BPOV
"Esme told me that you pushed my name for this project. I really want to thank you!" I smiled, "Thanks for believing in my abilities."
I really couldn't have asked for a better project, and I was really glad that he had shown the trust in my abilities!
"I know you'll be able to deliver." he said, "Anyway, I need to head out to another meeting. See you later, bye!"
Ummm... okay?
"Yeah, bye." I said.
I wanted to talk to him.
I missed him.
We spent a lot of time together, but it wasn't just the same. We hardly discussed anything that wasn't absolutely necessary!
Was it because of me? I shouldn't have asked him to go back to what we had earlier! It was impossible now to behave just formally with him!
I wanted to live like a normal couple!
I wanted to tell him that I liked him!
I wanted to tell him that I didn't want him to have any other relationships, even if they were just physical!
I wanted him to be just mine!
I knew that I was falling for him, but my feelings were much deeper than even I realized earlier.
I wasn't sure if he wanted the same though! He had acted strangely few days ago when I was leaving for the girls night out, which made me think that may be he was attracted to me too, but I wasn't sure, because he was very inconsistent! Sometimes he'd make me think that he liked me, like the way I liked him, but then at other times he'd act so indifferently, as if he didn't care at all!
Should I talk to him about my feelings?
What's the worst thing that could happen? He'd refuse to reciprocate my feelings! Would I be able to accept that? I wasn't sure! The thought itself was too scary! What if I lost even what we had today?
Yeah, may be I should just keep my mouth shut!
"I really want to say something important..." Finally I had gathered the courage to tell him about my feelings next day over the dinner.
I couldn't deal with all these uncertainties and doubts anymore! I was tired of hiding my feelings! Everything fucking hurt, and I was tired!
I liked him, and I wanted him to be aware of that! I'd learn to accept whatever his response was going to be!
"Hmmm?" he asked.
Suddenly I was nervous, but I needed to tell him!
Just tell him, you idiot! I told myself.
"I really like you, Edward." I said.
He stopped eating and looked up at me.
Well, I had a feeling this wasn't going to be good!
"I'm not sure since when exactly my feelings changed, but I really like you." I said, "I'm really tired of pretending that I don't care."
Why was he looking at me like I was an alien? Oh God, why did I even tell him!
"Ummm... Bella... I'm sorry!" he said.