LISA'S POINT OF VIEW
Lisa couldn't believe she'd said that. What she'd really wanted to say was, "I think we need to talk"
All the old feelings she'd felt five years ago came rolling back.
Suddenly the engagement ring in her pocket felt heavy. She found herself not wanting to purpose. Because of her.
Her Jennie was here, and when they'd touched, she'd felt more alive than she had in years. She brought her from the darkness into the light. She was her angel.
But then her eyes landed on Esther. Could she break her heart?
Could she throw what she had away for a chance that her and Jennie may or may not work out?
"Fine" Jennie's reply came swift but she could hear the underline of hurt that carried on her voice. She walked off, disappearing once again into the kitchen.
Esther came back with an application and she wished she could tell her not to even bother to apply because she seriously doubted Jennie would hire her current girlfriend.
Running a hand through her hair she exhaled. She needed a fucking cigarette, bad.
A new waiter came and took their order. She watched Jennie like a hawk as she came to and from tables. Taking orders, delivering food and overall running the place.
She'd done well for herself.
"Baby are you ok?" Esther asked as she caught her watching Jennie.
Her eyes shifted between them. Her red nails clicked against the table as she awaited her answer.
"Everything is fine"
She gave an unlady like grunt, something she'd never heard before "that's bullshit. You were totally checking out our waitress"
She glanced around them. She was going to cause a scene if she didn't handle the situation with caution.
"I wasn't." She rolled her eyes and she held up her hands, " look I just recognized her. My dad was married to her mom for a while. We were step siblings at one point." She didn't go further into detail. She didn't need to know.
Her mouth formed a comical O and she laughed, "oh baby I'm so sorry. I assumed the worst"
Lisa simply nodded not really knowing what to say. A new server came and took their food order and once received they ate and talked. Well, Esther talked, Lisa was silent simply listening.
As they paid the bill and exited, Lisa couldn't help but glance around the restaurant one last time looking for her.
Lisa spotted her and was surprised that her eyes had found her as well.
Esther tugged her out of the restaurant before she could do something stupid.
They drove home in silence and that was only because Esther fell asleep.
Lisa had a lot to think about and it was a bit of a drive so for an hour she fell deep into thought.
Just as she pulled up to her condo, rain began to fall from the sky. Lisa wasn't sure how long she sat in the car simply staring at the windshield as rain fell but it was much longer than a normal person should.
Lisa glanced over at her sleeping girlfriend and everything in her revolted. Just this morning she'd been happy, she'd been ready to take the next step in their relationship but now... she couldn't see herself with her.
The little things she'd once found cute, she'd begun to find annoying. The way she talked her ear off and how she found the stupidest things to call cute.
Lisa dug into her pocket and pulled out the ring. Was she a bad person to say that this ring wasn't special in anyway. She'd simply strode into the first store she'd seen and stopped into the jewelry department. She'd even asked the sales lady to bring forth the ones she found pretty.
Out of the six she'd showed her, she'd chosen this one. But she finally could admit that her heart just hadn't been in it.
Was she simply settling?
Lisa strode into work the next morning, her mind resisting to be at ease.
Owning her own business was the best thing she'd ever pursued.
Besides Jennie's a voice said. Shaking her head at the thought she stopped at her front desk.
"Cathy are you feeling better?" She asked the older woman who sat looking much better than when she'd last seen her. Cathy was a small sixty year old woman who had great spunk and treated her like she was her daughter. When she interviewed her she'd had doubts because of her age but had quickly seen past that. She was a wonderful heart warming lady.
"I'm feeling much better Manoban. I've had a burst of energy. Something I haven't felt since I was a mere twenty something" she said grinning cheekily at her. Her small white ringlets framing her face. She could tell she'd been very beautiful in her day.
"Well that's wonderful! Try to contain yourself tho I don't want to see you running around the office in circles training for the next marathon"
She smiled widely as she let out a giggle.
"You know me to well"
Walking past her into her large square office she shut the door behind her. The first thing she did when she got to work was open the two curtains that shielded the large three panel window that overlooked the pond in the back.
It reminded her of the view she'd once had when she'd lived with her father and Caroline. When she'd lived right next to Jennie
As nine o clock rolled around, Cathy phone began to ring.
The walls were thin, unfortunately. So she could hear every time she answered the phone.
"Good morning, Manoban Realestate, my name is Cathy and how may I help you?" She was so polite every time she answered. She'd never seen her get irritated with a caller. That attitude was rare to find now a days.
"Ms. Manoban?" Cathy called out.
Lisa set down the contract and house details she was overlooking and lifted her head towards the door.
"Yes?" She called back.
"Miss. Esther is on the phone. She says it's urgent"
Lisa rubbed the space between her forehead and sighed, "ok switch her through"
Lisa picked up the phone as the red button that signaled she had a call waiting began to flash.
"Hello?"
"Oh Lisa. I have wonderful news!" She sang through the phone.
Lisa had to grit her teeth at how obnoxious she sounded. Normally this wouldn't have bothered her Last night changed everything.
"What?"
"Your mother suggested we get married!" She screamed. "Isn't that wonderful?!"
She coughed suddenly feeling overly warm, "I'm sorry I think I misheard you what did you just fucking say?"
She audibly gasped. As Lisa got older, she'd cleaned up her act, atleast on the outside. Her mind was still as dirty as ever. Esther had never heard her curse. She tried to refrain, she'd been a dick as a teen and she'd tried to be better.
"Y-your mother s-suggested we get married" the tone of her voice was quieter and on guard.
Clenching the phone tight she tried really hard to calm down, "I think that's my job to propose to you. And I'll do that when I fucking feel ready!" She roared.
Lisa received silence on the other end before she hung up on her. Slamming the phone back into the receiver, it took everything in her to throw everything off her desk.
Picking the phone back up she called her mother. After two rings she picked up.
"Hello?" Her voice was scratchy as of she'd just woke up.
"You had no right to tell Esther we should get married."
She had the nerve the laugh. Gritting her teeth she growled out a curse.
"Oh Lisa stop being such a baby. You've been with this girl for awhile. She's the first person you haven't simply slept with and left. So she has to mean something to you. I think it's time to take that next step. I like her, she's quirky."
"Well then you marry her" she sneered before hanging up.
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