I hope all of you can forgive me for the long ass break. I feel bad for making you all wait so long and I hadn't intended for it to be this long. I had figured at day 7 I would've posted but I did not and I just finished chapter 6 right now. I updated it and it should be 12 chapters altogether.

Wrecking Force by Zirekile is pretty good (1 chapter so far) on Ao3

A Troubled Songbird by LittleKnownArtist is good as well! I actually forgot about it and I forget who suggested it to me but it started updating again so I read it lol on Ao3

In the midst of me forgetting to write anything for this I had come up with something for Charlie and Alastor in another story. I wouldn't make it too long but it's vampires and werewolves universe which is something I haven't seen for them yet that I can recall (normally read finished stuff first) . it would a be unrequited love for the poor guy but I'm still excited for it.
I only have 1 chapter written and I was debating on posting it or not.
Sorry for my rambling!

I woke up at about twelve and started making a vegetable stir fry. I got everything ready to make coffee. I made sure my phone was charged and I actually put on a nice outfit. Alastor didn't agree to me courting him but he didn't deny it either. So…. maybe he does like me some. Enough to joke around with me like we were old friends.

Progress!

I threw his pajamas into the washer with the rest of the stuff I needed to clean and finished making the food around twelve forty. I started washing dishes when I saw Alastor's tail wagging as he walked by my window. I grinned and walked to my front door and pulled it open.

There he stood, watching me. He looked like he froze in his tracks seeing me.

I decided to be slightly more impressive since being naked as the day I was born as my preferred state but I put on light blue jeans and a button up green shirt. It made my eyes pop when I wore it. I stood to the side to allow him to walk through but he just stood there.

"Alright, it can't be that shocking I wore clothes. Come in already."

He huffed and walked through, lowering his head a little bit. I locked the door and went through shutting all my windows and curtains. I turned around to see Alastor standing there in black slacks and a red button up shirt.

"Oh, you wanna talk to me this time?"

"Well, considering you're dressed nice and not naked, I figured I could grace you with my presence after all your hard work. Your food smells good."

"Thanks! Sit down and I'll make you a plate."

I turned away and started plating the food when I heard sniffing. I turned around to see Alastor practically in my face.

"Y-yea?"

"The smell is stronger today."

My face heated up quickly.

"O-oh well I can't help that. Is it going to be a problem?"

He sucked in a sharp breath.

"I don't know dear. You smell divine and I can tell you I'm not feeling blood lust."

I crushed my wooden spoon in my hand and it fell apart, falling to the floor with a clatter. Alastor arched an eyebrow in amusement.

"You broke your spoon."

"I noticed!"

"What I don't get is that you can't turn into a wendigo but for some reason you smell similar to one. I wonder why."

I blinked stupidly.

"I do?"

"You do. I didn't notice it until a few days ago."

Well, what was I supposed to say?

"Um…. is it bad that I do?"

"No, I think it's quite ok."

I nodded stiffly.

"So… are you ok with me courting you then? I had been doing it without you knowing."

Alastor straightened back up and took a few steps back.

Ok, so maybe I'm pushing it but I held out the plate to him. He apparently didn't want to answer me.

"Please take it and sit your ass down."
He chuckled and turned away. I put down my plate on the table across from him and got our coffee. He thanked me and started eating.

So, we didn't really talk but he did tell me my food was good.

I did the dishes and grabbed my phone. I was ready for a good screaming match because Alastor was right. I may not know the whole story about myself but I'll be damned if I go any longer without knowing.

I placed it on speaker phone and waited.

"My beautiful snow angel!"

"Blow it out your ass Dad!"

Alastor choked on his coffee and started coughing. I don't think he expected me to be so angry about it but I was. I looked at him weirdly.

"Whoa whoa! Are you on your period? Do you want me to get you some chocolate?"

"S-shut up! That's not what this is about! You've been lying to me!"

"Is there someone there with you?!"

"Y-yes! He's my friend…. I need an answer! You and Mom lied to me!"

"What-

"Dad- what the fuck am I?"

I could hear his breathing so I knew he was still there. Started drumming my fingers on the table, feeling impatient.

I wondered how long he was going to wait before he told me anything…. I didn't mean on the phone either. Was he going to allow me to wait my whole life or was he hoping I would pick someone less 'dangerous' and I would forget what I was. How could I forget?

"Dad! I can hear your creepy ass breathing!"

