Chapter Thirty
Jūshirō's POV
A honeymoon in this case almost seemed like a bit much; although I was up for taking a week or so off to get to know Heather in a more romantic light. There were no promises that there would be a spark and that's what scared me. There was a possibility we could mess up a good friendship over something as complicated as romance. What was I going to do? I was the one that suggested it but I felt at a loss for ideas. We could just get it out of the way to say that we completed our duties as a couple but who am I kidding? My wife was still in love with the real father of her child and it was clear she missed him too. I had to shake this lack of confidence; she's going to sniff it out one day.
I looked over to Heather and took a deep breath. It was time to be a man I opened my mouth but closed it right away. What do I say? I always looked at her as a friend and now I am supposed to change perspectives just like that? She's my wife now and I don't know what to say to her. What a great way to start off a marriage. "So…" Heather trailed off awkwardly. "Maybe we could..." I tried share my thoughts but I couldn't finish the sentence without sounding eager. I haven't had sex in years and let's face it: I'm rusty. I was also never as suave as Shunsui. He would offer advice which only made me ill at the thought of seeing him apply those 'tactics'. Again, who am I kidding? I always get distracted thinking about what I should to do next rather than focusing on the moment with the girl I was trying to impress. I guess that's where the title of 'gentleman' came in when they compared me to my best friend.
"Consummate…the marriage?" Heather asked slowly and nervously as she blushed. "Would you…?" I asked as I trailed off uncertainly. "I suppose?" my wife replied in a questioning way. I took that as an 'okay' and slowly leaned in to give her a kiss. I felt like a wet behind the ears boy again and not in the good way. Heather hesitated but pressed her lips against mine. I shakily brought my hand up to her face to gently cup her cheek. This wasn't so bad. I got scooted closer and soon we were lying on our sides facing each other. She sighed with contentment and I could not help but to feel encouraged to keep going. I could tell I was starting to feel a more carnal need threaten to take over as I tried maneuver on top of her. I reached for her breast and as my hand touch her, Heather moaned loudly. I was happily surprised and was about to continue when my wife had completely shifted onto her back. She gasped in pain, "Ah! Shirō, my back!" I stopped my advances remembering that she was not supposed be lying like this. "Right." I recalled, smiling sheepishly. I sat up as she got comfortable.
I could do this. There is more than one position to work with. Despite whatever arousal that was guiding me through this; I began to feel a little awkward. How exactly am I supposed to do this? She's my friend and pregnant on top of that. Heather watched me and pulled me closer to her. "This is the only time we're really expected to do this. We might as well get comfortable." she remarked and I thought through the possibilities on how to do this. I know better than to think I would hurt the baby. We could make this quick and never speak of it again. Suddenly a sound pulled me out of my thoughts. I could not help but to chuckle. My wife was out cold, probably from too much excitement from the day. I realized it was not that big of deal anyway. I highly doubt that we're going stay in the same house for the rest of our lives and not wind up 'relieving' each other once in a while. I turned over and tried to get comfortable but I noticed that my body was too aroused to sleep. "Oh, fine!" I mumbled in quiet frustration.