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Chapter 4

November 1979

This past week was very upsetting, even though I should have been ecstatic. On Sunday, I got some news that rocked my world. I was pregnant! I'm nineteen years old and pregnant. I suppose it isn't that surprising in the wizarding world, but I was raised by muggles.

The first thing I wanted to do was share the news with my parents and Tuney. But then I remembered that I haven't talked to my parents in two years and Tuney hates my guts now. Being a double agent is a lonely job. At least I can still contact James, albeit in secret, and Severus can be sweet and understanding at times.

I supposed, after my parents, I had to tell Severus. After all, he's the father of the baby. He has a right to know. But, lately, he has been taking trips to Hogwarts to try and secure a job to spy on Dumbledore. Dumbledore didn't seem worried when I told him. Ironic, isn't it? Both of us, spying for each other's enemy?

It was only two days later, when Severus returned home, that I could tell him the news. I didn't share it with anyone else yet, figuring he should hear it from me first. Also, it's not like I have anybody else to share it with.

I sat him on the couch and paced up and down in front of him. "Lily, is everything alright?" he asked, concern on his face. "Yeah, everything's fine," I replied, "I have something to tell you."

I hesitated. I had prepared a whole speech and practised it a million times in front of the bathroom mirror. But I couldn't remember a single word of it right now. Severus looked at me, imploring. "I'm pregnant," I blurted out.

Severus had frozen in shock and stayed that for an awfully long time. I knew my pregnancy was the last he expected to hear, but he looked like someone had cast a Full Body Binding curse on him. Wait, had someone?

I was about to reverse the curse when Severus shook himself out of his stupor. "You're pregnant? W-with my baby?" "Yes, I'm pregnant. And yes, it's your baby. I'm not a cheater," I replied, although I wasn't offended. I knew he was just coming to terms with the whole situation.

"Oh, wow," he muttered, "We're having a baby. We're going to parents." I nodded empathetically. It's kind of scary to think about. Especially since we're in a war right now. It's not the perfect environment for raising a child.

We spent the next half hour discussing how to raise the baby. Severus was adamant that we move to a safer house, though I have no idea why. The only one out there killing people is Voldemort, and isn't Snape on his side?

"Hey, Sev? Are you going to tell your mother?" I asked tentatively. I know his parents are a sore spot for him, and I didn't blame him. His face hardened. "I haven't seen my mother in years. I'm not going to start now."

"I'm sorry. It's just that I wished that I could tell my parents. But you know how the rest will act if I contact my parents, with them being muggles." Severus got this weird look on his face. He seemed like he was fighting an inner battle on what to say. Eventually, he responded. "I think you should owl your parents. You don't have to tell the others. What they don't know won't hurt them."

I was taken aback. That was kind. "You don't mind?" I asked, not believing his words. He shook his head. "They may have no wizarding blood, but they're good parents. I'm sure they'd give great advice." I grinned at him, and he gave me one of his rare smiles back.

That night, I wrote a long letter detailing my and Severus's relationship. Lucky for me, they already knew Severus because of the summers we spent together while we were still friends. I didn't add the part of my mission. They worry too much as it is. Towards the end, I wrote the news of my pregnancy. I can almost imagine their shocked faces as they read the letter.

Now that I've told Severus and my family, there only remains the Death Eaters. I was a little terrified telling them because I was unsure how they would act. Would they be happy for me, or did they think Severus and I weren't serious and expected us to break up soon? I shouldn't have worried.

After the latest meeting, Severus tapped his spoon on his goblet, a universal sign for capturing attention. Everyone at the table turned towards us. "We have something to share," he announced, "Lily's pregnant."

After a second of shock, the good wishes came pouring. Even Voldemort congratulated me in his creepy way, "I'm looking forward to seeing the new addition to our family." Then, Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy surprised us by announcing Narcissa was pregnant, too. They thought to keep the news for a more festive time, such as Christmas, but decided now was the right time.

After a million toasts, Severus and I returned home, flushed and happy. I had spent a good half of the party chatting with Narcissa. We both have the same concerns about raising our children. It was nice talking to someone who understood. An owl was waiting for us. I got excited, hoping the letter was from my parents. But I opened it, and everything came crashing down.

The letter was from Tuney, who was home, packing the place up. Why? Because Mum and Dad died during a car crash three months ago, but nobody bothered to tell me. But, of course, the only other person in my family who knew I was a witch was Tuney, so what should I have expected? At least she told me the news now rather than ignoring the letter and letting me believe my parents were still alive.

Severus came in from casting protective spells on our house (he has been much more cautious ever since James visited) and saw my expression. "What's wrong?" I just handed him the letter, not trusting myself to speak. His eyes scanned the letter, taking in the news. He put it aside and wrapped me in a comforting hug that I couldn't help myself. I broke down crying.

We stayed that way for some time. After I had stopped crying, Severus led me to the sofa, and we both lay down there. I don't know what I would've done if Severus hadn't been there. I knew we were only together because of my mission, but, for the first time, I could see us together just as we are.