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"Dada." this time it was clear with no babbling before Toru snuggled his head into Ren's chest and repeated it again.
"HE DID! HE DID SAY DADA!" Maria screamed as she looked at the completely shell shocked pair before her.
"You clever boy. Toru, that's your first word!" Maria was so excited, yet Ren and Kyoko still had yet to respond.
His first word and its dada. Oh God I better apologise, she's going to hate me. Hey little monster you're supposed to say mama first...Oh God no please no.
Ren looked over at Kyoko. She had tears streaming down her face as she looked at Toru.
That's it she hates me.
Ren opened his mouth to apologise as Kyoko flung herself at the three of them.
"OH you clever clever boy!" she cried as she hugged Toru on Ren's arms.
"Such a clever, clever boy. Your first word and you stood up for the first time alone today as well. Your are such a clever little boy, you really are." the tears were streaming down her face and she had one of her truly happy smiles on her face. Ren was astounded. He was sure she would hate him for two reasons: one why on Earth was Toru calling him dada and two, his first word should be mama. Yet in that moment as all parents know the word doesn't matter in the slightest, the fact Toru had spoken meant the world to her.
"Dad come see! Toru spoke his first word." Kyoko called, turning to Lory. He wasn't as far from her as she thought and he too had tears streaming down his face as he recorded the entire scene.
"I saw sweetie and this way I will never forget." he nodded, raising the camcorder he had filmed them with as they all praised Toru who just held on tight to Ren's shirt.
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Kyoko looked on at the scene before her. Ren lay on her bed in her room with Toru fast asleep on his chest, the strong arms wrapped around him. Again the same feeling, the fluttering in her stomach as her heart was racing at an alarming rate. She put her hand to her chest scared that her heart would burst out at any moment. Was she getting a cold? A fever maybe?
Calm down Kyoko you're probably just overtired, or maybe you had a bit too much sun.
Closing her eyes and counting to 10, she took deep, calming breaths and her heart settled a little. She opened her eyes, it was warm at the moment but she still worried a little about Toru. Grabbing the thin blanket on the bed she covered both Ren and Toru with it before kissing the babe's head.
"Sweet dreams, boys." she said as she smiled down at the pair. Her stomach fluttered. Before another attack of whatever it was came on, she was going to go get some fresh air.
She leant on the wooden porch railing looking out over the sea as she took deep breaths of the salty air. The moon was almost full and hung like a giant lantern in the sky, casting amazing shimmering patterns over the sea. She watched the colours and patterns shifting with the waves and felt calmer until a voice rang out behind her.
"Can't sleep?" she spun, grabbing the Rail behind her with both hands then as she relaxed.
"God Dad, you scared me to death." she smiled at him sitting on the swinging seat. He was swinging it lightly with a laptop on the table in front of him.
"I'm sorry sweetie I didn't mean to. You must have been miles away." he smiled at her and held his arms out.
"Come sit by dad and talk." she smiled and walked over sitting down next to him as he pulled her into his embrace. She was stiff to begin with but after a few minutes she relaxed, leaning on him as he held her.
"So what's bothering you, my sweet?" he asked as she relaxed
No wonder she runs from love. I doubt this girl has even ever felt true love before not even when she was little.
"I was just thinking I need to apologise to Ren-san." she answered honestly. She really had been thinking that while leaning on the railing.
"Why sweetie? What did you do?" she looked at her hands as she spoke.
"its about Toru calling him Dad. I'm sure it makes him uncomfortable so I will try and make him stop. It's just lucky he did it here and not in front of people. I would hate to stain his reputation any more than I already have." Lory looked down at his daughter.
My dear he would love for you to 'stain' his reputation. If that boy had his way he would stain it with something permanent. OK, maybe we need to have a little love talk...hmm but how?
The idea struck him instantly.
"You know Maria's first word was dada too. I remember it like yesterday her mom calling me up in floods of tears to tell me she was so happy and so proud." Kyoko turned to look at his smiling face.
"I still remember the day she was born. She was only 2 hours old when her father passed her to me for the first time. Just one look and I was in love all over again. I thought my heart was going to leap out of my chest. It was hard to breathe and felt like thousands of butterflies were exploding in my stomach by just looking at her. I was so proud." he looked back into Kyoko's eyes. She could understand this feeling, he could see the exact same feelings with her and Toru, he was just giving her feelings the correct name.
"But this is different Dad. Ren he's not...he's not..." She just couldn't find the words, so Lory took his chance.
"Kyoko what do you think Ren feels for Toru?" the question shocked and puzzled her.
"Well he likes Toru, he enjoys spending time with him and misses him when he's away. I couldn't believe he came all this way just for his boys night!" Lory smiled at her.
