shock.

Looking at her mother, Olivia wasn't sure what to say. She was glad if Lorelai was glad. She knew her mother wasn't averse to having more kids. Olivia had been a product of a sexual encounter when Lorelai was 16. Olivia sipped her own coffee,, which had to be decaf. She looked at Blaine briefly and then turned back to her mother. "What did Dad say? Was he excited?" Luke had been a great dad to her. She knew he'd be a great dad to her future sibling. Olivia watched her mother's face. She was trying to assess her mother's feelings. Olivia brushed her hand through her black hair. "How do you feel about it, Mom?"

"I'm glad. I mean, we weren't trying but we weren't not trying either." Lorelai said. As she was talking, Sam came in, looking tired. She shared a look with Blaine and Olivia, and that meant the subject was closed for now. Lorelai watched as Sam went to wrap his arms around his husband's waist. She had to admit, she liked Sam. He was a sweet kid. She had only met Kurt a few times, and she had thought him haughty and stuck up. And she had to admit, it took some balls to hurt a person like Blaine. Lorelai had never met a sweeter kid than Blaine. Not even Olivia was as sweet as Blaine was. She said, "Morning, Sam. You nervous to renew those vows?"

Sam wasn't sure what to think about Liv's mom. She was quite a woman. The kids were all still asleep and Sam knew they'd have to get them up in a bit if they didn't get up. Sam kissed Blaine and then turned to face Liv's mother. "I'm not nervous at all. I am just glad that I get to marry Blaine all over again. Marrying him was the best thing that I ever did." Sam's voice was strong with conviction. He wasn't a bit scared. Or nervous. Sam kissed Blaine's cheek and reached for coffee. Sam could tell that he'd interrupted a serious talk. He knew that he wasn't going to inquire though, Sam didn't need to know, if they wanted him to know they'd've told him. Sam wasn't a super curious person. He was also glad he'd put on a shirt before he came downstairs. Sam honestly didn't mind having Olivia here. They had also agreed to watch Aimee for a week so Olivia and Puck could honeymoon. They were going to Hawaii, from what Sam understood. Sam and Blaine weren't going to be able to go on their own honeymoon just yet. Sam didn't mind though. He just wanted to be married to Blaine, and he was, so in his book it was all A okay. "Smells good, baby."

Blaine knew that he couldn't love Sam more than he did right now. Sam just proved to him every minute of every day that he loved Blaine beyond all reason. "Thanks, baby." Blaine said, preening a bit. He was proud of himself. Blaine was glad that his husband didn't join the girls at the table, but chose to lean against the counter, to where Blaine was cooking. Blaine sized him up. He was truly the luckiest man on the planet. Sam was gorgeous, and all his. Blaine let a smile play on his lips as he stirred the eggs with the spatula. He was on cloud nine right now. "Sam's just the best thing to ever happen to me." Blaine said, earning an 'awww' from his sister in law and her mother. Blaine had to admit, he was curious as to what Luke was going to say about the baby. Blaine was looking forward to seeing him interact with a baby. Luke loved Olivia, but he'd never been one of those guys who liked kids. He'd not really gotten to cottoning with Beth and Aimee just yet. Blaine knew he loved them both though. He turned to look at his husband. "Do you think Kurt will stay away from the chapel?" Blaine really hoped that he would. They didn't need him crashing. Blaine still had a hunch that Kurt's attempts to get him weren't over. Blaine didn't trust Kurt one bit, not that he had a reason to.

Before Sam could reply, Olivia did. "He better not show up. It's my wedding too and he'll rue the day if he shows up." Olivia knew Sam shared her view, and so did Puck. Olivia also knew that Puck would make sure he was forcibly removed if he did show up. Olivia looked over at Blaine and Sam, who were flirting with each other while Blaine cooked. She had to admit, they were one of the cutest couples she'd ever seen. They may have gotten married too fast for some people, but Olivia could tell that they were for real. They were it, what everyone was searching for. Olivia didn't know how there could be people in the world who condemned homosexuality. Looking at Blaine and Sam was looking at the very definition of love. Olivia gave Blaine a smile as he brought plates to her and Lorelai. "You're wasted on Sammy." She teased him, picking up a fork. She hoped that Noah was making sure Aimee ate something besides cereal. She could be a bit of a picky eater on occasion. She smiled as Blaine stuck his tongue out at her as a response. "You know we'd never work out anyway. I'll never not love Noah." Olivia watched as he filled plates for himself and Sam. They all were so happy.

