The ride back home was heavy. After several phone calls and then the last one of them ended up with Izuku's number being disconnected, no one said a damn word about it.

Not a single person spoke a word and all the windows were down in the car because everyone was stinking up the car. Everyone was upset and the car stunk like hot garbage in the summer with skunks dying on top but no one complained.

Tomura's brain seemed to have switched off and he felt numb. There was no thought process in his head. His heart was heavy. His stomach was in knots.

Tomura felt he was going to vomit when they pulled up into the drive way to their room. Shouta shut the car off but they sat there for a while. Not a single one moved to get out of the car.

A good hour had passed.

It seemed everyone was waiting for Tomura to make the move. He didn't want too. He knew going into the house would make it real. It was the real he didn't want and he didn't want to handle it. He wanted to stay in the car and remain ignorant. Then he felt Shouto's hand slid over his and grip it tightly.

The beta didn't say anything and stared ahead. That's all Tomura needed. It wasn't going to be ok. It wasn't going to be ok no matter what happened but at least they would be here with him.

He slid out first rather slowly then Shouto followed behind. Ochako got out on the other side and shut the door carefully. Dabi made it to the front door first and unlocked it. The front door swung open and they all just kind of stood there listening. There was no sounds coming from the house…. The TV was still off. No sounds of the shower anywhere in the house.

Tomura suddenly got another burst of energy and ran upstairs to Izuku's room. It felt like he wasn't moving that fast but his heart told he was. The closer he got, the harder that pit in his stomach felt…. The more his brain went fuzzy. The more cold he felt.

His door was slightly open, cracked enough to see inside. Tomura knew what was inside…. He just didn't want to believe it. He reached out with a shaking hand and pushed the door opened. The room was empty. Izuku's stuff was gone but his desk and chair. He had left them.

It was said, when an omega experiences a great loss of love, they wail like a wounded animal that was on the verge of dying.

Tomura wailed loudly and for a long time alone at the doorway of Izuku's room.

His boyfriend was gone.

Everything had suddenly fell apart and he had no idea why.
X

X

-Three Weeks Later-

Izuku stared at his food in front of him. He lost about twenty pounds from not eating right in the time he had been home with his dad and he was starting to look sickly. He had been so depressed and it hadn't really helped he missed his friends. He missed Tomura.

He wasn't safe for anyone. He wasn't good enough for Tomura. Those two thoughts crippled him more than once, making his dad stay home to care for him. It was rather shameful… really it was but he had done it to himself.

Izuku had thought he broke free from it all when he started college early. He thought he was away from all that lingering fear and insecurity but it decided to creep up and get to him when he least expected it. Going full on alpha against his friends when his boyfriend was in heat was the straw that broke the camel's back.

He was going to blame himself forever. He wasn't that kind of person. He managed to keep control of himself and now just smelling Tomura…. was the omega bad for him? Was he the wrong choice causing him to attack the only few people in this city that had accepted him for who was….

Defective.

He was disgusting. Attacking people who cared for him. He could've hurt all of them. That wasn't him. He couldn't go back now.

Toshinori sat across from him just watching. He was worried about the boy. He couldn't understand why he had left the house anyways but he couldn't bring himself to ask his son about it.

He had babbled on about something as he tried to explain why he left but he had a full blown panic attack. Toshinori had wanted to scold him for what he had done. He wanted to even get him some help with therapy but Izuku had refused and even screamed at him. It wasn't like him….. he hadn't been the same since.

He was terrified.

The older omega never called Shouta either. He wanted to know if Tomura was ok but he felt like he would betray Izuku's trust. He even felt guilty for moving Izuku out without even telling anyone. He managed to get his mother off his back but it was plain as day to see the guilt, shame and disgust on Izuku's face.

It hurt.

Nothing was getting better.

The smell coming off Izuku smelled horrid but he wasn't aware he was producing it. Toshinori wished he didn't have to smell it but it was there all through the house and even worse in his room. The smells he was producing was a mix of all three hormones he had coursing through his body. That itself was quite interesting but the putrid smell was bad.

