Chapter 29
As like a usual Saturday, the hospital is packed and I'm hoping to run into Dr. Cullen if I can find him. The hospital is kind of big and I am kind of blind when it comes to him and his family. So, I'm hoping he'll find me or I'll find him first. If I can't find him and things keep going the way it is. I need information on my baby.
Nine out of ten, I'll have to go visit him or I'll have to go upstairs. Risk or not. It's Angels and I'm sure all will be happy to see me and love to know what happened. It's a pure baby and everybody loves babies.
So, where do I begin to look? The same place where he treated me last time but to my surprise he was not there and I asked around from the doctors to nurses to some patients if they seen Dr. Cullen. I even went in some of their rooms asking if Dr. Cullen was their doctor but it was a not seen him or a no from the patients.
I look at my watch noticing it's nearly ten in the morning and did I mention my hands been feeling extra itchy lately. I'm not trying my best to avoid some of the floors that causes my hands to go crazy but it's getting kind of wild seeing how the floors are calling to me. Well, the patients. I'm not here to save nor put in quick process nor run into ghosts.
I'm here to find Dr. Cullen so he can give me a full body check up and call it a day. I'm hoping to make it out before the seven o' clock curfew. Damn, still can't believe about Casey. Life comes and goes. You never know who might be next. Let's not add. Those bear attacks that was happening all around the tribe or the missing people in Seattle. It's so much crime this year.
I sigh walking up to a couple of doctors who's standing in front of the elevator. It's like seven of them. What is this? Grey's Anatomy. I shake my head. I'm not waiting nor getting in the a hot ass elevator with them. I turn around and head back down the hallway w. I could've sworn if it's anything like the rest of the hospital. It should be another section of elevators. If not, I'll just come back. Ain't no way thirty of us can fit in that small elevator.
I'm walking for about ten minutes when my phone rings. I take my phone out of my pocket to answer it. "Hello." I say stop walking and leaning up against the big window in the hallway. "Where are you?" Jacob asks me as I notice a male nurse checking a clipboard while taking glances at me every now and then. I knew someone was following me but I paid them no mind.
"I'm at the hospital. Is there something you want?" I ask turning my back to the nurse and looking outside. It's a little bit sunny but still cloudy. "I came to your house and you was not there. Why are you at the hospital?" "Because, Jacob. You messed up my doctor's appointment and my day. What is it you want?" I ask him. "Spend the day with you, Lacie." He say making me doubt every word out of his mouth.
"I don't believe that." I say starting my walk back down the hallway and looking behind me to see the nurse looking at me then back down. I hope that is not that male nurse from last time I came to the hospital. "I really did, Lacie." He say. "Okay, Jacob. I have to go. I'm just here getting a check up and to look around. I'm visiting a friend. There's the doctor, Bye." I say hanging up before he can answer.
Don't try to make up now when you allowed yourself and your friends to break up our relationship and I'm cruel. "God." I say feeling my hands itching even more when I pass by a hospital room. I'm not helping. I need to take my gloves off. I ask one of the nurses at the nurse station where is the restroom at. She gives me direction. I have a U-turn back down the hallway passing the hospital room.
I keep walking making my way into the restroom and into one of the stalls locking it behind me. I take off my gloves and scratch up a storm. I need to get off this hospital floor before my hands fall off. I need to find Dr. Cullen and call it a day. I hold my hands up looking at them. They don't look swollen and my tattoos are still faded. I put my gloves back on and walk out of the restroom stall and out of the restroom.
Yeah, it's something on this hospital hall and in that room. I don't have time for searching no more and it's wasting my time and getting on my nerves. I'm starting to get frustrated. I walk back up to the nurse's station. "How can I help you?" The same nurse who gave me directions to the restroom asks me. "I'm looking for . Is he on this floor or is it someway you can like find him for me?" I ask.
"Give me one more minute." She say typing on the computer. I sigh taking a seat in one of the chairs across from the nurse's station. Oh, my back hurt. I rub the lower part of my back while resting my head up against the wall closing my eyes for a few second when I feel someone sitting next to me. I don't even bother opening my eyes up. I close my eyes for a couple more seconds when the person tap on my leg.
