Answering Questions from chap 31
Flare669: Yes and No, I have two scenes in mind, one in which will shift their mindset into possibilities of having a romantic relationship, but they won't actually confess until the second scene. So between scene 1 and scene 2 i'll just be going with the flow.
Azully: As for your questions they shall be answered in future chapters hehe You will know who the hell Sam is soon...And that little piece I didn't explain about what happened between Ed and Eddy, unfortunately won't come up until much later.
Prfctlymprfct: Yes, as you read last chapter, the video I posted some time ago does give hints about what will happen in future chaps ;)
Alright Enjoy this chap and don't be shy to ask questions and clarifications! :3
Tomas Barr could have never guessed that his fate would be cruel enough to bite him in the ass as it was doing now. Why for crying out loud was the woman who had swore she would never return…here? Why was the woman who wanted to abort now fighting to get her son back? Was this woman so god damn selfish to dare to show up only because she couldn't bear any more kids? What would have happened had she been able to have more kids? Would he have never had to deal with this situation, or would she have been consumed by guilt that her maternal instinct would bring.
Either way, this was the present, and his son Kevin had asked to speak with his mother in privately. He only hoped for the best, and that Kevin wouldn't be troubled at the moment with the woman's presence. He had sent a very confused Ed home and made his way down to a café on the first floor. Now the Barr man sat down with a frown on his face, as he stared intently at the coffee cup in his hand.
He was angry, very angry…this woman had hurt Kevin, she had put his only son in this life threatening situation. For that, she would never be forgiven.
After an hour or so, the tired man made his way back upstairs to the room with a half filled cup of coffee. He found the woman in the hall looking out the window at nothing in particular with eyes full of tears. He stopped a few feet away from her.
"…I'm sorry…" she spoke out in a breathy whisper. The small woman turned her freckled tear-stained face to look at the man behind her. "I'm so sorry Tom… I didn't mean for this to happen" she sniffed wiping her tears away "I promised Kevin I'd stay away so he can think clearly"
"… I think it's for the best" the man spoke firmly yet softly
The freckled faced woman frowned looking to the side out the window. Her pretty face outlined by the wrinkles of age and exhaustion. "You have made a wonderful father Tom… I would have just…" she breathed in "…I could have never done it, and I'm so sorry for leaving both of you…but…" she trailed off in a whisper her emerald eyes reflecting ancient memories "you have made our son such a kind hearted young man and for that I thank you so much." She rubbed her arms and the man could see the golden ring on her small finger be illuminated by the rays of the sun. "I hope we can talk things over after Kevin, has made a decision…clearly we all need a breather to think"
Tom Barr relaxed at her words "You're not going to take him away?"
She gasped at the statement "No, of course not Tom, how could I?" For the first time since their encounter, she reached to touch the man she had once loved all those years ago. "I could never do that to the two of you…"
The ginger man felt his eyes get glossy and heavy with tears that threatened to escape their prison "Thank you" he breathed out "Thank you…"
The small woman wrapped her thin freckled arms tightly around him not saying anything but just letting the action and silence speak for her.
…
The next morning Kevin heard the door open and noted as his father stepped into the room with a container of fruit salad and juice. "Thanks Dad" he said taking the container in hand giving a little hum of happiness as he finished pulling down his shirt. As he took a bite of a piece of melon the door opened once again.
His doctor was now the one stepping inside the room. She was a beautiful professional woman, with light eyes, and brown skin. Her name was Dr. Jones "Good Morning, are you ready to leave Kevin?" she with a Mona Lisa smile, though it was welcoming.
Kevin nodded "You bet" he said filling hid mouth with mote fruit as he felt beyond hungry. Hospital food was always gross, and for a moment he had debated whether Hospital food was worse than Cafeteria food…they were both pretty bad.
"That's good to hear" she took out a couple of papers from her clip board and handed them over to Kevin's father, giving him a brief explanation on what the papers said and what he needed to fill out. Then she turned to Kevin "As your doctor, I strongly advise you to continue to meet with Dr. Gonzales, the psychologist that came to see you yesterday, in hopes that he will help you in calming and controlling your anxiety so this incident won't happen again." She gave a smile to Kevin "You must understand that under your situation I cannot give you any medication" she raised an eyebrow and Kevin nodded a bit sheepishly. She breathed out "Now, you are a sweet heart and as much as I would love to see your face again, I sincerely wish that it is not under any similar circumstances" she gave him a wink "I hope you enjoy your summer" she waved goodbye and closed the door behind her.