"I will make his life a living hell if he shows up here." Sam growled as they joined Olivia and Lorelai at the table. Sam wasn't going to put up with Kurt hitting on Blaine anymore. Blaine was his. Sam had been raised to shoot first and ask questions later. Sam didn't want to do that, but he would if he had to. Sam had kids in his life, and Blaine. He didn't want to put that in jeopardy. Sam sipped his coffee and looked at Olivia. "Don't worry, Liv, we won't let Kurt ruin anything." What he was wondering was if Quinn and Rachel were going to show. They were public now. Sam wasn't sure he liked Quinn. He was trying because of Beth though.

Olivia added some salt to her eggs. "I hope that you're right, and I hope that he'll be smart enough to just stay away." Then another thought occurred to her. "What if those friends of his come in his place? Jeff and what's his name." Olivia couldn't imagine why Kurt would ask them to go, but she wanted all avenues covered. "I don't know what they'd expect to happen, but they could very well show up here." She couldn't help but worry. She supposed a part of her was nervous. She was glad she was finally going to officially be a Puckerman. Olivia was going to say more when the doorbell rang. "Who could that be?" She wondered out loud. They weren't expecting anyone.

"I'll get it." Blaine said, going out to the foyer. When he opened the door, there was a brunette girl standing there. She was of average height and had striking blue eyes. "Can I help you?" Blaine asked curiously. She looked to be in her late teens to early twenties. He knew she had to be new to Raleigh, he'd never seen her before. Blaine wondered what had brought her to the reservation. Especially when he knew she had to be new in the area. Blaine supposed it could always be tied to his and Puck's dad, they'd always assumed that he had more kids out in the world.

Marley Rose took a deep breath. "I'm Marley Rose. I'm here on behalf of my fiance, Jake Puckerman." She saw his eyes widen at this and knew she had the right place. She said, "He doesn't know I'm here. I have been trying to get him to contact you and Noah for awhile now. I know you and Noah don't share a dad, but he's still Noah's brother." She didn't know why Jake was being so very stubborn about contacting his family. "I saw that you married Sam Evans and that's when I found out you're Jake's family." Marley really didn't know what her endgame was here.

"Actually, Puck and I have the same dad that your fiance does. My mom gave me her maiden name to keep our dad out as much as she could." Blaine didn't know what Puck was going to say about all of this. "But honestly, we've been expecting something like this to happen for years. Our dad wasn't exactly someone who was careful when it came to sex. Won't you come in? We've having breakfast and there's plenty." Blaine told her, and she stepped inside. Blaine led her to the kitchen. "Guys? This is Marley Rose. She's engaged to a brother of mine and Puck's. Marley, this is Noah's fiancee Olivia, and my husband Sam, and Liv's mom Lorelai." Blaine shared a look with Olivia. Blaine knew that since Jake didn't know about this, it was going to end up blowing up in all of their faces. Blaine had a million questions. He wondered where Marley and Jake were from, and if their dad had stayed with Jake and his mom. Blaine really doubted it. He was also wondering why Jake didn't want to know what his family was like. And Marley was just plain adorable. Blaine could tell that she was shy too, and that endeared her to him even more. Blaine moved to get Marley a plate of breakfast and coffee. She had sat down next to Olivia. Blaine wondered what she was going to say.

Marley looked around at them before she spoke again. "I came here to tell you about Jake, and give you his contact info. We live in Nashville. Actually, Jake just got signed to Sam's old label." Marley added this part a bit softly, she didn't know what Sam would feel about that. "I… he's going to be so mad if he finds out I came here. But I don't have any family anymore, my mom died. I don't want Jake to not have his family around. So I looked you guys up. I know that you've all got a wedding today, someone in town told me. I don't want to crash or anything." She really didn't. Marley thanked Blaine for the breakfast. "I just, I'd appreciate it if you'd tell him you did the research and found him. He knows about you guys, due to Blaine's marrying Sam." Marley thought Sam had given up too quickly. She had been one of his biggest fans. Marley wanted to get on the radio herself. She was working on some songs to play at The Bluebird Cafe, it was one of the most famous places in Nashville. Marley took a bite out of her toast. "Of course, it's all up to ya'll, but I would appreciate it if you did contact him." Marley avoided Sam's gaze, she didn't know what he was feeling, and she didn't want to upset him further.