"What do you mean? You're a shapeshifter."

"Shapeshifters can only change once they devour the flesh of the intended animal. Soooo- what did Mom eat that she could get those giant black horns and claws? Did she do it while she was pregnant with me because I can do it too?"

"Charlie… It's complicated."

"How complicated?"

"It's…. There's a whole ass story about it. The whole town's story is tied to your mom. I just…. I didn't lie to you when I said you were a shapeshifter dear. It's because I am the shapeshifter."

"What? Mom said you were human-

"It's half the truth. I stopped shifting before you were born. I didn't want to attract wild animals and I only ran with her again once you were old enough. I swear."

"So…. Mom was what then?"

"She's something else. She was never meant to be here in the first place."

I looked up at Alastor. Something in his eyes was screaming 'I told you so.' I sighed and looked down at the table.

"We planned to tell you at eighteen but that didn't happen. I am sorry Charlie…."

"So, because Mom died…. You decided not to tell me anything."

"There's a lot I don't know about because she didn't tell me herself. I just know what she told me."

"So…. I'm some fucked up thing walking the Earth is what you're telling me."

"Well, kind of?"

I rubbed my temples. This man was testing my patience. I don't know why I never questioned anything before. She was always…. Different. Most people steered clear of her and most animals never liked her other than deer.

She was different….

So I was different. I wasn't even close to being human.

I was more isolated than before.

The only people who had anything to do with me were the people in this town. Only Angel and Vaggie back in college. What did all these people have in common?

"I can come by in a few days. Is that ok snow angel?"

"Whatever."

"So…. who is your friend?"

My dad laughed weakly. I glanced at Alastor who seemed pretty calm with this whole thing while my brain was just hurting from annoyance.

"His name is Alastor."

It got dead quiet.

"Dad?"

"What?"

"What? What do you mean 'what'?"

"Say it again."

"His name is Alastor, Dad. What's wrong with that-

Click!

That asshole hung up on me.

So…. Alastor left after that of course. He looked…. Thoughtful as he changed into a stag then he had left out the door.

I didn't blame him one bit for being lost and confused because I certainly was.

That night I didn't even go running. I don't like being alone with my own thoughts because they're certainly more scary than anything I had ever encountered.

The worst of it I was sure some part of me was human but I wasn't. I had thought with just being one- even a little bit would make me fit in with everyone around me. How wrong I was. I was a shapeshifter but what kind of background was hiding in the shadows I didn't know about….

What kind of creature was I truly?

Would….

Would Alastor still want me and talk to me if it was bad?

I feared that the most….

To lose the one person who understands me more than anyone else.

I pulled my covers over my head and cried.

I didn't want to lose him.

X

The next day I just felt dead. I drank a whole pot of coffee but I just couldn't find it in me to even go for a damn walk. I missed being in the woods but now I was just depressed. I really didn't expect Alastor to come looking for me either.

He didn't exactly agree…. He gave no indication he was interested in me.

I should just give up while I'm ahead.

Maybe Dad was right. Someone safer would be better right? I could…. Deal with it I guess.

Ugh.

I buried my face in my pillow and just passed out. Sleep would ensure I could ignore all these thoughts. I hated thinking. I hated being unsure and now I was unsure about my own self.

X

I knew I had been asleep for a while but someone shook me awake. I screeched so loudly I heard someone groan. I had no lights on and my room was pitch black. I fell out of bed, my heart racing like I had been running. I started swinging in the dark like that was going to do anything.

I swear I heard someone chuckle and the lights turned on.

"Gahhh!"

The light burned and I covered my face.

"Good lord Charlie. Can't you ever wear decent clothes?"

I rubbed my eyes and blinked a few times to see Alastor standing there with a smile. I was in my underwear with the appropriate feminie hygiene products on of course. I could see him sniffing but he wasn't making it obvious and his pupils looked a little larger than normal.

I suddenly felt more self conscious. I coughed into my hand and looked down at my bed. I hated clothes because my body already ran outrageously hot so there was no point in having them on all the time.

"It's too hot for clothes, Alastor."

"Hot? Dear, there's several feet of snow outside."

"That may be true but I feel hot. My body temperature is higher…. I run about one hundred six."

Alastor stared at me like I was lying but it was the truth. Right now I ran a little higher because of my hormones but that's why I loved the snow. Mom always said the snow was her favorite because it cooled off her body faster. That was why I returned to the same town I was born in.

