I continued to think about what princess Luna has told me. About me putting Celestia into a lot of danger just by associating with her. How many would look down on her because she was in love with somepony on the lowest of the low... I was worried once more... even though she assured me that nothing to bad would happen constantly... my doubts returned in full once more.

Halfway through the talk

"why do you love my sister?" the princess asked me as I was confused before I gave her the answer I could think of.

"because she understands me... she loves me." I answered as her eyes grew hard.

"does she?"

For once I'm glad that I'm not walking with Celestia to the dining room so I could collect my thoughts. Why must every time I'm told that she doesn't believe that being with me would be a mistake... that I'm told something completely different by somepony else.

Soon I reached the dining room and entered in to find nopony was here yet. Sighing I walked over and took a seat. Feeling very weird as the spell that princess Luna put on my growing horn to hide it... fluctuate? I think that's the word I'm trying to think about... it hurt my head a little when it did that but I ignored it to the best of my ability as I thought of what was to come next... would the guard be told of what was happening to me? Would the nobles be told? What about the other ponies in Equestria? So many possibilities... yet so little time to find out what was going to happen...

"if you could know what she truly know what she felt about you... would you find out?"

"Derpy..." jumping at the calm and collected tone I spun around in the seat I was in to find Celestia standing there with a small smile on her face but her eyes seemed... off... filled with a emotion that should have no place in her eyes...

sadness...

"you will simply hold her back..."

"i... apologize for my sister and her words. She still believes we live in the dark times and that our subjects opinions matter the most above all else... I spent the time apart, reminding her, of what was truly happening so let me once again say this again." she quickly came across the small space between us and gave me a surprise hug as I felt her kiss my forehead near where my new horn was growing. "no matter what happens when I announce what has transpired they will all accept it as they always have. Even when my sister returned they accepted it albeit they needed time to do so it will all end the same."

"but even then anypony can be wrong..."

I simply stayed in her embrace as my mind once again battled against the things I was told and the things she was telling me. Before my mind settled on one opinion...

this...

needed...

to...

stop...

"Celestia... why..." she stopped nuzzling the hair on my head. "why am I always told different things and why do these thoughts keep coming back to my head?" Celestia simply sighed.

"its because of doubt my little derp... doubt runs the way things happen in many situations." she pulled away and sat down in the seat next to me. "doubt can do many things... it can make you rethink your decisions, it can ruin friendships, and it can challenge your very beliefs." she gave me a smile as she looked down at me. "do you understand what I am saying?"

"i... think so?" I answered unsure of my own answer. She simply giggled.

"if you ever feel unsure of yourself simply come to me..." I nodded. "should you not find me available simply go to the garden... and think."

"think?"

"think."

"can I ask why?" I asked her as she smiled. A cook walked into the room in the process to get our orders.

"because simply thinking things out without letting your own thoughts rule over your own mind. It can lead to very disastrous events... now then..." she gave me a smile. "how about we have a piece of cake?"