That week was a rough week back. Jake discovered his childhood best friend, Embry, with Paul, and let rip at Embry who Paul managed to stop from phasing through anger in front of Jake. My husband has been feeling rather smug, these last couple of days, when I started throwing up at the end of the week. It's now Sunday and we have two funerals to attend too after the police released their bodies back to the res.
"How are you feeling baby?" Sam asked me, as he placed his hand over my flat belly and I did the same leaning into his embrace after puking my guts up, and hadn't even had food yet, he'd held my hair too, like the last few times.
"Not the best, but our little one is worth it." Sam kissed the side of my forehead.
"Or little ones! Don't forget we are two mated wolves, baby. This hasn't happened for generations, and the last recorded mated pair of wolves had triplets."
"Oh fuck! How are we all going to fit in here? I know we've kind of spoken or thought about it… also as much as I love this place, if we have a litre or half a dozen, we aren't all going to fit, unfortunately, hubby." He turns my face to him and kisses my lips.
"You know I've thought about this, and there is one place left available in La Push, that might just fit us all perfectly, and have room to grow, and expand. It's a secret location that only council members know about and was built by the first Alpha of the pack. It might need some modifications, but it might just be Perfect. He showed me some of his memories of the place he'd been to a few times; the elders and Alpha of the pack sometimes hold top-secret meetings there. I think I fell in love with the place. It's literally my dream view too.
Terrence and Joshua were buried in the woods, where the church of La Push, in front of, somewhere I hadn't been before. Paul Sam and I stood United at the front with Embry holding Paul's hand, their first outing as a couple in public, we hear the whispers and disapproval from some of the older generations, that isn't pack or council members, but my brother and his mate didn't seem to, to put bluntly give a fuck.
I'm happy Paul accepted Embry, it must have been a big shock, and hard transition for him. The Clearwater's are also here, and I could feel the glare from Leah. Sam kept his arm tight around my waist. A thought popped into my head, maybe Kim and Jared could have our place when we move into our new one? I know she said the other day that the flat feels a bit cramped, and we'd still have a wolf guarding our part of La Push twenty-four seven. I know Sam never fully switches off, even when he's not patrolling, and my ears are always burning, just not as much as my husband does.
Good idea baby.
Will we move into the new place sooner or later?
Sooner, I would prefer! Then you can prepare the baby's rooms, so then we can start the modifications to make it twenty-first-century proof, and family-friendly.
We haven't had it confirmed yet. I remind him, and my husband just smirks smugly, with a twinkle in his eyes.
As we left the service, after saying our final goodbye, to the man I barely knew, and the one I never got to meet. I knew this was hurting Sam more than he was letting on, and gave him some mental space, as he worked through his feelings towards his complicated relationship with his own father.
At least we know that our children will never have to go through all the shit we've been through, baby.
That's something I'm very thankful for.
I know, me too. My husband agreed as we all went our separate ways until this evening. When we have a celebration of their life on La Push's first beach.
Sam and I decided to go for a run in our wolves, and he took me to the location of our future home. The view is absolutely stunning and I will admit I am feeling rather confused with how we are to enter it. Sam chuckled and it came out funny in his wolf form. We phased back to humans, as it's in a private area, he led me to a tree which confused me even more.
"We will need to build a house on top of this land, but our main home would be within the cliff face itself."
"Um, okay…" I say, seeing his memories but not quite believing what I am seeing until I see it for myself. My husband pulls me into his body and wraps his arm around me, as he listens out for anything or anyone that should not be here before lifting his other arm to one of the lower branches and I gasp as the tree trunk moves into an open doorway.
Sam moves forwards keeping hold of my hand, as he leads me inside and presses some buttons on a keypad built inside of the tree trunk, I watch as the door slides close, and the outside world fades.
It's beautiful seeing the inside of this clearly old, maybe even magical, I know it's been modified on the outside to blend in, but very real on the inside.
It is, magical baby, you are right.My husband told me as we walk butt naked down a wooden spiral staircase. I knew nobody else is here or else Sam wouldn't allow this and we'd have come in the truck, clothed.
When we reached the bottom, it opens up into a large open cave, with a deep view of the ocean but what surprised me the most was the bag in the middle. I look at my husband with raised eyebrows as he pulls me into his arms, his hands on my ass, and my boobs pressed into his chest, I could feel all of him, too.
His lips found mine, as my hands found their way into his beautiful long hair I've forbidden him to cut.
I got old Quil to get me some stuff. I didn't want to risk it with Billy or Harry. I got pregnancy tests, three cups and food, and non-alcoholic wine. I couldn't wait any longer and felt our new home would be the perfect place to see what we already secretly know deep down.
