Monster Island- 4:15 AM
29 Days Remain
Well, I went and did it. Sorta. I don't want to spoil what happened right away.
I waited at the shore, nervous as shit. Would Baragon come tonight? He sometimes doesn't come, and if he was he should have been here by now. What if he's busy? What if...
SNAP OUT OF IT MAN.
I'm overreacting. Although, maybe I should have asked him to come by tonight, but that would sound a tad obvious. Baragon's pretty damn smart, so I think he'd know something was up if I asked him, anyhoo. Still, though. Is he coming? I don't want to have gone out and get this far for nothing. I'd feel even worse than I actually am.
I waited. Five minutes passed. Half hour passed. Another one. I was giving up hope. It wasn't until four-fifteen that Baragon finally showed up. The nervousness I lost over time came back hard.
"I...uh...I didn't think you'd show up." I said quietly.
"You were expecting me, then?" he asked me.
"W-well, no. I mean, I assumed you were coming, considering you've been here for the past few nights, but I-I wasn't hoping you'd be h-"
"I know damn well that you were waiting for me, Big G. I also know why you're acting so weird. And I don't mean weird in general. I mean around me."
I was slightly shocked by this. No, I was really shocked. I wasn't prepared for what Baragon said. I had a plan, and a bunch of backup plans for different scenarios, but THIS wasn't one of them. Eh, maybe I'm overreacting. We might not be on the same page. I'm just a tad nervous is all, yeah, that's it...
"R-really?...W-well, if you think I'm up to something, what is it, then?" I asked. I can tell he's thinking of something else. How would he know that I...?...I can't say the word. I mean, I can't bring myself to say it, but y'know the word.
"Look, Big G," Baragon starts. "I know what's up. You..."
Oh, boy.
"You want to...well..."
Here it comes.
"You want to be friends."
The secret's out. He knows I-Wait, what!?
"And I know that you were waiting for me to come here because you're lonely, and you want someone to talk to."
That went in a direction I didn't expect, either.
"And I want you to know that I'm here for you, Big G."
He got up close to me. Real close. He put a claw on my shoulder.
And, I'm not gonna lie, it felt great.
"I'll always be there, buddy. When you want to have fun. When you need someone to vent your anger on. When you need someone to talk to..."
And then he got real close to me. And then he whispered in my ear.
"...and if you need to express how you feel, for whatever reason."
When he recoiled and sat back down next to me, I felt kinda...
Shocked even more. Did he know, for real? Was he hinting at something? I don't know. Does he...?
I wasn't gonna ask, though. Just in case.
"So, y'see," Baragon continued. "If you need to tell me anything, anything at all, don't be afraid to. Or, y'know, if you just wanna hang. You know where I am if you need me."
Is this some excuse for a "date" or something? I might be misinterpreting this.
"Uh...uh...O-o-o-oh...kay...then..." I managed to get out. God-diggidy-damn, was I a mixed pot of excitement, confusion, and fear. I didn't know what to feel. Except maybe a small bit of hope that...wecouldactuallybeathing.
"I guess, uh, I'll be going now." Baragon said. He was on his way into the forest.
"Wait." I said.
Baragon turned his head towards me. I started to feel kinda hot.
"What is it?" He asked.
"I, uh...I wanted to tell you that...I..."
"Go on."
"I...Th-thank you for wanting to be there for me."
"Oh...Well, uh, you're welcome, Gojira."
Seriously. How does he know that's my name?
I would have said something, but he left before I could have done anything.
I dunno what to make of this all. Does he think I want to be just pals? Does he know that I really feel affectionate with him? Does he feel the same?
I kinda have a clearer views on this, but not enough to make a decision. I don't know anymore, and I'm not gonna ask Baragon anything yet. If he doesn't feel the same, I don't want things to be awkward.
Fuck, I'm terrible at this love business.