"Do you think he only likes Toru?" she looked at him the confusion clear in her eyes
"What do you mean?" she thought she knew what he was getting at but she couldn't bring herself to say those words, even if they were not aimed at her she still couldn't say them. Lory sighed inwardly another brainwave hitting him.
"Let me show you." Lory released her and she sat up so he could lean forwards and mess with his laptop. Pulling back from the machine he sat up a small remote in hand.
"OK now watch this." Lory pressed play as he pulled Kyoko back to himself
Maria was sitting on the floor with Toru
they were both laughing as Ren jumped up from behind the sofa.
"BOO!" he shouted as he ducked out of sight again.
"PEEP PO!" he cried again this time from behind the chair.
Both children were laughing as Ren dropped down again.
Stalking over to them both like a large cat from behind
he grabbed them both,
"GOT YA!" as he began tickling them.
All three were laughing as the 2
children rolled around the floor with the bigger 'Child.'
There were no other words for that expression on
Ren's face.
Lory stopped the video and selected another one from his gigantic collection. Now a video showed that Kyoko recognised as being from a few weeks ago.
Toru was laying on his back.
Ren was sitting next to him making Toru's
favourite monkey give him kisses,
making the 'Chu' sound as each time
he touched the little monkey to his face.
Toru was giggling as Ren pretended
little monkey was kissing him too
' Chu chu chu'
"Shall we let little monkey kiss mommy too?"
he pretended to let little monkey run away
before bringing him back for a big
'CHU' on Toru's cheek.
Again Lory swapped videos. Kyoko was completely silent even when he looked down at her she had no expression on her face only concentration as he chose the next video.
The camera was slowly getting closer to the 4 people in front of it.
"Dada." said the small child snuggling into the
large man's shirt.
"HE DID! HE DID SAY DADA!" the little girl shouted
ecstatic as she looked between the people on screen.
"You clever boy Toru. That's your first word!" she kissed
the baby and hugged him from her
position in the large man's arm.
Fear replaced the look of pure joy on the man's face
as he looked at the young woman before him,
but after only a few seconds hesitation she was
there in the fray kissing and cuddling the child.
"OH you clever, clever boy!" she cried.
"Such a clever, clever boy! Your first word
and you stood up for the first time alone today as well.
You are such a clever little boy,
you really are."
The video paused as Lory pressed the button, freezing the screen there.
"Does that look like a man that's upset at being called Dada?" Lory asked as he looked down at his daughter. Tears were rolling down her cheeks. She had seen these smiles before, the true honest smile from Ren. The smiles that were not fake but shone with an unearthly light as it brightened not only his face but everything around him.
She shook her head as Lory opened up another video. He only let it play a few seconds but that was all that was needed.
She was holding Toru lightly as Maria grasped her hand
and hopped across the gap.
The camera panned to a man as he walked slowly to the jetty.
His walk was quick and excited as he stopped
at the edge and on his face a true smile shone
with his eyes shining.
Lory didn't say anything as he felt the tears wetting his shirt. Below her head, he let the video stay for a few minutes before he opened up a second. He didn't close down the last video, he just made it so that they were next to each other on the screen. As he pressed play it was the same room from the first video only at a different angle. You could see into the kitchen now where the cameraman must have been standing.
Ren sat, attempting to feed Toru
in his high chair but
Toru was having none of it!
Grabbing the spoon he kept tipping and throwing the
blended vegetables away whilst
laughing at the man in front of him who was getting the
brunt of his attacks. The camera
lifted a little to a young lady's face
as she looked out over the kitchen
surfaces, a soft gentle smile
on her face.
The video paused again with a close up of that look.
The two faces next to each other on the screen now held the same expression, the same emotion overflowing. Not only in their smiles but in their eyes, in each of their facial features. Kyoko raised her hand to her mouth, turning away from those two faces as she clung to her father crying into his shirt. Finally,she understood now. She had failed. The locks had been gone for a long time, she had just never noticed, forgetting herself with her love for Toru. With the look on those faces the lid flew open, filling her with a feeling unlike any she had ever truly felt before.
She knew the difference now. The difference between love and infatuation. Lory had been right, she had never truly been in love before she just thought she had. She had been infatuated with Sho, the closest thing she had ever had to a friend and the closest thing she had to a family. She cared deeply for him and she would do anything for him then, but it wasn't love. She realised that now as she cried into Lory's shirt. That wasn't the right type of love she had felt back then. Kyoko knew that now as for the first time in her life true loved filled her body, seeping into every pore and every crevice as it made her understand what she had truly been missing.
Lory just held her tight, never letting go of the girl he loved as his own. The girl that had just for the first time been introduced to the torrent of emotions that could be called love. Kyoko cried for the new weight in her heart as she realised finally.
I love Ren.
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