Okay, sorry for the short ass chapters lately, this one is longer I promise! No beta.
If I had a time machine I'd go back and write Harry Potter (only I'd make it hella gay:))
Now enjoy my emotional drama!
Sirius's POV
This was bad.
My eyes darted over to Remus and I was pleased to see his leg bouncing. He was just as nervous as I was.
Foot steps sounded in the hall, Sabine was coming back now.
Okay, get your shit together. She's 17! Your the adult here! She can't yell at you. Well, she's technically because she is an adult, but your adult-er!
The door peeled open, the dark haired teen caring a newspaper under her arm and a small thin box stepped inside.
She set the items down and stared at us, waiting for us to speak. When we didn't, she sighed.
"Talk, I'm making tea." Sabine ordered. She had a curious look on her face, like she knew something we didn't.
"Oh! and no wands. Set them over there." What was her game? She wasn't yell and scolding us, so what was going on?
I tried to catch Remus's eye before I remembered why we were here. I slumped back and crossed my arms. This was ridiculous (sorry couldn't help myself).
Remus scowled and passed his wand over, gazing at her intently to see what she was up to.
"Good, now I'll be right back." She hummed abruptly, grabbing the small box and walking over to the kettle.
Now left alone, I tried hard NOT to stare to the daily profit. The front cover showed a rather awful picture of me in Azkaban. Hair matted, gaunt, with crazed eyes, jeez I looked, well awful.
Remus didn't look at all, his eyes fixed on the wall like it held all the answers in the world. We sat there in silence, tension thicker then butter beer.
Finally, Sabine came back, holding two cups and a smile that screamed evil. Setting the both in front of us, the seer stared at us expectantly.
Shooting another dirty look at Remus, I took a sip. It tasted...odd. Different, like she'd done something to it. The words came flying out of my mouth before I could stop them.
"You've drugged us!" I yelped, all but throwing the tea cup back on the table.
Remus spat out his second sip, but it was too late now.
The werewolf stared very hard at me before muttering "I like your shirt." into his sleeve.
I blinked, cheeks reddening quicker then his did. Sabine let out a bit of a laugh.
I rounded on her. "What did you do to us!?" I yelled.
She had the nerve to smile.
"I thought it was quite obvious Sirius. I've put Veritaserum in you tea to get you and Lupin to confess your feelings and stop making everyone miserable."
We stared at her, jaws slack. That little minx!
Remus was the first to speak. "You can't do that."
"Actually, I can. And because you don't have you wand-" she twirled the length of wood between her fingers "and Sirius doesn't have one, it seems your stuck."
I sat back slightly, dumbfounded. I had been duped by a 17-year-old punk, was I losing it?
"Now-" Sabine said, standing up and inching towards the door. "See you in a bit then!" And with that, she bolted.
We sprang after her, but it was to late. Sabine had fled the kitchen and locked us in. I shook violently at the door knob, but it wouldn't budge.
I heard a soft Alohomora on the other side. She'd locked it the muggle and the magical way!
Remus growled in frustration and kicked the door frame, looking anywhere but me. Suddenly, he perked his head up, face puckered.
"Their laughed, I can hear them." The shabby man grouched, voice icy. It seemed like he was talking more to himself then me.
"Well this blows!" I exhaled, walking back to sit at the table.
Remus stared at me incredulously. "What the bloody hell are you on about, ya it fucking blows!"
I gazed at him, my face unchanged. "Come off it Remus, it's obvious what she wants."
Remus glowering over at me, unmoved. "Oh really?! Enlighten me then!"
I snorted. " she wants us to, talk about our FEELINGS and won't let us out until we do."
His eyes widened, "Th-that's..."
"I know, she a bloody mastermind. Thought of everything." I replied darkly, staring holes into the door.
Remus walked over, taking a seat across from me. "No, absolutely not. I'm not about to-"
"Oh shut it Moony! We have to! The madwoman won't let us out until we do!"
Remus throw himself back in the chair angrily, glaring over at me with vigor.
