Chapter 50
Days passed since the incident, Sarah is okay. Since then,my health has gone down. I'm starting to thin out. Dr. Roberts looks at me while making me dinner from my kitchen. I'm starting to think the angels are punishing me for making the stupidest mistake ever in my angel life. Either that or she's coming very early. I don't know.
Nurse Miller is still missing and even though her body haven't been found. Everybody even in the school is thinking that she's dead. Seattle is a danger zone since Victoria took over it. She's still planning her army and waiting to attack Bella. I'm not going to be here nor is Sarah. I can't have them sniffing me out. So, Jacob is going to be weeks from me. He'll have Bella scent on him.
"You have to eat, Ms. Thorne. You barely eat." Mr. Howard say walking over with a plate of food. He's wearing an all black suit. Mr. Howard's wife passed from the hospital. Sad. He set the plate of food on the coffee table. "Chicken. Ribs. A whole bunch of meat." That Emily and Sue came over to cook for me. "You have to gain weight. I know it was a traumatic scare for you but you have to eat healthy for Sarah. She's alright. You had no placenta ruptures or anything." I nod my head.
"I know you don't like plain water. So, I added a dab of soda into it." He say making me grin hard. I just hate it. "It's explains why it's dark colored." I say picking up the glass and drinking it. It's the only way I can drink it. He sits next to me. "I know he's coming here." "He might not. I'm not up to it." I say shaking my head. "Okay, Lacie." He say getting up from the couch and walking to the door. "Call me if you need anything." He say opening the door up.
"I will." I say and he nods closing the door and walking towards his car. I wait till he drives off before locking the door from the couch. I rub on my stomach. "I love my Sarah." I say picking up the plate and sitting it on my stomach. I start eating. I have lost my appetite since the incident. It's just went away and I cried terribly that night in the arms of Jacob. He actually let me but I can tell that he hated me for risking his daughter again.
The back door opens up to Jacob. I look at him drinking the water. "Tea?" He asks closing the door and walking over to me. "Water." I say putting the glass back on the table. "Just came to see how you and Sarah was before going to visit Bella." "I did not care because I know for a fact you seen Bella before me." "Whatever, Lacie." He say. "Whatever, Jacob. It's still the same. Don't think-"
"You don't think. Your married boyfriend should be on his way to visit his daughter." "Not his child. You said it yourself that you didn't want to know the gender at all. I don't play games with you and you go down the street to your girlfriend. That's you wanted and kept it for months yet still attacked me over Mr. Howard then wanted to say that I slept with Paul." I say.
"It is over now, Lacie." "And, it is. I don't chase over you and you are not worth it. Why I moved on with my life and you moved on with yours. Don't keep making remarks about him. Our relationship went this way because of you and your actions. You'll never see that because you ended up where you wanted to be in Bella's arms and in her bed. Don't come disrespecting him in my home or you can leave." I say.
He just stand there glaring in my face. "It was different." "It was a slip up and it was a one time to sleep with you after you slept with Bella. It will never happen again. You betrayed my trust and everybody seen you running behind her along with Paul and Edward. You waited and waited till you found an outing and got with her. Why no one but her bother to tell you about your business nor attitude. Mind your own business and be here only your daughter. What you wanted." I say going back to eating.
He doesn't respond. "She's pregnant, Lacie." He admit. "That's on you and that's on her. That's your life and long as it does not affect Sarah then whatever, Jacob. I gave up on you a long time ago as soon as you found out that Bella might not be Paul's imprint. No one is blind to what you and her was doing and I was in the wrong. We was in a loving relationship till you kicked me to the side for her. So, what are you talking about?" I yell.
"Just wanted to let you know." "I nearly lost our daughter and you come with that news. Get out my house and take your nasty ass stinky tongue too." "Only from you." "Fuck you, Jacob." I spit out opening the door for him. "I have to call Sam?" I ask him. He knocks over my kitchen table and chairs before leaving out of my house. I close the door and get up taking my plate and walking into into the kitchen and appearing in Paul's kitchen.
