HELLO GUYS! MAN IT"S BEEN TOO DAMN LONG HAHAHA
I'm really sorry guys! THis few weeks has been so busy for me, i haven't had the time to update .
Just so happens here in sg, i finally have a freaking holiday- Chinese new year!
Oh yea, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR GUYS(FOR THOSE WHO CELEBRATES IT) AHHAHAA
BTW, my first time writing in this format. testing it out since its probably a one time thing with diaries HAHA
So yea, Rachel's diary here! thanks for being so patient with me HAHAHA
Read, Review and Enjoy! I'm creating a new one. Its called R&R&E which means what i just wrote HAHA (Lame)
Cya next time! hopefully won't be too long away HAHA
Thalia's POV
"15th May 2009," Percy's voice rebounded off the walls of the house, causing a mystical feeling to settle upon us.
"Dear Diary,
Lately, a lot of people have been staring at me. I can feel their eyes on me every time I walk through the hallways to my locker. Every where I go, a ton of whispered and hushed sounds would erupt from the crowd around me.
Have I done anything wrong? As I flip through the pages over the last few weeks, there has been nothing worth gossiping about, nor has there been anything that would make anyone go against me.
It's pretty scary and unnerving. I know I shouldn't care about stupid gossips and rumors, but I'm still human…I still feel fear and I still overthink.
Maybe I should ask some of them what they're gossiping about. Hopefully they will answer my question."
"6th May 2009," Percy said after a pause. Percy's voice sounded a little…weird. It sounded almost…irritated.
"Dear Diary,
I finally found out what the gossip is about.
Someone's spreading rumors about Percy cheating on me. That's simply atrocious, by the way. Percy would never cheat on me. Never."
Percy said with well-concealed agitation in his voice.
My eyes wandered to Percy's face as he read out loud. A small smile was gracing his lips as he read it, but it wasn't the joyful kind of smile.
No, it was a wistful smile. A smile that portrayed the image of a man who had suffered and lost, and was merely reliving the past when he was the happiest, wishing that he could turn back time and correct all those things.
And for the first time in a week, I started to doubt my judgment. What had caused me to trust Micheal so? How is Micheal trustworthy? More importantly, what had Micheal ever done for me?
He had left so suddenly, so unexpectedly after Rachel had "left", and yet we never questioned him about why he left when he appeared back here out of the blue.
So why were we putting all our trust on him?
We may act all emotionless and uncaring towards rumors, but we all knew, deep down inside, that rumors still affect us. Human minds were made to think negatively. That's our nature.
So when we hear plenty of rumors about Percy cheating on Rachel, our minds were slowly, unbeknownst to us, suspecting Percy.
Then when Micheal came back and gave the 'evidence', our minds immediately trusted him, and confirmed its own suspicions, not even contemplating the possibility that just maybe, Micheal was the liar.
The picture didn't do much help in proving Percy's innocence.
I shook my head, trying to clear all the complicated thoughts bouncing around inside of my skull.
"The gossips seem to have reached only a small group of people. Turns out of al the mutterings and whispers I heard, only a few were actually talking about me.
But I know that rumors and gossips will spread. It is a given fact that any gossip or rumor that starts, will never stop until a long time later.
I hope that through the journey, Percy and the gang will stay by my side."
Percy's voice seemed to crack at the last statement. His voice rebounded off the walls in echoes before slowly fading away.
The last sentence Percy read had caused a melancholic atmosphere to descend upon us.
Grover, Nico and I all frowned at this statement. We didn't even know about the rumors four years ago.
Percy noticed it too, and sighed. "Guys," He started. "Micheal made sure the news would not spread to the gang."
Hearing his words, our frowns deepened.
Percy, knowing that he could do no more, continued to read.
"20th May 2009," All our eyes landed on him once again. We all noticed the time skip.
"Dear Diary,
I have no idea how much more of this I can take.
The rumors have spread to the whole school now. Every where I go, I can feel their appraising eyes fixed on me, quietly judging me…but I'm pretty sure Percy is suffering worse than I am. After all, he's the one that's 'cheating' on me, according to the rumors.
It's funny, though, as the gang does not even know about this. However, I plan to keep it that way."
I, for one, know that that's not true. I've been keeping an eye on him, and he knows it too. Other boyfriends would get angry at their girlfriends for not trusting them, but I guess he knows that I can't help it. I'm human, after all.
In any case, as long as I don't get too overbearing, he will just go along with it. He has nothing to hide anyway.
We're going out for dinner later. Its been a while since we had a private meal together, due to all the attention we're getting in school and even after school. Hopefully dinner will be late enough for us to avoid prying students."
"27th May 2009," Percy started a new chapter.
"Dear Diary
The past week has been hell for me. The quiet mutterings and whispers from the people in school has turned into loud jeers and insults. Percy seems to be taking the brunt of it, but some of them are being directed to me too.