I open my eyes to see the nurse looking directly in my face. "He doesn't have work till later on tonight." She say. "Okay, thank you." I say tired and closing my eyes back. "How you been doing with your heart disease?" The person next to me asks. I laugh out loud recognizing the voice. "That's funny because I don't have one but I am doing fine. How are you, Dr. Unknown." I say opening my eyes and looking at him.
"I'm fine. It's Dr. Moore." He say holding out his hand. I shake his hand looking in his face. He gives me a smile. "You're here to see a doctor?" He asks me. "I am but he's not working till later on tonight." "I can check you out." He say. Now, I regret that I said that. "I don't know. I know you're busy." "I'm free now. I can check you out, Ms. Lacie." He say to me.
"Uh..I'm okay." I say stopping myself from saying okay even though I want to see the baby again. I need to avoid this doctor. He looks up at me. "Are you sure?" He asks me. "I am very sure, Dr. Moore. I'm a patient of a doctor already in this hospital and I better get home. I'm a little bit tired." I say getting up. "See you around." He say looking at me walking away. "You too." I say back picking up speed. Hopefully, I can make it to the elevator.
I pick up speed when I hear it dings and I jog a little bit. 'Hold the door." I shout running up a little bit faster and I see a hand stick out of the elevator. I hurry running into it and it closes. I breathe out trying to catch my breathe. "What floor?" Mr. Howard voice asks me. I sigh. "First floor, Mr. Howard." I say turning around to see him press the button. Always in that black trench coat.
"How you doing today, Ms. Thorne?" He asks me. "I am doing fine. I was hoping to get a check up by my doctor but he wasn't here. How are you doing? I see you wearing your favorite coat." I say grinning hard while pointing at it. "I'm doing fine. It is my favorite coat." "That's good to hear, Mr. Howard." I say putting my hands in my pant's pockets. Mr. Howard always make me grin.
It's silent as we ride the elevator down to the first floor. "It's a little bit cold out there. So, you have to stay warm. You don't want to get sick." He say reminding me. "Right, I don't. I just never thought about wearing a big coat but I'll have to bring it out. You doing anything for Halloween?" I ask him. "Passing out candy." He say. "That's good. I am really sorry about Casey, Mr. Howard. I'm being safe." I say nodding.
"That's all. That's matter." "Yeah, we was about to become friends then this happened. I just hope they catch her killer." I say as the elevator stops on the first floor and he let me get off first. "Have a good day." I say looking back before going out of the first exit door of the hospital. I sigh feeling on my face hearing the door opening up behind me and I look behind to see that male nurse who checked me out last time.
"Can I help you?" I ask him. What everybody is in the hospital today? "This is the employee exit door." He say looking in my face. "Sorry, I needed to get air and to hurry up to my bus stop." I say pointing to the street. I wait for him to speak. "How is everything?" He asks me. "Everything is fine. I have to go catch my bus." I say backing up towards the street.
"Have a good day." He say. "I will." I say and turn around making my way towards the bus stop. I get out my cellphone to call Jacob. He answers on the second ring. "Yeah." He say. "What are you doing? I need a ride home from the hospital." I say walking to the bus stop till I sit down on the bench. "I'm busy doing something. What is it that you want, Lacie?" He asks.
I look around at the passing cars. "Um, I'm sitting at a bus stop and it's cold. I need a ride home or are you busy with you know what stuff." "I'm busy, Lacie." He say. "Okay, Jacob. I'll just wait for the bus or something." I tiredly say hanging up on him and putting the phone back into my pocket. I guess I can wait for the bus. I cross my arms waiting for the bus and before I know it. I fall asleep.
I'm walking the halls at school with a cold. I made the mistake of falling asleep on a cold bench outside when it was nearly twenty degrees outside. If not for an almost accident happening nearly in front of me than I probably never would've woken up. I sleep deep and I can't hear nothing till I get my sleep. So, thank the Angels or God for waking me up.
