A/N: Hey everyone :3
Sorry for the super long wait...I was stuck with my videos (and got suspended on youtube again so life was just great :D) Anyway...This chapters title wasn't influenced by a song as I was listening to "Warm Envelopment" from the Vampire Knight Guilty soundtrack. The "sex scene" was supported by Midnight Romeo from Push Play.

A/N2: Holy crap...I got stuck with being background stuff for tv and then applying to university (AND GETTING ACCEPTED *O*) ...and to be honest...right now...a part of me doesn't want to continue because I'm not sure about the story line...but when I was on my way back home from my dad's place and read cyhap's review I felt a boost and decided to finish this chapter today - even if I decide to completely change my storyline later...So thank you very much for giving me the necessary push cyhap-san *bow* Even if despite my boot it took me longer than expected to finish *pout*

Please enjoy and review *grin and Beccy out*

Chapter 04 : Of Hearts And Minds

Zero woke up to a blur of black. In his face. In his mouth. He nearly snorted but realized that the black stuff were his girlfriends hair. Way to way up Kiryuu.

The young hunter frowned. At second thought, waking up next to your partner was good. Or at least it should be. Something was bugging him at the back of his mind, he noticed and tried to figure out what it was. Not being able to catch the thought, the silver haired teen just started to caress his girlfriend for a while, slowly starting to be glad she was there but also wondering why she came and most of all when. He totally didn't remem- ...no, that wasn't quite right. Slowly the memories of the last night came back and hit him like a train. Kuran. The bond. That was what was bugging him. The second presence in the back of his mind. Luckily the bastard was asleep so the bond was pretty quiet but it was still there just waiting to be reached out to. And worst of all: It actually felt good. It wasn't supposed to - wait, no. Correction. It was supposed to feel good as it's something loving as far as he heard from Takuma as a child. But he didn't want something loving with Kuran. But they were married after all. But Kuran left him. But he himself didn't like Kuran. Too many 'but's Kiryuu. Way too many 'but's. Confused and overloaded with all of the new information he wanted to scream but he got his act together for Amelie's sake.

So instead of screaming, Zero just sighed trying to calm himself. The memories weren't in a clear order now that he thought about it. Trying to get them right...That first memory with Ichiru was when he was three years old, so it probably was the first memory that was right in the chronic. It would also fit since he obviously wasn't married there yet.

Frowning Zero checked his left hand that was still caressing the dark haired beauty. Married, huh? So what did that make Amelie? His mistress?

Shaking his head Zero went back to arrange the flashbacks in order.
So he had a fight with Ichiru about wanting Kuran, no matter why he wanted that back then. Then they got married two years later ...and another year later they were separated for nearly a year but not divorced. Fucked up enough. Then he went to Germany. Looking down at the sleeping girl he frowned once more. Did she steal his memories? If yes, then why? Well first things first. He needed to get out of that marriage. Checking the time on his clock he growled softly and climbed over Amelie and out of bed. Or maybe school first. Yagari would certainly kill him if he skipped another of his lessons.

Taking a shower Zero closed his eyes trying to focus on the bond and nearly shrieked when he felt a responding tug. Did that mean that the bloodsucker - his bloodsucker, Zero corrected himself rolling his eyes, was up? Why at such an ungodly hour for a vampire? They were awake pretty long, Kaname should - No. Just no. He didn't call that thing by its first name just now. And like hell was he worrying about it. Never. Ever. Not as long as he was still sane. Though maybe that was the problem at hand. Maybe he just lost his sanity already without noticing. Or maybe he never had it to begin with. He got married to Kaname without force and as a human after all. At least it seemed like he was happy. God, who was he trying to kid? A bitter smile started to form on the prefects lips remembering the feeling of nearly dying from happiness. Absolutely forced. Absolutely.

Zero gasped as he felt a soft body pressing himself against his back side.
"Good morning baby" he pressed out trying not to get too effected by the feel of his girlfriend's naked body.
"Good morning" she whispered huskily.
"You do know that I need to get to class? Preferably on time?"

Amelie grinned mischievously sliding around Zero and leaned up kissing him innocently but taking a way less innocent grip on his manhood, stroking it firmly. Zero growled into the kiss, pulling her closer and returned the kiss with a little force.
"Of course I know about your school schedule. And you'll be on time. Just a little relief in the morning" the female hunter said after breaking their stormy kiss slowly and kissing and nibbling her way down, scratching his belly gently in the meantime. Deciding to just sit back and enjoy once in a while, Zero closed his eyes, leaning against the shower wall for support wishing she'd just hurry the fuck up already.