He's entertaining a girl on the couch again and I just sit the plate on the table as neither one of them take notice of me. I'm sure Paul smells me and the plate of food. I just eat till I finish the food and dump the food into the kitchen and hearing the girl scream. "Calm down, Lauren." I say washing the plate in the sink. "Paul." She screams out and I hear the door closing shut.
I hear shuffling behind me. "Does Bella know that you're sleeping with her friend?" I ask turning around to see him sitting at the kitchen counter. "Do you know that Bella is carrying Jacob's child?" He asks back. "I know because he told me today. She should be one month along. I moved on and seen that neither is worth it. It's very sad to see her let her soulmate go." He doesn't say anything.
"I'm talking about Edward, Paul." I say hearing the door opening back up and a confused Laurent walking into the living room. She looks at me confused and kissed Paul on the cheek before leaving out of the house. I set the plate on the kitchen counter. Paul looks me in the face. "I am really sorry that you're going through this. I look pass it. Who would've seen that your imprint and my soulmate would've had sex with that bitch and got her pregnant?" I ask him.
"My baby, Lacie." He admit to me. I just breathes out because I snap his neck. "I marked her." He announces. "That still doesn't change that your bitch slept with my man but it's whatever. You marked her or not. Jacob is out of the equation whether you're lying or not. You three can stay in that triangle along with Edward but you are not going to bring to me nor my daughter. It's a done deal and it's over between me and Jacob." I say.
"My pup." "Does not matter? Why are you telling me this now, Paul? I'm not your friend and the many girls you had going left and right in this place. I just hope for the best. You're my soulmate." I say reaching for his face and he moves his face back from my reach. "I don't see how you tribal people can sit around talking about are you my imprint or wolf when you knew for months and it kept going on and on for months. Now, you people wanna be in your feelings and go left and right about it. Not me. Why I love staying from this tribe and going on with my life." I say picking up my plate and walking to the closet.
"Nurse Miller is still missing. She's either dead or not. I'm ready for her and hope you three rot in hell for breaking my heart and tearing up my life. Everything happened behind my back and I'm the one who was cruel. Thank you, Paul. You smell of STDs. I'll never be done with Bella nor Jacob." I say opening the door. "I hope you don't take Bella back because she was nasty along with your pack brother. Some friend he is but do not care long as he got Bella and she got Jake. Her sun." I say sounding exactly like Bella. I can tell he's furious on the inside. I shake my head walking into the closet and walking out into my living room.
"He said that he got her pregnant?" Mr. Howard asks handing me another tissue paper. "What he said. She's pregnant. I told him. It was between him and her. I'm not mad about the baby because he lied about using protection but it's the betrayal." "Is it true?" "I do not know nor care. That's between him, her, and Paul. I am about my life and I am enjoying it but it still gets me." I say.
"You don't still love him, do you?" He asks putting the blanket over him. "No, I do not. It's the betrayal. I had months to come to terms that Bella and Jacob was going to be intimate and there from the beginning of the relationship till now. So, they have to deal with Paul. He's a vicious man and I know he's hurting deep inside down." "But, didn't stop you from digging into him too."
"No, it did not because I seen that he could've did more to keep her from Jacob. I guess from how he was and the word on the street that he was a manwhore but they dated for a couple of a months then he was fighting for Edward and Jacob was still going around doing his thing while attacking me for my relationship for you. It was just crazy but it's over and done. I'm happy now to be out that situation but it hurts. How can Jacob do this to me?"
"Because you slept with me." "It did not matter because we was not in a relationship and it was more going on over there then us. I wish everybody would stop blaming you. We don't have a relationship and you tell me this every time." I say blowing my nose as he turns back to watching TV. He glances my way. "I'm sorry. I never should've said that. I am so upset. I still love him but to know he got her pregnant. How would you feel?"