I lifted my leg up, and he picked me up. We both groaned when his tip brushed against my core. My hips moved on their own, as we made out. He finally entered me from behind, myself on my hands and knees, as we looked out over the ocean. I screamed his name, which echoed around our cave, as my husband turned me around and made love to my body. He stills inside of me, as he kisses me lips and reaches over for the bag I place my hand on my belly as Sam still kind of moves inside me, loving the feel of being joined. We often sleep connected too, even if it's not from sex or lovemaking. We just love being connected in this way. My husband got one cup out, and we continued making love, after we both came Sam put the cup there to collect my juices for the tests.
We make out some more until I reach for the bag to get the tests. I sit wrapped around in my husband's arms as we open the clear blue tests up. We had to wait three minutes for it to tell us. We just did what we do, and made out, with Sam, playing with my breasts, my hands running over his perfect body. He surprises me when he leaned me back and kissed my belly. Then lifts me back up, kissing my lips. I wanted him again, I always do.
Ditto baby, do you think it's time?
I hope so.
We both picked up a test each and turned it over so we could see the results.
Pregnant, on all three tests. Sam surprised me by drinking my juices from the cup and kissing my lips passionately both of us were overcome with our emotions.
What a way to end a shitty day.
Our own little family. I say kissing him, my hand moving to my belly, as did his.
How do you feel, baby? He asked me.
"Happy, sad, a mix of everything!" I tell him.
"It's hard to know how to feel, isn't it? But our little one in here (he moved his hand back and forth over my belly) is our blessing, and gift from the spirits. We've lost our Dads, and in a way, your Mum. But at the same time, we've been gifted this little one."
"How are we going to turn this into a home?" I asked my husband, not wanting to think about my incubator. Sam kissed my lips and stood up walking us over to the cliff edge, and it took me by surprise how high up we are.
"We can get special glass, to cover the cave and have windows, and this (he turns around) our kitchen, living area! There are secret doors in the cave that lead to bedrooms. We can add skylights in those. As we fence off the above area of grass. Or we can keep this part of the cave, and build up on top of it. I kind of had a vision of those little homes with grass roofs in The Hobbit."
I leap into his arms and kiss him hard as that is something I have always envisioned too.
Really?My husband asked me as he moved us further into the cave. It's so peaceful with the sound of the waves crashing up the side of the cliff.
Yes! But how are we going to afford this renovation? It's going to take a lot of work, and won't be complete in time for our baby to be born.
You know more than anyone that isn't an issue baby, it's a thought that I've also done my best, to keep buried deep, from Paul and Jared. It'll all work out, baby I promise before our baby is born. With mine, your brothers, Jared and Embry's skills of speed and strength we'd have this place built up in no time. Anyone coming in from the outside, doing the work we can't do, will have to sign a contract, not to reveal its location, and be threatened if they see anything. They'd have to start with the staircase, to get down here. It will all work out, I promise, do you trust me?
With my life, you know I do. I kiss him passionately and his and my hands start roaming, which leads to other things until it is time to head back and change to make it down to La Push.
When we got home we found a note on the door in an envelope of fancy writing on the front of it. Sam sniffed it and growled, wrinkling his nose. He froze and didn't move, keeping me close to him.
"Vampire." He said through clenched teeth, handing me the envelope, I took a step back as my husband began to shake and phased, howling, calling the pack to our front door. He looked at me and sat down. I know he wanted me on his back so I climbed on, and he went to the area where spare clothing is kept. Luckily there's shirts here now, instead of just shorts; and we changed just in time to get back to our front door as Paul, Embry, holding hands appeared first and then Jared, plus surprisingly Uncle Billy, all came through the trees.
"We've had a Vampire here, on our lands and we are assuming, left this envelope on our door. Sam looks at me and I say no to his question regarding revealing our baby. I wanted to wait till our first or second doctor's appointment at least.
"Cullen stink is clearly obvious and a fresh scent I'm assuming is your mother Bella. Please read the note before I phone Carlisle and chew his ear off. I'm surprised she'd have the guts to stand on our lands after what we did to her arm's the last time!" Uncle Billy said. I look up to Sam and he nods, as he responds. I slowly open the envelope and find a fancy card inside. The pack has gathered around us now, and I know nobody's inside our home, but they are still scanning the tree line.
"They've broken the treaty Chief, twice!" Sam said.
Dearest Isabella,
These are your mothers' words, I'm just writing them for her. I am now your stepfather, as your mother and I went to vegas a few days ago to get married, much to Esme and Alice's dismay. Your mother is too scared to hold a pen in case she breaks it, due to her newfound strength. I did warn her that posting this would be less of a headache rather than stepping foot on your land. But Renee does what Renee wants, and I wasn't going to let my mate, my wife step on your lands unprotected. She barely made it out alive the last time.
