A/N- Just a fast filler chapter while I'm punching up the next few.. ( hasn't been beta read )

Harm's Hospital Room

Harm woke up and started looking around, he felt relived when he saw Mac and Tommy sleeping soundly next to him. After all the events of the last 36 hours, it just felt good to be able to hold them.

Tommy started to whimper, Mac bolted upright. "I've got you baby boy." She picked him up cradling him against her. Just as soon as he started he calmed right down. Taking a deep breath, Mac laid him back down between herself and Harm. Harm glanced down at his son and than over to his wife, he noticed how tired and stressed she seemed to be.

"Baby please talk to me."

"Harm; it's... it's just been a very long 36 hours. So much has happened all at the same time. I just didn't think.."

"It's my fault."

"No...No.. it's not Harm. Please don't think that it is."

"Baby, I know it is. I was so determined to get home to you guys..."

"I know that. God I know that. I'm just..." Mac started wiping the tears that started to run down her face. He reached over attempting to wipe them as well...

She pulled his hand to her lips, placing a kiss on his palm, startled when she felt roughness. Not the normal softness of his palm. "Harm what happened?"

"I was told, part of my glove had to be cut off. It was fused to my hand."

"Fused to your hand?"

"From the heat in the cock pit."

"I... can't..." Mac got up. Harm reached to stop her. It was too late she was up and out of the bed pacing the room. "How? How bad? Oh I can't ask you." She started to run from the room, but Tommy's cry's stoped her. When she heard him, she immediately stoped and went back to him and Harm. She carefully picked him up and cradled him to her.

Harm watched the sene play out in front of him. He knew he put his family through hell. That was the last thing he ever wanted to do. He never wanted to cause them this much pain.

"Sarah; we need to talk.."

"I know we do, I just don't want to hear what you're going to say."

"Sweetheart; I've put you through hell. I know I can't ever do that again..."

"No! No you don't.. You don't get to walk from us.. I will not let you go.."

"Baby, please listen to me. I'm not walking away from you guys. I'm going to do what's right for us, for our family. I realized tonight, I could've died and made you a widow. Just like my grandpa did to grandma Sarah and dad did to mom. I can't and want do that you and the kids. I have to make you guys the priority in my life from here on out. That's why I'm hanging up my wings."

Harms words startled her. Of all things this was not what she expected to hear from him. She was trying to wrap her her head around what she had just been told, when the door opened and in walked Harm doctor.

"Oh Commander have I come at a bad time?"

"No Doc."

The Doctor took note of Mac's frazzled appearance. Wondering just what he had walked in on. Bushing the thoughts to the side he went on

"Commander do you remember me from last night!"

Harm thought for a minute, he tried to remember if he the doctor had told him name or not. "Sorry doc, I'm drawing a blank here."

"I figured as much; I'm Dr Sam Radford. I treated you last night when you where first brought in.I have looked over your chart, and it appears that you are making excellent progress. In fact if you keep this up I don't see why you can't go on Tue or Wed."

When Mac heard that she spoke up. "Don't you think thats too soon? He almost died? And your treating it like it was nothing, he crashed a F-14 Tomcat and it burst into flames... "

"I'm well aware of what happen, he's extremely lucky to be alive. However his wounds are minor considering the way he landed.."

"MINOR MINOR... look at him! He has a broken arm, bruising all over his face, his gloves had to be cut off him..And god knows what else."

"Mrs Rabb, I know everything that's wrong with your husband, I'm the one that treated him. So I'm the one to decide when he's able to leave."

"I want a second opinion, you are cold and heartless. Don't you understand my son almost lost he's father tonight, I almost lost the love of my life. The single most important man to me ever."

Looking over at Harm, "Commander would you like a second option."

"Not wanting to cause Mac anymore stress then he could she's already under. "Yes for my wife's peace of mind. I love her and trust her judgment."

"Fine I'll have Dr Greene come and speak with you." He turned around and walked out.

"Oh Harm, I'm so..."

"Baby; it's fine. I understand completely. Now why don't you come over here and lay with me. You've been out of my arms for far too long."

Smiling she went over to the bed, and retook her place next to Tommy and Harm.