"I wouldn't care after how he betrayed me in the worse way possible." "Maybe because I'm pregnant. They deserve each other and Paul said it was his baby." "You believe him?" "No, I put the words in his mouth to make him say that. My pain is nothing compared to the pain that Paul is feel to know that his brother betrayed him in the worst way possible and you know what the crazy thing is?" I ask taking another tissue from him.
"What?" "He didn't even know." I say. "Why would you tell him?" "Because I thought he should know. You seen his eyes. It was so terrible. He is going to kill Jacob. They made a Christmas Eve baby. I'm sure Paul is mad as hell. He's not hurt but he's mad as hell to know that his brother got his soulmate pregnant. So, they'll have to look at us and know what they did every single day. Sarah has a sister or brother on the way." I say.
"Do you care?" "Yes, I do care but not in that way but it's still hurts to know to be betrayed in that way. I know Paul is beating Jacob bloody or he already knew. Fuck Paul. Fuck Bella. Fuck Jacob." "Yet you keep going to them." "Not no more. He brought it to me and I thought Paul would like to know." "But you don't know what goes on over there." "And, I don't. I am still mad and bitter as hell. You can't ask me to leave them alone because they will go around without a care in the world that they hurt Lacie and Paul who they thought we was sleeping with each other."
"Was you?" "No, we was not." I say ignoring the my ringing cellphone. I grab it off the nightstand and hit the ignore button. "At the end time, it was only Jacob and only him. I think they just wanted an excuse me but you know Edward Cullen?" I ask him. "I heard about him." "Yeah, that was his fiancee and you know Lauren is sleeping with Paul." "But, you think she cares?"
"No, I do not. I'm done with neither nor all of them." "It's over, Ms. Thorne. Just move on with your life and think about Sarah. They'll get theirs." "And, I believe they wild." My phone rings again and I ignore it. "Maybe, you should answer it." "I'm okay. It's just them calling to tell me that Jacob was beating down. I am okay." I say turning my phone off and relaxing in my bed.
He glances at me before turning to the TV. Silence feel the room as he continue to watch TV. "I'm leaving." He announces. "Okay, let me walk you out." I say taking the covers off me. "No, I'm leaving to go to another state. I'm moving." "Why?" I ask. "My wife passed. I don't want to live in no house were she's not around." "Dr. Roberts?" "He lives here. So, I'm moving." He say.
"When are you coming back?" I ask him. "I don't think I am." "I don't want you to go. Who is going to raise Sarah with me?" "I am not Sarah's father, Ms. Thorne." He say getting out of bed. "I don't want you to go." I say grabbing his arm. "You're can't stop me." "Right, but will you be here when Sarah is born." "I'll think about it." I nod my head and I grab his arm pulling him to me. "Before you go." I say smiling hard while he just stares in my eyes.
"I think I'm in love." I say to Quil who's eating leftovers. "You think you're in love with Mr. Howard?" I nod. "You should it's not a rebound from Jacob." "Who is Jacob? The guy who got Bella pregnant then went around like I was the one in the wrong?" I ask. Embry looks at Quil. "Yeah." "It might be but I'm happy being a single mom and parent. Is it true?"
"It's true, Lacie. Jacob never marked you." "No for what reason? I couldn't get pregnant and we didn't think that far in time. How can you can you do me wrong and turn around and sleep with Bella?" "Because you slept with Mr. Howard." "But I was not going to keep begging him to spend time with me and be there for me. He pushed and pushed. So, what now?"
"You move on with your life." He say. "Quil, you said the first thing that popped in my head but the betrayal stabbed me so much in the heart." "You thought you was sleeping with Paul." "Why are you bringing that up, Embry?" I ask. "Because he did, Lacie." "But, shouldn't he had came to me the first time?" I ask and Quil just looks at him. He agrees.