I probably would've froze to death and not like Jacob had called to check up on me. So, yeah. I'm still holding out for him. I shake my head wiping my nose while walking pass students. Some of them are sneezing and sniffling too. So, I guess it was only an amount of time till I caught something. I guess I'll visit Nurse Miller to see what she has to say about my cold and if she can offer any advice.
Last I check, she was in a mood about Casey passing. They still haven't found out who murdered her but I'm sure the person will be caught sooner or later. I didn't hear the news but listening in on conversations around the school. Someone murdered her in her home and her parents found her. I'm guess it was something close because she had to let them into the house.
I shake my head walking pass Mr. Howard's classroom and seeing him teaching. He doesn't pay me no mind. I keep walking towards the Nurse's office and knock on the door. "Nurse Miller." I say walking in to see her busy with a female student. "Have a seat, Lacie." She say and I take off my bookbag sitting down in a chair while I wait for her. The student takes one looks at me before answering a question from Nurse Miller.
I look around the room to see it's decorated with Halloween decorations. Small pumpkins hanging on the wall. I love the mini skeletons on the windows. It's nice and cute. I wonder what Jacob doing. He's probably working. Maybe I'll invite him and his friends over for some movies or something. I haven't seen Embry and Quil in a long time and mostly everyone.
The girl looks at me again. "Is there something on my face?" I ask. I know I don't have eye boogers, nose boogers nor crust around my mouth. It's around two in the afternoon and school is about to be over. "It's just your nose is real red." She say looking at my nose. Nurse Miller turns around and put on a shock face. "What happened?" She asks shocked.
"I fell asleep on a bench outside then woke up real sick." I say. Least it prove I'm human. "Wow, Lacie. I'm disappointed in you." She say disappointed sitting at her desk. "You're not the only one. I just wonder what Mr. Howard reaction is going to be. He warned me but I didn't listen." I say while she's write the student a note. She takes it not before looking at me one last time before leaving out.
"Is it that bad?" I ask feeling on my nose. I woke up this morning with my nose nearly red but I guess it got worse. I'm scared to look at the mirror that's hanging on the wall. "It's real bad. Have you visited a doctor?" She asks me. "Not yet but I heard you're not supposed to take medicine because it's not safe for the baby and it'll have side effects. So, I'll just go all natural." I say.
"It has a lot of side of effects. You should get a lot of rest, drink lots of water or tea, and just relax." She say naming a few things. "And, I will." "You don't want to lose your baby." She say. "And, I do not." "But, you don't act like you're thinking about the baby's health." She say getting into her feelings. "It was simple mistake. I was real tired from walking around the hospital and I just felt asleep." I say.
"You don't take no baby's life for granted." "And, I don't. It was a simple mistake and Jacob tore into me for what happened." I say nodding my head. "It's just that since everything that has happened and from how your attitude is. You're not being appreciative for the gift that you have." She say. "Why I'm wondering what's wrong with me because when I found out, I fought hard with Jacob to keep the pregnancy going but now it's real. I'm starting to slip up. I don't want to lose my baby." I say wiping the snot from my nose.
She hands me a couple of tissues from off her desk. I take them and wipe my nose with them. "What's wrong, Lacie?" She asks. "It's starting to feel so real and I don't have my friends in my corner to help me through this time and it's too much going on in this town. I heard Casey's funeral was beautiful." I say changing the subject. "It was very lovely and sad at the same time for a life to end when it's just beginning." She say.
"Right." I say not knowing what else to say and getting up. "Well, I have to go. Jacob is picking me up after school and I wanna talk to Mr. Howard before I leave out of the school and before the buses leave." I say heading for the door. "Well, have a good day and take care of yourself. You're having a baby, Lacie. Some would love to have children." She say making me uncomfortable with that talk.
"Right, and I will." I say leaving out of the nurse's off to see the hallway full of students. I make a beeline for Mr. Howard's room sticking my head in just a little bit. He looks at me from his desk. "Ms. Thorne, how are you doing?" He asks me as a male student looks at me from his desk. "I'm doing fine, Mr. Howard." I say walking in and the student laugh while looking at my nose.