"This is bullshit!" He yelled loudly, startling me. Moony rarely cursed, I paused a moment before recovering.
"Oh ho ho! Is someone upset?! I wonder how that fucking feels! Because unlike you I care about other people." I mocked.
"How dare you-"
"HOW DARE I! Do you have ANY idea how hards it's been for me!" I began to rant, standing up and pacing like Remus had done all week.
"First I escape from prison, kidnap my godson from an abusive home, and find you. Then we come to the one place I swore I'd leave forever. And now-"
My voice cracked, refusing to cry. I stopped pacing right in front of him, looking at him with a bared expression.
"I lost you, again. You don't want me, you never did. The one thing I had left from-" a strange choking sound sounded, and it take me a moment to realize it came from me.
Remus stood, eyes wild with unchecked emotion. He stalked towards me, slowly backing me into a corner.
Breath warm in my ears, time seemed to still. Nothing but me and Remus mattered just then, nothing at all.
"That is not true." He said horsely, now so close I could see ever nook and cranny of his face. Of the small cut he'd gotten from shaving this morning, of the dash of pale freckles doting his nose. Of his eyes.
I should be yelling at him, pushing him away or punching home the face. I did neither, instead listening as he began to ramble.
"Sirius- Padfoot I, you haven't lost me. How could you?! I just- how could you want ME? I'm..." he bit his tongue hard before continuing. "I do want you."
The very universe seemed to holt at his words. If I hadn't known he'd drank truth serum, I'd have thought he was lying.
"You said there was nothing. You said we couldn't, that YOU couldn't!" My voice rang hollow in my ears, my eyes closed. A silent tear trickled down my cheek.
Remus shifted over me, coming to rest his his hand on the wall near my shoulder.
"I lied."
I said nothing and he continued.
"I have wanted you since we were 15, since before I knew what want meant. And I have loved you even longer. But I fucked it up, I ruined you, ruined us. Was to much of a coward to tell you how I felt."
Again, I said nothing.
"I thought we couldn't, but the truth is I didn't think I could. James always used to say I'd go crazy if all I did was think."
Remus came that much closer, ever so gently tipping my head up. I didn't want to open my eyes but I did anyway, astounded by what I saw.
A vulnerability I'd never seen in him flooded over his face. So open that a light breeze could have knocked him over. He was even closer now, my breath coming in sharp gasps.
"Let me try, let me try turning off my brain for a change. Let me be brave, just one more time." His eyes were pleading, the warm amber sending cracks along my resolve, like they always had.
Many people think it was us who convinced Remus to get in trouble (and rest assured, we did) but it was Remus, my wonderful, imperfectly perfect Moony, who could make me do anything.
"Please~" he whispered, leaning down ever so slightly so that his lips were only millimeters away from mine.
He was giving me a chance to back out. To push him away, and for a moment, I wanted to. But who was I kidding? I loved him to much.
This kiss wasn't forgiveness, it was the promise that I'd walk with him on that path. And wasn't that what it's all about?
I knew Remus, knew him better then anyone else on earth. He didn't have to pretend to he didn't have flaws, neither did I. His hesitation and my recklessness went hand in hand.
But we had spent our whole lives trying to hide, hide our anger and our fear and our problems. Tried to look over our cracks and tiptoe around each other. But now... now we could fix that.
Now we could have a second chance.
A chance to be together, to raise Harry, to include Sabine and Athena. To fight anything the world could throw at us, side by side.
And with that, I kissed him. Pour everything into that kiss. Everything so familiar yet so new. With wasn't the end, only the beginning.
And could wait to see what happened next.
But for now, it was me and Remus. Leaning against a locked door. Kissing like we had all the time in the world.
Holy shit y'all, I have been waiting to write this chapter for SO FREAKIN LONG!
You have no idea!
Still, sorry my last few chapters have been shitty, I hope this one makes up for it.
Want to thank all my loyal readers, y'all are the best. And honestly, thank you for your feed back.
I mess things up sometimes and y'all helping me helps a ton.
Happy Father's Day to all, hope you enjoyed!