A/N There is a serious shortage of shisui romance fics. And I love Shisui as a character even though he was not given much screen time. If you think about it, Shisui is a character who is perfect in every way, got a cheerful personality, has brains, is a prodigy and very powerful, got an OP doujutsu, and is very loyal. Therefore i present my first ever attempt at writing. It is not canon compliant and will be AU since I will be manipulating the timeline as i wish. English is not my first language. Constructive criticism is welcomed but don't be rude. I am writing for fun and hope you enjoy as well.

I don't own Naruto and never will.

"bijuu speking"

Flashbacks

naruto thinking/emphasis on a word

"naruto speaking"

Lets start:

She could hear chirping of birds, a sound she had not heard in so long that it felt unreal. She remained still and made her chakra resemble as if she was in a deep sleep, not giving out the fact that she was awake and trying to sense her surroundings just in case a white zetsu impersonated as her friends is nearby. When she didn't sense anyone within her immediate range, she breathed in deeply and startled when she did not find the smell of ash and smoke and death that had made a permanent residence in the air since the war had begun instead finding the fresh air saturated with heavy nature chakra.

She scanned her surroundings then and found herself in her team's old training ground. She was near the memorial stone, the area that had not been enough to carve the names of people who were dropping like flies in the hands of Madara Uchiha. As she stood up she seemed to realise that the ground was far near to her eye level than it used to be. She looked at her hands and found them unscarred, though she still had the "yang power" or the sun mark on her hand, she did not understand what was happening? Was she under a Genjutsu or maybe she is dead. "Kai" she mumbled, but the scenery did not change. She tried again with more amount of Chakra when-

"To answer your question child, we are giving you a second chance at life" She remembered, oh she remembered it all now and started laughing hysterically. She raised her hands against the real sun and abruptly stopped.

"what the actual fuck, why do I look like I am 6 year old?" oh she realised she may look a bit unhinged right now, suddenly laughing and stopping and then getting angry and talking to oneself? Who could blame her though, not that she cared. (Not that anyone was left to blame her anyway)

"Damn it Kurama answer my question!" she went into her mindscape and let out a shuddering breath realising it was dark and silent, very silent. "Don't prank me Kurama, and come out of your hiding place right now." She ran into the opened cage to check if Kurama was indeed hiding in the corner. She ran and ran and checked every corner of her mind but to no avail. She knew she was starting to panic but she had no choice. If even her lifelong companion and her last friend to come out alive in the war was to leave her, she did not know what she will do.

"It's too late now Naruto-" A deep sense of hatred rose within her when she realised they all left her alonealonealone (once again she was all alone). Her mindscape stated to vibrate, the water near her ankles started to boil, but she paid it no mind even when it started to burn her. She just sat there blankly looking at the opened cage and hatinghatinghating (she did not know if she was hating them or herself) And suddenly everything went eerily still; like a complete shutdown. That's when she saw it, an orange Chakra thread floating in the seal seemingly from nowhere.

"-but we hope that you will find us soon." What did they mean by that? She started running towards the Chakra thread and reached out to touch it (hoping against hope that Kurama pulls her through it) only to have it absorbed in her body (what nonono KURAMA!) and disappear. She staggered and fell on her knees, body trembling.

KURAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, KURAMAAAAAAAAAAAA PLEASE, a sob wrenched itself from her throat. (she reached out with both hands as if she could hold that thread that disappeared) For the first time since she was 4 year old she prayed to the God she didn't believe in, reaching to the heavens as if begging them to return her last friend to her alive (the thread is symbol that he is alive) as all the others are already deaddeaddead- Maybe she can also join her friends and parents in the afterlife? She thought hysterically. She did not know how long she sat there in her mindscape searching and begging for her friend, but she opened her to the blue sky feeling completely drained. Looking at her hands again, seeing the mark again (she has to hide her past) her breath hitched as she was slammed with the memories of the war and destruction, Black Zetsu, the immortal army, Madara Uchiha and that damn Kaguya. She sat up abruptly and clutched at her heart, wheezing when she remembered her friends dying one by one, each leaving a gaping hole in her heart that could never be fully healed. A heart that clenches so hard it hurts physically every time she breathes.

So Naruto Uzumaki opted to just numb the pain. She gave up because she could not handle the pain lest she drown herself in hatred. She became an empty shell of what she used to be, she became a monster with no emotions, a killing machine and a tool for the village to wield.