BPOV

I couldn't believe it.

Did I actually lose my sleep over some four year old picture from the social media? I should have asked him about that directly!

I guess he was lying, but didn't he say that he didn't know if he still loved her?

I was just going to ask him. I didn't want to assume anything now.

"But you had said, you didn't know if you still loved her..." I said.

"Bella..." he sighed, "I was really pissed off on that day. I wanted you to have faith in me that I wouldn't cheat on you! That was very unfair to you though. I hadn't given you enough reasons for you to trust me, and Alice had humiliated you. I didn't realize it that time. I'm sorry! If I had given this clarification earlier, well, things would have been much better!"

Oh!

"I'm sorry, too." I said, "I could have presented that in a different manner."

"No, it's not your fault." he said.

So was he actually saying that he also had feelings for me?

So he also wanted the same things as me, right?

No wait, didn't he say that he admired Jasper because he had married Alice? Why would he do that if he never actually wanted to marry Angela? Why did he have regrets then?

"Didn't you say that you admired Jasper because he had the guts to marry Alice?" I asked.

"I said, I admired Jasper. I never said that I admired him because he had married Alice!" he said.

"Then why do you admire him?" I asked.

"Because he was always this rebel!" he said, "He's younger than me and it's not like he also wasn't under pressure, but he didn't give a damn! He always did what he wanted to. I could never do that!" he smiled sadly.

"I always admired him because not many people are brave enough to wear their hearts on their sleeve and enjoy their life to the fullest. I'm certainly not one of them!" he said.

Oh!

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry!" I said, "I think I don't know you enough, but I want to."

"Same here." he said.

"I... I want to say something about the condition we had discussed earlier. I can't even imagine you being with someone else, even if it's just a casual physical relationship." I said. I didn't know how pathetic that made me look, I had to tell him! "I want to live like a normal couple!"

I think the realization was hitting me really hard! I didn't just like him, I was in love with him, and I didn't want anything else in the world! May be he wasn't there yet, but I'd wait!

"Bella..." he pulled me closer, and put his hand on my cheek, "Look at me! I swear, I haven't been with anyone else since we got engaged! When we were deciding the terms and conditions, I had my businessman hat on! I wanted to cover all the what-ifs! I wasn't planning to do it even at that time. I just wanted to cover it, just in case! I swear!"

"Hmm..." I said. Why were we so stupid?

Before I could say anything further, he began kissing me, as if he was trying to show me what I meant to him!