Chapter 33
So, the weeks flew by. Trees lost their leaves and grew them back. Jacob had to come over to rake my leaves and he has not one time said anything about Victoria and her army. As much as I try to question him, it's always can't talk about it. I leave it alone but I'm itching to finding out. I'm gaining a little bit weight mostly by eating bread and other things.
I call Dr. Roberts like crazy just to talk to him. My crush on him is like crazy. I tried that number that Ryan from the cafe gave me but he didn't answer it. So, I left it alone. My face is getting fat and everything is basically normal except for the not been on tribe kind of thing. It's still there and it still hurts to know that they cut me off like nothing.
It's whatever because they'll have to look in my face when it comes to events or whatever considering that I'm having Jacob's baby. So, yeah. I barely talk to Bella as usual. What she goes through with Edward and Paul? I don't even ask nor want to know because not going to be stressing me out.
So, basically everything is going smooth and I like it. Fall break is about to come up and I'm hoping during Thanksgiving Jacob will invite me over to have dinner with his father. I'm sure he is but it's up to him. I need to buy a car or something. I can't keep relying on Jacob.
"I don't think this stain is ever coming out, Lacie." Embry say scrubbing the mud stain. "Just leave it alone. I left it alone weeks ago." I say turning around in the couch to face him. "Are you sure?" He asks me. "Yeah, it's deep in there. So, it's not coming out no time soon." I say seeing Quil shaking his head. I turn to him quick. "What?" He asks me.
"Did you make a stain in my carpet?" I ask him. "No, I didn't. I know not to track mud in your house." He say but I can't tell if he's lying or not. I look at Embry. "I didn't make it either." "I'm sure Jacob didn't either. So, it must've been the person who trashed my house. How is Paul?" I ask the both of them and hearing Jacob walking down the stairs.
Quil shake his head grinning. "Paul didn't trash your house, Lacie." Jacob say looking at me. "I know he didn't. I'm just asking how is he." "He's doing fine." Embry say walking into the kitchen. "So, him and Bella are not together?" I ask all three of them mostly Jacob. "Nope. She's with Edward." He answers sitting next to me on the couch.
"That must be sad. I mean that is his imprint." "It's whatever. She can do whatever she can want." Embry growls out. Quil shake his head disappointed. Jacob looks at me. "I don't know what you want me to say I mean I'm still with you." I say wrapping myself in the blanket when I feel a a draft when Embry walk past me. "That's two different things. Our relationship is way different from Bella's and Paul's. What are you talking about?" Jacob asks me.
Quil chuckle. "I don't know. It's the point that his imprint is in this situation but you can't help it and I stay out of it. I never should've brought up Paul." I say changing my mind and looking at the TV. "Have you apologized to him?" Embry asks me. "I don't need too. I never accused him." I say. "Yes, you did." Quil say before Jacob and Embry can speak.
"I haven't seen him nor am I welcomed near any of your friends home from the mouth of Sam." I say shaking my head. God, I hate Sam. "He's just mad. He think you tricked Paul and Bella. Paul is his cousin and Bella leaving him. It really broke him down." "How? I understand the heartbreak but it was a chance that she wouldn't stick with him. We all seen it and it's never too late." I say to Jacob.
"It might be. Just hope she picks anyone other than the leech." He growls out. "Right, I swear I didn't know." I say causing all of them to look at me quick. "You didn't know what?" Jacob asks me. "That she wouldn't want to be with Paul and would stay with Edward. You want to be human and want to have a children in the future. That's all." I say.
"I still believed you knew or did something, Lacie." He say. "Anybody else?" I ask Embry and Quil. "Yeah." Quil say looking at Embry. He just nod his head. "Are you mine?" Jacob asks me. He asked that question so many times that I lost count. "You're still here with me and I'm pretty sure I am. I am not than something was crossed." I say to him.
"Nothing was crossed." He say looking at the TV. "Exactly. Leave it at that. It's not the end of the world. We're all young and you don't know what decision she is going to make or something. We're all young and we have years ahead of us. Let's not talk about imprints and just enjoy our time together. You never know what might happen." I say to Jacob. He just nod his head.
"I mean you lost your chance being with the one who you wanted." I say speaking about Bella. Quil shake his head while Embry looks at Jacob. "I did but I moved on." Jacob say to me. "I don't believe that because I still believe you still have feelings for Bella." I say taking the blanket off me. "I have feelings for her." "And, I'm sure you hoped at that chance when you found out that the imprinting of Bella and Paul might be fake." I say ready to dig into him.