Mr. Howard just stares at it. "Your nose is real red." He say but it's something about the way he said it. "Yeah, I fell asleep at the bus stop and two days later. Bam." I say and tap on my nose. "You missed class today." He say. "Yeah, I wasn't feeling good but I just came to see Nurse Miller and tell you what was going on. I might not come for a few days." I say looking at the clock.
"Okay, Ms. Thorne. I hope you feel better." He say. "I will, Mr. Howard. Have a good day." I say to him and waving the student. He waves back looking me right in my face and I shake my head turning the other direction and head towards the exit doors in front of the door. Jacob's probably waiting for me in the parking lot and no telling how he's going to react to how red my nose is. He hasn't seen it yet.
I'm sitting on the couch wrapped in two blankets while watching the news. Jacob's in the kitchen making me nice hot chicken soup. "Thanks baby." I call playing with the remote. I see him shaking his head in the reflection of the TV. "Lacie, I can't believe you." I hear him seriously say. "I can't either. If that accident never woke me up, I don't know what would've happened nor do I wanna thank about it." I say putting the remote on the coffee table.
"Or you would've lost the baby." He say and I hear a glass breaking. I turn around facing him. "Yeah, it was a mistake. You know how I sleep and I made a wrong mistake falling asleep but the cold go to me and I was knocked out." I say taking off the blanket. He pauses picking up the pieces of glass. "I am so sorry, Jacob. My sleeping is so out of wack and from how everything has been going lately. Something is wrong." I say shaking my head.
"Yeah, you." He say. "I think it might be me. I'm not high risk no more maybe till it's time to birth out the baby but I didn't think that I can get sick and I don't feel sick. I don't have no discomfort. My nose only runs and my throat is not irritated. So, this is all new for me and I'm going to sweat it out. It was going to happen sooner or later. Everybody in school is sick and plus it's Fall time." I say trying to ease his anger down.
"Do you care about our baby?" He asks me. "You know I do, Jacob. It's on me and my baby getting use to everything. Don't you remember me? I wasn't always like this and my body is just adjusting. I love our baby and can't wait to me him or her." I say looking at him throwing the pieces of glass in the trashcan. "I don't feel like you do. You're not showing it." He say washing his hands in the sink.
"I'll stop going out and taking the bus. I'll call you for everything that I need and I'll learn to stay away from the sick kids in school. I'm not going to school all week. Halloween is coming up." I say changing the subject. "I know it is, Lacie." He say going back to the stove. "Jacob, what's wrong?" I ask getting back comfy in the blanket. "I don't feel like you're taking this as serious as you use to be." He say.
I grab the remote off the TV and turn the volume down. "Have you noticed the things that's been going around?" I ask him. "I noticed, Lacie." "No, you have not because you're busy taking care of Bella and hanging with your friends. You was more around then you will see what's wrong with me and why I'm so down." I say ready to lay into him.
He looks at me. "I have so much into me and last I check you are not my boyfriend. Bella, let me high and dry once Edward came back into town. I don't hang with the pack no more since you all cut me off. You're a jealous boy still thinking you run things in my house and in this relationship when it's not one. So, what are you saying? Last I checked, you told me in my face that I was not the one and you left. I have to beg you and not the other away around. I'm the diamond. You're one too but I don't chain women down. You can do that and you played that card in my face." I say reminding him.
He's silent. "Yeah, stay silent. People love to cut you out of their lives over trivial crap. I don't have to tell you nothing about what's going on in my life be it I was lying or not. What goes on with Victoria and Bella is not my problem." I say out of breath. "I can find a boyfriend but I'm more on my health and baby. You cut me out and it was never the other way around. So, make the soup and leave out of my house. It was the last time that I call you for help and that's final." I say and turn the TV back up.
