Chapter 27
I think Jacob had a change around. He spent the night with me for two days straight and he even help me go out to buy a new TV. I was happy especially since everything has been going downhill for me emotional and physical. So, much that I went in the bathroom and cried. I never felt this way before in my life. I guess it's my hormones or something.
I still feel like crying even now. School is going good. I'm not in my feeling no more and I haven't had one complaint from Mr. Howard nor any of my teachers about my behavior or falling asleep in class. I think I'm happy. My doctor's appointment is today and also Halloween is coming up. Maybe I'll let go and give out candy. Speaking of let go, Jacob still haven't told me about what's been going on with Victoria.
He doesn't want to share nor worry about putting stress on me, he doesn't have to tell me. I'm just happy he's by my side and we're no longer fighting or anything. I sigh closing my locker while looking at my test paper. I got an F in Math. The fourth one this semester. I sigh putting it in my bookbag and walking down the hallway and looking at Mr. Howard talking to a student by his classroom door.
"Mr. Howard." I greet walking past him. "Ms. Thorne." He greets back as I feel his eyes following me. I shake my head heading towards the Nurse's office. I haven't gotten a chance to talk to her since things kind of went sour for us. I guess I can tell her what's been going on. I knock on the Nurse's door and open it up to see she's busy with the same female student from last time.
"Come in and have a seat. I'll be with you shortly." Nurse Miller say not turning around and I take off my bookbag and have a seat on the bed. The girl smile at me. I smile back. Either she is pregnant or not. It's the second time she been in the Nurse's office or she might just have a health problem that I don't know of. Everybody wanna be pregnant. It's not a good thing.
Nurse Miller turns around to look at me than turn back around to the female student. "What can I do for you, Lacie?" She asks. "I just came to tell you about how I'm happy now and not as sad and moody like I was a couple of days ago." I say nodding my head. "Must been something big for you to turn your attitude around. What happened?" She asks.
"Jacob came back around and we made up. It was the best." I say grinning. "Who is Jacob?" The girl asks me. "He's my boyfriend of I think some months. I don't know but we been together since then and everything has been good. I didn't catch your name." I say to her. "Casey. Yours must be Lacie." She say smiling. "Yeah, I'm Lacie and that's Nurse Miller." I say pointing to the Nurse.
We all laugh. "What's with the gloves?" Casey asks me. "Um, it's my style. I'm the girl who went around with gray hair." I say. "I remember you. You disappeared for two months out of all of the classes." She say. "Yeah, that was me. Something I'm not proud of and now I'm trying to make up for all of the work that I missed. I got one class down packed but the other ones are mostly F's." I say.
"Which class is that?" She asks as Nurse Miller sit down at her desk. "Biology with Mr. Howard." I answer looking out of the window. "He's a good teacher. It's kind of sad about his wife and child." She say. Oh. I feel the Nurse aura changing. "Oh, I heard that she may had passed or something. I wouldn't know. He gave off hints than he changed it up. So, I don't know." I say shaking my head.
"She's was in this accident and it's kind of sad but Mr. Howard throws himself into work." She sadly say. I'm confused. What accident? "So, is she alive?" I asks. "Yeah, she's still alive but she lost the baby." She say making me nod my head. Wow, I didn't know that. I look at Nurse Miller who's silent and looking back into her book. Oh, thank god. I asked her not to share her story. I wouldn't know what to say.
"Casey, I think you're all set to be able to go back to class now." Nurse Miller say to Casey. "Okay, Thanks again." She say getting off the bed and grabbing her bookbag. "Bye, Lacie. See you around." She say walking past me. "Bye." I say looking at her leaving out of the Nurse's office. Wow, Mr. Howard's history. No wonder he's on me about everything.