He had taken most of the month off work. He didn't wanna avoid young Eijirou but what was he supposed to say?

"Izuku?"

The boy's eyes flickered to his dad's briefly but returned to his lap just as quickly.

"What happened? Do you want to tell me a little more?"

He shuddered.

"I'm ashamed of how…. I am."

"How you are?"

"Yes."

The man bit his lower lip. It was beyond Izuku's control… he had a good head on his shoulders and he was smart.

"There's no shame in who you are."

"I'M WRONG!" he shouted, slamming his fists on the table as angry alpha pheromones rolled off of him making Toshinori flinch, "I AM SO WRONG! I HURT PEOPLE! IF I KNEW THIS IS WHAT WOULD'VE HAPPENED I WOULD'VE JUST STAYED ALONE!"

The omega looked shocked. Izuku's emerald eyes flickered with red spots.

"I hate myself! I'M A MONSTER!"

He over turned the table with one hand, breaking it into pieces as it crashed into the cabinets and his left eye turned red. The older omega did not move from his spot. He wasn't happy with the broken table and mess but he understood. He was a little terrified honestly.

Izuku was way stronger than he had been before.

"I…. I don't like what's happened to me. I attacked people….."

His dad only nodded.

"I've been away from him for three weeks now…. I count it every single day…. Why am I still like this? Why am I still reacting? Why do I still feel it all?"

"I can't answer any of that, Son. I'm sorry."

The undetermined male stared at the floor.

"Do you want suppressants?" Toshinori asked softly.

Izuku looked up at him.

"It seems the alpha in you is winning. I can only guess because you have such strong feelings towards Tomura that it's still active. I can call Chiyo and talk to her. If you want that."

"What if I take it and then….. I turn…. I turn omega? I can't handle a heat. I don't think I can deal with it," he whispered, "I don't want….."

Toshinori folded his hands together with a dark look on his face. Izuku looked at the floor again more shamefully this time.

"You don't want to be reduced to a creature who looks slutty with their ass in the air and unaware of what you're doing."

Izuku looked up at him, crying.

"It's so terrible I think that way," he said hoarsely, "I'm disgusting. I didn't…. want an omega partner but I fell for one anyways. I don't know what it was….. I didn't wanna deal with this. I never did."

"It did happen. You can't run away from him. It's good it happened because you have people who love and support you."

"I already did," he whispered, "I just want them to hate me so I feel better."

"They might be disappointed but I don't think they would hate you."

Izuku said nothing. He didn't believe that one damn bit.

"What would be the worst of all the three to be?"

"Alpha."

"Then, you can suppress it."

Izuku grimaced.

"You want to order a new table?" Toshinori asked as he stood up, "I'll make my call."

The blonde omega left Izuku alone to call his friend. He didn't the boy any time to argue with him. He made up his mind. Things needed to be handled before it got way out of hand.

"Hello Toshinori! How are you?"

"Not good."

Silence.

"It's Izuku."

"What has happened now?"

"He's…. experiencing alpha urges. He attacked his friends because he wanted to be with Tomura."

"What else? Is that all?"

"He…. He wants to suppress it."

"I'll be there. I'll close down and be there. Hang in there a little longer."

"He's in bad shape."

"Ok. See you soon."

X

Chiyo did show up. She walked in looking around. She saw the small pieces of wood on the floor and the trash bag. She sighed softly. She should have seen this coming but she wasn't an expert when it came to this kind of undetermined.

"Where is he?" she asked.

"In the living room."

She walked in carefully. She could smell the anguish and alpha pheromones- boy was it overpowering.

"Izuku my boy."
His head whipped around. His left eye was still red. She pressed her lips in a thin line.

Way worse than I thought.

"I have read of cases of those just like you that their bodies change to meet the opposite of their partners. They turn into a different type of hybrid. I had just educated myself on such matters and I even made a few phone calls….."