I stick my ear out waiting to hear more from him but he doesn't open his mouth up. "Yeah, I thought so. You didn't want in this relationship then you open your mouth and you tell me. You a big boy and always willing to hang with Bella and Edward but can't walk three doors down to visit your pregnant ex-girlfriend. Last I checked, or if you are planning on being Bella's husband or whatever it was-"
I cut myself off. "Bella, Casey or whoever it is can have you. Embry was right from the start and I'm starting to think-" I hear him mumble something. "What you say?" I ask holding my ear out. "You're not Embry's imprint." He say looking in my face. "And, I'm not yours either. Good for him. I can't believe you would do an 180 on me then have the nerve to act like a little child but want to be a man around Edward." I say.
"None of your business." He say. "Bella, can have you. It was a mistake dating a child and letting you get in my way. I'm eighteen years old and I can be doing better things in my life instead of allowing you to do what you did to me. Is the soup done?" I ask him. He doesn't say anything. I shake my head turning back to the TV. I don't have time for him and it's over and done like I said before.
I close my eyes and by time I open them back up. A bowl of soup and a bottle of water is sitting in front of the coffee table. "It's still a little bit hot. Sorry, I made you upset." Jacob say heading for the front door. I just nod my head closing my eyes again then hearing the door opening up and closing a few seconds later. I breathe out frustrated. This boy is going to turn my head even more grayer.
Someone knocks on my front door. "WHO IS IT?" I yell out at the door. "Mr. Howard." Mr. Howard voice say from the outside. I get up off the couch and walk to the front door and open it up to see he has a grocery bag. "I brought you soup." He say holding up the bag to me. I grin a little bit. "I already have soup but I can take more." I say moving out of the way to let him in. He walks in and I close the door behind him.
"I hope Jacob ain't try nor say anything to you, Mr. Howard. Or, you probably didn't see him." I say walking to the couch then backtracking to take the bag from him. "He spoke and went to Bella's house." He say while I walk into the kitchen. "Yeah, I don't deal with Bella nor Jacob like that. It's too much. So, we're officially done. You can't change a boy into a man." I say putting the grocery bag on the table and taking out the big soup can.
"It's up to them if they wanna accept their responsibility." He say walking into the kitchen. "You're right but I don't know what's going on with him and maybe the teen pregnancy thing is getting to him or something else. I told him to tell me about what's going on in his life but it's a big no. So, I leave it alone." I say putting the can of soup of the counter and seeing that I have a lot of soup left over in the pot.
"Mr. Howard, why don't you stay for soup." I say walking to the cabinets and getting out a bowl. "I can't, Ms. Thorne." He say. "Mr. Howard, please. If you think about it, I'm sure you'll have to blame because I'm sure you drove past me and we can discuss my school work and how I'll be repeating." I say grabbing the big spoon and looking at him.
"I don't see how it's my fault." He say to me. "Please, Mr. Howard. I'll really appreciate it and you're like my role model who's trying to right my life in school." I say putting some soup in the bowl and holding it for him waiting on him to take it. He put down his suitcase and grab the bowl. "That was not so bad. Where you have to be at four o' clock?" I ask walking past him and out of the kitchen.
He looks at me holding the bowl. "Do you wanna sit at the table or the couch? We can watch a sport game or a movie. Halloween is coming up." I say waving him over. He put the bowl on the table. "I can't stay, Ms. Thorne." He say. "Okay, this can count as the dinner but you have to be home to your wife or something. I understand." I say walking back into the kitchen and grab the bowl.
"Just came to drop the soup off." He say holding his briefcase. "Mr. Howard, it's just soup and watching TV. I'm not going to make a move on you or anything." I say noticing his wedding ring on his finger. "I have to get home." He say. "Okay, if you say so. Let me you walk." I say leading him to the front door and opening it up for him. He leaves out of the house.
"Thanks for the soup and I'll try to make it school if I feel up to it. Thanks so much." I say nodding my head. "You're welcome. Try to feel better." He say walking down the porch. "I will. Thanks again, Mr. Howard." I yell. He nods his head and I close the door locking it while looking at the big can of soup. I guess I'll eat that tomorrow. I walk over to the couch and look at the bowl of soup that's still steaming. I lay down on the couch not feeling good and sneezing. Stupid cold. Stupid Jacob.