And dear god did she hurry up. Zero nearly lost it when he felt the hot, moist heat of her mouth surrounding him, swallowing him whole. He buried a trembling hand in her hair, trying to give her an idea of what he wanted and growled as she refused to move at his will but rather keeping her teasingly slow pace, clearly enjoying the vampires frustration.

Too bad that soon enough they heard a soft knock on the door to Zero's room and a female voice asking for him.
Cursing under his breath Zero tried to get his voice under control.

"I'm coming!"
Amelie started to laugh and therefore choke and quickly released Zero's cock but was smacked on the back of her head.
"Ouch" she hissed.
"Are you okay Zero? You sound husky? Do you need blood?"
Amelie grinned nudging the rock hard cock in front of her with her tongue getting a frustrated hiss.
"I don't think you need blood...At least not here" she said smirking and just started to continue her work.
Zero bit his lower lip hard enough to draw blood and part of him was actually surprised that there was any blood to be spilled.
"No, I'm fine Yuuki. Just go ahead."
"Are you -"
"Yes!" Zero growled deeply and sighed relieved when he heard her leave, wanting to give Amelie a piece of his mind but all that came out of his mouth was her name in a breathy moan because she just decided to play with his forgotten balls.
Knowing he was close he tried to get himself together and warn her but the evil glint in those sky blue eyes told him that she was well aware of his condition. More than that, they told him that he was at her mercy.

Not wanting to beg but knowing she'll refuse him he took a shaky breath.

"Amelie please...I can't..." he started but didn't get further as the girl took pity on him and fastened her pace caressing all the soft spots on Zero's cock she knew all too well with her tongue.
Not being able to stand that sweet torture anymore Zero came moaning her name.
Patiently, Amelie swallowed everything Zero had to offer before slowly releasing her boyfriend.

"So? Feel relaxed?" She giggled noticing his glare.
"I guess not" she said with a fake pout which quickly turned into a surprised gasp as her back suddenly collided with the shower wall Zero previously was leaning on.
"You're lucky that class starts in a few minutes. Else I'd fuck you into oblivion" Zero hissed before kissing her hard.
"I'm not sure if I'm really lucky then" The dark haired hunter responded breathless after breaking their kiss.

Zero just chuckled finishing his shower and getting dressed after drying himself quickly.
"Will you still be here when I come back?" he asked reaching out a towel to her.
Wrapping it around herself and tightening it she walked over to him.
"Who knows?" she asked in a nearly seductive way and kissed him before sitting on his bed, watching him collect his stuff and smiled at the view. Oh how she had missed seeing him in everyday situations.

"I hope you will be there. Sorry, I need to get going" he said and kissed her deeply, yet with a lot of affection before leaving.

Arriving early for class once in his life, Zero thought he might be still too tired this early in the morning. He figured that since he was sure they had Yagari in their first period it would be impossible for Kaitou to be there...but looking closer, that's exactly who was standing there, being swarmed by some of Zero's class mates. Deciding that maybe his friend could help him, Zero reluctantly walked up to the group and into the circles of heart-eyed fan girls.

Upon seeing Zero, Kaitous face lit up like a Christmas tree.
"Kiryuu-kun, which lovely sur-"
"Yah, save it Kaitou. I need your help. Will I get it?" Zero asked, not realizing he called his "sensei" by his first name nor that the girls were looking at him like he finally lost it - even more.
Kaitou raised an eyebrow at the informal addressing but nodded nonetheless.
"What is it Zero?"
Zero shifted uncomfortably.
"I have a visitor...and now things are screwed."
"Ohhh...does Amelie want us to go yaoi freak show for her again?"

Thanks to a lot of stares and even more squealing, both boys realized their mistake fairly fast.
"You're an idiot. But no. Things are way more fucked up this time."
"Oh?"
"How much-" Zero started but he could have sworn he heard a girl say something like 'Teacher-student yaoi play...omg that'd be so hot with them...' and hearing 'Or them as students with Yagari as teacher?!' as answer. Feeling a little sick at those suggestions, especially the last one, Zero grabbed Kaitous wrist and pulled him out and a bit further away.

"Zero, will you just tell me what the mighty vampire weapon is wrong with you?" Kaitou said, being kind of out of breath. Did he really walk that fast, Zero wondered but pushed that thought away.