"I see."

I rubbed my arm, trying to think of something to say.

"Do you know why I'm here Charlie?"

"N-no."

He walked around my bed, watching the whole way. My heart fluttered some and thumped hard once he was in my personal space. I could feel his body heat and I can tell you my mind went straight to the gutter.

He was so very handsome…. It was still shocking to me he was single this whole time. He could have whoever he wanted but then again… He did eat people…. I knew it was a last choice type of thing he would eat but most humans stayed away from him.

He didn't like them anyways.

Maybe that's why I didn't mind him. I wasn't human. Just like that, all those terrible thoughts came crashing down upon me and I looked away. I hated it. I dug my nails into my arm trying to think of something else instead of that but Alastor didn't give me time.

He grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him. He certainly didn't look happy.

"I have been pursued by this beautiful, blonde female. She had me craving her very presence out of nowhere and she fed me constantly then all of the sudden, she ditches me for a whole day. Why, I would think she was just leading me on the whole time for fun. I do not like being played with, sweetheart. So- what's your excuse for not seeing this afternoon and tonight until I hunted you down myself?"

"I-I'm sorry Alastor. Just after everything with Dad on the phone…. I just felt terrible."

His eyebrows shot up as I stared up at him. My eyes started to water and I hated it. I hated how weak I felt in this moment. I didn't want him to see it because I was supposed to be strong. I was always supposed to be so I couldn't let anyone down.

"Charlie, dear…. What's upsetting you?"

My bottom lip trembled and the tears just started falling. I started crying rather loudly causing him to be alarmed.

"Shush now…." he cooed and pulled me against him.

I held on to the back of his jacket and bawled with no shame. When was the last time I allowed myself to be this way? I couldn't remember to save my life. Maybe it was when Mom died…. That was the last time I could remember.

I shivered a little as Alastor ran his sharp nails against my scalp. I think he was trying to comfort me…. That's how it felt.

"S-S-S…..Sorry."

"No need to be. If you were feeling sad, you could've informed me. I understand it was a lot to take in."

"Well, you also took off after. I wasn't sure why you did…. I was afraid you wouldn't want me anymore."

"That is complete nonsense."
I felt my eyes widen. He looked…. Soft for a moment. He wiped my cheeks with a shaky hand. I wondered what he was thinking about when he did that. I wouldn't say he looked uncomfortable but he looked… conflicted?

"Alastor?"

"Yes?"

"Why would it be nonsense? What if I some kind of monster-

"Then that would make me a monster too wouldn't it? Monsters should stick together."

My mouth opened up a little.

"My darling, neither one of us are monsters. In fact, you are like an angel. Those human beings are the real monsters. They're parasites and they're disgusting. Only an angel would help creatures like that when they don't deserve it."

"They're not that bad-

"The ones who kill because they're afraid of the unknown are the true monsters. If it wasn't for humans, I would've had you meet my mother already. She would've loved you very much. She always enjoyed company."

I smiled. How could I not? He was trying really hard for me to calm down and that's exactly what I needed.

I did not think I was an angel though.

"Thanks…. That means a lot…."

"Of course."

"I didn't even realize it was you that came in… I should've smelled the air first."

"Ah yes. That display of attack moves was rather amusing."

I blushed and placed my face against his chest.

"I was relieved though. I was afraid you had run off. I couldn't count on smelling because your whole house smells like you."

I looked up.

"You thought I left?"

"Yes. I don't hang out at your house all day and night darling. I was afraid your father came in and swept you away at first but then I noticed all the snow was undisturbed. Then I have to admit the thought of you not… wanting to see me anymore had occurred and I did not like that one bit."

"I wouldn't do that to you."

"Ah…. well at least I know for next time."

He frowned and his smile was gone. He was thinking hard.

"What is it?" I asked, "You can tell me or ask me anything if you want."

"Well… You see…. I had some time to think about it. I enjoy your company and I feel rather lonely without you. I have no idea how you managed to worm your way into my soul but I like it. I wouldn't mind you courting me at all. I accept your advances if you still want me, of course."

He brushed my hair off my face as I gaped at him.

Maybe most people would get an answer after one date but it's been weeks and he also didn't know but I was so shocked I was rendered speechless. He was ok with it.

Holy shit

"Are you ok there?"

I nodded quickly.

"Can you speak?"