Honestly, Sam didn't know what to feel. He guessed him being semi famous wasn't all bad if it led to Blaine and Puck finding family. Sam knew that Marley was avoiding looking at him because of where Jake had been signed. Sam was quiet, and Blaine reached out, lacing his fingers with his husband's. Sam squeezed them, and tried to hold his emotions inside. He didn't want to start crying or something. Sam let go so he could go and get some more coffee. He didn't know if he wanted Blaine and Puck to contact Jake. He also knew it wasn't his choice. He felt so helpless and it didn't feel good. Sam didn't like to think about his time in Nashville. Sam brushed his hand through his long blonde hair. He noticed that his hands were shaking. Sam tried to still them, listening as Blaine asked questions about Jake. Question after question. Not that Sam could blame him for that. It had to be hard to find out you had a half brother and not want to know all you could. Sam kept his back to the kitchen table, his green eyes were filling with tears. He didn't want anyone to know how upset he was about all of this. Sam didn't want to bring anyone down, especially Liv. This was her wedding day. She was hopefully only going to get one in her whole life. Sam sniffled, hoping they didn't hear him. He knew that he had to let go of his Nashville dreams, and it hurt.

The world's been spinning round
Since time began
And when it stops is out of my hands
So I could swear forever for all it's worth
Or give you every day I have on Earth

Long as I live
Long as I breathe
With every heartbeat,

I'll need you near me
I won't leave you behind
Until the Lord says it's time to with him
I'm yours, long as I live

No matter if there's mountains
You can't move
Or harder times than you thought you'd go through
And the weight of your world's too much to bear
Just remember I'll always be there

The moon and stars aren't mine to give
Neither is eternity
But I'll give you a promise tonight
That I can keep

I'm yours, long as I live
I'm yours, long as I live

Sam strummed the last note on his guitar. He and Puck had sung a duet, making one out of one of Sam's songs. He'd actually written it for this day. They had wanted to use it for their vows for Blaine and Olivia. Everyone in the chapel was crying. Sam included. He wiped his eyes and handed his guitar to Haili Hudson, who put it safely out of the way so they could continue the ceremony. So far it had gone smoothly. Blaine went through his vows to Sam, promising that Sam would never have to be without him ever again. Sam's green eyes were full of tears, and he knew that this was going to always be the smartest thing he'd ever done. Sam held Blaine's hands as they listened to Olivia's vows for Puck. Sam truly couldn't imagine anyone that was more solid than Olivia and Puck, except for himself and Blaine, of course. He watched as Olivia's eyes brushed with tears, she had to pause during her vows. Sam saw Aimee, who had insisted on standing at the altar with Lorelai and Rachel, who were Liv's bridesmaids. Sam thought Aimee was an adorable little girl. Stacie and Stevie were on their side of the altar, they'd insisted on being included, not that Sam had minded that in the least. Quinn was holding Beth, who was happily gurgling away.

They were heading down to the basement of the church to the reception. Olivia couldn't stop staring at her ring. She was officially a Puckerman. Marley had come, even though she'd protested that she didn't want to intrude. They had all insisted though. They didn't see the point in her hanging in her hotel when she could be at the wedding. Olivia couldn't believe how beautiful the wedding had been. She looked to the food table, they hadn't wanted to go too fancy, there was fried chicken, potato salad, mashed potatoes, and green beans. The cake was an ice cream cake, Blaine had insisted. She moved to get a plate of food and she and Blaine sat together. Olivia watched as Puck and Sam greeted people. She was glad to not see Kurt. Maybe he did have some sense. She turned to Blaine. "This wedding was so amazing. Sam and Noah singing us that song was so great." Olivia loved that Sam had written it. Olivia brushed some of her long black hair out of her eyes. She grinned at Blaine, his curls fell over his forehead. "You look so handsome." Olivia was already looking forward to Hawaii. She and Puck deserved an amazing honeymoon. She had already packed her skimpiest bikinis. "I bet Sam loves that too."

Blaine grinned back at her. "Sam's going to rip it off as soon as we get home." He had gotten Quinn to agree to watch all of their kids for one night for them. Blaine reached for his can of soda. He took a long sip. "I bet you can't wait to leave for your honeymoon." Blaine couldn't wait til he and Sam could go. They hadn't had one yet. But honestly Blaine didn't really mind. What he wanted was to be married to Sam, and they were. Blaine brushed some curls off his forehead, although they fell right back. Blaine didn't mind though, he knew that Sam loved them just the way they were. Honestly it was a huge turn on for him to have Sam's hands in his hair.

A grin spread across her face again. "Yeah, I totally can't wait." Olivia said, and took a very healthy bite of her fried chicken. Olivia still couldn't believe that she was finally married. It had been coming for a long time. Olivia brushed some of her hair off her neck. "I got some great bathing suits to wear." Olivia couldn't wait for Puck to see the yellow and polka dot one. It covered (just barely) her parts but it was very skimpy. Olivia caught sight of Adam, who had joined the line to have Sam and Puck greet them. She had to admit, it was a bit startling. Olivia hadn't expected him to show up. "Look, Blaine, Adam showed up. You don't think he brought Kurt, do you?"