Both Quil and Embry look at him. "Just admit it. Your actions say so much especially not being there for me and I'm sure you was working hard trying to win Bella back." I say to him. "Trying to keep her from being a vampire." He say shrugging his shoulder. "So, what does that mean? Because every time I checked you're always with Bella." I say rolling my neck.
Quil shake his head again. "Last I checked she has Victoria after her." Jacob say. It suddenly get silent in the living room. All three of them look at me. "So, she lives four houses down and you cannot come see me?" I ask him. "Not when I'm really busy, Lacie. Bella comes first." He say. "I understand that but I miss my boyfriend so much that he wouldn't open his mouth and tell me what's going on." I say.
"I'm not your boyfriend, Lacie." He say looking at the TV and I feel all eyes on me. "You're right. It's what you wanted." I say turning back to the TV. I glance at Quil. He shake his head watching TV. I look at Embry. He just watch TV. I put the blanket back over me and we go back to watching TV. "I guess you don't want to know what I saw this morning in the mirror." I say.
Jacob doesn't say anything. "What you see?" Quil asks me looking at Jacob. "Something that blows up in the mid section." I say pulling the blanket up to my chin. Both Embry and Quil looks at Jacob. "I don't get it." He say looking at me. I sigh getting up and letting the blanket fall down on the floor. They all look at me confused. "You don't have a baby bump, Lacie. I checked." Jacob say looking at me.
Oh, so he is checking. "I meant my stomach, Jacob." I say walking past him and standing in the mirror to look to see if I have a baby bump. I turn to my side and see a little bit. "Lacie, that's fat." He say making them laugh. "I think it's more." I say lifting up my shirt and pressing down on my stomach. It's a little bit soft. "Is it?" Quil asks him. "It's fat." He say.
"I'm gaining weight. I can't wait to see Dr. Roberts. You know he likes me." I say pulling my shirt down and walking into the kitchen for a snack. I open up the fridge noticing the big can of soup still on the counter. "Jacob, you want soup for dinner?" I ask him. "I'm going home to eat, Lacie." He answers. "Okay." I say going back to looking into the fridge but peeking at the can of the soup. I wonder what Mr. Howard is doing and how his wife is. I'll need to cook the soup one day.
I hear my cellphone ringing. I turn to see Jacob grabbing my cellphone from off the coffee table. "It's your teacher." He say putting the phone back down. My jaw drop. Oh, baby Sarah. They all look at me. That's my secret now. My cellphone stops ringing. "What he doing calling me?" I ask walking to table and picking up the phone. I look at the missed call and see it's from Ryan. Oh, got me.
"Who is Ryan?" Jacob asks me. I chuckle looking at Quil. He shake his head. "He's a classmate of mine." I say walking up stairs to call him back. I close the door after I enter the bedroom even though it's no use. I call him back. He doesn't answer. He must be shy or just playing on my phone. I put my cellphone my desk and look at the biology book. One more week left in class than Thanksgiving.
I open the door and walk back downstairs. Quil and Embry looks at me while Jacob stay watching TV. "No need to be jealous, Jacob. Who wants a pregnant girl?" I ask walking back to the couch. "Why no reason to be jealous, Lacie. " He say making them laugh hard but I don't find nothing funny. I sit back on the couch and put my blanket back on.
It get silent. Jacob looks me in the face. "I don't want you dating nobody, Lacie. Why would you take his number?" "Because he seems interested in me and you never know." I say shrugging my shoulders. "He doesn't want a pregnant girl." "He just got to me because he was always looking in my face." "Whatever." Jacob say. I rub on the side of his face and kiss his cheek then lead to his face. He kiss me back.
I peck his lips before leaning back into the couch. We all go back to watching TV. "What you all doing for Thanksgiving?" I ask them. "Our parents." Quil answer. Embry nods his head. Always Quil to answer my questions first, Embry. "I don't have nobody make sure to come over after everything is done." I say. "You have me, Lacie." Jacob say. "Yeah, sometimes." I sadly say. "You always have me, Lacie." "Okay, Jacob. Whatever." I say not going there for him. Telling lies in front of his friends.
Lordy. Get to school and find out the killer is still on the loose. The students was talking and I was listening. No evidence. Both girls found murdered in their homes at night. I wonder if they asked the classmates and teachers. I was a detective then I'll interrogate the whole classroom. Everybody is a suspect and I'm sure someone knows something.
Did I mention Ryan was staring at me the whole time in class? He must have a big crush on me or probably planning to kill me. I hope not number two. Or maybe it's me gaining weight. I am a little fat in the face and it's very noticeable. I am pregnant fat even Mr. Howard did a double look. I think he did. He just looked at me for a couple of seconds more.