"So, Lacie. Are you having any problems today?" Nurse Miller asks me. "No, I just came to see you to tell you that I'm feeling good." I say nodding my head. "No, morning sickness?" "I had it yesterday and after I had a burger Saturday and it tore my stomach up." I say shaking my head. I threw up all over Jacob's shirt and on the kitchen floor. He cleaned it up. "That's good. Are you taking your prenatal vitamins?" She asks turning in her chair to face me.
"Not yet." "Why?" "Because I haven't officially been to a doctor yet about my pregnancy but now I'm really getting into it and I am officially pregnant." I say smiling. "That's good to hear. When do you go?" She say smiling. "I go today with Jacob at the hospital. We'll see how everything goes from there then we'll make a decision about everything." I say and the school bell rings.
Oh, Biology class is starting. I forgot all about class. "You mean adoption?" She asks me. "No, I mean what decisions is going to be taken about birthing and things like that." I say nodding my head. "That's good." "I'm not planning on giving up my baby for adoption or getting rid of it. I just needed time to accept that this is it. I am having a baby while in high school and before I hit twenty but I'm playing on keeping on my baby." I say.
"That's wonderful. We see a lot of girls in school who looks at different options to continue their dreams of being single or going off to college." She say. "I don't think about college now." "And, why is that? You are a senior?" "I am a senior but I'm not thinking about graduating no time soon. I don't want to get one of those girls." I say knowing what she's getting at.
"I don't think I'm graduating no time soon from how this semester is straight failure from the days I missed and I'm sure Mr. Howard is going to fail me be it I get the work on time or not. I'll still be repeating his class next semester." Yep, he'll be my teacher again. "It's just options, Lacie." She say. "Right, how are you doing?" I ask her.
"I'm doing fine." "That's good to hear. I have to get to class. You think you can write me a letter for Mr. Howard?" I ask grinning hard. "I can write you a letter, Lacie." She say turning back around in her chair and grabbing a pen. "Thanks, Nurse Miller." I say grabbing my book bag and putting it on. "You're welcome, Lacie." She say ripping the paper and handing it to me.
I look at it. "Have a good day." I say walking towards the door and stopping at it. "Oh, I tried the club soda with soap and it did not remove. I'm starting to think it's not mud or anything." I say turning back to her. "It did not work?" "No, it did not. So, I'm guessing that I might buy a cleaning vacuum or something but thanks for the advice." I say.
"You're welcome. Have a great day in class." She say smiling. "I will." I say leaving out of the nurse's office. I look at the note and mostly my name at the top. This should get me into class and show Mr. Howard that I am on time. I walk to his classroom and stop when I see him writing on the chalkboard. He glances at me before going back to the chalkboard. I move back out of the way and stand next to the door looking at the note.
An hour and thirty minute class felt like two weeks. That's how slow time was going and listening to Mr. Howard ramble on about Plants and DNA ain't no better plus that biology sheet ain't doing me no justice. Bella worked through hers and was finished along with the rest of class while I struggled through it. Either it was because I didn't know or I didn't want to take time to do it.
It was probably was both. Jacob gives me a smile while driving us to a clinic that's in Forks. I found one after searching and I was not going to take the chance at going to the hospital again incase I might run into and that male nurse who checked me out. I can't go there no more. "What you thinking about?" Jacob asks rubbing on my hair.
"Just about us finally going to a clinic. You remember the last doctor was from the break in than you had Dr. Cullen who I wanted but you said no?" I ask him. "I remember. He's never going to our baby's doctor." He growls out. "Right but if it comes down to anything than you'll have no choice but to go to him unless I can call upstairs and no telling if they're still watching." I say making him shake his head.
"Let's not have this conversation. We're doing good, Lacie." He say. "Right, sorry I brought it up. We got months to plan for it and things should be good. Maybe, we'll see the baby again and I'll get some vitamins." I say as he stops us at a stop light. It's just a thought. Take your mind off the negative and move on with your life with the positive.