Kevin's father had then helped Kevin gather everything and walk to the truck, because the teen's body was still feeling weak and tired. They drove in silence for most of the ride back to the Barr residence, both feeling as if what had happened had just been a weird nightmare. It was surreal.
"Kevin, do you want to meet with the psychologist again?" Tom broke the silence awkwardly as he gripped the steering wheel, his eyes fixed on the road ahead. "I think it'll help, even just a bit"
As Dr. Jones had stated, he had met Dr. Gonzales the previous day. The older man, maybe around his late fifties or early sixties, had come in time to interrupt a dispute between Kevin's parents. He had kicked them out to privately talk with him and see how his mentality was. Turns out that Kevin had really enjoyed his small talk with the man, and had helped to clear away some anger and anxiety about his mother giving him a clearer head when it was time to speak with her alone. "Sure" Kevin said simply leaning his head on the vehicle's door falling asleep.
"Alright, I'll call when we get home" The man spoke lowly
The rest of that day Kevin had decided to sit in his backyard with his phone glued to his ear as he talked to a very worried Nazz. He told her almost everything excluding the pills and instead saying it had simply been the panic attack that had placed him in the hospital.
"But are you sure you're alright Kevin?" the blond girl asked still very obviously concerned after the news of Kevin's mother.
"Yeah, I'm better now thanks. You don't have to worry anymore" he stood up and walked down to the grass to sit down looking up at the sunset that reminded him of a certain blue eyed teen. "So, what was that big thing you really wanted to tell me?"
"Oh uh" the girl giggled making Kevin smile closing his eyes missing the girl's laugh. "Well, the other day I went to a fair with a friend, and I bumped into a really sweet guy at one of the stands and he invited us to hang out with him and his friends this Friday."
"Hmmm" Kevin hummed teasingly "Guess you took my advice at finding a summer romance" he chuckled.
"No, no nothing like that just—uh… friends?" maybe? Potential friends for sure"
"Riiiight" Kevin rolled his eyes playfully "So what's the guy's name?" he asked.
"Josh, his name is Josh" the girl talked sweetly about the guy for the next half hour before they finally said their goodbyes and hanged up.
"Kevin you hungry?" Mr. Barr came out and asked in a calm tone
Kevin turned his eyesight towards his father as he lay in the soft grass "Nah, am not hungry"
"Are you sure? You haven't eaten since lunch" his father persisted
"Mm, I'm sure, I had an apple an hour ago" Kevin turned his gaze up to the stars that were faintly appearing in the sky. "I'll go inside in a little bit" he announced.
"Alright then..." The tired man left the glass door open just a crack and went back to the living room.
Kevin picked up his phone again and read the message the raven haired had sent yesterday, guess the guy really was worried huh. He dialed the number feeling a tiny bit anxious but smiled when he heard the voice answer him. "Evening" came a calm, collected tone from the other.
"Hey" Kevin smiled warmly
"I assume your back home, correct" Eddward asked the ginger boy
Kevin sighed softly answering him with a hum "yeah, it feels so much better than locked up in that hospital room...gave me the creeps honestly" he chuckled.
"Hospitals in general, aren't very joyful" the other answered smiling at the playful tone of the ginger boy.
"Yeah..." Kevin frowned remembering the night he had yelled at teen "...Hey, Eddward...?"
"Hm?" Eddward hummed, it was clear through the phone that Eddward was currently occupied with something, it seemed as if he was outside and Kevin wondered if he was working on the garden again. Who knew the mighty shark had a soft side for plants.
"I'm sorry" Kevin closed his eyes waiting for the response of the other.
Eddward was silent for a moment before letting out a small breath "For what?"
The ginger opened his eyes seeing the purple sky "For what I said that night...I didn't mean it"
"Kevin, it's ok" Eddward responded
Frowning further Kevin reacted. "No it not ok. I was talking gibberish, I-I was being stupid"
"No, you weren't. What you said was nothing but the truth, you were angry and what you said you meant it" Eddward paused a moment letting it sink in but continued before the other had any chance to respond "and that's was ok"
"...but that was mean of me...unfair" Kevin croaked out feeling utterly regretful.