Dr. Roberts was not lying when he said that I might gain a lot of weight. I was praying that I wouldn't be one of those whale pregnant women but I guess I am now. I wonder how much I weight now. I need to pay Nurse Miller a visit. I walk into the Nurse's office to see her once again busy with another student. "The Nurse's Office doesn't catch a break." I joke sitting down in the chair next to the bed.
"Not when it comes to Spring, Fall, and Winter." Nurse Miller jokes. I nod my head grinning. "Or mid terms. We always know when to avoid classes." The student jokes making her laugh. "Is that true, Lacie?" Nurse Miller asks me. I guess because I didn't laugh. "No, it's not true. I just come after Mr. Howard's class because he's more closer to the office then my other classes. They're across the school." I say.
"Just need to check. No one should skip classes especially around test time." She say making me shrug my shoulders. I know something about skipping classes. I did take two months off school till I was finally caught. "I don't skip." The student say. I wouldn't know what she does. "Well, you're all set. You don't have a fever and your arm is just sprained. You better get to class." She say to her. She gets off the bed grabbing her bookbag and exiting out of the office.
I look at Nurse Miller fixing the bed and I wait for her to turn around to get a look at my fat face. She finally finishes and turns around laughing. "Oh, wow." She say surprised looking at my face. "You should see my stomach. It's real big but no baby bump yet." "It looks like you have one." She say looking at my stomach. "Jacob told me that it was just fat and I don't know any more with him. I try to be happy and he drags me down." I sadly say.
"Sounds like you don't need him." "I'm starting to think that maybe I don't and the love that was there is not there no more. We haven't been together in two months since everything went down and I believe you don't take our relationship down because of your friend's relationship plus I believe he still have feelings for another girl." "Sounds like you really don't need him."
"Yeah, he's not the one that I want any more. I think it was just a fantasy relationship till it got serious and he seen his chance at having someone else. So, yeah." I say not trying to cry. "He's not making you happy." "He's really not. So, I'm starting to think that he just want to bring me down and I know he went after another girl while we was done but he wanna blame me for my health problems when he turned me down in picking me up. That's what caused me to get sick. I don't like him no more after he did that then he wanted to get mad at me." I say shaking my head.
"You don't need a boy like that who'll cause you to miscarry or send you into early labor. Someone who always stresses you out." She say and her words hit home. "He always stress me out then told me boldly that he had feelings for another girl in my face and in his best friends face without no care. I don't he sees what his words is doing to me."
"Or he might just want to hurt you." "He want to do something. He been doing it for months and someone told me that him being the father of my child was going to be mistake then I never would've had sex with him and went for someone else who's worth it because he is not and he proved it so many times. I'mma cut him out of my life." I say.
"And your baby's life too?" She asks me. "I don't think I'll ever be able to do that but I'm scared that he'll try to make a u-turn when his plan B does not work." "You don't let him back into your life." "And, I'm not. I think he likes me like that and he's only putting up with me because of the baby. Then, he loves to bring up if I'm the one and throws it in my face like it's nothing. I made my choice." I say thinking about it.
"What is that?" "That I'm moving on and I made it so many months ago but he still does the same thing and it's no apologizing. I know he's dating someone." "You shouldn't worry about him and life." "It's still hurts because he's there for someone else but leaves me in the dust then act like he did nothing. So, it's real over. I am going to be birthing out my baby by myself like Dr. Roberts told me." I say shaking my head.
"Don't cry, Lacie." "I'm not going to cry because he's not worth my tears and I cried already. Something told me that he was not the one and I should've went with his friend when he confessed to me but I was so into Jacob and now I'm starting to think and realize that the only thing about it was he got there first. His friend look so sad and I know he's telling me that's what you get for picking Jacob over me." I say thinking about Embry.
"It's never too late." "It's too late. Who wants a pregnant girl?" "Any boy who really cares for you a whole lot would accept you and your baby." She say. I breathe out blinking away tears. "I swear I did not see him being such a little boy and I never should've had sex with him but I'm grateful for my miracle and that's all matters. I just need to get out and meet other guys."
"Maybe that's what you need and get away from Jacob. He doesn't sounds like he's worth it." "So, I am one of those single moms?" I ask her. "You sound like it and how old is he?" "He's sixteen years old with a unrequited crush on his childhood best friend. He's not worth it and he's wasting my time. That's time I can never get back and goes around with his life." I say shaking my head as she hands me a tissue.