I rolled my eyes, knowing that's not true, as they healed just as good as we did if a limb came off, if not better than us. Harry Clearwater told us this the other day from his own experience of losing his arm. The healing process of having it reattached is a bitch. The only difference is we have a number of lives, with ours. They are already dead, and it's just a long healing process for them as well as us. I blinked and shook my head, then continued reading.
Now, these are your lovely mothers' words.
Darling, I'm not sorry about Charlie, and I'm so sorry I didn't invite you to our wedding, and party when we got back to Forks. We told the station you didn't want to attend Charlie's funeral because of finding out, you aren't his child, and things are still fresh. They contacted me you see as his ex-wife, even though they don't know I'm the one that killed that fat drunk and felt good doing it. I understand it was wrong of me to come on your lands looking the way I did, but I tracked your scent down to that location as I wanted to see my daughter. Even if it was only going to be for one last time.
Edward is amazing, he's everything I need and more, and wanted even in a man and he's all mine. You'll never have him, he told me you played hard to get. But you clearly found the one you are meant to be with. I'm glad you didn't fuck his dick either, as it's all mine! I'm the only woman he'll ever, ever be with and I love that. He told me he's putting this bit in: and he's the only man I'll ever be with. Your house stinks really badly, by the way, maybe try some of that Febreze, stuff?
Anyway, this will be the last time you hear from us, as I am now technically dead and want to be free of anything from my past life. We've left you money! Eddy scolded me when he saw how much I put you through at a young age and this is my way of repaying you back.
Renee
If I had water I would have spat it out. I felt my jaw drop and handed the letter to Sam, as I stared at the check-in in disbelief! Even though I know he'd already seen it through my eyes, Sam read the letter again.
"I hope my mother doesn't pop up out of the ground next!" He grumbled holding me tightly to him, as he handed the note to Billy.
"We'd rather keep the amount to ourselves," I told Uncle Billy, holding the check closely to me.
"I'll be calling Carlisle. Can I take this letter with me? I'll phone him when we get back down to First beach. We were just setting up when we heard the howl."
"Burn it if you want, I don't want anything to do with her. I would have liked to have gone to Charlie's funeral. Yes, he was an asshole, but he was the only father figure I truly knew and he wasn't all that bad, an asshole yes! And yes he wasn't very nice in the end but I can sort of understand why."
"We weren't even told when his funeral was, Bella. You know I would have told you, had we known." I nod, turning my face and resting my cheek against Sam's chest holding me tightly to him, and I him to me. I'll never abandon my children. I thought to myself!
Same, baby! They'll never go through what we've been through. The only decent thing your mother has ever done is give you that check! Between the two of us, we can build our new home comfortably, with added extras.
Sam said all this whilst conversing with Uncle Billy and the others. I just closed my eyes wanting to shut the world out for a moment.
I know! I've always liked the look and sound of the cloud couch, and now we can get it! I started picturing how the cave would look, and our own private sanctuary. I wanted to have full design control on that one. Sam kisses the side of my head ignoring Paul's glare.
I need to make more of an effort with him, and him me. I say to Sam.
He's the only blood family I have left. You, me him and Embry. I say to my husband.
Maybe we could tell them the good news first after the first appointment?
Yes, let's invite them around for a meal. I suggest.
Let's get today over with, then start planning the rest later. I want this lot gone, so I can fuck and love my wife's beautiful body that's carrying my child before we have to be around a bunch of people again. I turn around and everyone looks at me.
"Hey guys, mind giving me and Sam some space now the coast is clear? That letter has really upset me, and I'd like to be on our own, for a while until we see you all in about an hour at the beach again. I'd like some space to clear my head! So I can try and not be an emotional mess. My mother has basically disowned me, now she's a Vampire, and we've lost a lot," I say looking at Paul. "In a short space of time." He nods in understanding.
"I want someone on one time with you, Bella. We are all we have left. I don't have much to do with my mom's side of the family, and dads aren't around anymore."
"I'm sure Sam and Embry won't mind for an hour or two, they could patrol together whilst we have sibling time," I suggested, and neither looked too pleased about being separated from us for a couple of hours. But neither argued or stepped in to say something either.
"We understand Bella, and Renee isn't worth those tears. You know you always have me, and Jake when he stops being an asshole!" Uncle Billy said.
"Thank you, and I know. A lot has changed in a short space of time!" I say, and he agrees, nodding. Tapping Jared on the shoulder who follows him into the forest.
"Finally!" Sam says when the last two are out of hearing range, and kneels to place a sweet kiss on my belly, after lifting my shirt up! My hands automatically find themselves in his long soft hair, as my husband's hands hold my ass.
Thought I'd update today :) as it's ready, edited and double-checked, by me and Grammarly :)
Hope everyone has had a good Easter weekend :)