He heard the raven haired teen sigh calmly "no, what was mean was what I did to you...what was unfair was letting you leave in the state you were in that night"
Kevin stared up at the now visible moon hiding behind a couple of pine trees many thoughts going through his head in the moment. One, Eddward had confessed right there, he had admitted his evil doings to Kevin flat out and knew it wasn't ok. However there was no apology even though Kevin could hear remorse in his tone…was this his way of apologizing? Second, Kevin began questioning if the teen blamed himself for what happened that night so he spoke reassuringly "Hey it's not your fault ok?"
Eddward said nothing for a long moment before he finally spoke "you could have crashed, it could have been worse..." he said in a thoughtful tone in which it was mostly to himself than to Kevin.
"But I didn't" he said trying to rid the guilt the other held
"There was a strong possibility..." the other responded
Kevin giggled lightheartedly though sadly knowing that yeah, the guy was right "But I didn't, and here I am right now talking to you. For crying out loud you saw me yesterday! I'm alive Vincent" some tears threatened to escape down the side of his freckled face at this realization.
"You're alive..." Eddward repeated softly
Kevin sniffed a bit "Damn it was scary..." He breathed out
Eddward listened intently to the shaky breathing of the other as he remembered the first time he had attempted to...well, end his own life. It had been as Kevin said, scary. He'd often dreamed about the experience, it was one of his constant nightmares. He had swam out to the deeper parts of the Peach Creek Beach, before letting himself sink. It had been terrifying how strong the pressure of the water was; maybe it was the time of season when the water was perhaps stronger but he had quickly began to feel the mighty strength of the ocean. He remembered suffocating and choking then he blanked out only feeling a peculiar warmth soon after and the next thing he knew he was in the hospital with his father staring back at him in utter disgust. Clearly, it had not been a pleasant experience or memory.
All in all, he knew what Kevin must be feeling at the moment, the teen was scared, probably scared of his own home where the incident had happened. And if he knew any better, it was to stay away from the area for a bit at least to think clearly, breath, and relax. He knew the exact place to go "Would you want to come with me?" He asked suddenly mixing his thoughts with his spoken words.
Kevin had calmed down a bit as he listened intently to the quiet breathing of the swimmer, knowing well he was thinking. "Where to?" He asked confused.
Eddward cleared his throat feeling a bit sheepishly himself now "My mother has a cabin two hours out of peach creek" he took a moment to breathe in as he thought about the offer grasping what he was saying. Never before had be taken anyone out to that cabin, it was something like his own sanctuary. Was he really about to allow Kevin in? "I uh, had already planned to go next week"
Kevin thought about this offer, his eyes wide. On one hand, he really wanted to scream a big yes, he wanted out of his home, he wanted out of Peach Creek and he wanted out of his parents…every fiber in his bone wanted to go, but there was a small problem. That was that his birthday was next week…did he want to abandon his father on that day…honestly speaking he didn't even want to celebrate, he didn't want to think about that his entire life he had thought his mother had died giving birth to him. "I'll think about it" he said frowning. He'd have to convince his dad to let him go and forget his birthday.
"Alright, inform me before Saturday" Eddward said
Kevin frowned praying to god his father would let him go, he didn't know what he would do if he didn't have his favorite grumpy faced companion around. "I will" he said softly.
Kevin laid there for a long period of time, both murmuring things back and forth making casual talk which faded into silence and the only they could hear were their breaths.
"It's getting pretty late huh" Kevin muttered his eyes closing from sleepiness
"Hm" Eddward hummed
"Goodnight then, I'm about to pass out" Kevin chuckled
"Goodnight" the swimmer repeated
They both lingered on the phone for a few seconds before Eddward was the one to hang up first and Kevin then detached the phone from his ear and laid on the grass in complete silence. Looking up at the dark sky, he thought about how the heck he was going to step inside. He was scared to go inside, he as scared of being alone. Then he felt a vibration in his hand and he lifted his phone to see a message. It read From E: [Breathe Barr]
How the hell did this guy have such great timing and know exactly what to say…
He hoped that by this time they were something more than simple companions, dare he say it? After everything that has happened Eddward was a good…friend… and the thought of him only seemed to feel his fearful heart with warmth. Being around the taller teen was enjoyable, exciting, and interesting. He wished he had been laying right there, on the cool grass next to him.
The guy was slowly turning things around and that made Kevin happier than anything else.
I hope you enjoyed this chapter, sorry for all the short chapters, starting next chap they'll be longer again.
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