The only time when the jeers and shouts stop is when we're with the gang. What the heck?
Anyway, what the hell is the students' problem? It's not like they're the ones in this relationship! It even caused me to have a few arguments with Percy! Though, of course, nothing too big of an argument. We still trust each other.
I hope everything will end soon."
"1st June 2009," Percy continued without pause. His body seemed to stiffen a bit as his eyes scanned the page.
"Dear Diary,
I'm currently writing this at Percy's humongous house. Why? Because I ran form home.
Somehow, the rumors had spread to my parents. They told me to break up with Percy immediately. Not only that. They even went up to Percy and threatened him. The nerve!
When I had apologized profusely to Percy, being the kind guy he is, he merely smiled at me and told me not to worry. Really, he's the best boyfriend any girl can ever get!
I'm wondering how the rumors spread to my parents though. Did someone tell them? Who was it?"
"Also, Micheal," Percy's voice had a sudden edge of venom as he said Micheal's name. "Seems to be gravitating away from us these few days. Is it because of the rumors? I feel really sad. It feels like the three of us are growing further apart."
"Percy's much quieter nowadays, and Micheal is spending lesser and lesser time with us than usual.
I hope this hell is gonna end soon."
"30th June 2009," We all snapped to attention. The time skip…that long? I frowned at him in suspicion- we all did. When he caught our looks, he merely waved it off.
"Jason knows why I'm not saying the entries for the next few weeks," He said, looking accusingly at Jason. Said person was blushing so red his face looked like a tomato.
"Uh, yea…you won't want to read them." Jason said hesitatingly, his eyes staring holes into the ground, as though he was too embarrassed to look at anyone in the eye.
Being the dirty-minded people we were, we thought of all kinds of sexual stuff which got us blushing too.
"Hey!" Percy snapped at all of us when he noticed all of us having sick thoughts. "They were just going out and spending time together. No sex or anything involved. Jason is just being an idiot for blushing." We all shot him skeptical looks. He then glared fiercely at Jason, who sunk deeper into his chair.
"Whatever." Percy muttered before looking back at the book.
"Dear Diary,
Micheal invited us to a party today! Finally! It's been what? Two weeks since we last contacted him. I'm really looking forward to this party! Maybe the rest of the gang would be there too!
Haven't seen a few of them for a month! The busy ones like Grover and Nico never really had the time to visit us, and some are just too lazy (Connor and Travis)"
All of us rolled our eyes as Travis and Connor were mentioned. They were probably at home planning more evil schemes to torture the likes of Katie as the gang visited Percy and Rachel.
"On a side note, they all still don't know why we're skipping school. They know that there are some rumors about us, but whenever they approach someone, they would refuse to tell. When they asked us, we obviously refused to tell them.
No use in involving them anyway."
Sigh. I hope this party would somehow repair the deteriorating friendship the three of us have.
Well, its time for me to go to my wardrobe and see which clothes I should wear."
"1st July 2009" Percy's voice seemed to be significantly softer than what it was at the start. We all leaned closer to him, knowing that the conflict was about to start.
"Dear Diary.
I can't believe Micheal! That idiot! Instead of supporting Percy, he believes those stupid, incredibly groundless rumors and even try to convince me to break up with Percy!
I guess whatever fucking bond we had before this is already long gone. I will stay befriended to a guy who rather backstab his friends due to rumors than support his friends through their hardest times.
I hope I will never see him again. And for Percy's sake, I better keep quiet. Micheal is like a brother to him. I don't want him to know that his most trusted friend is already against him."
"5th July 2008,"At this point, Percy's voice was reaching an all-time low. His face was so passive, so emotionless, that we knew that whatever he was reading was really, really bad.
"Dear Diary,
I'm…currently writing this at Micheal's house. I...broke up with Percy and ran to Micheal…ironic, huh?
A photo came in two days ago, showing Percy making out with some naked girl on the floor. How…how can he do this to me?
I trusted him with my life! I trusted him though thick and thin, and even trusted him when Micheal advised me not to!
And to think I thought Micheal was the backstabbing one. Percy had been cheating on me all along.
I hate him. I despise him with every pore of my being. He betrayed my utmost trust, and I'm left in this broken shell, consumed with grief and despair.
Fuck you, Percy."
We all stared, wide-eyed, as Percy read this out. I mean, we had heard that the photo was the reason why Percy and Rachel broke up four years ago, My suspicions grew as I heard him talk about this chapter. Did he really cheat on her? She even said so on her diary.
That idea was immediately thrown out of my head as I realized that if Percy was reading this, he probably was sure that the end would prove that he was innocent.
In addition to that, Jason had already read the book, and proclaimed that Percy was innocent. I recognized the handwriting on the book too-it was Rachel's, for sure.
"7th July 2009,"Percy read on, his voice dead by now- totally void of emotions.
