Just a warning I am Dyslexic so my stories will not be perfect but I now have one Beta reader to help me along the way :D

Thank you so much to Roshelle Diall for offering to work with me :D

Hello my sweeties :)

Kyle l adkins: that word play was actually something

my late granddad said to me after people told my parents

I would never amount to anything because of my learning difficulties.

He told me that all I had to do was make 2 words from one

and I've lived by that since

it makes me laugh you know

I made the people who said I would

never be good enough eat there words

I'm qualified 3 times:

fully qualified nursery nurse

fully qualified Social care

and a partial qualification in physiology of the human mind

which I did as a extra course because it was interesting

just remember if someone says you can't do something

take a deep breath and create that space

Impossible becomes I'm possible!

Enjoy..

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"Because my dear in my eyes and the eyes of the world I see a beautiful radiant young woman who has not only become an outstanding actress, a model and a mother. She has become someone that people can look up too that people want to strive to be like. You're not just a celebrity Kyoko. You're a role model to all those girls out there who dare to dream the impossible simple because you took that word and made it to I'm possible." Kyoko placed her hand on Julie's hand.

"Thanks Mom."

The next day seemed to go by in a blur. Julie was there with her from 7am till 6:45pm when she led her out of her room and down the hallway. She had been pampered, primped and was as Julie put it, ready to blow the world away. Julie asked her to wait while she announced her. Kyoko felt very silly but she had learnt by now she could not win against her adoptive mother.

"I would like to introduce the winner of the best supporting actress award and maybe even the best newcomer award, Kyoko." she then clapped and beckoned Kyoko out of the shadows. The 3 men and little girl at the bottom of the stairs gasped as she stepped forwards and started descending the stairs.

They were all stunned at the silver shimmering dress, all they could describe it as was a modern day princess style. All ruffles and waves yet elegant. The shoulders were ruffled onto the main corset style chest. Below that, the skirt billowed out slightly and fell in waves to the floor. With every step, the colours in the dress seemed to change as it reflected the ones around it. It needed no decoration and no adornment as it was simply beautiful in itself. Kyoko had hair extensions put in but this time unlike the Dark Moon party they had also been curled and pinned in a way so that they cascaded down the back of her head and neck. Her makeup was nothing heavy, it just made her perfect features stand out more. Her silver stilettos showed as she walked with the shimmering silver wrap around her gracefully hanging from her shoulders while her silver gloves reached up to her elbows.

Ren was speechless. He had never seen someone so beautiful not even is mother he decided. As she came near him, he reached up with one hand. She took his hand and he leaned delicately forwards and kissed her gloved fingers. Looking up into her eyes that held a loving smile for him his heart exploded with love for the beauty before him she was just more lovely than words could describe.

"I got the idea from a poem Chiori told me about." Julie said as she reached Kuu. All eyes turned to her as she recited,

-I'm looking for an immortal butterfly.

Just as the name implies, it's a butterfly that will never die.

Its transparent wings

don't sparkle or glare.

It quietly lives,

deceiving our human eyes.

Sometimes it turns a passionate crimson,

sometimes a frozen, clear blue.

Sometimes it's a dull, earthy colour that no one could call beautiful.

Its wings change depending on the time and place,

so that the lucky people who have borne witness to it

know not

that they have all seen the same butterfly.

No one knows its true form.

They don't know it exists.

When they cease to be dazzled by its phantasmagorical wings and accept the

butterfly's "real self,"

thename they don't know, the name I replace with "immortal butterfly,"

echoesin their minds:

"Fairy."

I'm still searching.

in this fairy-tale world of celebrity,

for someone who can breathe life into the "role," and change their form over

andover.

The one called "actor,"

the immortal butterfly,

the human

with transparent wings.

They all stared at her

"That's the name of that dress, 'The Immortal Butterfly.' It will never be made again, it was a special dress I designed for you and you can tell anyone that asks exactly as I said." she said with finality as she smiled at Kyoko.

"Don't cry dear, you will ruin your make-up." she said quickly as she wiped Kyoko's eyes expertly/

"Why did Chiori tell you that poem?" she asked, needing to know the answer.

"Why?" Julie asked a little perplexed."Her exact words to me were... let me think?"

'I may have found her Mr. D,

master of my heart,

father of the victor,

I've found the "immortal butterfly"

you've been searching for'

It was something she said to me and I have never forgotten it since it was when I asked her what she thought about you as an actress. The fact of the matter is even with my Kuu I have never met an actress quite like you. You amaze us all with your changes and transformations. If there ever was an immortal butterfly I think you'd fit that description perfectly."

Kyoko knew if she didn't do something soon she really would cry so she did the only thing you can do when you feel the need to cry from pure happiness...

She smiled.

That night was amazing. Both she and Ren stole the red carpet. All people could talk about was the stunning beauty in the silver dress that was found to be a special dress made specially for her by Juliena Hizuri, who herself was also present at the awards as her husband was presenting. They raved over the dresses they both wore, but by far the most beautiful was Kyoko and that was just what Julie had planned all along.