"I doubt it, they broke up." Blaine told her, looking where she had indicated. His voice was a soft whisper. Blaine watched as Adam shook Puck and Sam's hands, and spoke some. Blaine was sure it was just something that was congratulations. Blaine honestly wasn't sure why Adam had come. They weren't really friends. But Blaine didn't want to ask him to leave. That would be rude. Plus, he'd been raised in the South, and they had manners. Blaine's eyes kept on Adam as he joined the food line. He was wondering if he was actually right about Adam not bringing Kurt. Blaine hoped that he was. He had no desire to have Kurt ruin this. Blaine was glad that Marley had found someone to talk to, she was talking to Rachel. He thought they were really going to like each other. As long as Marley didn't bring up her goal to be a singer. Rachel's career had come to a total and screeching halt when she'd had throat cancer. Blaine knew that it had to be such a huge loss for her. That's why she taught music now. Blaine didn't know that he could pull that off if it was him in her place. He truly did admire Rachel for still doing what she could to be in the music industry. It was very admirable.

That was true. Olivia watched Adam move, too, and she hoped Blaine was right about there being no reason for Adam to bring Kurt. Olivia forked up some of her potato salad. "You make a good point, B. They did call it quits." She didn't know which story to get behind as far as the breakup went. There were quite a few stories going around about it. Olivia brushed her hand through her long hair. She was going to say more when her blue eyes caught sight of Kurt. "B, look who showed up." Olivia said, touching her brother in law's arm. Olivia didn't know what he was doing here, but she hoped that he wasn't here to cause trouble.

Before Blaine could answer, Puck caught sight of Kurt. Thankfully, he was alone, he hadn't come with those couple friends of his. Puck looked at Kurt. "What the hell are you doing, Hummel?" Puck asked. "You know that you're not supposed to be here. Don't make me throw you out." He said sharply. Puck couldn't believe this. So far everything had gone so smoothly. Puck wasn't going to let Kurt ruin things. Puck didn't want to have to cause a scene. Sam met Puck's eye, and Puck knew that Sam was giving him the green light to do what he needed to do. Puck folded his arms. Thankfully the receiving line was over. He kept his hazel eyes on Kurt's, daring him to say something. "You need to leave."

"Honestly, Puck, I'm not here to cause trouble. Really. I am hoping to show Blaine that I support his decision. I'm just here to celebrate the wedding." Kurt didn't know if Puck would accept that, but honestly, it was the truth. He had accepted that he and Blaine were over. It had been hard but he was going to do his best to accept it. Kurt brushed his hand over his brown hair. "I swear, that's all I'm here for." Kurt didn't know what else to say to get his point across. He was doing his best to avoid meeting Sam's eye. He knew that Sam wouldn't believe him either.

Sam folded his arms and kept his green eyes on Kurt, despite the other man avoiding his gaze. "Kurt, I don't want to have to kick you out of here, so I'll let you stay. But at the first sign of trouble you're out of here, do you understand me?" Sam asked, and he was surprised when he actually answered him. Sam watched Kurt as he moved to join the food line. Sam kept his green eyes on Kurt until he'd gone to sit down with his food. Sam and Puck joined the food line. Sam wondered if he'd done the right thing by letting Kurt stay. But he knew that if Kurt really did need to have a second chance. Sam just hoped it would work.

Two weeks later

Puck and Blaine were sitting in a booth at Luke's. They'd gotten in touch with Jake. He had told them he'd come, and so as soon as Puck and Olivia had gotten back, they'd set up a meeting with Jake. Puck wondered if he was actually going to show. Puck had told Luke they were going to wait to order until Jake arrived. Puck didn't know if he was actually going to show or not. He'd seemed very reluctant. Puck hadn't told him that Marley had gotten in touch, he didn't want to cause problems with Marley and Jake for no good reason. Puck brushed his hand across his scruffy chin. "You think he's going to show?" Puck asked his brother. "Cause I'm not sure that I think so. He didn't sound like he was that into coming." Puck looked out the window, looking for Jake. Marley had secretly sent them a photo. Puck didn't know what they were going to say to him when he did show up. It wasn't something that Puck had thought about since they'd heard from Marley. But then again, he'd been on his honeymoon. Puck had had a hell of a time convincing Olivia to just let him and Blaine go. Sam hadn't been hard to convince, he had told them that they could go without him, he didn't want to intrude. Puck knew that Olivia was just trying to be there for them, however she could be. Puck could understand that completely.

