BPOV
"Oh, I'm totally fine with that." Rosalie said.
I couldn't believe she was saying that she was okay with my brother sleeping around!
"How can you say that?" I asked with disbelief.
"Bella, believe me, we're really happy!" she said, "I'm his wife and his flings are not! They didn't matter at all! If some distraction helps keeping the marriage life happy, then why not? This is very common in our society, much common than you think!"
I thought that was very common and I'd also be fine with that, but something had changed drastically.
Why did I start liking Edward? I wouldn't be able to deal with it even if he was just having a casual sex with this Angela!
His smile in that pic was still haunting me!
He was so happy with her, and well, I didn't like that!
Everything fucking hurt!
Why did he marry me if he was in love with someone else?
But hadn't he defined the boundaries pretty clearly? He had mentioned all the conditions before getting married, but he never even mentioned her name because she was so special to him? May be he thought I had no right to know about her?
Why did I try to make a fool of myself by asking him all those questions?
I should have stayed in my limit. It shouldn't have bothered me whoever he was in love with!
He was right - I was Mrs. Cullen and she was not! That should be enough for me, but apparently, it was not.
Everything fucking hurt!
"I want to say something more." I said, "Whatever happened today, it doesn't have any impact on the conditions we had defined earlier. I still don't mind the casual affairs."
I had to tell him this. I had to tell him that I wasn't as desperate as I had seemed earlier.
He said he wasn't having an affair with her, but well, Alice already told me about that too! I was really angry at her, and more at myself, for acting like an idiot! I also wanted to call him to apologize, but I was still trying to figure out how could I call him without sounding stupid!
He said that he hadn't even thought about her in years, but he had mentioned that he didn't know if he still loved her. He said he didn't know. May be he had buried those feelings somewhere deep down his heart. He was never going to have any feelings for me, however hard I tried! I needed to make the best of everything I was getting from this marriage. There was no need to hope for something more.
He said he was ready to give all clarifications, but I didn't want to ask anything. I didn't want to sound desperate.
I also didn't want to hurt myself further, and going to back to what we had earlier was the best way to achieve that.
We were probably the best partners we could have got for each other in terms of family legacy, success and also understanding to some extent. We didn't have to make it more complex by introducing the concept of 'feelings'!
"Okay, same here." he said. I was glad he also agreed with me.
"So we're good?" I asked.
"Yup." he said, "So where are you right now and when are you coming back?"
"I'm at my house." I said.
"Oh okay. I can come there if you want and we can spend the weekend there. I have never stayed there before. It'd be a good change." he said, but soon he realized that he might have crossed the limits, so he changed the statement, "No, never mind. You can come here whenever you're ready."