"We're having a baby, Jacob." I say half smiling while he smiles hard taking my hand and kissing it while the light turns green. He drives. "I know your dad is happy." I say making him frown quick. Uh oh, I know he's not. "He's upset that his sixteen year old son got his girlfriend pregnant." I nod my head. I can understand that especially with everything going. "He think you tricked and trapped me." He say.
"That's understand able and I'm sure that's everybody's opinion but not the other way around?" I ask. "No." He strongly states. "But he's about to be a granddad again. You telling me how your older sister who is married got kids?" I ask him. "Who?" He asks me. "Rebecca doesn't have kids, Lacie. This will be his first grandchild." He say glancing at me.
"Oh, I know. I just thought to ease the tension." "It's no easing tension, Lacie. It's a baby." He say. I nod my head and go back to looking out the car window as we past shopping center. The clinic is almost next to the shopping center. It's ten minutes away. I guess it's a good thing come out of the doctor's office and maybe go shopping or get something to eat.
The rest of ride is silent as he pull into the Clinic's parking lot. I look around the lot at the cars. Everybody made appointments after three. I hope it's not pregnant high schoolers. I get out of the car after Jacob turn of the car off. I pull my shirt down and turn to Jacob. "You ready?" I ask him. "I'm ready." He say nodding his head. I close the door and walk up to the door with Jacob following behind me.
He opens the door for me and I walk in. The whole waiting room is filled with women, children, and a few guys and who do I see sitting down in a section of the waiting room next to her friends. "Hey, Lacie." Casey say waving at me. "Hey, Casey. Jacob, this is my friend from school." I say to Jacob. He wave at her. She's waves back checking him out and I head towards the front desk to check in. "I didn't know you had a friend." Jacob whisper in my ear leaning on the desk.
"I don't. I seen her two times in the clinic and it was let's be friends type thing." I say taking out my I.D. and handing it to the young lady who's sitting behind the desk. She takes it looking at me. Jacob laugh. "Sorry, I'm Lacie Thorne and I have an appointment." I say feeling nervous and feeling eyes on me. I shake my head wrapping my arms around Jacob. He hugs me rubbing on my back.
"It's my first time and I'm kind of nervous." I say to the young lady. "First time. It's to be expected." She say typing in the computer and handing Jacob a clipboard. He takes it along with my I.D. "Have a seat." I hear her say and Jacob leads me to a seat where we sit down. "It's okay." He say rubbing on my back and kissing my head. "I'm sorry, Jacob. It's so nerve wrecking." I say coming out of the hug and grabbing the clipboard from him.
I look down at it and start filling out of the paperwork seeing Casey glancing and talking to her friends. "They're talking about you." Jacob say. "They're always talk about me from how I dressed, talk, act, and now they can add my pregnancy and boyfriend too. You're a hot guy and have no busy being with a girl like me. Is it good or bad?" I ask still writing.
"It's kind of good and bad." He say. "Well, people will talk about you all of your life. It's how you take it either you ignore it or respond to it. People will be childish either way so you ignore it." I say looking at my address. Do I use my real address or not? Of course you do. It's important information and it's not school. "Boy or girl?" I ask Jacob. "I want a boy now." He say making me stop writing to look at him.
"You want a boy now and not a girl. What changed your mind?" I ask him. He shrug his shoulders. "Oh, okay. I was talking about my gynecologist. You want a male doctor or a female doctor?" "It doesn't matter long the baby come out safe and health." Good answer. I nod my head at his answer and go back to writing. "You don't want Sarah no more?" I ask him.
"No, I don't want Sarah no more." He say. "Then, we never should've named the baby Sarah. Okay, we'll just go from there." I say nodding my head. I had my hopes up too and I want a boy. I get up to hand the young lady the clipboard. She takes it from me and checks over it while typing in the computer. I see Jacob looking at Casey in the reflection of the picture then looks at me.