"Dear Diary,
Micheal has been really kind to me. How have I not seen this before? For the past few years, he had always treated me with unending kindness. Was I so blinded by Percy not to notice?
Speaking about that bastard, we just had an argument yesterday. He tried to explain, but I cut him off. He's probably no different from the rest of the boys out there.
I'm still not going back to school though, and no one knows that Percy and I have broken up yet. I plan to keep it that way. I also plan to reconcile with my parents in a few days time.
After all, they were right all along.
I really hope Percy will stop bothering me though. Is he really that morally wrong, as to deny all his responsibilities, even after he has seen the photo?
I can't believe how long he has been fooling me with his act… how he fooled the rest too. Ugh."
"30thJuly 2009"Percy said.
"Dear Diary,
The past few weeks have been really good. I went back to school around two weeks ago, and I think several people already know I have broken up with Percy.
Percy still bothers me from time to time, but I've started to learn how to act as though he does not exist at all.
Another thing is…I think I'm falling in love with Micheal. From one guy to another, huh?
The difference is that I know Micheal would never betray me.
The gang does not know a thing. I'm really stunned at how they're so clueless, and they keep asking about Percy.
Luckily, Micheal comes up with all kinds of excellent excuses.
I wonder if Micheal loves me back though. For the past month, he's been a really big help, and my wall of support. He's always there for me, and he cares for me so much.
Maybe I'll ask him tomorrow. I don't know if it's the right decision, and for some reason I really feel…desperate? I sound like a slut. Oh gosh.
Am I that shallow? Is Micheal just a rebound? I don't know…
Whatever…I don't think I'll be able to reign in these feelings for long. I'll just confess and see how it goes."
"3rd August 2009" Percy carried on.
" Dear Diary,
Oh my gods, oh my gods! I confessed, and guess what. He actually likes me back! I'm so happy! I feel like I'm on cloud nine!
We agreed on keeping our relationship a secret though. The gang still thinks I'm with Percy, so we may wait a while before announcing.
Either way, the gods has blessed me. To think…to think they would give me an even better boyfriend!
Still, it feels so wrong…I mean, its only been a month since…
No, I won't let him hold me back from my happiness. What's in the past stays in the past. I will move on."
"29th August 2009," Percy said.
"Dear Diary,
I'm getting a little insecure. Lately, I've been noticing a little of who Micheal talks to.
Man, so many girls. Never knew he was that popular with girls. Great, now I'm feeling jealous.
But, that's not the only disturbing part. The people who Micheal mixes around with…they're not the best type of people. They're like gangsters that really look like they're into illegal drugs and stuff, and even some slutty girls.
I hope he's not like one of them on the inside. I've been hurt once, I better be careful…even if he is Micheal."
"3rd September 2009"Percy began, and something told me this would be the last entry.
"Oh gods. Oh gods. This can't be possible. This really can't be possible.
Someone just waltzed into Micheal's house, looking all guilty and sad, saying that he couldn't take it anymore.
He just told me that the photo was taken deliberately! It was a trap made by Micheal to get the 'physical evidence' that Micheal needed to break us apart!
He also stated that Micheal makes out with lots of girls, and I'm just another one of his girls. And then he ran off without a word.
What the fuck?
Oh fuck no…it can't be, right?
Does he mean Percy was actually attacked by the girls instead, and that he had not accepted it? Oh shit, oh shit…
I need to find him. I need to get to Percy now!"
"There's a pause here," Percy suddenly 'interrupted' the diary, as he showed us the book. The lines for the entry ended at half a page. The page itself looked a little wrinkled, as though it had been wet before.
I briefly wondered whether it had been Rachel's tears on the page.
"I just…oh my god…Micheal just…he was making out with another girl just fucking across the street! Does he think I'm blind?
Oh gods, oh gods, what the fuck is happening?
I'm so confused, so…so…argh!"
"It ended here," Percy said, showing us the page. The handwriting was really scribbly and messy, and looked like it was drawn with an uncontrollably shaking hand.
The ink looked darker than the rest of the book too, which suggested that Rachel probably used a lot of force to write the last few pages down.
"She must have been really frantic and confused," Annabeth spoke up. "She did not even write 'Dear Diary' in the last entry, and her handwriting deteriorated tremendously." Percy sighed and nodded.
"I left out the part about her finding out about the photo because I thought there would be no need," Percy stated as he stood up, heaving a huge sigh. "But since someone read it already, I decided to read it out to you guys."
He suddenly shifted his cold gaze to me, and stared- with his swirling, unreadable eyes- at me, and I shivered involuntarily under his stare.
"You can choose to believe it, or not. The choice is up to you."
The words came out so emotionlessly, it hurt. Did he not care about what I felt towards him? Was my anger towards him so unimportant to him, that he could be this emotionless?
Without another word, he turned, and headed back to his room, his silent footsteps seemingly as loud as elephant footsteps in the utter silence.