Tl;dr: maybe never ending hiatus, others are free to use the idea
So, straight to the point here.
I write for myself.
I write to get ideas out from my head, to explore worlds that interest me, to bring interesting ideas to life and to escape reality.
I publish my writings to share these ideas with people, hopefully make their day and to recieve positive comments because it makes me feel like I'm not a lazy piece of shit.
And I am dumb when I put myself in to these positions where people get excited, and I give myself a time limit.
Regarding this story.
For awhile now I have been PMing with an extremely talebted writer, one whom I even consider a friend, and I have seen how excited they get for this story, which is why it hurts me so much when I can't get myself to write it. Because of the excitement, I have given myself pressure, which has turned into resentment.
And every time I think of writing this story, the inquiries on when the next chapter will be out ring in my mind, reminding me of how much people expect, how excited they are.
I just can't bring myself to write under that pressure.
It's not your fault, dear reader, it's no-one's really.
But now I have realised that putting this pressure on myself is not good for me, and it will not work.
Which is a really long way of saying.
This story is going on hiatus.
It might return, if it does, no new characters will be accepted, if it does not then it does not and that's that.
I don't know.
If it does return it will likely take awhile since all the resentment I've built up will have to fade, at least most of it.
I like this idea, I really really do, I just executed it badly, or maybe I am simply not the right person to write this kind of story.
If anyone else wants a crack at this idea they are completely free to use it.
Peace love and potatoes.
Nubsubs is out.