"What can I do about it?" he whispered.

"We can try suppressing it. I can't guarantee a thing but we can do our best."

"I'm disgusting."

She sat down in a chair. She crossed her legs and put on a smile the best she could.

"Why do you think that dear?"

"I feel I am. I'm so gross. I can't handle my emotions."

"Most of the people walking through the world don't just get slapped with a full on surge of hormones, Izuku. Their bodies adjust to the increasing amounts but it's not always like that for the typical people."

He said nothing.

"You are dealing the best you can. You are feeling the full effects without any way of getting used to it. You're a smart kid- you should know that."

Izuku flinched a little but it didn't ease the pain any.

Toshinori leaned against the door way listening carefully.

"If we can't suppress it fully, we can dump the max amount of suppressants and ease off of it. The only thing is…. we don't know if it'll turn you omega or beta."

"We can come up with a plan if you go into heat," Toshinori sad, "I have everything you could ever need."

Izuku stared at them.

"What if I try…. to do stuff to you?"

"Normally omegas don't go after other omegas unless they are mated. You two aren't mated but you wouldn't have an attraction to someone you consider family. Also, it helps he can't have children so you won't do anything like that."

He didn't look convinced he wouldn't do something.

"It's possible you're alpha side might leak out. You're having to control unseen forces. It is not your fault. Your body obviously has it bad for your omega mate and there is nothing you can do about that either. Your alpha has decided and this is it."

The woman reached into her purse and pulled out a large ziplock bag.

"Here."

He took it.

"There's birth control in there too."

Izuku gaped at her.

"I haven't done a physical exam on you with a cat scan but I can't guarantee that you don't have the same parts of some omega males. Their bodies under go changes through their first heat. Most omegas aren't trusted with pills because they will hide it. I think right now it will be fine and then we can do shots if we have too."

"I met another undetermined, Camie."

"How was she?"

"She…. she was different. She learned to control it for the most part."

"To be fair she probably isn't like you. She probably has people who help her. You were raised as alpha correct? Your body only got one side of the attention it needed. It's possible your mother's alpha pheromones affected you so much, this is who you are. If it is, then you must accept it. We can't go back in time no matter how much we want too. Our society hasn't evolved enough to accommodate undetermined needs and they won't until they stop shoving us all in the same damn box labeled 'broken'. Until undetermined becomes the fourth gender, we will have more cases like you my boy."

She reached into her purse and pulled out another kit.

"We are going to test you now. Pink for beta, blue for alpha and purple for omega. No color change, undetermined. The spectrum could be darker shades depending on which way your body is."

Chiyo grabbed his arm and started cleaning it. She pulled out the needle and started drawing blood ignoring the uncomfortable look on Izuku's face.

"You shouldn't be ashamed."

He looked at her.

"I wish you were neutral like me but that isn't you. Whatever you end up being, you're gonna be damn good at it."

She applied pressure.

"Did you leave without telling him?" she asked.

Izuku's mismatched eyes stared at her but no words came from his mouth.

"I didn't think so. Usually, I would tell you it will all fade but that isn't the case."

She placed a bandaid on his arm.

"I think you two are a perfect match. You are his alpha and he is your omega. His hormones are out there as well but not to the degree yours is. There is no perfect alpha. No perfect omega. No perfect beta."

He hung his head shamefully.

"Our genders are on a spectrum. Some are more of one than the other. This world sets us up for failure. It….. demands we be just one thing when we could be many. They try to place us in a mold when we were all born to stand out. To celebrate who we are. You found a place to do that haven't you? Others who don't fit the mold. Not many people can say that."

He nodded.

"They love you."

He looked up at the older woman.

"You smell like all of them. You smell bad but I can smell the raspberries, the mint, the ocean, the linen and marshmallows. You smell like home. You were home. Just like home, they will want you back. They won't hate you."

Chiyo pulled out the vial and looked at it.

"Light blue."