Ren won his award and so did Kyoko who as Julie had predicted also scooped best newcomer too, which was a shock. When she had to give two speeches, she handled it well just saying a simple thank you and ever the polite person, bowed correctly before leaving the stage. At the after party people she knew enquired about Toru and his health even asking if they could come visit the child. Ren never left her side all night, each of them greeting the same people.

People who knew about the pair's close relationship saw how much closer they had grown. Those people were also aware that if they had not spoken of it that it was not to be discussed in a place like this that was full of the press. While in the bathroom together, Momose Itsumi did comment on it and seeing Kyoko's blush guessed pretty quickly.

"I won't say I'm not jealous but to be honest I completely am." Kyoko stared at her thinking this would be the end of their friendship but Momose just smiled at her.

"But I must say you two look really good together. I've thought that since the Dark Moon party and I still believe it now. Congratulations, Kyoko! After all the horrible things you've had to deal with in life it's about time it started looking up for you." she hugged her tight and the girls exited the bathroom together smiling as Ren waited outside. Momose winked and went off to meet her own date as Kyoko rejoined Ren.

"Are you OK?" he asked. She had been in there a long time and he had began to worry.

"I just think it's amazing that people can understand us better than we can sometimes." she smiled up at him and Ren looked over to Momose who gave him the thumbs up and with a bright smile and wink of acknowledgement Ren just grinned back at her and nodded his head.

"Maybe that's not such a bad thing," he said leading her back to the party.

At least no on has tried to take her away from me yet.

He thought with a smile. He was so possessive and he knew that, but he wanted to spend every waking minute with this woman if she would accept him and tonight was the night he would find that out for sure.

Later that night as they entered the Takarada estate, the Limo stopped at the gates. Kyoko looked around at the other three people in the limo.

"Do you think there is a problem?" she asked as she looked at Ren, who smiled.

"No there is no problem I asked the driver to stop here. Would you walk with me? I would like to talk to you about something very important." Kyoko nodded as they exited the limo together. Taking Ren's hand, they headed off together into the gardens and along the stone pathways, hand in hand.

"So what did you want to talk about?" she asked after they had been walking for a while and Ren hadn't spoken yet. His hand was clammy and she could feel the tension in his body and it worried her. He looked into her eyes and saw that worry and he started.

He told her everything. About the bullying, Rick teaching him to fight and how his own power went to his head and how he went looking for trouble. She listened as she comforted and held onto him as he cried when he told her of the mistaken identity that led to Rick's death. She didn't let go, but instead she held him as her heart ached for the man that she loved whose own heart was breaking. She did what she could, wanting to take all his sorrow and pain on to her. She wasn't running away, she was the one who wasn't letting him go, but he had more yet to say and this was the scariest part.

"Kyoko, the truth is I've been lying. Not just to you, but to everyone. You know my past, you know why I ran away and you know why I did it all but you don't know the part that scares me the most. I have to tell you who I truly am." Kyoko took one step back.

His words seemed to repel her and she didn't know why as she looked down upon him sitting on the small stone bench they had found halfway through his story. He looked up at her with tear-filled eyes.

"My name is Hizuri Kuon and the truth is we have already met before." he said as her eyes widened. "Back then you called me Corn." her heart stopped at his words.

Visions of the Corn from her childhood, from times with her Corn stone, the times when she had cried to Ren worried that her friend was gone or that he had died, the way he had at first teased her about her fairy prince but later comforted her. He had known all along and he had been laughing at her all this time. Laughing at her silly dreams when really he was the one who held her so close to the fairy tales. Shaking her head in desperation, she tried to run away from the feelings of betrayal, hurt and anguish she felt at his last statement and she stepped back.

"NO...no you can't be...you can't be my Corn." she continued, backing away from him as he stood.

"Kyoko it's true. I really am Corn, I'm so sorry I didn't tell you sooner. I just didn't know how to. Kyoko, stop." he said reaching for her but she took that final step away from him and flinched at his nearness as she tripped over a small wall and landed in a heap on the floor, tears pouring from her eyes as she cried. He touched her shoulder and she swatted his hand away,

"DON'T TOUCH ME...YOU LIED TO ME...YOU TEASED ME...YOU COMFORTED ME...WHEN REALLY ALL ALONG YOU ALREADY KNEW...YOU ALREADY KNEW..." She couldn't help herself.

The pain she was feeling made her scream at this man she loved with all her heart, but how could he lie to her about something that had meant more to her than Sho ever could. Corn had been the only thing that kept her holding on. That time when she had been broken and alone, the thought of Corn and her Corn stone had been what kept her holding on. Now they were nothing more than a lie. More of a lie than any fairy tale. Then she said something that Kuon would remember for the rest of his life, as the words that completely broke his heart came from her mouth

"YOU KNOW, MY MOM WAS RIGHT. THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS FAIRY TALES!" with that she got up, stumbling a little in the large dress and ran. She ran away from him, from his words and away from the feelings that made her heart die inside.

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well there we go folks

I put a lot of thought into how

Kyoko would react and even though there are

situations she would just except it and say

OK I think this time OK

just doesn't cut it

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