BPOV
"That's why I think it's better if we stop when you're at the liking stage."
I think I was long past that stage!
I had no idea what exactly I was feeling right now. Everything just hurt!
What was I even thinking? Why did I have to open up about my feelings? Was this how a heartbreak felt like? Because everything fucking hurt and I had no idea what was I supposed to do about this!
I mean, what could I even do? I couldn't possibly force him to like me!
Why did I fall for him? What did I even like about him? I didn't know! It just happened! I just knew that I had feelings for him and I had do idea what to do with that!
Why didn't he like me? I mean, he said he liked me, but there was nothing more. Was it so difficult to like me?
I wondered if there was someone else in his life?
Naah! I shrugged that thought off immediately.
It wasn't possible. Most of the time he was at office or at home. When he wasn't at either of these places, he would be attending some social event with me. And if he was not even doing that, then he would be busy playing the Tennis, Squash or Golf, with my brother! I had a feeling that they would become good friends, but they had become these 'best buddies'!
I guess he hadn't got any time to have an affair! I would have realized this earlier if I had used my brain when Alice had tried to instigate me. My husband was way too busy to have an affair!
I think the reason that he didn't want to give any chance to me or our relationship was Angela!
"I really thought that I loved Angela, but look at me, I've moved on!"
He said he had moved on, but I didn't think that was true. I think she was all he had in his mind all the time. That could be the only reason why he had brought her name up today.
So what was I supposed to do now? He still loved her, and there was nothing I could do about it!
I guess I should just try to forget him, because he was never going to give this a chance.
"Are you okay?" he entered the room and asked.
God, this was so embarrassing! I should have kept my mouth shut!
"Edward, you need to shut up now." I said, "You're getting on my nerves."
"Okay, cool!" he said, "I'm glad you're getting angry. I mean, I'm glad you're not sad!"
Why?
Why was he like this?
And why did even fall for him?