Cassidy felt her heart drop into her stomach. She was happy that Shuri had figured out a way to help Bucky, but it came at the worst possible time.
"Where is Captain Rogers? I'm sure he will be glad to hear the news." She said. Cassidy looked down, willing the tears to stop.
"Um…he won't be joining us. Let me just go changed and I can meet you in the lab." She told Shuri, before practically running to her room. She paced back and forth, wringing her hands together. What was she going to tell Bucky? She felt like it was her fault Steve left.
She looked in the mirror and realized she should change. She looked like a drowned sewer rat. She washed her face and slapped on some mascara, trying to make it look like she hadn't been crying. She brushed her hair and threw it up into a ponytail, grabbing a pair of jeans and one of Bucky's shirts from the closet. She had been wearing them ever since he had gone under.
With a shaky breath, she walked down to the med wing, where they were keeping Bucky. Shuri was bent over a computer when she arrived and gave her a small smile when she looked up.
"Ready?" She asked. Cassidy nodded her head. Shuri pressed a few buttons on the computer and the cryo chamber began to release, as Cassidy pulled on her fingers. The chamber hissed and began to thaw, and she watched Bucky's fingers start to move. The door slid up and Bucky took a deep breath, opening his eyes.
He smiled at her and slowly stepped out, holding himself up on the chamber itself. Cassidy walked up to him and threw her arms around him, burying her face in his neck.
"Hi doll." He whispered, wrapping his arm around you. Cassidy squeezed him as tight as she could, trying to hold back the tears, but she failed.
"Where's Stevie?" He asked. She shook her head, not able to hold the tears back any longer. Bucky pulled back, a worried look on his face.
"Cass, what happened?" Shuri looked around to the other doctors in the room and motioned for them to leave, giving them a minute. Bucky led her over to a table, picking her up and setting her on it. He wiped a tear from her cheek and ran his hand down her arm, trying to calm her.
"Take a breath, tell me what happened." Cassidy took a deep breath in and looked up at him.
"I had been trying to get Steve to talk to me about what happened in Siberia. He kept blowing it off, and I got sick of it. I made him tell me and he blew up. He yelled and screamed, I did too, but then he threw a vase across the room." She could fell Bucky tense up, clenching his fist.
"I told him to leave but I only meant for him to go cool off. When I came out of the bathroom, his go bag was gone, and so was Nat's" She said, her eyes tearing up again. "I'm sorry. He should have been here when you woke up."
Bucky took both her hands in his. "Doll, it's not your fault that he's not here. He shouldn't have left you. He shouldn't have left us. I'm gonna kill him when he comes back."
"If he comes back." She said softly.
"He will, he's just an idiot." Bucky told her, puling her in for a hug. "I missed you sweetheart." He whispered against her neck.
"I missed you too Bucky."
Shuri came back in a few minutes later to tell Bucky that he should rest until the morning, then they could get started on getting the Hydra words out of his head. Cassidy made them some dinner and they took it back to their room and watched some tv, just trying to relax.
She knew Bucky must be nervous about having someone poke around his head again. After they were done eating, she put a hand on his knee, which had been bouncing.
"How are you feeling about tomorrow?" She asked. Bucky shrugged, putting his hand over hers.
"I don't like that someone's going to be in my head again." He told her. "What if it doesn't work, what if I don't get better?"
Cassidy moved so she was straddling him, placing her hands on the back of his neck. His hand went to her waist and he closed his eyes, taking in a big breath.
"This is going to work. Shuri wouldn't have woken you if it wasn't. I trust her. I'll be here every step of the way. I'm not going anywhere." She told him.
Bucky nodded, and Cassidy leaned in, pressing her lips to his. He sat up straight, wrapping his arm around her, holding her as tight as she could handle. She ran her fingers through his hair, loving the little moan that he let out.
He pulled back and looked at her, running a thumb across her cheek.
"I know that we haven't gotten to know each other very well yet, but I couldn't imagine my life without you Cassidy. I think I'm falling in love with you." He told her. Her heart swelled and her eyes watered.
"I'm falling in love with you too Bucky." She said softly, leaning in to kiss him again, feeling calm for the first time in days.