She glanced at Izuku.

"Your body has made the choice already it seems but let's see what we can do in the mean time."

X

X

Tomura's room had been a large mess. He had destroyed his room and his nest. He would spend hours in Izuku's old room just smelling the bare mattress. It smelled like the undetermined male and Tomura wished he could've stayed with him. He would've never left.

The dark voice in his head said it was his fault. He didn't love Izuku right like an omega should. He shut him out, protecting himself from everything. He was scared to fall and fall he did- hard. He wanted nothing more to lay by him in all the ways they had before.

He pushed him away.

Izuku was the only person in the world that accepted his grouchy ass. His faults. His annoyance with people.

Maybe that's why he left. Izuku was a social (well, when people would actually give him a chance) and happy person. He probably wanted friends but couldn't have them with Tomura stinking the place up with possessive pheromones like he might murder one of them. He wasn't up front with his feelings. His insecurities.

Tomura hid everything because he didn't like baring his soul. Fuck, he would bare his ass to the world before he would tell a single damn person about his inner turmoil.

The door cracked up to reveal Dabi. The black haired omega watched Tomura but he didn't move.

"Tomura."

"Leave me alone."

"Will you please eat before you go to Izuku's room? I'm worried about you."

"I don't fuckin care."

Dabi went into the room anyways. He closed the door and got onto the other omega's bed. He crawled to his best friend.

"Tomura."
"GET OUT!"

"Your heat is late."

His red eyes snapped onto Dabi. He hadn't thought about that at all. He really forgot with everything going on.

"I don't care about that shit either."

The black haired omega just gave him a pitiful look. Omegas when they were distressed missed their heats. If they misssed a lot they could get sick and become inferitile. He didn't want that for his friend.

"I love you."

Tomura's eyes widened.

"If…. You want some comfort I can give it to you."

"What…. about Eijirou?"

"He wanted space. He didn't wanna feel like he was crossing the line by still coming over here. When things get better, he wants to be together. I don't know when he will want me again but it kind of hurts…. I understand."

"Then no. Not if you have intentions to go back to him. I probably wouldn't enjoy it anyways."

Dabi nodded, "Alright."

"I'm a bad omega," the pale haired omega stated.

"You aren't."

"I am."

"You just aren't traditional. That's ok."

"You are a better one than me."

Tomura covered his head with his pillow.

"I feel like I wanna die."

"I understand that."

"I don't think you do."

Dabi pulled the pillow off his face. His blue eyes almost burned onto Tomura. It was like he saw everything ugly about him and he hated when he looked at him that way.

"I lost our baby."

Tomura's eyes widened as he looked at him.

"Our baby."

Dabi played with the hem of his black shirt.

"When you still wanted to be friends with me…. It stopped me from being stupid. I felt I had reasons to live. When we moved in together, I wanted us to be together but I could never do what I wanted future wise. I never wanted kids. Then I got pregnant and…."

Tomura sat up.

"I love you Tomura. You aren't alone in this. I will always be your best friend even when we are old and gray yelling at kids to stay out of our yard. We can throw our beer cans at them and flip off cars that pass by on the street.

The pale haired omega laughed.

"I love you."

"I love you too Dabi."

The two of them hugged and sat there for a while without saying much of anything.

"I think Izuku is dealing with his own insecurities. Shouta told us the truth about him," Dabi said quietly, "He's probably scared."

He said nothing. He kind of figured that too. He couldn't expect Izuku to tell him shit when he wouldn't tell him anything either.

"He's probably dealing with everything all at once. He's probably afraid he might hurt us. Shouta said it was rough for himself dealing with puberty…. so maybe Izuku is going through some kind of puberty?"

The omega nodded. That kind of made some sense.

He felt like there was more to it but what did he know? He didn't know what he was thinking. All he thought about was how much he missed those freckles…. The softness of those green curls and his cute, goofy smiles.

Fuck.

Have 5 chapters left! sorry if this is a little shorter than normal!