Lisa was trying, she really was. This thing between her and her step sister was bringing out emotions she never wanted anything to do with. She knew if she kept things going, if she kept working her charm, she'd end up being one of those fucking love sick fools who fall in love and shit.

That simply wasn't for her. The problem was, she couldn't keep her hands off of Jennie. She was drawn to her like a fat kid to chocolate cake.

When she stared up at her with those beautiful brown eyes she was ready to give her the world at her feet. She was turning her emotions upside down and she was not ok with this.

But she couldn't deny that she was one selfish prick. Watching her with Jackson began building a dark storm, and watching the bastard touch her created vile hateful thoughts that she shouldn't be feeling towards her best friend. Drawing the cigarette between her lips she pondered over her decision.

To many fucking emotions, she felt like a girl.

Her eyes moved about her body, her small thin waist, the smooth patch of skin at her stomach, her rounded breasts and those long tan legs, she hated how many other guys could see what she saw. That small skirt would be so easy to hike up, baring her to her.

She watched Jackson walk back to her with drinks in his hands.

She smiled at him in thanks, a smile Lisa herself had yet to receive.

She needed to pull heraelf together, it was better this way.

To bad she didn't truly believe that.

The body on her lap squirmed drawing her attention. Solar giggled, her lips drawing close to her ear even as she continued to smoke. Her tongue swiped across the back of his ear, Lisa couldn't contain the shiver that passed through her. Solar was a wild one, despite what she'd said before about never fucking Solar she couldn't resist inviting her over, hoping she could help erase her step sister from her mind.

But where she once would have jumped up and all but dragged the willing Solar with her she couldn't. She was so sure of what she wanted and wasn't afraid of making the first move, she had found that attractive in all her lovers however now she seemed to prefer the shy and hesitant type.

What the hell was wrong with me! She thought to herself.

She nudged her away from her ear earning a killer look. Solar gaped at her, her eyes squinting into a small sliver as she stared at her. She was probably as confused as she felt.

"Get me something to drink" she said taking another drag.

She scoffed at her but stood up practically stomping away in her hooker heels and tight dress.

Jackson gave a look that Lisa ignored. She didn't want to deal with her friends questions. She could already tell Jackson was a bit suspicious of the relationship between her and Jennie.

Jennie and Jackson walked out of the room, niether of them sparing her a glance.

A dark rush of jealousy ran through her veins, like a poison. Her feelings were contradicting everything she was thinking.

Bambam walked over to where Lisa sat and sat beside her leaning back into the couch.

"Mind if I stay here tonight?" He asked. Lisa shrugged not really caring one way or the other.

Bam nodded, knowing her best friend was having an internal war.

Sunmi sauntered into the room, looking like she owned the place. Her hair was left down, pin straight. Her hip hugging leather skirt and red silk camisole.

Lisa watched her hips move left to right as she swayed near her. She let a sly sinful smirk crawl across her face and stood up just as she reached her.

"I was hoping I'd see you tonight" she purred her finger trailing down her chest.

"Here I am" her eyes found the large dip in her cleavage before straying back to her face. A deep shade of red painted her lips, they turned up into a sexy smile.

"Wanna dance?"

She was going to turn her down but something inside her pulled her to her feet urging her to dance with her, maybe this was the start she needed.

Sunmi took hold of her and pulled her behind her, she watched the way the skirt hugged her ass, the tight leather would be her undoing.

A large group of people were crowded by the large entry way, having no problem getting through the crowd Sunmi continued to drag her towards the living room. The entire house smelt of beer, sweat and cigarettes.

Fuck all, Caroline was going to kill her.

Lisa was going to have to do some serious damage control and hope to God she didn't smell the stench of cigarettes. Her dad had warned her to be on her best behavior not that she normally would have cared but she wasn't about to get sent away again.

Getting mixed into the crowd of dancers she pulled Sunmi's back to her front, her hands gripped her hips pulling her tight into her. The sweet smell of her lotion drifted up to her nose as she leaned her face into the crook of her neck. Sunmi wasn't a bad person, she was actually sweet and caring, she just had a bad reputation. Like herself. When she'd moved to the city a few years after her parents divorce she'd been enrolled into the new school and the first person she'd met was Sunmi She introduced her to Jackson.

They fucked, she was easy but she was also different. She accepted the fact that Lisa didn't want anything other than sex from her and over time they'd developed a sort of weird ass friendship. She liked that she understood her, she didn't pressure her into something unwanted and no disastrous feelings came into play.

Sunmi turned in her arms, her hands slid up her chest to lock behind her head, she leaned forward and pressed her lips to her. She tasted of cherries. She wasn't to fond of cherries but she'd manage. Her lips moved against hers until she pulled away and leaned close to her ear.

"We should take this upstairs" she said.

Nobody paid them any attention as they headed back out of the room. At least nobody that they were aware of.

Lisa sat on the edge of her bed with her head in her hands. She'd fucked up. She could feel it in her gut. Sunmi lay on the bed, her back to her head board, her breasts on full display, the thin blue sheet hung down by hips shielding her from view and a cigarette flared between her red lips.

Her room smelt of sex, a used condom lay in her waste basket by her bed and her digital clock showed it was only thirty minutes past midnight. They'd been locked in her room for over two hours, the party downstairs was still in full swing, the music could be heard through her door along with the sounds of laughter and chatter.

Lisa felt like shit. She thought this would make things better, that her feelings for Jennie would disappear but they hadn't in fact they'd intensified and she'd felt like a cheater. She had no strings with Jennie and yet... it didn't quite feel that way.

"Lisa are you ok?" Sunmi asked sitting forward and placing a hand on her forearm. She stared at her hand before shrugging her off and standing up from the bed.

Running her hands through her hair she began to pace despite being buck naked.

"Just fucking Bambam" she snapped back, she watched as Sunmi flinched back from her tone, hurt clouding her eyes before she looked away masking any and all feelings. Good, she didn't want to fucking deal with it.

Opening her side table drawer she pulled out her pack of smokes and lit one up. Drawing in deep she tried to stable her nerves. It wasn't working.

"I'm going to head back to the party" Sunmi muttered climbing from her bed. She grabbed her clothes putting them on hastily before slipping her heels back on and shutting the door behind her.

She was such a fuck up, this wasn't right, she shouldn't be feeling like this. It was all her fault!

She threw a hard punch at the wall embracing the pain that came with it!

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