Blaine brushed some of his curls out of his eyes. His hair was getting long again. But Sam liked it. Blaine looked out of the window, also looking for Jake. "I need to tell you something." When he'd been looking for Jake's info, he'd made the discovery that they had a sister, also. She was 17, and in high school in Ohio. Blaine wasn't sure if they should look her up or not. "There's also a sister, her name is Sarah Puckerman, and she lives in Ohio. I know that Marley gave us Jake's info, but I looked him up too, and I found Sarah." Blaine knew that Puck wouldn't be angry.

Sadly, that didn't surprise him. "Did you contact her?" He asked curiously. Puck wasn't angry that Blaine was only telling him now. It probably wasn't the only one they had out there in the world. Puck looked out the window again. "At least she's got the last name." Blaine's mother hadn't wanted the reminder of the eldest Puckerman around, so she'd given Blaine her maiden name. Puck actually kind of envied him. He didn't even know his mother's maiden name. And she had died, and that's why they were so close, they were all the family they had left.

Blaine shook his head. "No, I didn't. I wanted to see what you thought first." Blaine thought that they should come to the decision together. Blaine wondered if Puck was right about Jake not showing up. He tucked some curls behind his ear. Before his brother could chime in, they caught sight of Jake. Jake was mixed, his mother had been black. Apparently the eldest Puckerman hadn't had a type. Blaine watched as Jake stepped inside. Blaine met Puck's eye and then turned around to wave to Jake. "Over here." Blaine called out, and Jake headed over. Blaine was going to make room in the booth, but Jake pulled a chair up and sat on it. "I'm Blaine Evans, this is my brother Noah Puckerman. We've both been recently married." Blaine had wanted to get rid of his mother's memory so he'd taken Sam's last name. She hadn't exactly been a good one. Blaine knew that she wouldn't have accepted his life choices. Blaine didn't know if she had lived if he'd actually have told her he was gay. Blaine kept his hazel eyes on Jake, wondering what the other man was thinking. He seemed to be the strong silent type. Blaine had never been into that at all. Blaine offered his hand to Jake to shake, and at first, he seemed reluctant, but then he shook it. Blaine couldn't keep his eyebrows from rising when Jake had seemed hesitant. "What's wrong? You don't shake hands?" His tone skeptical.

Jake didn't know how to say that he wasn't a fan of gays. He knew that it wasn't going to turn him gay, touching Blaine, but he couldn't help his revolusion. Jake had also met their sister, and he knew that she was also gay. He scratched the back of his head. "It's not that." He wasn't sure what to say. He knew that it was going to make him sound cruel. Jake finally spoke. "I am not really accepting of gays." He said, and wasn't surprised when Blaine set a glare on him. "I know that makes me sound like a total and complete dick. You can live whatever life you choose, but I don't accept it."

Blaine and Puck shared a look, and then Puck spoke up. "So you're going to cut family out of your life because Blaine's gay? Do you even know how that sounds? We're all the family that you've got. And a sister in Ohio." He didn't know where Jake had gotten his view. "It's the 21st century, man. Your attitude is behind the times. And I'm not going to let you insult my baby brother for something that he can't help or control. You know it's not a choice, right? He was born this way. And do you even know what he's been through? Of course you don't. He doesn't deserve your hatred." Puck had never been so angry.

Doing his best not to roll his eyes, Jake replied, "You can spit all of that politically correct rhetoric at me all you want, but I'm not going to agree with you. Gay people aren't born that way. You can't convince me otherwise. I agreed to come and meet you for my fiancee. She wouldn't let up on me if I didn't agree to come." Jake brushed his hand across his goatee. "And I don't care if he wants to be gay, I just don't want to be in his life. I'm sorry that this isn't what you wanted to hear. Also, I've met Sarah. She's also gay. There's a third brother, he lives in New Haven with both of his mothers. Needless to say I won't be in contact with either of them again. I did bring his info for you, and Sarah's. That wasn't something that Marley asked me to do, I just didn't see the point in being rude for no reason." Jake handed them the sheet of paper he'd written their information on. "It wasn't a wasted trip, I've got some business in Charleston and this was on my way. You guys can talk to Marley if you so choose, that's her choice. But this is going to be it for us." Jake knew that it made him sound horrible. But he didn't care. Jake wasn't one of those people who wanted to be violent. He didn't care enough to do that. He just didn't want gays in his life. He supposed it was because he had been raised in the South, and his mother was a Southern baptist. Jake wasn't himself though.