I wipe the tears from my eyes. "Then, he had a nerve to get mad at Mr. Howard for helping me out when he always left me high and dry. He shows the sounds of a childish little boy. I'm be alright on my own and he can't name one thing that he did for me." I say thinking about it. He never did nothing for me but get me pregnant then went on about his life.
"He'll see what he's missing and by time he do then you'll be long gone." She say. "I hope to be in another relationship of have that I don't love you for crap no more and have him looking on the outside while I'm enjoying my life." "Well, I hope you do. Some girls go back to those types of boys." "I might because I love him that much but he stay hurting my heart and making me sad. Sixteen year old boy."
"Maybe that's the problem. You got involved with a boy who's still a child. How old are you?" She asks me. "Eighteen years old, Nurse Miller." "Eighteen years old, Lacie." "He's an legal adult by tribal laws but I think it was a mistake. It just happened in the moment and we didn't think it was possible." And, we didn't. "You can get pregnant any time." She say making me sigh.
"Yeah, you can. I'm going to head off to class. Maybe call Jacob to come get me. I'm not in the mood." I say putting on my bookbag and getting up. "It'll get better, Lacie." She say. "I hope it does because he has a problem. I pray it does, Nurse Miller. Thanks for the talk." I say walking to the door. "You're welcome." I hear her say as I'm leaving out of the office.
After that serious talk with Nurse Miller, I needed to speak with Jacob. His words that he boldly said in front of our friends hurted my feelings and I don't think he knows how much.
So, I invited him to the my favorite spot the cafe. I hope he shows up because we have trtreqp hours before the curfew takes in effect. He better show up ihe wanna save this trashed up relationship.
I bang my phone on the table. I see Ryan not working today. He usually work the register. If we was go into have something, its gone now. My body done blew up and I have a gut.
I never had a gut ever in my life. So that really tells me that I'm pregnant. Oh, I can't wait to see Dr. Roberts. He'll be surprised greatly by my body change and glad that I gained weight. I turn my head when the door opens up and it's just a young couple. That's the third one. I turn back around watching the TV. Come on, Jacob. I know you want to save our relationship but just being childish.
I hear a knock on the window. I look to see who it is and it's Dr. Roberts again. He loves to put a smile on my face. I kind of hoping it was Jacob. He check my face out before walking into the cafe. I turn around waving at him. He waves back at me. "Hi, Lace. What's wrong?" He asks sitting across from me. "I'm just waiting on Jacob. Let's save our relationship talk." I say not trying to cry.
"I think he wanna save your relationship, Lacie." He say. "I don't think so, Dr. Roberts. It's more than that." I say and feeling Jacob walking up behind me. Suddenly it feels like the whole cafe gets quiet as Jacob gives me a look that I'm all too familiar with. He looks from me to Dr. Roberts. "I thought you wanted to save our relationship?" He asks me.
"I do but you're still that jealous teenage boy who doesn't want to grow up." I say sliding over so he can sit next to me. "Just on my lunch break, Jacob." Dr. Robert say getting up from the booth. He moves out of the away and Jacob sits across from me. "See you at your appointment, Lacie. Jacob." Dr. Robert say to us. "See you, Dr. Roberts." I say while Jacob just nods and wave at him.
I watch him going over to the register and making an order. "You're staring too, Lacie." Jacob say to me. I turn my attention back to him. "Sorry, he's perfect and plus he'll be delivering our baby. I hope now you'll see that I'm worth saving." I say. "I don't know, Lacie." "Whatever, Jacob." I say trying my hardest not to look at Dr. Roberts.
"Sam let you come out like the dog that you are?" I ask him. "He didn't let me. I came from Bella's house." He say. I grin nodding my head. "I do want us to go back to how we was before everything fell apart but you're keeping us from moving back up there. If we can get it back." I say. "I don't know, Lacie. You was willing to put our baby at risk over a leech." He say.
"And, I apologized but I asked you to come pick me up and you turned me down." I say. I'm not going to take all of the blame. He doesn't say anything. "You're always doing that turning me down over nothing. Jacob, I'm not looking to save our relationship." I seriously say. "We don't have a relationship, Lacie." He say. "Yeah, it's what you decided and I'm sure half of what your friends too."
'They got nothing to do with our relationship." He say denying it. "It's whatever, Jacob. I see you're the guy who I thought you was and I'm sure it was a mistake on my part dealing with you. Are you going to take me home or leave me?" I ask putting on my coat. "I'll take you home, Lacie." He say. I shake my head. Yeah, this relationship is over.