Prologue:-
Jay Halstead, famous detective and works for Chicago PD. But, instead of being loved by around people in Chicago because of the protective detective, he's being abandoned by his own dad. The facts that he need the charge of love, by his dad, that's not happened for his 32 years old of live. His mom, basically, he's knowing as "Mama's Boy" called by Will, his big brother. She's the one that always keeping her sons from being abandoned by his dad. But why she left Jay? By his own? He can't even think about it. But, she left for her own good. She's not hurt anymore, cancer kill her. But, Jay has his brother, William, Will. Always be there for Jay. Sometimes, Jay always looked stress, break his own tears in front of his brother, and now, he has a girl, his angel, Erin Lindsay. One of his reason to stay by his soul.

Whenever Jay leave his feet from his dad house, he brings down together with his tears, he feel like he didn't have used to stay longer in this crazy world. Because, Pat Loves Will more than him. Will always protect him from his dad anger. This time, Lindsay was not around. She probably at her parents house in Atlanta. Jay being alone at his apartment.

He probably missed his angel, his soul, Lindsay. One in a not so fine day, he got a called from his boss, Voight.

"Halstead"
"Jay, I want to say something. And hope you don't panic"
"Yes sarge, what is it.."
"Before that, where are you?"
"I'm at my apartment."
"Jay...listen.."
"Go ahead Sarge"
"Mouse...he.."
"Sarge! What happened to Mouse?"
"He been shot. And now under surgery. Doctor said, it only 50:50 chance for him to alive. He lost much blood of himself. The surgeon try their best to do everything they can..I Hope you stay cool, and not doing anything crazy JAY"
"Sarge! where is he?"
"Probably in Afghanistan"
"NO! NO HE CAN'T BE THERE SARGE!"
"Hey Jayy! I need you to stay calm, please.."

"No Sarge!"
"Jayyy...!"

Jay get himself terrified. He can't things properly right now.. Why Mouse? Why Mouse goes back to Afghanistan? Why he let himself being shot? He promises Jay to not ever try to get shot! Why Mouse, Whyy! Jay blowned a panic. He start to feel really hard to breath. Having this attack was the last things he could wanted. Start feeling so dizzy, and sweating just coming through his soak shirt, forehead. He can't control his breath, shortness of breath, so quick of breathing. All this things in one body. He feel so trembling. Now, it's been 1 hour most, Jay still struggle on himself.

Out of nowhere, Will gets into his baby brother apartment. He unlocked the keypad of Jay's apartment. He got a called from Voight, Jay's boss. Jay panic at house. He share a few story about Mouse being shot. Will get through Jay's house and he can see, Jay let his body rest at the couch in front his living room. Will find him rest, but can hear the sob from him out. He approach his baby brother

"Jay...hey.."
"Will!..what are you doing here.."
"What's wrong? I called you. Not answering me..."
"Will..."
"Yes baby brother, I got you."
"Mouse..."
"Yes yes, I know..I know how you feel, just pray the best for him..okay?"
"Why...why he let himself...being..shot.."
"Hey, Jay...calm down Jay.."
"Why...Will..."
"Hey..."

He lets a loud sob, with fears teary eyes. He cried out against the couch. He got so trembling.. Will keep on calming his brother, he rubbed jay's back, and arm. He then feel so bad towards Jay.. He know how much Jay put his affection on Mouse back then. He fight together in his Tour, at Afghanistan. A big feelings of panic attack Jay's body, suddenly. He let out the heavy feelings as much as he feel. A cry, the burdened that he brings on his back, in front of Will.

"Jay, I know u sad...u feel so bad.. but I need u to calm down Jay.."
"No.. Will...why Mouse Will..."
"Hey..Listen to me Jay"
"I can't"
"Why?"
"It's hard for me, I'm hurting inside, Will..."
"It's okay Bro..let it out.. but still, I need you to calm..calm for me..trust me.. everything would be fine..trust me.."
"How if that will not even happen?"
"No...u need to trust Mouse, he fight on his own right now.. U need to keep your prayers to him"
"No...WILLLL"
"Heyyyy! Jayyyy"

Jay freak out a loud groan, and he feel so stressed right now. Will not knowing how much this thing will ever been last. So, he decide to leave Jay at couch, he grab a small rag, and wet the cloth. He take the washcloth, and bring it in front. This thing seems not going to be last. Will take that and flatten the washcloth in Jay's body. He lift Jay shirt, and put it around Jay's body. His muscle was feel really tense. Will know Jay in stress right now. While Jay, feels the calm on him as what his brother did to him. He feel he can calm down. This is exactly what their mom always done when one of them cry and nearly got to hysteric.

Will let Jay rest his body at the couch. While Will go to his kitchen, and try to see anything that he can cook for he and Jay. Jay don't easily got to this breakdown. It's tears on Will's heart to let himself see his baby brother like this.

"Jay..come on..eat"
"No...don't have any appetite.."
"U must try.. come..a few sip.."
"No..no.."
"U want me to call Lindsay?"
"Please Will...no..."
"Then, eat this..."
"Fine.."

He don't feel that he's going to win on this argument things. So he lets his brother feed him. With his hand feel so shaking, there's no way Will will let he feed on his own. Just a few sip, Jay refuses to eat more. Will doesn't even mad, he know how Jay must feel. After 2 times straight of Panic Attack, been crying like hell, his eyes are getting red and puffy cheeks, he just let Jay begin on himself.

"Do you want sleep pill, to help u sleep through this night?"
"No..."
"Why not you let that 'No' though out from you.. u been hard on yourself.."
"It make me feel drowsy.. I can't take it.."
"It helps you to sleep.."
"I want to hear update from Voight.."
"Tomorrow, u wake up freshly, then you'll be hear a good news about Mouse.. okay?"
"Yeah..."
"only half okay?"
"Sure.."

He hand him an under certified sleeping pills to Jay. Hopefully.. Jay could manage to sleep this night. It's seems his body feel so tired, but Jay's not. Will really hopes, he could hear from Voight soon. Right now, he grabbed Jay small body, and lift him in his bedroom. Jay's already out. So Will decides to stay with Jay for this night.

"IF YOU LEAVE SOMEONE, AT LEAST TELL THEM WHY, BECAUSE WHAT'S MORE PAINFUL THAN BEING ABANDONED; IS KNOWING YOU'RE NOT WORTH AN EXPLANATION "