With that he finished speaking and took off. Blaine sighed as Luke came over with his duke pad. Blaine looked up at Luke, he was fighting back his tears. "I'll have a double bacon cheeseburger and chili cheese fries, Luke." Blaine was hoping that Luke wouldn't ask about what they'd talked about. Blaine didn't want to talk about it. He'd never guessed that Jake would be prejudiced. Blaine barely heard what his big brother ordered. He was too busy lamenting the loss of Jake. He also wondered if Marley had known how Jake felt about gays. If she had that had been cruel of her. Blaine waited until Luke had gone to put their order in before he spoke. "Do you think Marley knew before she came to us that Jake's homophobic?" Blaine asked. "I kind of have to believe that she didn't. Because otherwise she did know and it was cruel of her to tell us to get in touch with him." Blaine sipped his Coke. He was more than disappointed. He was actually devastated. Blaine had always wanted a younger brother. And now he had one but Jake didn't want to be in his life. Blaine was at least a bit comforted by the fact that Sarah was also gay, at least he'd have a sister. Then he remembered the other brother in New Haven.

That was something that Puck hadn't thought of. What if she had known? Puck sipped his own drink, grape soda. Puck didn't know if he liked that idea, either. "Let's hope that she didn't know. But at least we can contact Sarah. And apparently our brother is Jeremy Rollins." Puck said, looking at the info Jake had given them. Puck wondered what they were like. At least they knew Jeremy and Sarah would accept them for who they were. Puck wondered what it was going to be like to have Northerners for siblings. They weren't the kind of Southerner to discriminate, but it would definitely be a new experience. Puck didn't know if that would extend to the whole town, though.

Blaine peered at the paper when Puck handed it to him. Blaine wondered what they were like. "It says here that Sarah's 17 and Jeremy's 16." He knew it might be hard to get them here for a visit. Blaine knew they could Skype first. Blaine saw Rachel walking by outside, she actually looked happy. Blaine was glad. He assumed it had to do with Quinn. Blaine didn't know if they were actually going to last, but he hoped so. Blaine turned back to his brother. "I hope that we can at least get them to Skype us first." Blaine knew that was a more attainable goal. Blaine looked down at the table, curls falling over his forehead. He didn't know how to feel about anything right now. He was all mixed up.

A few days later, Jeremy Thomas Rollins was waiting for the Skype call from his brother Blaine Evans. Jeremy was Latino. He'd been adopted by a white lesbian couple. Jeremy had his laptop open and Skype pulled up. He was thinking about what it must be like to get to live on a reservation. Jeremy didn't know that he liked New Haven. It was a college town, and he wasn't as enamored with it as everyone else was. Jeremy was tossing around a football while he waited. He wasn't on a team though. His moms didn't believe in organized sports. Jeremy didn't mind though. He wasn't one to play sports. He had just come out as bisexual, and he was just glad to be out in the open. Jeremy found himself grinning as the Skype call came in. He answered with a grin. "Hey, I'm Jeremy." He said, as one of the cutest guys he'd ever seen filled his laptop screen. "You must be Blaine." Jeremy said, his brown eyes taking in those gorgeous black curls. Jeremy knew they were related and he was married, but he still couldn't believe how hot his brother was. Jeremy ran a hand through his own black hair. He didn't know what to say next. This was new territory for him. "Is Noah with you, too?" He asked curiously. He kind of liked being the youngest.

Blaine smiled at Jeremy as he settled in on the couch. Sam had taken the twins and Beth for haircuts. Blaine was glad that he was alone for this. Blaine brushed curls out of his eyes and nodded. "Yeah, I'm Blaine. It's so great to finally talk in person. You seem so great from you emails." Blaine didn't know what to say anymore than Jeremy did. Blaine looked at Jeremy. "Puck's working. It's just me. My husband took the kids to get haircuts." Blaine had already told him about Beth and the twins. Baine reached to sip his soda. "I'm so glad to talk to you though. You can come visit us anytime you want. We've got our own land and houses on the rez." Blaine honestly hoped that Jeremy could come. Blaine couldn't wait to meet him in person. Sarah had been allowed to visit, she was going to arrive in a couple of weeks. School would be out for the summer. Blaine had told Sarah's grandmother he'd take care of the expenses. Apparently they weren't so well off. "I know I told you about Sarah. She's coming in a couple of weeks when school lets out for the summer." Blaine was so glad that he'd gotten in touch with his long lost siblings. Puck seemed glad too, although he hadn't said much. Blaine wondered if he was still smarting over Jake's rejection. Marley had called to apologize, she'd assured them she'd had no idea how he felt, and they'd broken up. Blaine had felt bad about that.