I moved my lips but no sound came out. He laughed and I felt my dignity die a little more. Even his laugh was sexy- it had to be so damn illegal! I felt my face betray me as it started to heat up and I wanted so badly to hide my face but I couldn't bring myself to do it.

I somehow managed to pout finally and look away.

"You were the chattiest thing and now you can't speak. Why is that?"

"B-because. You're so attractive I just don't know what to do with myself…."

Alastor's smile twisted into something more devious.

"Ah, I see. You flatter me dear but with you smelling so delicious right now, I don't think I could hold myself back. I may have animal instincts but I can be a gentleman when I need to be. I don't plan on taking you like a wild animal."
"O-oh."
OH MY GOD HE'S THOUGHT ABOUT IT

"So, for the safety of us both, please put on some clothes."

"I-I can do that."

"Good. I wouldn't mind having a little chat at your table. I will make some coffee…. If it's ok with you."

I nodded quickly and he grinned. He turned on his heel and closed my bedroom door behind him.

Oh my god-

I clutched my best and begged my poor heart to calm down. I fanned my face for a minute before I went to my dresser to pull on a shirt and some shorts.

Calm down Charlie-

I could practically smell the horny rolling right off of me.

Did I have no shame?

No I did not.

Why didn't they write books for this kind of thing?

I mean seriously!

I left my room, walking right out into the kitchen to see Alastor sitting at my table with one of his legs crossed over the other. The moment his eyes locked up with mine I just wanted to faint from it. It was different from when he didn't know anything and was wary of me.

Look at me acting like a cocky asshole before and now I couldn't even act right now.

That's what I get.

"Sit down darling. I will pour you a cup after all. You look like you need to sit down."

"Y-Yea."

He rose from his seat, coming near me. I know he had to hear my heart- the stupid organ betraying me by beating faster the closer he got. He touched my cheek, running his thumb over it as he studied my face.

"Perhaps the blood loss has made you anemic. Maybe you need more iron?"

"N-no I'm fine…. I s-swear."

"Are you sure?"

I nodded meekly and he grinned.

"I'll be right back."

I nodded again like I somehow lost the ability to speak correctly. He placed a cup in front of me and sat down with his own cup, studying me.

I did not want to talk about my dad or mom at all. Alastor seemed to realize this I guess and he started telling me tales from when he was younger when his mom was alive. It made me relax and I instantly felt better.

But while he talked, I could see his eyes raking over me slowly. At one point the man-wendigo licked his freakin' lips. I felt oddly naked even with clothes on. I mean… the guy had seen me without them tons of times but this was different.

I wouldn't say he was my boyfriend but he was kind of? I don't know but as long as I avoided directly looking at his face, especially his eyes- I was ok.

After a while, I saw Alastor look up at my clock.

"Ah, I suppose I should leave. It's about five now."

"Oh."

I didn't even hide my disappointment. He smiled as he rose from his seat. He came around to me and held out his hand. I placed mine in his and he pulled me from my seat.

I didn't even ask what he was up to once we went outside. Alastor led me to the edge of the woods and I guess he sensed that I tensed up.

"Ah yes. We won't be going any further than this darling. I promise."
"Ok."
"I was thinking perhaps it would be best to meet tonight. I will come get you so no creature tries to come after you. I prefer not to kill unless I'm going to eat after all."

"I like that."

Alastor stepped closer to me, still holding my hand. I watched as he visibly swallowed. Did he want to tell me something?

"I… I feel like there is something I want to do but I need your permission to do so."

I blinked, "Oh well what is it?"

"May I kiss you?"

I nodded quickly.

Oh wow-

"Are you sure?" he asked.

"Hell yes I'm sure!"

He laughed at my sudden enthusiasm and I felt my face heat up.

"Alright then- I could not deny a beautiful creature such as yourself."

I closed my eyes and tilted my head upward.

The moment his lips were on mine, it was very freakin' clear he never, ever kissed anyone. It was the most chaste kiss I ever had in my whole damn life but it was so adorable. He pulled away, his tan cheeks colored a deep red like his suit.

"Is that ok for you?"

"Yes!" I answered way too quickly once again but he seemed rather happy.

"Alright then. Sweet dreams dear. See you tonight."

I watched as Alastor shifted into a stag and he took off into the woods.

I felt a little bad and I had originally planned for them to kiss on chapter 9 but I think the cute kiss was needed!
I won't make any promises for the next chapter but I hope no more than five days- I hope!