EPOV
"Edward, you need to shut up now." she said, "You're getting on my nerves."
"Okay, cool!" I said, "I'm glad you're getting angry. I mean, I'm glad you're not sad!"
I had a feeling I had fucked something up!
Was that a good response? Well, I didn't think so!
Why should I be glad if she was getting angry?
I think I was losing my mind. Why would she say out of nowhere that she liked me?
I mean, why would she do that?
I liked her, too, but... there was nothing more!
I didn't know why she seemed serious about this.
I guess her reasoning made sense. May be she was indeed overwhelmed because I trusted her. I wasn't sure if she honestly meant that or if she just lied about that. Honestly, if this was her actual reason, then it was sad! I wished her Dad had shown more trust in her. She was too good at what she did, and she deserved everything!
But what if she didn't lie? What if she actually liked me? But why would she do that?
How could she like me?
She hardly even knew me.
It didn't make any sense to me.
Was I taking it too lightly? I honestly believed there could never be anything more between us. Because Mom thought this was the best for us, and she was always wrong in these matters!
And honestly, let's say that I gave this a serious thought, then also what would it even change?
Let's say if I tried to open up my mind to understand my feelings and to check if I also liked her like she liked me, what exactly that would that change?
We'd try to spend more time with each other.
We'd slowly try to understand each other.
We'd be having a great sex.
We'd make each other happy.
I didn't see any difference.
Weren't we already doing these things before we decided to go back to what we had at the beginning?
Exactly! So why were we even trying to introduce this new variable 'like' when we were already doing good without that?
Wait!
Wait!
Did that mean that I already liked her like she liked me?
Or was I just going crazy?