Jeremy grinned even wider. "My moms already gave me the green light to come and visit as soon as school lets out." Jeremy was so glad he'd get to meet Sarah also. "That's so awesome that I'll get to meet Sarah too." Jeremy also couldn't wait to meet Sam. Sam had seemed totally amazing too. He hadn't heard of his music before, but he had decided he'd ask Sam to play for him. Blaine had sent him a copy of the wedding video. Jeremy leaned back in his desk chair. "I'm so ready to get out of here. Being in a college town isn't always the best." Jeremy didn't want to complain about New Haven though.

"Yeah, that's true. You can tell your moms if they need help paying for anything I'll help." Blaine couldn't believe it, both of his siblings would get to come at the same time. Blaine was looking forward to it. He messed up his curls again. They were down to his collarbone. Blaine had to admit, if he didn't have a husband, Jeremy would be his type. And if they weren't related, of course. Blaine thought Jeremy looked more like Blaine than Puck did. Blaine thought it was the skin color. Native American and Latino skin color were similar. Blaine found himself grinning widely. "I can't wait, it'll be so amazing."

A smile spread over Jeremy's face. "Thanks, but we've got it covered. We're good for money most of the time. Mom's a tenured professor, and Ma's a lawyer. Plus, when I lost my grandmother she left us a lot of money. That was a little over a year ago." Jeremy's voice fell a bit, but he managed to keep the tears out of his voice. Jeremy waved his hand when Blaine started to give him his condolences. "I know what you're going to say. You don't have to say anything. She was sick for a really long time, and we had time to prepare. She wasn't in pain anymore, so we at least got a chance to fulfill her last wishes." Jeremy missed her. She had wanted him to go to a good college, and he'd been getting great grades for years. Jeremy had his eyes on UCLA. He wanted to go for music. Jeremy had taught himself to play guitar. He wrote songs all the time. Jeremy cupped his jaw under his hand. "You are really sweet to offer though. Do you think you could give me Sarah's info too? So I can contact her and stuff before we visit." Jeremy pulled out a pad to write it down as Blaine told him all of Sarah's information. Jeremy told himself that he would call her tonight. He grinned at Blaine. "Can I just tell you, you are gorgeous. If I wasn't related to you, I'd totally want to be with you. Truly."

That made Blaine blush deeply. "You are too, honestly. I am glad we're in agreement. I guess we're definitely related." Blaine said, and they both laughed. Blaine liked Jeremy already. He was a good kid. Blaine wished he could talk longer, but he had to go cook dinner. Blaine didn't want to go. "I wish I could keep talking but I've got to go start dinner. The fam will be back soon." They said goodbye, and Blaine hung up. Blaine could hardly believe it. Jeremy was exactly like he'd thought he would be. Blaine didn't know how he could have at least gotten a great brother. Blaine's family tree was full of losers on both sides. They weren't exactly family that Blaine wanted to claim. Blaine was kind of glad that his dad had been such a huge Casanova. Blaine was glad that he had more siblings to get to know. Blaine loved that he got that opportunity. He brushed his hand through his curls and headed to the kitchen. Blaine was going to make baked spaghetti. It was a favorite of the twins. Blaine was so glad that the twins liked him. It would have been hard to deal with had they not. He hummed happily to himself as he got to work.

The following evening, Puck ducked into Luke's. He'd called ahead to order some dinner for the family. He was surprised to find Rachel standing at the counter. "Hey, Hudson." Puck said as he came to a stop at the counter himself. Puck didn't really know what to say to her. They hadn't exactly been close before Finn had passed away. Puck didn't know how he was going to get by with the small talk. Puck had never been good at small talk. Then it hit him that he could ask her about how Quinn and Haili were. "I suppose I could ask, how're Quinn and the kid?" Puck asked, hoping that Caesar came out with his food soon.

Rachel brushed her hand through her long brown hair. She didn't know what to say to him. They weren't very close. She wasn't sure how she was going to get through talking to him. She didn't really like him that much. Rachel replied, "Hello, Noah. Quinn and Haili are fine. I'm getting some lunch for Quinn before I go home to relieve the babysitter." Rachel didn't really know what to add to that. She was waiting for Quinn's blt and fries. Rachel didn't know what else to say to him. They didn't really talk that often when they were shoved together. Rachel brushed some hair behind her ear. "How are your family? You enjoy your honeymoon?"