"She must be your imprint." I say not bothering to whisper it. He shake his head no. "It's okay, Jacob." I say turning back to the young lady who's still typing. I wait till the lady finish and she asks for my I.D. again and I hand it to her before sitting back down next to Jacob. "She's not." He say but I don't respond to him. We both sit in silence till Casey and her friends is called in the back. She glances at me before walking in the back.
I shake my head not trying to cry. "Lacie, she is not." He strongly say. "Jacob, the way you came at me and how the I word is being passed around from Bella and Paul to me and you then to catch you sitting around staring hard. I don't know what to say." I say trying not to get into my feelings. "She's not my imprint and I'm never leaving you." He say grabbing my hand.
We both sit in silent. "I'm cruel, Jacob?" I ask ready to dig into him. "You're not cruel." "Whatever." I say cutting the conversation short. He shake his head leaving it alone. I cannot believe this crap after everything has finally turned good for me. "You're my imprint and I love you, Lacie." He say. I just shake my head ignoring him as we wait to be called.
The ride home is silent. I couldn't even look at Jacob as the nurse led us into an exam room and while we waited for the doctor to come in. It's a male doctor and I'll see from here if I want him to be my doctor or not. I don't have time and I still in my heart want . What if something goes left and it's a normal human being as my doctor? It is not going to work.
I can't believe he could've imprinted on pregnant Casey or whatever she is. I am so sick of Jacob's drama. It probably explain while he been missing and so called hating on me. What reason you have to stare at Casey? Then, he wanna try to talk and tell me I'm his imprint for him for him to come around and so call imprint. He told me I was cruel but he's the one who could imprint and leave me and the baby.
So, how cruel am I? She's not my imprint. You are and things he was saying. I blocked him out. "Did you get Casey pregnant?" I ask him. "No, I did not. I don't even know who she is." He answers looking in my face. I put my head in my hands ready to cry and feel him rubbing on my back. "I didn't imprint on her, Lacie. I was just looking at her." He say but I don't even pay him no mind.
"This is supposed to be my happy day and you had the nerve to ruin it with your selfishness." I say voice breaking. "I didn't mean to make you upset or sad." He say. "Jacob, you're nothing but a nasty little boy who loves to be in his attitude every time that I hang around Mr. Howard or do whatever that you do not like. We went to go see our baby and you knew exactly what you was doing. So, I don't want to hear nothing you have to say out of your mouth." I say leaning my head on the window.
"Sorry." He say looking at me. "Sorry, you imprinted?" I ask lifting my head off the window. "Sorry, I made you upset. You're my imprint, Lacie." He say. I turn to him in the seat ready to beat him up in the car. "I'm not getting why you're acting this way. Is it because I stayed after class with Mr. Howard or I went. Ohh." I say getting it. "Because he took my shopping?" I ask holding my chest and laying back against the car window.
"You're my imprint." He say fixing my legs forward. "I don't know if you're telling the truth or you're nothing but a pathological liar. I couldn't even hear what the doctor was telling me because I thought you imprinted on her while she is pregnant." I say shaking my head. He seriously needs help. "I'm sorry." He say rubbing on my head and I take his hand off me.
He stops at the stop light. "You're my imprint. I didn't mean-" I put my hand up to stop him. The light turns green and he drives. "That is something very cruel and you don't know how much that hurts me especially when dealing with all of you questioning wolf things towards Bella and Paul then to have Embry questioning me if I am his and not yours. That's what I am thinking about because from that act that you pulled today and for her to so be at the same place as me." I say shaking my head ready to attack Jacob.
"It was a pure coincidence that she showed up." "Jacob, no such thing. I'm cruel when you the one going around playing the games that you're playing left and right. A jealous little boy and I'm bending backwards for you when it should be the other way around knowing how you are. I'm the diamond. You're just a little boy and anybody would want me. That stroke the coffin. Take me home." I say shaking my head at him. He doesn't say anything as the ride is silent. Jacob Black, you lost your mind to come at me.