On the way to find Bucky and Steve, part of Cassidy just wanted them to be okay, the other part wanted to yell at Bucky for leaving her on that rooftop. Bucky was unconscious when they found him, and together Sam and Steve got his arm wedged so that if he woke up as the soldier, he wouldn't be able to get out.
Cassidy was sitting on the bank staring out at the water when Steve sat down next to her.
"How are you feeling?" He asked. She shrugged and looked down.
"Exhausted. I hate that this is happening, I hate that you're mad at me, I hate that Bucky is going through this. I just want us to all go away together and be happy."
Steve sighed and laced his fingers with hers, feeling some of the tension leave his body at the contact.
"I'm not mad at you." Steve started.
"Then what do you call leaving me behind while you went to Peggy's funeral, then refusing to speak to me when Nat and I came?" She said, turning to look at him. He didn't say anything for a minute, looking back out the water.
"I guess I just felt…I don't know. Betrayed isn't the right word, I just thought we'd be on the same page about the Accords is all." He told her.
"Steve, you have to understand, I've given most of my life to Shield. I still think like an agent even if I'm not one. I am on the same page with you, but I also see the points that Tony is making about it and they're valid ones."
Steve looked back at you and you could feel the disappointment radiating off him, and it made you feel awful. "I guess were just never gonna be on the same side on it." He told her, and that made her feel worse.
She was about to say something to him when Sam interrupted. "Guys, he's awake."
Cassidy stood back behind a wall for a minute, collecting herself. She was on a one-way ticket to another panic attack, she could feel it, and there were more important things to think about, she needed to get herself under control.
She heard Bucky groan and she stilled, leaning her head back against the wall.
"Which Bucky am I talking to?"
"Your mom's name is Sarah and you used to put newspapers in your shoes." Bucky said chuckling. Steve laughed and you cracked a smile hearing the two of them laugh together.
"Did I dream it?" He asked.
"Dream what?"
"Cassidy. Did I dream her, or is she alive?" Bucky whispered. Cassidy stepped out from behind the wall and she heard Bucky take in a breath.
"I'm here Bucky." She told him. His eyes watered and he tried to get up to go to her, but his arm was still trapped. He looked to Steve and he went over and helped him get it loose. He was up and over to Cassidy with just a few long strides looking down at her, brushing a strand of hair down her face.
"I thought you were dead." He whispered. She closed her eyes for a second, leaning into his touch. She pulled back and put both of her hands on his chest, pushing him.
"You left me." She sad softly. Bucky tilted his head, not understanding. She hit him in the chest and he flinched.
"You left me on that roof!" She screamed, hitting him again. She went for a third time and he caught her wrist, causing her to whimper. He looked down and pulled her jacket sleeve up, revealing a black and purple bruise and severe swelling.
"Did…did I do this?" Bucky asked her, turning her wrist over. She nodded, tears coming down her face.
"You didn't mean to." She whispered. Bucky's heart broke for her and he really didn't know what to say.
"You didn't even hesitate, you just left me on that roof. You cared more about getting away than coming back for me." She said, her voice cracking. She broke down, the trauma from the past few days catching up to her. Bucky stepped forward to hold her, and she fought him until she didn't have any energy left, and just let him.
Bucky held her while she cried and eventually she calmed down, the feeling of Bucky's hands on her back relaxing her. "Doll listen to me. I didn't want to leave you there. I wanted to get him away from you and I knew that you would be safe with Stevie." He pulled back to look at her. "Believe me, I don't ever want to leave you now that I found you."
Sam cleared his throat and Steve nodded, looking to Bucky.
"How many people did I hurt." He said.
"Enough." Steve told him. Bucky told them that he wasn't the only Winter Soldier. There were five more that were ten times as lethal as he was. They needed to get to Sokovia and they needed help. Tony was out of the question, in fact, Cassidy was sure he'd never speak to her again.
They got into the car and drove to a place to meet Sharon. She gave Steve his shield and Sam's wings back. Sam was stuck in the backseat with Bucky and he kept squirming. Cassidy turned around and glared at him and he gave her a pointed look.
Sam huffed and Cassidy bit back a laugh. "Anything I can help you with?" She asked. Sam rolled his eyes and glared at Bucky.
"He won't give me any more room."
Bucky snorted. "You have plenty of room bird brain."
Cassidy groaned, wondering if this is how it would be from now on. She got out of the car and came around to the driver's side, yanking the door open.
"Out." She told Sam. He hopped out with a grin on his face which earned him a smack on the back of the head. She climbed in and put her legs in Bucky's lap. In Sam's defense, Bucky did take up a lot of room in the backseat but she didn't mint.
"Is this okay?" She asked, feeling guilty that she hadn't asked. Bucky hesitated, but put his flesh hand over her ankles, rubbing the exposed skin.
"It's fine doll."
Steve had called Clint and he was going to go get Wanda from the compound. He also said he had someone else that could help them. They went to a motel to wait and the first thing Cassidy did was lock herself into the bathroom for a minute.
Both of her soulmates were right outside that door and it should have been the happiest moment of her life but because of Hydra and what they took from Bucky, it wasn't. She wasn't sure how he and Steve's part of the relationship would be. It had been so long and Bucky wasn't the same person anymore, neither was Steve.
She splashed her face before walking out into the room. Both men looked up at her and she had to calm her libido down before she jumped them both.
Bucky was standing against the dresser and Steve was sitting at the little table by the window. Cassidy sat down in the middle of the bed and held her hands out to them.
"Will you come sit with me please?" She asked. The came and sat down in front of her, taking her hands.
"Look. I know that things are bad right now. I know that the two of you have a lot to talk about between you. I know things wont be the same, and this isn't going to be easy." She said, looking down at each of her hands in theirs.
"But, I am so happy that I have you both. I never thought I could, I thought that a part of me would be missing for the rest of my life, and now you're here Bucky. And I know this is scary, but believe me when I tell you, you are wanted Bucky. I want you." She told him, squeezing his hand. He squeezed back and smiled at her, tears in his eyes.
She watched as Steve slowly slid his hand out to Bucky's, lacing their fingers, smiling when he didn't pull away. "I want you too Buck, till the end of the line."