That gave him some relief. He could talk about Liv and Aimee. "They're good, actually. And Blaine and I have some siblings coming to visit." He knew that would be some news for the gossip mill. Puck also knew that Blaine wouldn't mind him saying so. It wasn't a secret about their dad being a Casanova. Puck was going to say more when his phone rang. It was Blaine. Puck excused himself to answer. "Hey, Squirt, what's going on?" He asked. Puck felt his heart fall to his feet when his brother told him that their dad was dead. Puck's face went white. "He's what?" Puck's voice was barely above a whisper. He heard Blaine telling him it had been a couple of years previous, he'd had stomach cancer. Puck didn't know what to feel. On the one hand, he didn't miss him, and on the other hand he did. Puck couldn't breathe. He tried to take a deep breath, and his knees were shaking. Puck reached for a chair and sank into it. He was vaguely aware of Rachel checking on him, but he could barely concentrate. Puck tried to catch his breath. "Okay. Thanks for telling me, Squirt." Puck managed to say, and hung up. Puck turned to look at Rachel. Caesar had put their food on the counter. "Rach, my dad's gone."

"Oh, Noah." Rachel said, touching his shoulder. She felt sorry for him. She didn't know what it was like from experience, but she knew it had to be awful. Rachel touched his shoulder more, and knelt to look him in the eye. "It's going to be okay, Noah. I know that it doesn't feel like it right now, but it will be. I know it's been a long time since you've seen him. And it might be hard for you, knowing that you can't fix things between the two of you, but you shouldn't agonize over it. There's nothing that you can do about it. So don't torture yourself." Rachel knew that nothing could really make him feel better. But she didn't want to not say anything. Rachel also knew that he wouldn't have chosen her to be with him when he found out. Rachel didn't blame him for that though. They weren't really friends. Rachel just wished she could do something more for him. She decided she'd go get Luke. "I'll be right back." She told him. Rachel went over to the counter, where she thankfully found Luke. "Luke? Puck needs someone to talk to, he just found out his father passed away." Rachel knew that she didn't have to explain why she had chosen him to ask. Rachel met Luke's eye, and Rachel knew that this might be making him uncomfortable. Luke didn't do things like talk about people's feelings often. Rachel tucked some of her hair behind her ear.

Taking a deep breath, Luke thanked her, and she got Quinn's food and left. Luke told Caesar to keep an eye on the counter and went over to Puck. Luke pulled up a chair to sit next to his son in law. "Rachel told me about your dad. Do you want to talk about it?" Luke didn't know if Puck would or not. Luke had lost both of his parents, he knew what it felt like to lose your parents. "I know how it feels to lose your parents. My mom died when I was in high school, and my dad a few years after that." Luke knew that Puck knew that, but he still felt like Puck should hear that.

Puck's hazel eyes had filled with tears. He lifted his gaze from his lap and turned to look at Luke. "I know. I just… I hated my dad so much for leaving. I don't get to fix things with him. He died and none of us knew. It's been two years." His voice shook as he spoke. Puck wiped his eyes. "I hate that I didn't get to tell him off for what he did to me." He hated that that chance had been ripped away. Puck knew that Luke wasn't good at this sort of thing, and he was glad that Luke was trying for him. Puck knew not to acknowledge that fact though. He was quiet, his chin still trembling.

"I know that must be hard. But you don't know that you aren't better off without him. You are a real good kid, Puckerman. I know that there's no one else who will treat Olivia better than you do. You are going to be fine. And there's no saying that you can't still tell him off. It's not the same thing, but you could go to his grave and say what you need to say. It wouldn't hurt anything." Luke didn't even begin to know what that felt like for him. He hadn't had the same type of relationship with his parents. Luke couldn't commiserate with him on that. "I just don't want to see you beating yourself up for what he did. None of this is your fault."

While he knew Luke was right, it didn't help him feel any better. Puck knew that he had to get home and talk to Olivia about this. "Thanks, Luke." Puck said, and managed to stand. "I need to go home. I appreciate you trying though." Puck gave Luke a hug, and then he grabbed his bag of food, dropping money on the counter, despite Luke insisting that they never pay. Puck waved on his way out and got out to his truck. Puck wondered how Blaine was taking it. He hadn't gotten emotional on the phone, but that didn't mean anything. He could still be holding it all inside. Puck knew that was the more likely outcome. Puck just hoped that Sam could get him to talk about it. Puck was sure that he could.

When Blaine hung up, his hand was shaking. Sam was at work, and he wished that he was home. Blaine just couldn't handle this without him. He tried to take a deep breath, and looked out of the window. This would take time.

It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will, it feels like that
You think you're lost, but you're not lost
On your own, you're not alone

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go

It hurts my heart to see you cry
I know it's dark, this part of life
Oh it finds us all, and we're too small to stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I won't let you down
It won't get you down
You're gonna make it
I know you can make it

I'm gonna hold you
And I won't let go
I won't let go
No I won't

Author's note: Sorry it's been awhile. I hope that this satisfies for the long wait. I think there's going to be more than I thought to this fic. I hope ya'll are still hanging in there. I hope ya'll feel compelled to leave a review!