"I know that I'm married. I want to know how much you know about that."
Now it was Kaitous turn to flinch and look a little flustered.
"Not much more than you I suppose...You've always clung to Kuran. Married. Then he suddenly lost interest in you, though no one understood why and at first you were sad and then you started to hate him for playing with you...but really you were just hurt and tried to compensate it with hate. Like you still do. Anyway...then your parents died and you were transferred."

"I know all that! I wanna know why I didn't remember shit until last night! And I only remember bits and pieces and I'd like to know all."
"Well...I visited you once in Germany when my parents were there for business. You looked happy again and you got along well with Amelie back then, though you weren't as cheerful and cute anymore but more like the quiet bastard you are now. You looked like a good match and like you had fun with her even if you'd kill anyone suggestion something 'ridiculous' like that. But there was already your self-hatred. It was pretty obvious and it pained your guest family greatly.
I don't know more. I'm sorry" Kaitou finished with a sigh, his eyes telling Zero had he was still keeping something from him but he suddenly felt tired of all these information racing through his head and not wanting to calm or make sense.

"Let's go back to class." Kaitou said, starting to walk away.
"Kaitou...?"
"Yes?" the older hunter asked, coming to a halt.
"Do you think it's possible that I still love him?"
"What about Amelie?"
"I love her. ...Or at least I thought I did till last night...Now everything's just so fucked up I can't see straight anymore."
"Well...That one you'll have to figure out yourself. In my opinion a love like you two shared is impossible to ever break completely."
"'You two' as in Kuran and me or Amelie and me?"
Kaitou laughed softly.
"I don't doubt that you feel for that girl. But I do doubt that your feelings for her are as strong as your feelings for Kuran have been. I doubt that you can love like that at all anymore. Sadly."

And with that Kaitou left an even more frustrated silver haired mess behind.
Love like that? Why would Kaitou think that it was something that special? It wasn't! It was just a childish crush on the guy next door. Because Kaname has always been there right from the start. Nothing else. Why would I still love him? It's ridiculous to love that bloodsucker!

Suddenly Zero felt something slide down his cheek. Touching said spot he found it to be wet.
Well okay...maybe he does have some kind of feelings towards the older vampire. Or had. But if he had those feelings, if it all should really have been just in the past, then why for crying out loud was he, as the 'adult' he is now, after years of separation, after years of not even remembering, standing out here on the school grounds and crying while trying to tell himself that he has no romantic feelings for the pureblood?

But where would that leave Amelie? Despite his whatever feelings for the stuck up princess vamp he clearly has feelings for that girl. Though, being honest to himself, Zero realized that thinking of her now was accompanied by a soft pang of distrust, anger and remorse. Sure, he couldn't prove shit if it came down to it but he could swear that it was her who took his memory back at the airport that one time, rather Kuran or someone else doing it - or even worse, he himself having forgotten about his past like it was some trauma. Thinking of her that way - as a person who lied to him for so many year hurt. A lot. The question was: Why did he feel sad? Guilty even? Because he likes Kuran? Because he feels bad for dating her all these years while actually being married? That didn't make sense though seeing how he didn't actually know he was married.

The young hunter decided that going to class would be pointless as he wouldn't pay attention anyway. Plus, he went to not get scolded by Yagari, but if it was Kaitou today he didn't give a damn anyway.
Not knowing where to head Zero let his feet decide and ended up in front of the moon dorm.
Just fucking awesome. Like hell would he step into the lion's den right now. Telling his feet that they're idiots, he instead walked over to the stables, though his alarm rising because he felt a vampire close.

Zero frowned. Usually the horses go haywire if one of those blood suckers, except Zero himself, came close to them. So who could get close enough to them without making them uneasy?
Drawing his Bloody Rose, Zero stood closer to the stables and peeked inside to find the vampire caressing Lilly.

"What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be sleeping?" Zero asked, rougher than necessary, seeing how the Night Class student didn't do anything wrong - yet.

The vampire turned slowly to face him and smiled a little, the smile being warm and yet, it was heavy with sadness and knowledge of the pain Zero was carrying. It made a shiver run down Zero's spine.

"I was waiting for you."

TBC...

Okay so basically this isn't even half of what was supposed to be in this chapter but everything would have been way too much. Besides it felt like a good breaking point. AND I can prove sooner that I'm still alive D

See you next time :*