"Yeah, it's how Jacob is." "Bullshit. Jacob wanna be Jacob in the first place. We was not together and how he wanted. It was a relationship that he broke off in order to protect Bella. They went behind my back and I am not going to sit here and explain nothing to you because you as a friend should've opened your mouth and said something seeing how close we was." I say.
"I should've but he's my best friend, Lacie." "Yeah, whatever. I'm the so called imprint of his yet he pulled that stunt on me. You all went around hiding for months and now everything wanna come out. It's a big on Lacie. It's over and done. I am about my life. I am eighteen years old and you boys keep doing what you do and mind your own business. Don't open your mouth because I don't have no words to say to none of you." I say.
"He ordered us." "Why? He lied when he said about the protection thing and he kept on. Lies or not. I have moved on about my life. Jacob pushed. You two never been in a relationship before to understand the feelings that goes on between a boyfriend and girlfriend. You hear one said which is the best friend. You don't understand the girlfriend side. So, shut up or you can leave." I say.
Both of them keep quiet. "Bella's pregnant with Paul's baby, Lacie." Quil admit. So, Paul was telling the truth. "The point is that she slept with my man even though we was having problems. What reason was it?" "Because you slept with Mr. Howard." "None of her business. You see he was in the right as two best friends. It was wrong and now she has to look in my face and he has to look in my face knowing they hurt me but you think they care. She is happy carrying Paul's child and my daughter do not have a father to be around her in her life."
"Jacob will be there, Lacie." He say. "Okay, either he is outside whispering it to you or telling you to say those words. He did the ultimate thing to sleep with the girl who was my friend. From protecting Bella to leaving me alone, he pushed me to another man's arms and the feelings of love died down between us. I did what my heart and emotions told me to and moved on with another man."
I wipe the sweat from my forehead. I been having wicked hot flashes even though it's below thirty outside. "You can't get that back from what he did to me. The hurt is still there. The betrayal most definitely. The love is gone. Bella is with Paul now and he wanna go around lying and trying to make things right. He messed up and he has no Lacie to come back too. He'll learn to see that. Either it lies or not. I do not care but he will be a father to Sarah. Tell him I said that." I say.
He nods his head and go back to eating. "He can't save our relationship. It'll be co-parenting and no love between us ever again. Paul and Bella is true then he is the one who messed up his own future and he has to watch them move on with their lives while he still trying to make it right with his imprint. That what he gets. I am not his imprint and he threw that around time and time again. He's the one who is on the house and Bella is happy to the core. In or Out." I say.
"In." Quil say making me shake my head. "That's not what I meant. He is forever out. You don't sleep with someone best friend and think after only months you can come in like you did nothing wrong. That girl will never be my friend ever in her life. Your friends will never be my friends ever after how they got over on me. I did what anybody would've did and moved on with my life. He wanted me to beg and I did not want to no more." I say shaking my head.
The tears are gone. Mr. Howard is gone and been gone for days no telling where. He didn't tell me but I can find out. Sarah is getting bigger. My health is returning. "Baby by Bella or not. I don't give a damn. Tell him it's about me and Sarah. No relationship." I say getting up and walking upstairs and into Sarah's nursery. I close the door and sit in the rocking chair.
No one got time for Jacob, Bella nor Paul. I have to worry about Nurse Miller who's going around missing. No body has been found yet. The most important thing is I have to worry about Sarah's birth and no telling what is planned for me. I still don't know about the angels and if I'll be around to raise her or will they take her. I have so much to worry about.
I imagine Mr. Howard leaning down and picking up Sarah from her crib. He looks back at me and smile making me laugh hard. I grin hard floating her teddy bear to me. Oh, he gave me this. I kiss on the nose. I can't wait till baby Sarah is born then my future will start up. Jacob can have Bella and their baby. He's not shit and not worth it. He'll learn to regret it. She will too.
Her Life, Her Choices. The sequel to Angel in her Life is now up.